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| Asian parents |
| 02.29.04 (11:27 am) [edit] |
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Seems like a lot of their kids grow up with a lot of issues. I know I have my own. My friend S has his, too. But my friend, E, has so much anger towards his...he is constantly complaining to me. I guess he holds deep resentment from his childhood. I think he is still mad that he was left behind in the Phillipines for a few years while his parents were living in Canada and then had his little brother. I hope he can get past all that. It seems like he just wants to cut them all off. I am trying hard to get past mine. It's much more healthy to move forward than hold grudges against the past. |
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| So easy to delete |
| 02.27.04 (5:11 pm) [edit] |
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I used to save all important emails. I guess I still do, to a point...ones that grow to a large size or any emails about orders/account info. I just deleted a whole folder of old email from a guy I used to date. I took a peek at some of the emails, and it reminded me of how much fun we used to have. *L* Now I avoid him completely and make no effort to keep tabs. Hmm. :? There's one more folder that I'm about delete. But this one has a bunch of email from a friend I'm no longer close to. I'm not quite ready just yet! Now I don't really feel like going out tonight. I should be going for dinner and a movie/coffee. I keep saying it's not a date. I am sure not treating it like one. It'll be just me and John. Hmm. Now that I think about it, it's not a date because he asked me to go out, but *I* had to do the following up. I am sure it'll be an okay time. John and I tend to have some good conversations. One disappointing thing about today was that I got no Waynage :lol: I did get a hello email from him, which was nice :D |
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| Constructive criticism |
| 02.27.04 (11:35 am) [edit] |
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Just say thanks. No need to find excuses for what you did, and do better next time. There a couple of people I know when someone makes a comment on what they did, they come back with "but... but...but..." Ugh. I don't want to hear it. Just suck it up, and stop blaming everything else. Here's the latest [S just posted a review about QuietPC QuietFeet™ Vibration Isolation Feet, and a reader mentioned his photos were too blurry.]: S: I was reviewing feet! Feet are hard to take pictures of! I guess he just didn't read nothing! Me: Yeah, lameness S: I don't think I've seen one good pic of those products anywhere. S: Really difficult to glamorize. I guess that's good to know, but I wasn't interested in knowing. |
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| So dry |
| 02.27.04 (10:59 am) [edit] |
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My skin, that is. Maybe my hair, too. My hands have always been really rough, even as a child. My mom blames the sandbox, but I don't know. I moisturise frequently, but it doesn't seem to help much. And although I feel like today's a good hair day, I still feel like a before in a makeover - frizzy, big hair that overwhelms the face. I am almost ready to cut it. But then I told myself I'd keep my hair until I turned 30. For that milestone, I'd chop it all off!! I was on the phone with Tara for a little over an hour last night, so I missed pretty much the whole last period of the hockey game :cry: But what can I do? :lol: Talk with someone vs. watch tv...Hmm...not exactly a tough choice!! We didn't have all that much to catch up on, so I don't know how we talked for that long!! I was talking to her about Wayne, too. She just doesn't get meeting people from the Internet thing. She can't imagine getting to know someone without actually meeting them in person. I think it's just one of those things you have to do to get, maybe? I agree you can't get to know someone completely until you're with them in person, though. I think even by writing to someone, you can tell if there's any clicking going on or not. People in my mom's generation think that the Internet is dangerous, and everyone on there is a psycho. "How do you know what they're really like??" I ask the same question about someone you meet in a bar. However, I do admit I wasn't so careful when I was younger (late teens, early 20s). I do think some people get wrapped up in their 'net life, but I think I've got a healthy grip. I'm definitely a seasoned chatter/forum dweller, yet someone who has interests outside of the web. |
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| America's Next Top Model and cheating |
| 02.26.04 (10:22 am) [edit] |
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Last night, Paula and I watched America's Next Top Model. It's an American reality TV show where Tyra Banks et al get a group of girls through training to become a supermodel. It's kind of entertaining. One girl gets eliminated each week. The winner gets a whole whack of stuff. They also have competitions each week, and the winner will usually win a shopping spree of some sort. Anyway, one of the girls on the show got all upset after a phone call with her boyfriend. She was upset because he was going to go to the movies with a married female friend. She felt that going to the movies was their thing, and she was also jealous that he was going with another young woman. It made me think back to my ex because the movies were our thing, too. We went just about every week. So I could understand this girl's feelings. But I think it was a little over the top that she assumed he was going to cheat on her and told him so!! Anyhow, she went out to a club with some of the girls that night, and she was extremely happy about getting some attention from guys, especially one in particular. Later she told her boyfriend about this boy, and when he found out she never mentioned her status, he hung up on her. Kids these days, I tell ya... :wink: But back to cheating on partners and being cheated on. It seems to run rampant with people around me. It makes me wonder if it's coincidence or cheating is just that common. Both my grandfathers cheated; my dad has; an uncle has; friends have been cheated on; taken guys who've tried to get something started with me. I guess I have, too. All this cheating around me makes me worried, whether it be statistics or karma. My definition of cheating is doing something of an intimate and/or touchy-feely nature (or more) with someone that you would not do in front of your significant other. One thing I do know about myself is that if I am "ready" to cheat on a partner, then I am ready to dump him. I think if you really cared about someone, you'd just not go that route. |
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| Deliriously tired and some computer probs |
| 02.26.04 (10:06 am) [edit] |
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Well, I broke out of the waking up around 7:30 am mould. I was soooo exhausted last night, but I still went to bed at 1 am and got up around 8. I was extremely frustrated by MSN (and maybe my Internet connection over all). I kept getting disconnected!! I thought it had to do with my USB devices because I've noticed that at times when I start up my computer, I'm not connected (whereas I should be). But it's all good if I unplug a couple of things, restart, and replug them back in. However, doing that last night didn't help. I just left some of my devices unplugged, and even then, I kept getting disconnected. I should have paid better attention to whether it was just MSN or my Internet connection. ICQ was fine for the most part. The weirdest thing is that MSN sometimes tells me I can't connect because of some firewall blocking my way. However, there shouldn't be. It's been suggested to me I update my mobo's drivers. I guess I could do that. It's also been suggested I flash my BIOS. I don't want to do that - never done it and don't have the guts to try!! On a happier note, the webcam that I bought in Hong Kong and couldn't get to work...I gave it to my friend Ken. I thought it'd work for him since he's using Win2K, and that's what the vendor was using. Anyhoo, he got it to work. At least my money wasn't completely wasted! |
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| Sandwiches |
| 02.25.04 (10:40 am) [edit] |
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"Sandwiches" is the term I use for that food item...the one with at least two slices of bread and fillings of whatever you want between the slices. I dislike the term "sammiches." But l've learned that sarnies and butties are also sandwiches. I usually eat turkey on rye, but sometimes I crave peanut butter and jam/jelly. I went to bed late last night and woke up at an ungodly hour. Five hours of sleep!! And my body didn't want more. I didn't get up to too much last night, but I sure was glad to leave work!! Paula, Chris, and I caught the hockey game at a restaurant - one that had a big screen. I ate a lot of food. And Chris got lots of eye candy. The waistresses are known for their skimpy outfits, but they're not as cheesey as Hooter girls. After I got home, I watched Scrubs and 24. In regards to 24, OMG!!!! I quite enjoyed that episode. Then I chit chatted with Wayne for a bit before going to bed. That's it! |
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| My tarot card reading |
| 02.23.04 (6:38 pm) [edit] |
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I wasn't going to see this woman today, but she was available, so I saw her. I see her about once a year, but she doesn't ever remember me. I don't know if that's good or not. So...the things she touched on:
I guess that's about it. I don't really want to re-listen to the tape right now. I found this reading kind of anti-climatic. Every time I'm done, I don't want to see her again, ever. But then I get curious about what she'd say. I take what she says with a grain of salt because it's only one interpretation. I guess she's pretty accurate about personalities and such, but as for predicting things for the future, I don't know. Another thing what I'd rather spend less time on with her and these readings is that she focuses on things which I consider the past. BLEH! |
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| I hate dialing |
| 02.23.04 (11:25 am) [edit] |
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Well, I guess dialing is the wrong term for calling people on the phone now, isn't it...I hate "punching" (who really punches the numbers on a keypad?!) the wrong number. I usually call twice if the first call was incorrect. But by the second time, I'm sweatin' it because I'm worried about calling the same wrong number and disturbing the victim. A friend just IMed me...asking me if I called his number by accident yestereday. And of course, I had. I didn't even know it was him. I looked up the number in my cell phone and dialled. I just have to punch in the first few digits, and the number I have in my phone book just comes up. Guess I will double check next time. Last night I also went by Paula's. I feel bad that I head over there regularly. Even though she invites me, I don't want to impose! Anyway, she goes, "oh! I have something for you!" And she ran to her room, and came back out. She plopped this big plastic bag of stuff on my lap. When I looked in, there must have been about 10 bags of Jelly Babies. I couldn't stop laughing. They were the last of the Jelly Babies that Stef brought over to me from England, but since I told him to leave me the heck alone, he passed them along to his friend Geoff, who passed them onto Paula this weekend. I guess he had bought about 15 bags?? He gave me 2 or 3 back when he first got here, and the gang opened a bag on the weekend. |
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| It's hot in here |
| 02.23.04 (9:21 am) [edit] |
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But I cannot take off any more clothes. Yesterday was pretty uneventful, but I did stay away from my computer. I've been spending too much time at it. Well, maybe not. But I am not good to my body when I'm at my comp. I love ergonomic workstations, and neither one at home or work is 100% ergo. So lately, I've had headaches, wrist, neck, and shoulder pain. I thought Wayne wanted to chit chat with me in the morning since I told him I wouldn't be around in the afternoon, but I think he got too wrapped up in NASCAR. About an hour and a half after I went offine, I got a text message asking where I went :lol: I like to avoid sitting at my computer at home unless I really have to do something productive. Chatting doesn't count!! I guess my body's used a routine right now...Sleep from before 1 am to before 8 am. That's alright, I guess. At least I can get to work earlier. :D Arrive early, leave early!! Sundays are my day with my mom, so yesterday we went out for lunch, did some shopping, went out for dinner, and did some grocery shopping. *teehee* She's picking up her new car on Saturday. She's getting a Toyota Matrix. I think they're chubby cars. Sometimes they look ugly, but I still wouldn't mind taking her car for a spin!! I feel ready for a new car, too!! But alas, other things first. Hopefully next month I can get back to putting money into savings. I'm still recovering from vacation. and I'd like to put some more money into my retirement savings plan before the deadline. |
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| Hungry |
| 02.21.04 (5:59 pm) [edit] |
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Well, all afternoon, I've sat at my computer. I'm starving now, but soon I will be heading out for some dinner and hockey with my friend Chris. All I gotta say is *siiiiiigh* Wayne *L* I am enjoying our chats a lot, and I think he does too. Hmm. :? I started thinking about all the couples I've known who've met through the Internet. Not all lived in the same country to start with. How do those people do it?? But once again, I am getting ahead of myself!! But I know I've been walking around with a silly grin on my face. And it's noticeable, too. :oops: J called me today...what a shocker. He called to chit chat...see what I was up to tonight. I am over him...I am glad :) And things on the home front...My dad is going to sell the townhouse he bought, and I think he will "lend" me some of the money for my new place. And I think he's bringing home the dog in a couple of weeks!! But eh. It's a chowchow. I am tired of everyone asking me when I'm going to move in. I know they're all curious, but I really have no idea. I checked on the condo today, and on the outside it looks the same. I think they're working on the drywall and lighting now. I keep just telling people my guess (May/June). |
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| Wedding planning |
| 02.20.04 (10:25 am) [edit] |
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I really have no clue what goes into weddings...well, maybe North American ones. I think I got the Chinese ones down pat. So last night, I went with Tara's mom to a craft store to check out some stuff for gifts and table settings and bouquets, etc. We got some really good ideas!! But man, did I have a headache (physically) last night. Afterwards, we went for dinner, and then I drove her home. I called up Tara after to give her our ideas and stuff...And she was like, "did my mom pay for dinner?" I told her no, and she got completely ticked off!! "What?! She invited you for dinner and didn't pay? Did she even offer??" :shock: I didn't mind all that much. I sure wasn't expecting to be treated! And now ideas for the stagette are starting to flow through my head. I want to discuss with the other bridesmaids to see if they have any special ideas!! By then, I will have my place, so at least we can have a little party there :D :D :D I tried to go to bed early last night with the headache and all; and no, I didn't take any Tylenol because I hate taking anything unless I'm dying. (I took my Tylenol this morning when I woke up with a headache.) I was a little disappointed I'd have to miss my brief chat with Wayne, so I sent him a breakfast postcard. Hilarious!. But by the time I went to sleep, it was my regular (as of late) bedtime anyway. |
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| More on Eurotrip |
| 02.19.04 (11:05 am) [edit] |
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I forgot (see...what did I tell you??!!) to mention: -A few members of the cast from Snatch are in this movie. -Matt Damon is in the movie. He looks totally hot with a shaved head and muscles and tattoos, and piercings. |
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| Did I mention? |
| 02.19.04 (10:09 am) [edit] |
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My memory is going from bad to worse because I haven't been getting enough sleep the last few days. Go to bed late, feeling tired and awake and wake up early, tired. I think I got a little less than 6 hours of sleep last night. I was going to ask whether I had already blogged about something, but then I figured I'd feel silly if I had. I did glance over my last couple of entries, but it doesn't look like I mentioned it. Last night, I saw an advanced screening of Euro Trip with my friend, Stephen. He thinks the released version will be a lot cleaner. Lots of parts seemed rather risque for North American audiences. There were parts I found somewhat funny in the movie, but I felt gross watching it. I mean the premise is about a bunch of high school grads going off to Europe, but these are really horny high school grads. I have *a lot* of trouble imagining these people as sexual beings and that you're supposed to lust after. So last night, I tried to finish off my taxes. I was using my software, and it kept telling me I was going to owe like $1500. I knew something was missing along the line, but I couldn'lt find it. It was still on my mind this morning, so I started my return from scratch. Voila. I should get a whole whopping $9.51 back. Oooh la la. Tonight I'm meeting up with Tara's mom, so we can go check out some stuff for the wedding. They were thinking of having the bridesmaids holding a candle decorated with fresh or silk flowers. I don't know if I like that candle idea ... or even silk flowers. |
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| Need to empty my brain |
| 02.18.04 (12:03 pm) [edit] |
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Last night we saw 50 First Dates. I was expecting more enjoyment I guess since the reviews were so positive. The movie still made laugh, groan, and cry though. I'm quite tired today. I am still feeling wide awake when I lay my head down on my pillow at night. Maybe it's because I have been sitting in front of the computer right before I go to bed. I stopped doing that for a while. But...it seems like Wayne comes online when it's midnight for me. Okay, I need less Wayne. My friend Tom would tell me to stop trying to control myself so much. But come on, the dude's in another continent. I can't let me imagination go running wild! Oh yeah...the movie. So Drew Barrymore's character has no short term memory, but Adam Sandler's character falls in love with her. Every day, she goes through getting to know him from the beginning. I couldn't imagine living a life like that. Would any one really do it? Try to get someone to fall in love with them every day? The movie reminded me of Groundhog Day. |
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| I want your HO |
| 02.17.04 (11:02 am) [edit] |
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(sung to George Michael's _I Want Your Sex_) *giggles* Ever since Friday, I've gone kind of wacky. I've just been in a weird mood. I think it's because I'm actually kind of tired; however, I feel awake at night. I hope it's not that latte I had on Friday that is still affecting me. Anyway, HOs. "IMHO"...My friend Bruno and I were discussing something, and he said IMHO, and I told him I trust his HO. At the time, I found it very amusing to me. Aren't I sillypuss? And what is the opposite of humility? The closest I could come up with was immodesty Everyone can give me their HOs. The whole HO thing started when I asked Bruno "what's it mean when someone tells you they've been thinking about you"? |
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| My body works! |
| 02.16.04 (1:21 pm) [edit] |
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Yesterday, I hardly ate a thing. And today I am starving! Unfortunately, I didn't bring that much food with. I've tried to ration it, but if I don't eat, I know I will feel sluggish!! Last night I went for dinner with John. The conversation was really good!! He's a good guy...funny...but he can make jokes with a totally straight face. He's easy to talk to...enough so I can even tell him "he's all right." When I met him last year, we went on one date. The day after (or was it the night of...) he asked me where he stood with me!! *L* So needless to say, I said I only wanted to be friends. His indecisiveness and how he handled the bill turned me off. Guys...Tip #1. On a date, don't say "don't you want me to pay?" if you see a girl pulling out her wallet. Tip #2. If you decide to go dutch, don't calculate down to the last cent...or say "maybe I should pay 60 or 55% of the bill since I ate more." Man. I need more vacation days. I will need 4 days for Tara's wedding and planning, at least. But...if Wayne comes to visit, I will need more than 3 days!! Ooh, maybe I can swing some half days around. February's not even over, and I've got plans for the rest of my vacation days for the rest of the year!! |
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| Did the right thing |
| 02.15.04 (4:19 pm) [edit] |
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I hope, anyway. I am feeling a little bummed right now. I had an okay evening with J last night. I previously hoped it'd be a nice night, but then I realised it'd probably be like a typical night. And I was correct. On a side note, my Valentine's Day gift to him was a card, homemade brownies and a massage bar (like solidified massage oil...), which I'd use on him, of course. He got me a single long-stemmed rose and chocolates. I was thinking about throwing away the rose. The chocolate I will probably bring to work and share with others. So this morning, when I was warming up the car to leave, I asked him to sit with me a bit (usually he just walks me to the car and leaves). We sat in silence for a bit, and I was thinking, "should I? Yeah, I'd better." Then I just blurted out I couldn't sleep with him anymore. He asked me if there was someone else or if he was too mean to me; basically he seemed to want to know if he did something. Then he said he had been thinking the same thing. Well, whatever. I figured my self-esteem would plummet if I kept myself in the situation. I was starting to feel a little used. I didn't tell him that (even though I kind of wanted to), but I did tell him I shouldn't be sleeping with him if things weren't going to move forward. He agreed and said we should cool things for a while (sexually?) and see where things go. I don't know if I even want to talk to him anymore. I was already starting to distance myself. He said he'd be bummed if we never talked again. Every time he was nice (well, nice as in almost more than friendly) to me, I'd have that glimmer of hope. Maybe I shouldn't have treated Valentine's Day as a test, but I had asked him if he wanted to do anything *for* it. He said yes. I came out disappointed. I couldn't do the wait and see any longer. One minute he tries to make me jealous, and the next he says I'm free to do whatever I want in the dating realm. This could be the beginning of my longest dry spell ever!!! :lol: My next guy will be someone more long-term. I guess I never really mentioned it but for the last year and a half or so, I've been sowing my oats. No more of that!! What I practised while knowing J... -to not run at the first sign of trouble -to speak my mind Anyway, enough reflection. :D I thought I might be poor company tonight, but I'm going out for Japanese for dinner, which I'm getting excited about. And after that, I will probably hang out with Paula. :D |
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| Shopping |
| 02.13.04 (2:06 pm) [edit] |
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*smacksmack* I splurged on myself again. *sigh* I feel guilty. No more luxuries 'til next month...April if I can control myself. My coworker (the one that used to come by and eat my food) and I went to a sex shop. He wanted to get his girlfriend a gift (something like a whip), and even though I told him I was no expert in this area, he still wanted some input. I don't think I offered him much assistance. Anyhow, I got myself some jewellery. I was going to get this little feather duster thingee, but I decided to hold off since I already got the sparkley stuff. AND! The store we went to (my favourite...I recommended it to him :lol: ) had pasties!!! Sequined and feathered. I was really tempted to pick up a pair...but the jewellery won!! I got a strawberry sundae on the way back. It was nothing like the one I was craving for yesterday. :( Not much else to do... I'm going to pick up a card and a massage bar after work later on, and tonight I'll be watching the Canucks game somewhere. Unfortunately, I will have to miss some of it because Paula wants to work out :( |
| 8 Comments |
| No more White Strips |
| 02.13.04 (9:49 am) [edit] |
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I finished them off last night! Hurrah!! I've been trying to take some "after" shots of my teeth, but they're not turning out so well. It's Friday the 13th today. I don't believe today will be full of bad luck for me!! In fact, the good thing about today is that it's payday!! I am tired. |
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| Take a leak |
| 02.12.04 (3:26 pm) [edit] |
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I heard that the Windows2000 and NT source code have been leaked...Is it true????? Ugh, I want to go home and sleep! I look forward to having an early night tonight. |
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| Irritations continued... |
| 02.12.04 (11:37 am) [edit] |
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Sometimes I'm so grumpy, I laugh at myself because everything pisses me off!! Ever since this woman moved to the cubicle in the row behind me, she's ticked me off!! Her email alert goes off (loudly), her cell phone rings (loudly), her ICQ alerts go off (loudly). Her lotion or perfume wafts all the way over to my desk. She's constantly (loudly) speaking mandarin. And this whole perfume/lotion thing, I mentioned to a friend that this coworker wore "stinky" perfume, and he's going on and on about the word "stinky" does not apply to perfume. Here is our conversation. Sometimes he annoys me: Me: It stinks around here S: Did you fart again? Me: *eyes roll* no S: Then explain the stinkiness! Me: someone's wearing too much perfume or lotion in the next row behind me *gross* S: So as a technical writer, technically, it is overpowering, not stinky as you put it :P Me: No "stinky" S: How does perfume STINK? Me: Why use big words when you can use a smaller one to convey the meaning? Me: it smells bad S: Stink = Foul. I don't understand how perfume can be foul. Rotten meat is stinky. Farts are stinky. Perfume can be overpowering. S: Or it can burn you nose. Me: to me, it stinks. S: Perfume can't stink to me. Sorry. It can only burn my eyes, and singe my nose hairs if it is a smell I don't like. Me: okay From dictionary.com: v. stank, (stngk) or stunk (stngk) stunk, stink·ing, stinks v. intr. To emit a strong foul odor. To be highly offensive or abhorrent. To be in extremely bad repute. |
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| PMS |
| 02.12.04 (9:49 am) [edit] |
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Ugh. I hate it. Everything smells too strong today. I'm grumpy. People piss me off. And usually I'm tired, but not this round. I am all wired when I go to sleep. And chocolate will not do the trick. :x Anyway...last night...I punched some estimated numbers into my tax program. I think I might have to pay taxes. That saddens me to no end. I always thought if I maxed out my RRSP contributions, I'd avoid paying taxes!! I guess we will see. It'd be nice if my receipts came about RIGHT NOW. And I can't get into any of hotmail accounts right now. *sigh* At least it's supposed to be a warm day today. I should probably go for a walk later this afternoon. |
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| Monster |
| 02.11.04 (9:31 am) [edit] |
| Oh yeah! A couple of friends and I saw Monster last night. I was on the edge of my seat. I loved the movie...disturbing but I loved it. I loved the relationship between Lee and Selby. I loved how I could feel Lee's emotions. (Someone was so into the movie she kept yelling at the screen...). This was one of those movies that I won't want to see again. Once was enough!! Just like Boys Don't Cry and American Beauty. |
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| Wasting away |
| 02.11.04 (9:28 am) [edit] |
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That's what I feel like my brain is doing. I feel like I should be learning something...or even re-learning something. I went to school for computing stuff, and I couldn't spit out a "hello world!" in any language (except psuedo-code). I never really honed any programming skills while I was going to school, but I'd really like to know how. My goal of learning the drums will probably be put on a hold for a looong time. Living in an apartment will mean electronic stuff! But lately, I've been on this desire to get into makeup and digital photography. So many wants. So little money. Well, I'm not poor. I just try to budget for my future. Speaking of which, I cracked open my tax software last night and started entering stuff for receipts I had. I wish work would hurry up and give us the rest of our receipts!! And I have a couple more sets of retirement savings receipts coming my way!! I just want to get my taxes over and done with. I should get a refund...Last year I got a whopping $80. My friend claims to make about the same as I do, but he got back like $800. Okay, time for a meeting. Today is a day of meetings. Meetings are no fun, and I can't get work done!! |
| 6 Comments |
| Freaks and Geeks |
| 02.10.04 (10:08 am) [edit] |
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I *loved* that show when it was on TV and was horribly disappointed when it got canned. But now is my chance to buy the Special Edition series (8 discs) from the show's Web site. Kicker is that it's $120 USD + $15 for shipping. I believe you will be able to buy the 6-disc set in stores, too... I must find out the differences between the sets. *sigh* I'd better hurry up and make up my mind. My latest budgeting technique is to only buy one luxury for myself per month. I've already met my quota (twice) this month...I got some magazines last night...No more magazines after this month. I read them once or twice from cover to cover and then I don't have the heart to throw them out. Anyway, time to eat some Cheerios. I am wearing pantyhose again today (2nd pair...threw out the first pair because I ripped them by accident). They feel like they're falling off. :x |
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| High school reunion |
| 02.09.04 (12:04 pm) [edit] |
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I have one coming up in April. I guess I will go. I was joking to a friend that I need to lose 20 pounds and wear my grad dress to the event. Although I do long for the bod I had back then, I guess I don't want it that badly. Having a 27"waist would give me more shape, that's for sure! Ten years sure has gone by quickly. I wonder who's going to go. I graduated with sooo many people that I didn't even know everyone's names. Hmm... Time to stop talking so much to the coworker that used to come by for food. It's annoying with his "got any more stories for me? You need to come up with a good story for me…" And he just wants to hear about my dating life. :roll: I've also been ignoring him on MSN. If I say I have nothing new going on, I am "boring." And it's kind of funny that he assumes he's invited to my housewarming. :shock: He got kind of excited when I said I'd have a porn and tequila party. |
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| Hate to cause a fuss |
| 02.09.04 (10:22 am) [edit] |
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My new glasses...are definitely going to need replacement. I brought them in, and nobody working at the optician could see the scratches. Both lenses have scratches, but the ones on the left take over the whole lense. I should have mentioned the right one, too. It seems like the lenses cracked when they were put into the frame or something. I don't know. All I know is that there are LOTS of very, very faint cracks/scratches in the lenses that can only be seen in certain lighting. *sigh* Today I put on a lot of eye make up. My eyes disappear when I wear glasses. The only way to combat that is to wear eye makeup. But when I'm not wearing my glasses, I can't see well enough to put on eye make up well!! I have a mirror that magnifies to about 7x, and that is not really enough. So I just kind of guess and stumble through. *sigh* Practice makes perfect, I guess. I'm kind of in a grumpy mood today. I don't like that!! And I am freezing cold!! |
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| The weekend |
| 02.08.04 (10:08 pm) [edit] |
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For the first time in a very, very long time, I was in bed early last night. Usually on weekdays, I go to sleep around 12:30. Last night I was in my PJs and in bed around 8:30 and asleep after 10:30. I was just exhausted. I had a bit of a late night the night before and an early morning. So this morning, I woke up at 8. I did SFA today...After I woke up, lazed in bed, ate a bit of breakfast, watched TV in bed, sat at the computer, and then went to the gym. Then it was shower, dinner, return some phone calls, and come online. Tonight I called two restaurants see if they had any reservations available for this coming Saturday. Of course not. And then I talked to Tara for a bit. That was when I decided I'd not make any more effort in trying to do something nice for Valentine's Day. Although I asked J if he wanted to do something for Valentine's Day, he was the one who suggested dinner. But he's put in no effort to planning. [Here comes my J rant. I can just hear people saying..."what are you doing, Rosie?" So you can stop here if you think I need a smacking...:lol: I tried to hold back, but all this verbal diarrhea is hitting now!!] In fact, the only time he's ever planned anything is the first time we met up for coffee...almost a year ago. I am so frustrated with him. I don't know if he's just too lazy to put any effort into having any kind of relationship with me (friendship or otherwise) or if he doesn't care. I keep thinking he doesn't like to do anything that requires leaving the house, and he knows we don't do anything in public [as I call it]. The only time he's attentive seems like when it's convenient for him. Well, I don't want any more of this non-2-sided whatever-you-call-it. If he can't make any effort to make me some sort of priority, then that's just not fair to me. Why am I putting up with it? Well, my expectations are so low, I definitely don't expect things to start going the way I'd like to see them. I don't want more talks, expressing what I'd like to see happen. At the moment, I'm kind of just settling for some action until someone else comes along...and my conscience will get the better of me with this kind of behaviour very soon. Sometimes I get hopeful, and then something probably little brings me down. |
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| Birth order and eating |
| 02.07.04 (5:10 pm) [edit] |
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Last night, J and I were out for a meal, and he pointed out to me that I eat like an only child, i.e., slowly and methodically. He figures that people with siblings (especially if close in age or boys) eat faster. Not because it's a competition for food, but the sooner you finish eating, the sooner you can play or do other stuff. We're supposed to go out for dinner next week. I'd like to go for French food, but I have yet to express that. Hmm, since I was the one who asked him out, I guess I will make the arrangements. I'd like if he took me out one day. The tarot card reader I've seen before is going to be around again in a few weeks...I'm thinking about whether I want to see her again or not. I'd like to know what kind reading I'd get, but at the same time...I focus too much on what she's said before, and then I tend to look around for signs that may show what she said was true. And today I picked up a dragonfruit for $15 CAN, which is about 25 times the price I paid for in Hong Kong. :( Just this once... |
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| Moi - borrowed from Ari and Silly!! |
| 02.06.04 (10:29 am) [edit] |
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BODY ILLS AND SKILLS -- Nervous Habits?: None Are you double jointed?: No Can you do weird things with your tongue?: Not really. Well, at least I don't think it's weird. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?: Yes Can you blow spit bubbles?: Not anymore :( Can you cross your eyes?: Yes Tattoos?: Yes Piercings: Yes Do you make your bed daily?: No -- WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU -- Kissed?: J Hugged?: Me Talked to?: Aaron Went on a date with?: Can't remember Laughed with?: Wilf Hung out with?: Mom -- WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU -- Took a shower?: Last night Cried?: Yesterday. I was reading an article about a fatal car crash on a highway killing 7 people. Talked on the phone?: Last night Read a book?: A couple of nights ago Punched Someone?: Junior high school -- CLOTHES -- Which shoe goes on first?: Right Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone?: No On average, how much money do you carry with you: Less than $20 What jewelry do you wear 24/7?: Jewellery to keep my pierced holes open Favorite Piece of Clothing: A black pair of pants with embroidered flowers all over 'em. Pajamas: eh -- FOOD -- Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: Twirl Have you ever eaten Spam?: Yes Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: Chocolate chip cookie dough amongst others from Ben and Jerry's How many cereals in your cabinet?: One What's your favorite beverage?: (Canadian) Shirley Temples What's your favarite resturant? None Do you cook?: Not really -- GROOMING -- How often do you brush your teeth?: Once or twice a day How often do you shower/bathe?: At least once a day How long does your shower last?: 10 - 30 minutes Hair drying method: Air and blowdry Do you paint your nails?: On occasion -- MANNERS -- Do you swear?: Not really Do you ever spit?: No -- WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE -- Animal: Don't have one Food: Dessert Month: None Day: Saturday Cartoon: None Shoe Brand: Aerosoles Subject in school: Sociology Color: Happy ones Sport: Billiards TV show: Six Feet Under Best Looking Male Celebs: Jack Black Thing to do in Spring: Admire flowers Thing To Do In The Summer: Be in the sunshine Thing To Do In Autumn: Enjoy the crisp air Thing To Do In The Winter: Stay in -- IN AND AROUND -- The CD Player: Nothing Person you talk to on the phone: Regularly? Tara, Paula, Wilf Ever taken a cab?: Yes Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors?: No What color is your bedroom?: Beigey white Do you use an alarm clock?: Yes Window seat or aisle?: Either -- LA LA LAND -- What's your sleeping position?: On my back or fetal Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?: Yes Do you snore?: Sometimes Do you sleepwalk?: No Do you talk in your sleep?: Maybe Do you sleep with a stuffed animals?: No Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on?: No -- WHICH IS BETTER -- Coke or Pepsi?: Neither One pillow or two?: One Deaf or blind?: Deaf Pools or hot tubs?: Hot tubs Blondes or brunettes?: Either TV or radio?: TV tic tacs or Certs?: Certs Tall or Short?: Tall Sunrise or Sunset?: Sunset Hamburger or Cheeseburger?: Hamburger Morning or night?: Night Sports or news?: News Christmas Eve or Christmas Day?: Neither Cake or ice cream? Cake Spearmint or Peppermint?: Peppermint Bath or shower?: Shower Book or Movie?: Movie Green or Red apples?: Red -- THE FUTURE -- Where do you see yourself in ten years?: Settled down Who are you going to be married to?: No clue How many kids?: Dunno Your profession: Tech writer |
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| Shampoo and nipples |
| 02.06.04 (10:07 am) [edit] |
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So last weekend, I got my hair dyed. I haven't shampooed it since, and I can't take it anymore!! Tonight, I am breaking out the shampoo!! My hairdresser suggested I just rinse and condition to lock in the colour. 6 days is close enough to a week!! I posted a photo of my 'do at my photo blog. And nipples...This morning my mom's eyes bulged a little and then asked me if I had pastie-like things to cover up my nipples. (No, we're not a nudist household...It was cold, and there was no padding in my bra.) If I can ever find pasties, especially with tassles, I'd gladly buy some. For the last little while, I've also been thinking of replacing my nipple ring with a barbell instead. I think it might be more comfortable, but I like the look of the ring more. I dunno. I've never removed the ring before...could be weird!! So last night I was on the phone with Wilf. We often have late night phone conversations before we go to sleep. Back in the day, we used to talk almost every night. Anyway, he's getting married in the summer, and once he's married, there will be no more of these conversations :cry: I definitely think we won't be close anymore after he ties the knot. |
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| Oh yeah |
| 02.05.04 (4:32 pm) [edit] |
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Yesterday there was a protest. I knew about it months ago, but I forgot about it. Most of the protestors were students I"m sure, protesting against rising tuition fees. I hope their voices were heard. I think education is so important, and I'm extremely glad our government subsidizes. My friend Chris (not the one I mentioned 2 entries ago) was in town this week, but I probably won't get a chance to see him until he returns after the 16th. He's going back to Osaka for 10 days. Anyway, I returned his call yesterday after work, but he wasn't home. I left a message even though I just found out that he didn't get it. Anyway, he was like "oh, I was out getting laid. [when I called]" I was a little shocked because I'm usually the one (jokingly) asking if he's gotten laid lately (Usually it's a no, but on occasion it's yes). I think I was more shocked that I felt a pang of jealousy!! It's weird because I have no interest in him, and I know he has no interest in me, either!! Lately, I really have no interest in hearing about people's sex lives, with others or themselves. Now I usually think "why are you telling me this?!" Back in the day, I might have asked for more details. As for Chris, the only thing I'm curious about is how he hooked up with this woman again, since he said he'd not sleep with his co-worker's wife again!! |
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| Cold and hungry |
| 02.05.04 (1:25 pm) [edit] |
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I've been cold all day today. I wonder if I am malnourished...like not enough protein. There's nothing I have pressing to blog about today. I am wearing a pair of new shoes though. I've worn one new piece of clothing every day since Monday. Perhaps this weekend will be the one to rid myself of clothes that either don't fit or that I've not worn in the last year. I don't know if I can be that ruthless though. I haven't touched my tarot cards in quite some time, like a couple of months. I have no urge to go to them, either. Last year, I was using my deck at least once a day. I seem to have lost some interest in them. That could be a good thing for me. Oh yeah. I washed my hair yesterday..but with no conditioner. My hairdresser suggested I not use shampoo for a week so the colour stays a bit better. So I ony used conditioner. Man, my hair feels gross. |
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| About Chris |
| 02.04.04 (10:28 am) [edit] |
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So in my previous entry , I said this guy was good enough for a blog entry...I chitchatted with him very briefly on MSN yesterday. In fact, I hadn't seen him around for quite a few days. I dated him briefly around this time of year last year; now we're not-so-close friends. Anyhow, he had recently returned from California. He had gone to see Jenna. Who's Jenna? A girl he met on the Internet 4 years ago, but had never met face-to-face. I dumped him when he told me he was in love with her while we were dating. (But then we still dated briefly afterwards when he tried to get her out of his life...but there were other issues, anyway. We had a talk, and I promptly lost interest in making anything work.) I already thought it was dumb that they claimed to be so close and with strong feelings for each other for years, but have never met. It was all email, snail mail, phone calls, IMing, etc. There were several (not a couple, not a few) occasions where Jenna said she would come up to BC to visit him, but *every* time, something would come up. This past fall, apparently she was driving up here, but midway, she suddenly got sick with the flu. Ultimately, her uncle had to go pick her up. I always expressed to him he was just in love with the idea of having some true love over the 'net. (I mean, really...if you really loved someone you wouldn't take years to meet up, etc.) And that there was something fishy about her. He agreed with me, but he said to really get closure, he *had* to meet her whether she came here, or he went to see her. :roll: Anyway, the poor guy...he went down to visit her...and didn't see her at all. She didn't answer her phone...didn't answer the door...didn't meet him at the airport. He had a feeling something like that might happen. Anyway, after he got home, he told her (email, voicemail? I don't know) that he never wanted to hear from here again. What kind of sicko plays games like that?! |
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| Eating on dates |
| 02.04.04 (9:39 am) [edit] |
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Why doesn't mblog use his blog?? For shame! To quote mblog: "How may guys have had this experience? You go out on a date. It was not unplanned, and it's a restaurant she supposedly likes. Then you get there and she eats nothing. She takes maybe three bites from the main course and insists she is full. Why do some women want to pretend that they don't eat? We know they do! Who came up with the idea that you need to keep this a secret? If I already know what a woman looks like, any judgement I make about whether she eats too much or not will probably have nothing to do with what happens at the meal. Then some women get freaked out just because a guy has the nerve to eat what's on his plate. Isn't that why we go to restaurants in the first place? I can see the point of disagreeing when somebody has no manners, although even some of them are arbitrary conventions. But what's the deal with getting bent out of shape because somebody goes to a restaurant and eats?" I can't explain this phenomenom since I've not even heard of people I know actually doing this!! I do know that my own appetite is healthy enough, and I will not deny myself too often!! If I can stomach 3 courses, I will!! :D I love when a guy eats more than I do!! I did briefly date a guy who would have been mortified to date a girl who could eat. We were out one night, and he saw a woman finish her dinner and then finish off the rest of her date's dinner. He was seriously disturbed about it. I can't even explain his look of shock nor his words of horror. *L* This guy definitely had his POVs on male and female roles in heterosexual domestic and romantic relationships. Bleh. He's good enough for another blog entry. I've talked about him before, but I don't know if he was memorable. |
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| Music and dining companions |
| 02.03.04 (10:37 am) [edit] |
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I guess I like varied range of types of music, but I really dislike country...or hard rap...and some R&B. Right now, I'm listening to some Anita Mui. I have absolutely no clue what she's singing about or what she's singing. It's all in Mandarin and Cantonese (dialects of Chinese), but I've loved her music since I was like 8 or 9. I just think it's kind of neat how music can be appreciated no matter what the language. Oh! And the title of her song titles have been translated into English for this particular set!! I also want bhangra music. I don't even know where to get some or where to find the good stuff. I used to go to a lot of concerts when I was going to university - about one two a month. October always seemed to be a popular concert month. Now I go maybe once a year, at the most. I always did like live shows in small venues. I used to play musical instruments, too. I was kind of sad after high school for a while, knowing that I'd never play in a concert band anymore. I went out for dinner again last night with John. Eating with him reminded me of an episode of Friends where Joey goes on a couple of dates with this girl, who orders only a salad but then proceeds to eat off his plate. Not that eating with John was a date, but he did take some of my risotto without asking. I think his table manners are attrocious. His lips were smacking away while he was eating his dinner, and he pretty much inhaled it...just kept shoveling and shoveling without much glancing up. :lol: When I said, "you sure finished that appetizer quickly!" His reply was, "yeah! It was good!" The steak he ordered was already sliced up. Each slice probably would have taken me two or three bites, but he just stuffed the whole piece in his mouth. |
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| Vanity |
| 02.02.04 (10:23 am) [edit] |
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So I started using those Crest Whitening strips several days ago. You put them on 2 times a day for half an hour at a time. Not that my teeth were all that yellow. I brush regularly, and I don't often drink beverages that would stain my teeth horribly. But right now, my teeth are sooooo sensitive, especially my two front teeth. I don't have to eat or drink anything, and I can feel them tingling away. It was even painful to drink room temperature water this morning. I may just stop using those strips. They're not worth this agony!! And tomorrow night, I should be having some sorbet for dessert. How am I to eat cold dessert with pained teeth?? I cannot have that! Today I wore pantyhose in the longest time. I don't like wearing pantyhose...gives bulges. I much prefer stay-ups. So I put the pantyhose on, and they were on the small side, but I let that go. When I got into my car, I noticed there was a HUGE run going down the left leg. I was thinking, "should I rip them off now? Nah, I will wait." I was thinking about ripping them at the gas station when I was waiting for my fillup. But I ultimately waited 'til I got to work. Now my legs are cold, and they don't have that nylon-ed look. |
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| I'm a hardass |
| 02.01.04 (2:31 pm) [edit] |
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I can be hard on people, and I have a tendency to be kind of mean to the people I care about most. I think it's my subconscious way of testing them, to see if they will always stick around. Anyway, on the topic of meanness...I finally said to J, "you're mean to me when you're not horny." That illicited a laugh of disbelief!! I just smiled, and said, "it's true!" This morning, our conversation went something like this: J: I'm not being mean to now, am I? A: No, *laughs*, but maybe you will be. You're only nice to me when you're horny. J: No, I'm not! I'll be nice. A: For now. J: I'll be nice; you'll see! When I got home this morning, my parents were bickering again. My dad is one of his "nobody cares about me" states. I am so sick of it. He keeps talking about moving out (but only to my mom and not me), and then he waffles about whether he wants to or not. I think there is a dog issue involved, too. My dad wants to bring his other woman's dog to live with us after she moves back to Hong Kong. My mom has always refused dogs in the household. Understood (I've been dog-less all my life...and deprived of any pets that don't require cages :wink: ). And now my dad is accusing my mom of rather having a dogless household than having him around. His compromise was to keep the dog outside unless he was at home. I think that is a horrible idea. And then he complained that neither my mom or I got him anything when we went away. (The postcard I sent him doesn't count...) I just stopped bothering because no matter what kind of gift I give him (birthday, Christmas, Father's Day), I don't get a thank you or acknowledgement of receipt, and I never see him use whatever I get him. I know it just gets tossed aside. So after he told my mom we were thoughtless, my mom bowed down. She came to me, and said, "give him the cookies I brought back for you. Just tell him you told me bring them back for you, and that I just gave them to you now." I hated the idea because (aside from me wanting the cookies all to myself...:wink: ) they were already sitting in the kitchen. I hate putting on an act. And it would seem stupid to all of a sudden have a gift for my dad *after* he says we got him nothing. Anyway, to please my mom, I went and got the cookies. "Dad, here are some cookies. They're only available only from Australia. I told mom to bring some back for you." He was setting the VCR, and just kind of glanced at the bag I was holding them in. "Oh, I don't like those anyway. You have them." So I said, "you've never even *had* them. I got them for you." "Well, just leave them in the kitchen, and we can all eat them. I was ticked off. So I just went back to my mom, and said, "he didn't even *look* at them." That was it. Anyway, from seeing power struggles between my mom and dad, I think it's made me subconsciously be difficult with guys. They never win with me. I don't really want to be like that. I'm not sure how to soften up because I don't want to get walked all over. Maybe if I could see the benefit with my own eyes, it'd help. |
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