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| Okay...when's a good time to buy? |
| 12.31.04 (1:30 pm) [edit] |
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A new condo, that is. So Mr. Feng Shui has left. My home doesn't really do anything for me. In fact, it's kind of detrimental to more wealth, good health, and relationships. Thank goodness I was born rather lucky. However, the feng shui of my home will cause more challenges. There are three kinds of luck: heaven luck, which is based on your date of birth; earth luck, which is based on feng shui; and human luck, which is the amount of effort you put into your own life. (You do get out what you put in :P) *sigh* Currently where my bed sits...will increase my chances for illness and skin problems. Ever since I moved in, my face has totally broken out. And I'm getting over a cold right now. Half my bed is in a cancer spot, which means health problems (or cancer). There is a section in my living room where things will go badly for whatever sits there. I had moved a lamp over from my old house, and plugged it into that section of the wall. The lamp died in about a week or two. There's not much I can do because I'm in a condo. His only suggestions were for me to move my bed against the opposite wall and maybe move my desk to the opposite wall. And if I really want to improve things to get out of my condo into one with better feng shui. Half my desk sits in a cancer spot in my study. Stuff in that spot will be prone to breaking, need fixing, etc. Right now it's my monitor and half my keyboard. My kitchen is okay - not that I can do much about the major appliances. There is a cancer spot where I put my toaster oven. And I should be careful when cooking because my food will burn easily. Wealth - I could put in an aquarium...at least a 30 gallon tank. Fish and marine life is optional. Health - Move that bed. Put something red behind my study's door or throw down a rug. Otherwise, respiratory problems will arise. Maybe I can find a poster or something. Romance - umm....not much I can do. Maybe moving the bed will help. :lol: Move out. It will take some time for poor luck to show up, but if it's good luck, things will happen quickly. I actually wanted to contact him when I was condo shopping, but my mom didn't think there was a point. |
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| Foggy head |
| 12.31.04 (8:13 am) [edit] |
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I must be dehydrated or something. I've had minor tension headaches for two days in a row! Maybe some greenery will help tonight. In the meantime, I will just continue to drink as much water as I can. Yesterday was an okay shopping day. Victoria's Secret was rather disappointing, but I did find one pretty thing. It's lacey and lavender. Then I went a little crazy at Bath and Body Works. I got a couple of bags and some silicone gloves and booties. My hands are really dry, and I will try anything that might help. I also picked up some massage thingee, too. The stuff in there smells really nice, but most of it is way too sweet...Lemon meringue? Chocolate fondue? Vanilla wafer? Bleh! I want to smell like a woman that's good enough to eat...not like some dessert tray (that's good enough to eat). And coming back into Canada...we weren't charged duty, which was nice. We thought for sure we would have been charged because we were in the slowest lineup and our customs agent was a woman. Perhaps she understood our shopping needs. It was also my first Taco Bell experience. I quite enjoyed it although melted cheese makes me feel really gross afterwards. After I got home, I met up with my relatives for dinner, and then I went home and cleaned. I vaccuumed, wet Swiffered the floors (even though they need a real scrubbing), put away laundry, dusted, and put away other stuff. I have a feng shui master coming to my home today!! He's a family friend. He used to teach me ... I don't know it's called....stuff you can learn from someone's birthday. In return I updated his web page. It was interesting to learn, but at the same time, he was putting me to sleep with his lessons. I get an hour of time with him, I think. I don't have any specific questions. I just want my home to be good for my health, wealth, and love life. My wealth has been good since I moved in. The P Man and I fight every single time as he's leaving. I know with my old house, wealth came and left quickly. Anyway, that is in the works for today. I also picked up my paystub today. We get no Christmas bonuses, so now I have to go figure out where the "extra" money came from. I probably had fewer deductions somewhere. Last night I finally watched the Christmas special of The Office. I thought it was kind of boring. Then I tried my hardest to go to bed, and it was around 12:30 . For the last week, I hadn't been sleeping 'til about 2 or 4 am. Then I got woken up by the phone around 1:20 am. It was the P Man. I wasn't really expecting to hear from him since I phoned him earlier in the evening and he didn't answer or text message me. I didn't leave a message because I didn't need a call back either. Sometimes he'll get back to me if he's with friends. If he doesn't get back to me right away, I think he's either trying to pick up chicks or maybe he's on a date. I think if he hadn't called me, I would've been a little disappointed. Speaking of which...Erin can see right through me when I'm not honest. :lol: All she has to do is look at me!! Yesterday she was asking me about the P Man...if we were still dating, etc., if I liked him vs. liking the idea of him. Of course I was honest. I am open to meeting someone new. When I woke up this morning, I noticed the P Man had sent me a text message a while after we hung up asking if he could sleep over. :? He didn't sound very drunk on the phone, but he must have been pickled to a point. He doesn't even like sleeping over :x Actually all week I'd been trying to see if I could him in the sack every day until the 30th. I was successful up until last night. D'oh. I'm not sure what I'll do in the new year. Tonight I'm off to a party. Tomorrow afternoon is a brunch (oooh, Dante will be there...Apparently he likes Asian women. I'm not sure why it bugs me so much when men say they like Asian women.) Sunday is also a brunch. Monday is a day off...maybe I will go do some shopping in preparation for Hong Kong. I didn't sleep well last night; not only could I not fall asleep, but I was too warm. (I was also too lazy to get out of bed to turn down the heat). And I was having strange dreams. I know one of them my boss was doing acrobatic stuff on a stage, but he was doing some tumbling with some 3-D hologram thingee. |
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| Look out!! Here I come!! |
| 12.30.04 (7:03 am) [edit] |
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I'm going to do some shopping today...whether I buy anything remains to be seen. I will shop carefully and bear in mind I have bigger fish to fry soon. But something nice from Victoria's Secret wouldn't be so bad. Something naughty from Frederick's of Hollywood wouldn't be so bad either, but I'm not sure if that store is still around. And Friday...I am getting my home feng shuied!! Thank goodness I did some major cleanup last night!! I will do more tonight. And vaccuum. Where am I going to put my damp laundry?! |
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| OMG my jaw just dropped |
| 12.29.04 (12:06 pm) [edit] |
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I can't *not* respond to James' email now...GRRRR He made a donation in my name to the Red Cross. *sigh* I'll write him back later to say thank you. |
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| Rar |
| 12.29.04 (10:38 am) [edit] |
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Okay, so I've started copying my pasting my archives into a Word document. I tried to get into the habit of copying every day's posts asap. Right now, I can't even get to the beginning of December's posts :x :x :x |
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| As 2004 comes to an end |
| 12.29.04 (10:29 am) [edit] |
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It feels too early to be doing this, but I will do it anyhow. In review... What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? (_*_) Did anyone close to you die? No. But my parents' marriage did. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? Less bodyfat. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? None horribly significant dates, but maybe August 15ish, which is about my date of possession of my new home. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Moving into my own home. What was your biggest failure? None. What was the best thing you bought in 2004? A brass pole. Or maybe my home. Where did most of your money go? My home. Down payment. Mortgage payments. Bills. Compared to this time last year, are you: Happier or sadder? Sadder. Older or wiser? Both. Thinner or fatter? Thinner. Richer or poorer? I feel poorer, but I did get a raise. What do you wish you'd done more of? Running. What do you wish you'd done less of? Procrastinating. What was your favorite TV program? Six Feet Under, Dead Like Me, Scrubs, 24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? No. I don't think there's anyone I hate, but some aren't worthy to be in my life anymore. What was your greatest musical discovery? I didn't discover anything. I did quite like Hot Hot Heat. Top 3 Music releases in 2004 in your opinion? Dunno. What was your favorite film of this year? I can't remember what I've seen this year. I enjoyed The Incredibles, but I don't know if it was my favourite. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Gained more muscles? Have less runaround with men. Traveled more. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? Less student-like. What kept you sane? Friends. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Hmm. None. What political issue stirred you the most? Gay marriage. Who did you miss? Family. Tell of a valuable life lesson learned in 2004: It's okay to show a little vulnerability. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: Don't have one. |
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| Surprise |
| 12.29.04 (8:27 am) [edit] |
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I went to another blog site to sign up, and the username I wanted was taken. I clicked on some link to retrieve its password, and then I thought "oops" when the site told me information was emailed. I started thinking...okay, the owner of that blog is going to get weirded out. And then I decided to check out this person's blog...only its site didn't exist. So here I am thinking...okay I want this username, and this person isn't even blogging?! This morning when I checked my email...directions for changing my password was emailed to me for that said account. I don't remember when I signed up for it. :roll: |
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| New Year's Resolutions |
| 12.28.04 (10:32 pm) [edit] |
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1. To send out Christmas cards in 2005 That's about it. :lol: Well, I told the P Man I would be nicer to him. I ought to stop saying hurtful things to him. I felt bad for the way I expressed myself to him last night...about how he didn't have his sh*t together and that he wasn't very mature. I probably didn't have to say all that even though those are my opinions. I told him of this resolution in a text message, and he called me after he got it. He was pleasantly surprised, to my surprise (that he liked it). He said the not having his sh*t together part really hit a nerve (like I knew it would), and he agreed with the immaturity and not being ready for a relationship. I scratched my head a little about that because I hadn't actually said that last night. It was said in an email last week. Anyhow, I guess it was good to know that I WAS RIGHT :lol: I just like the confirmation. Actually, Erin expressed her opinions about me and the P Man today. She said I don't have time to waste and to not wait around for him. I've only told her that he and I are still talking but we're not together. But anyway, back to resolutions. I can't really think of any that I want to work on where I improve myself and become a better person. I worked on that kind of stuff a long time ago, and I think I've gotten tired of it. I feel like I've been handed the short end of the stick a lot. |
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| Now I'm just posting for the heck of it |
| 12.28.04 (10:11 pm) [edit] |
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Guess my visitor came back. Nice to know he stops by at the beginning of his day. Is it like reading the paper while you sip coffee at the breakfast table? Or is that even a historical kind of idea? I still like having a newspaper at the table while I eat breakfast or dinner. Right now my dining table is mighty messy. I don't think my relatives will be coming by for dinner unless they do it Thursday. Seems like their trip has been so short. They're leaving on Friday!! But then I'll see them again in about 4 weeks. *sigh* Presents to get...Two birthday and two thank yous. I think I will get my aunt and uncle bath towels. I don't know about the others. Dinner tonight was delish. The not-so-delish part was waiting for half an hour even though we had reservations. My legs were feeling shakey from being so hungry!! I made a quick stop at the P Man's after, and now I just had a most delicious piece of cake with some chocolate soy milk. I can't wait to brush my teeth. You know those Oral B Brush-up thingees? They're so gross, but I should remember to pack some with me in my purse. My purse is getting full of junk. Things go in but rarely go out. Tonight I found a watch link in my car. I'm not sure whose it is. I'll have to see if it's mine. |
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| Moaning and groaning |
| 12.28.04 (5:08 pm) [edit] |
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I love it!! I am so achy from working out the last two days. It hurts to roll over. It hurts to get out of the car. It hurts to sit!!!!! Erin and I saw [u]The Incredibles[/u], and oh...it was sooo good. I loved the characters and the humour and the animation. I couldn't get over Elastigirl's shiny hair!! And hmm...I did not really see the resemblance to Violet. Maybe the way she wanted to disagree with lots reminded James of me. Time to go out for dinner with the family again. Tonight is going to be hot pot!! Mmmm!! And I am hungry!! For the second day in a row, all I've eaten is a bowl of Cranberry Almond Crunch and Kid's Meal at the movie theatre. I had a grape Kool-Aid slushee and it tasted weird. I don't even keep the plastic cups anymore. My major accomplishments of the day include taking out the garbage, working out, and smelling nice. :D |
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| The sorrows of long weekends |
| 12.28.04 (9:37 am) [edit] |
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I have to go back to work tomorrow. No more rolling out of bed at noon. I even set my alarm clock for 10 this morning, and it woke me up. I feel like a truck rolled over me today. My muscles are soooo sore. I can't wait to do another workout today! Maybe I will even get in some cardio. I should eat more before I go. Unfortunately, there's not much of substance at my place. My fridge stinks. I wonder if it's from the noodles. It's full of fruit and empty calorie foods like doughnuts and cake!! There's plenty of bevvies. Another movie to see today. Last year around this time, I saw a lot of movies, too. Was it 3 in 3 days? or 5 in 5 days? I'd check my tblog archives, but oops...they're not there :x Sometimes I wonder if my counter is picking up all my hits. What it tells me differs from the tBlog counter. There was another Google search on Rosario Dawson nude, which the person here. :roll: I don't think a certain someone has been dropping by. |
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| So thirsty |
| 12.27.04 (10:55 pm) [edit] |
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My family and I went out for Thai food tonight to celebrate my cousin's birthday. The dining experience was horrible! Not only was the service slow, but the food was salty and laden with MSG. Also, several items we wanted to order from the menu weren't available. I missed a whole lot of the World Junior hockey championships today. Maybe I can catch the game tomorrow. I think hockey for me is a bit like movies; I like to watch with someone. The only reason why I started taking a more active interest in hockey was because guys I was dating were really into it. Today's workout was absolutely horrible. I hadn't eaten enough so my workout was tough, and I had to cut out some exercises. Tomorrow will be a better one, I hope. In fact, I hope to get out of bed way before noon tomorrow. And I hope to be in the mood to clean. I should also give my aunt a call. The three hour time differences don't help, especially when I am out all day long!! And the problem with the holidays lately is that I've lost my mind. I don't even know what day it is half the time. Oh, and I don't know what Rosario Dawson's bra size is. Someone did a Google search for that and came up with my blog. |
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| Never fails |
| 12.27.04 (10:49 pm) [edit] |
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Every time he leaves, we have some sort of fight. I think I pick fights subconsciously even though I ultimately express exactly what I feel. Some thoughts are probably best left unexpressed. It's another P Man post coming up. I need to get some stuff off my chest. So you can move along...nothing to see here :lol: We shouldn't even be fighting. We're supposed to be friends. Right now, we're friends with benefits, and I don't think it's very good for me. The chemistry is great in the sack, but what I fear is that I'll hope things will go somewhere. And common sense tells me things will never go anywhere. Tonight I pissed him off by telling him I didn't think he had his shit together and that I didn't think he was that mature. My reasoning was that he still likes going partying and getting drunk with his buddies every weekend, he is still waffling on what he wants to do, and that he rents a bachelor pad with a roommate. His rebuttal...he enjoys partying with his friends and he's still young; he has a business diploma and every aviation certificate out there and he works for a huge, well-known company; what's wrong with living with your best friend? Maybe what I really meant was that he wasn't mature enough to have a real relationship with a woman, but I can't exactly say that since we're not together. And who says he wants that anyway? (Oh wait...he did at one point say he wanted something long-term.) I've been so good with having clean breaks with past boyfriends. What's my problem with this one? Right now the only thing different from the way things were two weeks ago is that we say we're not dating anymore. Well, perhaps we're not. We don't go anywhere, and there's no goal of getting to know each other better (although it just happens). I asked him if he had many platonic female friends, and he said no. However, to him, he and I can be friends now since we've already slept together. I was saying stuff tonight to push him away. Am I supposed to remember that he wants to be more than friends? I even said to him that I wondered how long our friendship would last...[talk about being cold!!] I think the longest it'd be would be 'til one of us started dating someone. More than likely it'd be him since I'm going on that sabbatical. :lol: Am I going to like hearing it? No. It will sting. |
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| Copy and paste copy and paste |
| 12.27.04 (10:11 am) [edit] |
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I just lost a blog entry while I was publishing it. Gotta love it. Sometimes lost entries can be salvaged, but not today. Re-posting is never the same. Anyway...this is what I had said. Re: Boxing Day. I haven't done any shopping. I would've liked to have gone to a store to see if they had jewellery boxes, but now it's too late in the day and the mall will probably be packed. Re: Yesterday. I went over to Paula's family for turkey dinner. Everything was delicious, and I would've eaten more if I could. Then we went to the movies, and saw Blade Trinity (thank goodness Meet the Fockers was sold out). While we were waiting around, the P Man and I text messaged a bit. He sent me one while he was out with friends. Ironically, I was going to send him one while i was waiting for Paula to get her coffee. He left a voice mail for me while I was in the movie (geez, there were sooo many commercials and only 3 trailers!) I called him back after I dropped off Paula, and we talked for a while. Wouldn't you know it...he doesn't like me calling him "buddy," which means I'll be calling him that a lot until I get bored of it. Re: The gift. He gave me a nice pair of earrings. I was kind of surprised when he pulled out a tiny box. They were silver heart-shaped studs with diamonds in the middle. Since I got off to a late day, I am going to have to do a bit of running around. I'm going to the gym today to do some weight training. There won't be enough time to have a 2 hour workout!! Later on it'll be more family time today. |
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| Now the real fun begins |
| 12.26.04 (11:00 am) [edit] |
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My place is a mess from bringing home gifts and wrapping gifts. I think I am having family over for dinner Wednesday!! I'm going to have to hustle my buns. Christmas was a pleasant day. I met up with my family for dim sum...our wait was *only* an hour long even though we had reservations. Then I swung back home and picked up some stuff with my cousin, and headed back to my family's for an afternoon of cooking. I caught a bit of some World Junior hockey; Canada won, of course :D Then I napped and cooked up some peas. People just don't seem too crazy about my peas, and they're tasty!! Sliced celery and mushrooms cooked in with chicken bouillon, butter, and curry powder!! Some family friends came by for dinner, too. There was a whole mishmash of food: roast beef, hai nan chicken, veggies, peas, duck with lotus root, potato salad, tomato-fish broth soup thingee, and rice. We had some mango and chocolate cheesecake and a some more cake for dessert. After the friends left (I just might actually get the family friend to check out the feng shui of my place!!), we unwrapped gifts. As usual, the event was videotaped. I hadn't used my dv cm all year, and I'd pretty much forgotten how to use it :shock: I got a Juicy Couture outfit, a sea salt and pepper mill (good thing I returned the one I bought last week!), some placemats, a scarf, a clock, an M&Ms photo holder, a flour sifter, clinque moisturizer, Juicy tube, stain remover, and some fleece lined rubber gloves for Christmas this year. After the gift unwrapping, my cousin and I watched some Gotti specials. It was quite an entertaining hour. Christmas with the Gottis was funny. Then I went home. It was strange going home...I am used to going to bed without having to drive somewhere after Christmas. Last night I also realised I used to spend most of my Christmases in Hong Kong. I had forgotten that. We visited every year pretty much when I was in elementary and high school. While I was puttering around getting ready for bed, I noticed the P Man had sent me a text message...we texted for a bit. I felt bad that he spent Christmas alone. But I think he partly wanted it that way. He says he has a gift for me but would not tell me what it is. We'll see if I get it...if he wanted to give it to me, it would have been here by now. He forgot to bring it over last night. Tonight I'm having a turkey dinner at Paula's family's. I should bring something over. Maybe I can find a floral arrangement. |
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| Merry Christmas |
| 12.24.04 (11:01 pm) [edit] |
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Maybe finally I am now in the spirit :) Did a little gift exchange at Tara's mom's tonight. Then I went over to Paula's mom, and we ate, drank, and sang Christmas carols. After that, I stopped at a restaurant to meet up with my family. Tomorrow is more eating :) Dim sum in the afternoon and then a feast in the evening. I'm bringing peas. Hope everyone is having a good one :) |
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| My friends are good to me |
| 12.24.04 (10:34 am) [edit] |
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You know what I hate...when you think someone is out of your life, you move on, and then they come back?? This really has become a soap opera. You know how you can miss a week or two of the soap and when you watch again after the absence, you know exactly what's going on, still? Well, here's my storyline...The P Man's been erased from my cell phone...etc. etc...After the last email exchange, didn't think I'd hear from him again, and I sure wasn't going to initiate contact. But today, he MSNed me. :roll: He made small talk...we didn't really talk about the emails but acknowledged their existence. I told Paula in an email about P man MSNing . Her response was: [i]"Rosie", I don't know what to say. It is none of my business but it makes me sooooo upset that you keep going back to this creep. You keep letting him weazle his way back into your life. He is not good news. I won't say anything else about it ever. I know there is no point. Of course I will be there for you the next time he does something shitty and the time after that and the time after that. Thats what friends are for. But you are worth so much more. You deserve so much better. Aren't you tired of these empty promises? I am not trying to be hard on you but I am giving you a reality check. Stop wasting your time and energy on these loosers. You can't buy love, tell him to shove his present up his ass. [/i] :lol: |
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| Why? |
| 12.24.04 (9:31 am) [edit] |
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I exchanged gifts with my dad yesterday. His friend gave me a Christmas present, too. And it was all wrapped up. However, my dad TOLD me what the gift was. :x "This is from Kitty. Even if you don't like it, don't give it to anyone. It's a scarf. A very nice, expensive scarf. It cost $400." :shock: |
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| Firefox |
| 12.23.04 (11:00 pm) [edit] |
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What is the best thing about it? And anyone out there using Trillian 3 yet? |
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| To catch a falling star |
| 12.23.04 (9:47 pm) [edit] |
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Now I have that silly song in my head...thanks to my cousin and her friend. I guess they really enjoyed Princess Diaries 2...all throughout dinner tonight, they kept singing that song...in their accented English. And then they had hand motions to go with the song. Something about putting stars in your pockets and not letting them get away. I can't remember...but that tune is stuck in my head. They were cute...annoying...but cute. Funny thing was with their actions to the songs...reminded me and my friends...but we're not 10 anymore. We have actions to go with Bon Jovi, and we call it interpretive :lol: Anyway, I dropped by John's tonight after dinner to give him and his girlfriend their Christmas gift. We went through his Scotland photos. I can't wait to do some traveling!! I am more excited about England than Hong Kong right now, though. |
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| Lame |
| 12.23.04 (2:30 pm) [edit] |
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I received a Christmas card in the mail yesterday, so I sent an email to the sender to say thanks. In MSN, he told me I was welcome. When I tried to chat him up about his general well-being, like I asked in the email, he didn't want to say. His words were, "I ain't saying and you can't make me. ;)" Um...okay...sorry I asked. That's usually the kind of response I get from him whenever I ask him how he's doing and what's new. You'd think I was giving him an interrogation or something. :x And then made some crack about me being 28 and unmarried. And then said he had to go. I have always taken him seriously whenever he has his problems and vents to me. I think one of my beefs is when I take my time and energy to be supportive of someone and then the said person seems like a dick overall. Hmm. I guess I should lay off a little. He's a lot older than I am, never been married, and really wants to be with someone. He thought he had found someone (even got some Viagra), but things didn't work out. |
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| not easy |
| 12.23.04 (1:59 pm) [edit] |
| tBlog doesn't make it easy for people who want to delete their blogs!! |
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| No more calendar |
| 12.23.04 (10:18 am) [edit] |
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I'm so glad tBlog informed us that we could remove the calendar again. I would've done it ages ago!!! tBLOG says: "We also recommend supporting tBLOG by installing the tBLOG Calendar. Within one hour of installing the calendar your blog will be spidered by Google and included in their index. This means more and more traffic over time." New blog won't have the calendar either. :P |
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| Making way for the new year |
| 12.23.04 (9:26 am) [edit] |
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I am looking forward to 2005...kind of like Janurary will bring a fresh start. I think 3 trips will be in the works. We talked a bit more about cruising in the summer, too. So...1.5 weeks in Hong Kong, 1 week for cruising...2 weeks for England. That will mean no other days off though. I don't know when I'd be able to visit Tara...maybe I'd have to do the work longer hours for a couple of weeks, so I can take a long weekend. There's one weekend of a lot of mountain bikers at the resort. I think that was some time in August. Last night I deleted almost all the numbers of people from my cell phone that I don't talk to anymore. I need to go through the list again and trim out the fat. I pretty much stuck with my resolution for 2004. For 2005...one of them will be to send out Christmas cards. I'm not sure what I'll think up for self-improvement. I tend to forget my resolutions anyway. |
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| I can still taste |
| 12.23.04 (9:16 am) [edit] |
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I'm thankful that my smell is still around. I woke up more snotty than yesterday. My relatives got in yesterday from Hong Kong: an aunt, an uncle (mom's brother), and a cousin. My aunt commented I had lost weight. I guess I have, but it's due to lack of eating. I can't wait to get back into the gym. I've lost muscle. She, like my mother, is very concerned for my skin. We talked about what we'll do when I visit. I get so excited when we start planning!! We'll celebrate two cousins' birthdays at some country club type place, though, and the plan is to get really dressed up. I'll be bringing my Christmas party dress...I mean when else I am going to wear a dress with rhinestones. In the meantime, I'd better to do some weight training. :lol: I'd like to go to the horse races when I'm there, but apparently they're far away and not the most convenient to get to. We'll see. Then this morning I realised that I can actually take a monitor home with me this time since I'd be coming home from Hong Kong. I told my friend Eva that I was going to be visiting, and I asked her how Tom was doing. He is still looking for work, and he's been there for almost a year now. Sometimes I visit his web page. I haven't emailed with him since May, I think. At first I wasn't sure if I was going to tell them I was visiting. But I'd probably regret it later on if I didn't. After all, Tom's my oldest 'net friend. I guess I must have been about 18 when I met him...in good ol' alt.sex.fetish.oriental. BWAHAHAHA There's this guy that works at a supermarket that I go to, and I think I used to know him from the same newsgroup. I'm not sure if it's him...last time I saw him working there, his lineup was too long for me to go through to check his name tag. Anyhow, that guy looks familiar. Speaking of sex, the [url=http://www.taboosexshow.com/]Everything to do With Sex Show[/url] is coming back in January. Well, I guess they changed the name of it for the next one. I went the first two years, and it seems to get bigger every year. Last year, I was away so I missed it. It's like one big sex shop. It will be interesting to see what i can pick up this year. There will be some things I'm keeping my eye out for. |
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| outta here |
| 12.22.04 (2:58 pm) [edit] |
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I've been looking forward to leaving the office today. I also got another tblog account. I'm not sure when I will move, but it will happen eventually. [Another] one of my visitors surprised me. If it's him, I'm surprised. And if it's him, how long has he been coming by? And why? Well, time to go home. Maybe there will be more mail for me today. I hope I can avoid taking more meds. Contact C has worked well for me today. |
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| Minimum = 10 tbucks |
| 12.22.04 (2:27 pm) [edit] |
| I tried giving some tbucks away, and I guess they don't like when you're stingy. |
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| Mmm...I love turtles |
| 12.22.04 (11:58 am) [edit] |
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I know I shouldn't be eating sweets right now with my throat being irritated and all, but I could not resist eating that turtle. It was nice and fresh. The caramel is stuck to my teeth. Good thing I have some milk to wash it down. I had a chocolate covered bavarian doughnut for breakfast this morning. I wonder if it's all this sugar that is preventing me from getting a good night's sleep. And Bill, you suck. Thanks for a whole lotta nothing. *scratches "Bill" off the good list* It's always nice to be dropped. I meant to say this months ago. Now I'm just being cryptic and I assume I will remember what I'm talking about months/years down the road should I re-read this. Sometimes I don't think people understand what being a friend really means. Well, since I still don't plan on emailing James back, this is what I would say to him. Hi, James, Thanks for the periodic emails. I actually quite like reading them and hearing what's going on in your life, even if it is a lot complaining about your job. :P Yes, I'm still at mine, and I don't have any plans to switch for now. Thanks for remembering my birthday, which was on the 21st and not the 20th (evidently, the darkest day of the year as well). I went out with friends on Saturday night. We went for all you can eat Japanese and then we were off to a pub afterwards. My mom and I went out for dinner last night. I'm also getting sick right now. This guy that I was dating gave me his cold. We're not dating anymore. Relatives are flying in today, and it will be nice to see them. They're only staying until New Year's Eve, though. If you had sent me a gift from my wish list, which is quite up to date, it would have come to me. :wink: My new address is there, and I also have my mail redirected from my old address. My parents sold the house shortly after I moved out. They're both living elsewhere in Richmond. Not that much new going on. I took a pottery class in the fall, and I am still doing my pole dancing lessons. I've settled in quite nicely at my place although it could use more personal touches. I finished my Christmas shopping yesterday while I was sick. Soon I have to think about more gifts to bring with me when I go to Hong Kong. I'll be going again in January. I am definitely looking forward to it! Anyway, bye for now. "Rosie." |
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| G'night |
| 12.21.04 (11:49 pm) [edit] |
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That's what I said. Here's hoping I can fall asleep. Now I'm hungry though. I'd love to eat a Krispy Kreme doughnut, but all the sugar in one of those...will keep me awake. 12 - 15 seconds in the microwave for a Krispy Kreme doughnut with filling is just right. The coldness is gone, but the sugar hasn't melted. Man, am I hungry. My fridge is pretty bare. I know I will be eating with family a lot over the next week or so. I think my fridge could use a cleaning, too. |
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| Moving |
| 12.21.04 (11:18 pm) [edit] |
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I'm considering switching to another account here. This blog was meant to be private *snickers* BWAHAHAHA I understand the irony of having a private blog on the Internet. I only mean private being hidden away from people who interact with me away from this site. I use this username all over the place, and that makes me easily Googled. And people are Googling me. In a way, that is a little creepy. But I may hold off on switching just yet. I just put a counter here, and I'm curious to who's visiting. |
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| Gah |
| 12.21.04 (10:42 pm) [edit] |
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I feel extremely wide awake. It's rare for me to get out of bed (when it's nice and warm) to come sit at the computer. Usually sitting at the computer keeps me awake. I had a tea this morning for breakfast. I bet it's doing the trick. I had dinner with my mom tonight, and then we went to the mall for a bit. She wasn't going to get our relatives anything for Christmas, and then I reminded her that they always get her (well, us) something. Then I swung by Paula's and came home. My dad also called me tonight. He got back from his trip earlier today. I finished reading [u]He's Just Not That Into You[/u]. I liked its bluntness. The author gave a bleak outlook. Overall, I'm not sure I enjoyed the book that much. I would love to hear a guy's opinion on the book. The author says a guy is not into you: -if he does not call you -if he does not talk about the future -if he calls you only when he's drunk -if he's married -if he doesn't date you etc. etc. It all sounds obvious, right? And the book goes on to say women should hold themselves in higher regard and to stop making excuses for men. If he's not treating a woman like they're the most valuable person on the planet, then she should get rid of him. I am starting to lose my voice. The P Man gave me the best birthday present of all...a nice sickness. Ugh. Surprisingly, I got another email from James, wishing me a happy birthday (again) and the usual update on his life. I feel I should be at least courteous and write back or something. He thought about sending me a birthday present, but then he wasn't sure if my wish list was up to date. He doesn't even know I am receiving and reading his emails. |
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| Scuse me! |
| 12.21.04 (3:50 pm) [edit] |
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I succumbed to taking meds today to help with the congestion. They've worn off now, but I don't want to take anymore!! My mom and I will be having dinner tonight, and maybe I will get together with Paula tonight. I can't remember if I mentioned we saw Polar Express last night. We saw it in 3D at the IMAX. It was pretty good...magical, even. I got a little motion sick though. :oops: Today I had breakfast with Tara. Then we went shopping. I guess she hadn't gotten me my Christmas gifts yet. So far, she picked me up a sifter while we were shopping. And then she was looking for the whipping cream dispenser. Most places were sold out, but one place did have one for $150, and it was HUGE! :lol: So...she will keep looking. All my shopping is done :D Now I will have to wrap. It feels good to have accomplished all that. However, I have to get a couple of birthday presents soon right after the new year. Oh yeah, today I bought myself a little table...I'm so glad it was on sale for $29 CAN...I'll have to put it together. What else did I get myself? Cereal, blades for my Venus, and that [u]He's Just Not That Into You[/u] book. There's been enough hype about it that I thought I'd check it out. I don't if I believe the premise to leaving the guy to do all the chasing. I'd read the whole book before I pass any more judgement. |
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| Oops |
| 12.21.04 (3:17 pm) [edit] |
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Why's it such a bombshell to me when I think/find out that someone I know is reading this blog? I guess I don't mind as long as they don't mind. But seriously...I don't go around advertising this blog link. I am quite google-able, though. And yahoo-able. I think if I wanted people to read it, I would tell them. Other tbloggers (and Ryan) are exempt, of course. :lol: And I wonder if my dad remembered it was my birthday today. Or if he's back from his trip. |
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| This week's horoscope |
| 12.21.04 (8:28 am) [edit] |
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From [url=http://www.astralreflections....]Tim Stephens' Web site[/url] : Sagittarius - (Nov. 22-Dec. 21) [b]Your indecision ends this week. You feel good about things.[/b] By next week, through February, your determination and assertiveness will be a wonder to behold. You're physically and emotionally attractive now to early January - this will help you succeed in relationships - marriage, business, public interfacing, etc. You could attract a significant, serious mate! Any career or relationship actions you take (or projects you start in these zones) Sunday, after 2 p.m. Monday, and Tuesday or Friday, could open a door to wealth! Sunday's romantic. Friday brings a lucky meeting! |
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| Problem solved |
| 12.21.04 (7:58 am) [edit] |
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Happy birthday to me today!! I have to say this is one of the suckiest birthdays ever. :lol: And I do find that funny. I guess I just feel kind of lonely even though I have great friends and family around. I am also sick. Sitting around at home for the second day in a row doesn't bode well with me. When I was younger, I'd have no problem staying at home all day. Now when I do, I get into a grumpy mood. I'll go out in a bit to do some shopping since my body doesn't feel tired enough for me to sleep. I had a hard time falling asleep last night, too. So I think my P Man problem is solved. Sunday night, I swung by his place to get my things and left right after. I was really cold. And when he asked if he could call me later that night, I said no. So this morning, I had an email waiting for me from him that he sent yesterday afternoon. It said: [i]I don't know why you wouldn't want me to call you last night. Sometimes I wonder why I bother. Alot of the time you seem really cold. Don't call me, I'll call you and it's not going to be for awhile. Need to figure some stuff out. hope you can handle that. sorry didn't want to piss you off. [/i] I fired off a semi-long reply, which I hope he reads. It was honest and included everything that was on my mind. Actually the last paragraph would have been the most important. I said: [i]I'm not sure what kind of stuff you need to figure out. It's too bad you don't tell me these things. You know I am all for talking stuff through. Ever since my housewarming, I've been doing a lot of thinking about you and me. When we get out and do stuff, it's really great. I have an awesome time. Maybe that just makes for a good friendship. Because I don't think you are ready to have the kind of relationship I want at this point in time. By Sunday, I'd kind of given up. Take care and have a good holiday. [/i] I'm not expecting anything else to come of this P Man thing. Finally. I'm not sure why it was so difficult for me to dump him sooner. Maybe I was hopeful; I don't know. Of course I like to tell myself we weren't officially back together this round. I am a little miffed that he decided to spring this on me around my birthday. Good thing I changed my mind about having dinner with him and made plans with my mom earlier. So typical of him to bail. |
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| Quiz time |
| 12.20.04 (10:19 am) [edit] |
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Borrowed from [url=http://anastacia.tblog.com]Anastacia's blog[/url] :D ( ) You have not done (*) You’ve done (*) Been drunk (*) Kissed a member of the opposite sex (*) Kissed a member of the same sex ( ) Crashed a friends car (*) Been to Japan [i](just the airport)[/i] (*) Ridden in a taxi (*) Been in love (*) Been dumped (*) Shoplifted (*) Been fired ( ) Been in a fist fight (*) Snuck out of my parents house ( ) Had a crush on someone of the same sex ( ) Dated someone of the same sex (*) Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back ( ) Been arrested (*) Made out with a stranger (*) Made a booty call (*) Been a booty call (*) Stole something from my job ( ) Celebrated New Years in Times Square ( ) Gone on a blind date (*) Lied to a friend (*) Have a friend lie to me (*) Had a crush on a teacher [i](He had the cutest dimples and he was so passionate talking about Karl Marx)[/i] ( ) Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans ( ) Been to Europe (*) Skipped school ( ) Slept with a co-worker [i](we did other stuff but never slept together)[/i] (*) Cut myself [i](but not purposely)[/i] ( ) Been married ( ) Gotten divorced ( ) Had children ( ) Seen someone die ( ) Been to Africa ( ) Had a crush on one of my Tblog friends (*) Slapped someone I love ( ) Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/fetish ball (*) Been to Canada (*) Been to Mexico (*) Been on a plane ( ) Thrown up in a bar ( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show ( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire (*) Eaten Sushi (*) Been snowboarding (*) Met someone in person from the internet (*) Been moshing at concerts ( ) Been in an abusive relationship ( ) Been pregnant or got someone pregnant ( ) Lost a child (*) Graduated college ( ) Tried killing yourself (*) Taken painkillers (*) Had sex ( ) Intentionally burned yourself ( ) Wished someone dead ( ) Wished someone dead right now ( ) Admitted to a big mistake (*) Been misunderstood ( ) Told someone I hated them when I didn’t (*) Told someone I loved them when I didn’t ( ) Love or miss someone right now |
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| Meeting a friend |
| 12.20.04 (5:48 am) [edit] |
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I have a friend who's all set to meet up with me in Hong Kong. Hanging out with him half a day would be good enough for me. But he plans on being in Hong Kong for 4 days and 3 nights. "That way we can have 1 - 2 days of sightseeing and plenty of time for shopping!" No way am I going to spend half my vacation with him when I have lots of family to spend time with!! And you bet I'd rather go shopping with my girl cousin!! Please don't let him still want me. |
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| Sick |
| 12.20.04 (5:40 am) [edit] |
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I knew I wanted to take a sick day, but not because I was feeling horribly ill! I can still smell, but my throat is really irritated and my head feels foggy and the congestion is starting. As long as I can taste food this week, it will be okay. And I hope I don't feel worse. Last night I did end up going out for dinner with my mom since I was feeling hungry. I gave her some Krispy Kreme doughnuts and a raisin scone. Afterwards, I dropped by the P Man's to pick up my stuff. I was still feeling residual anger from the day's argument since nothing was resolved. And when I saw him again, he was like nothing had happened. He just thought I looked grumpy. Mind you, I was feeling under the weather. I think he was a little miffed that I only went by to get my stuff and not see him/hang out. (Well, he even said something about it.) Then when I was leaving, he asked me if I wanted him to call me later, and I told him no. I'm not really in the mood for talking to him because I just feel POed. I did my best to tell him that it's important for real boyfriends to be part of my circle of friends and family. And he doesn't seem to get it. Now it's just "your friends hate me, and I don't want to be around people who hate me." Fair enough, but when it's my birthday thing or my best friend who is visiting from out of town, make an exception!! And he's supposed to be taking me out for dinner tomorrow night. It's not like a taking me out for the evening for my birthday. It's an it's your birthday, so I am taking you out for an early dinner dinner and so I can drive my grandma to my parents. We have to finish early, and I am not going along for the ride. When I asked about meeting his family, he said he wasn't even speaking to them right now, and his grandmother is too sick to meet me. Whatever. I've decided to not get him a tie for Christmas now. He just bought a bunch, and I've seen how he treats his ties (and clothes). I'm not going to get him a nice tie to have him hang it up knotted on a doorknob with all the others. I'm going try to find him a dayplanner at a dollar store, get him some training chopsticks and clothes hangers. It will be the cheapest gift I can get him!! Of course...unless we are not together... I am tempted to get out of going out for dinner tomorrow night. I am sick anyway. I am back to feeling uncomfortable with the thought of being with him. |
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| I feel spoiled today |
| 12.19.04 (3:12 pm) [edit] |
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I met up with Tara and Steve for brunch. They treated, and I also got a plush blanket, soap, a belt, and a Starbucks gift card. The food was delish...definitely would want to go back!! On my way home, I decided to do a bit of shopping, so now I am closer to having finished my Christmas shopping. I need one more thing for a cousin of mine, and I guess I will get something for the P man. I will wait until after my birthday before I get something for him. The more time I spend away from him, the less I want to see him. Or maybe I just like hearing people tell me I can do better. :lol: that sounds sad. Tonight I will watch some TV and go to bed early. I feel hungry, but I've eaten too much lately to want to eat anymore. I was going to have dinner with my mom, but then we changed our minds. I even got her a raisin scone today!! Maybe I will end up eating it. |
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| I am really sick of it |
| 12.19.04 (9:45 am) [edit] |
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The fighting. And fighting on MSN is even more lame. All this anger and fighting...for what...*throws up hands in exasperation* @#$! What was this fight about...the main issue was...meeting friends and family. 1. When someone is significant in my life, I want to include him when I do things with friends and/or family. 2. I have been trying to do that with the P Man...Round 3 was because I wanted to. The current Round 4 is more like a test. He says he wants something long-term as well, but man, he has to show it. 3. Due to illness (understandable), he's bailed on all parts of my birthday celebration with my friends and he is now bailing on meeting my best friend and her husband who's in town for the holidays. When I mentioned that there will be another opportunity to meet on Christmas Eve, right away he was "I might be doing something with my family but at this point, we're not even talking." When I've been sick in the past, he's forced his company on me. :x 4. He's never gone out of his way to introduce me to his friends. "You can hang out with us anytime," he's said recently...when I started yammering on with the friends thing. |
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| Merry birthday |
| 12.19.04 (8:25 am) [edit] |
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That's what Erin and Randy came up with for people whose birthdays were close to Christmas. I think from now on, I'm going to use Christmas paper for everyone's birthdays :P My friends and I went out to celebrate mine and Steve's birthdays since ours are on the same day. We went for all-you-can-eat at this Japanese food place, and then we went to the pub. Afterwards, we went back to Paula and Erin's for some cake. I was so stuffed last night. I don't think I'm all that hungry yet even though I've already had toast. Now I'm eating a krispy Kreme doughnut. They make me really hyper. And I am eating as much as I can now before my cold really settles in. I am definitely getting sick. Yesterday my throat was irritated and I thought it was from inhaling stuff the night before, but then the irritation got worse. My body feels tired, too. Perhaps I will get in my half sick day tomorrow after all! It felt good to be with friends. They spoiled me, too!! I got a dozen doughnuts, a CD set, an air freshener, soap, gum, a magnet, a fondue set, a coffee press, and some coasters. So at the pub...there were a group of guys and some of them thought it'd be really cool to sit around with their balls hanging out of their jeans (where the zipper is). They weren't just flashing. They were just sitting there like it was normal. When the establishment was notified, they chose to ignore it because one of the guys used to work there. I think that was unacceptable. I have nothing against sacks, but I didn't need to see them. And I didn't need to see anybody fondling themselves. The P Man was too sick to come out, and I am kind of glad he wasn't there. There was only a small bit of talk about him. Although my friends are supportive of me, they don't care too much for him because of his dishonesty. Kira was again saying that I could do much better. My friends wanted me to talk to her cute friend. "He was totally checking you out!" I couldn't do it. I was too shy. :oops: |
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| Hardass |
| 12.18.04 (10:59 am) [edit] |
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Maybe I am too much of one. I don't really like that. I put up walls so people can't get in. So when the P Man said I was always so negative, I got a little defensive. Maybe I don't focus on the positives enough, but I can't ignore facts. We met up after our nights were done...he stayed over and then left really early. There's never been a time where we wake up in the morning and have a regular morning (you know, like eat breakfast). One of us is always quickly out the door. He thought it was good enough that he actually stayed over. I'd like more than just having a warm body lying next to me in my bed, that's all. What's my problem anyway...When he's making an effort, it's not good enough and I complain. Then when he's all dejected, I feel horrible about having complained. This cycle needs to stop!! Maybe I just need to decide what it is that I want. Right now, a fear of mine is him giving up. Maybe I need to put in more effort even though I feel that a large part is up to him to make up the past for me. To some extent anyway. He's working very hard on the reliability thing. These are all just rambling thoughts. I still have to get him a Christmas present. I'd get him a shirt and tie but that is more than what I want to spend on him right now. Just a tie by itself seems so pitiful. Going to the mall right now truly sucks. It was so busy yesterday, and everyone's just walking around like they have all day!! And then in the parking lot, I got honked at by a woman because I made her give me some room to move....this coming from a woman who was in the centre of the road. :roll: I still need to get something for my mom, the P Man, and a gift for my cousin. Maybe I should get a little something more for my dad, too. Last night was a fun night. A few of my girlfriends and I went out to a nice restaurant for dinner instead of exchanging gifts. Then we went back to Paula's and hung out. I got acquainted with MJ, but I didn't really get much out of it. |
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| Yeah, use it |
| 12.17.04 (1:27 pm) [edit] |
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Use my toothbrush. Would you use someone else's toothbrush? Lots of people don't seem to have a problem with it. "It's no different from kissing!" I guess if you think about it, perhaps. But then why weren't we brought up to share toothbrushes? There was never a family toothbrush!! I thought it was a disgusting idea...to use someone else's toothbrush. But then why would I think that? Sharing toothbrushes never really came up before, but mine got stolen and used right before my own eyes on Saturday. I did not want it back!! |
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| I'm at work |
| 12.17.04 (7:59 am) [edit] |
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Everyone else in my group is either working at home or taking a vacation day. I feel so unmotivated right now to do any work!! The drive to work was extremely foggy this morning. I can't believe most people did not have their lights on. I couldn't really see farther than 2 car lengths in front of me. I had a really fun night last night. Instead of going shopping, the P Man and I went and caught a bit of junior hockey, and then we watched Collateral...well, most of it anyway. Both he and his roommate were ready for bed before the movie ended. It was very nice that he wanted me to stay last night, but I went home. When I asked him what he wanted for Christmas, he told me what I was planning on getting him :x Now it'll seem like I took his suggestion. Boo!! Oh well. I'll get him a couple of other little things that he'd not think of. I hope to find a cheapo dayplanner from a dollar store and some chopsticks for newbies. I'll get him a tie or two or a shirt and tie. I will skip the smelly stuff since he and I seem to have different ideas of what is nice-smelling. |
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| Old posts |
| 12.16.04 (7:43 am) [edit] |
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I'm still quite sad I am missing 6 MONTHS of posts here :( I went to my old blog site yesterday and copy and pasted all my old entries into a Word file. Then I read them all. Some stuff I don't even remember writing. So much has happened. There's one individual that I became buddies with over there, and then he also migrated over here (I think he was the one who introduced me to tBlog). Then one day, he just stopped talking to me...dropped me off from the top of his Links, removed me from his MSN...with no explanation. We didn't have a fight or anything. I wonder what happened. It would have been nice if he told me I did something to offend him. I hope I've successfully battled off that pending cold. By the end of yesterday I was feeling more awake and with it. I had planned on taking a sick day today but then I have a few meetings later. I will take a sick day at some point before the end of the year. Last night was the finale of America's Next Top Model. This season wasn't all that entertaining, but I am glad Eva won. I watched it with Paula and Erin, and we actually cheered. :shock: I have this feeling of uneasiness sitting in me again. I don't know what it is. I bet it's related to the uncertainty about the P Man. Ah well. |
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| Something to look forward to |
| 12.15.04 (8:22 am) [edit] |
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24 premiers on Sunday, January 10, 2004, and it's going to be two hours!!! Then it's on Mondays at 9. I can barely wait!!! At least when I am gone on my trip, I am only missing one episode. I'll be sure to set the VCR. Speaking of trip, my mom has graciously paid for my plane ticket, which covers my birthday and Christmas gifts!! Woohoo!! |
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| Please |
| 12.15.04 (7:54 am) [edit] |
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Please don't let me be sick. Please don't let me be sick. Please don't let me be sick. My body is feeling tired and there's a tickle in my throat. I don't have time to be sick now!! Last night, I took my mom out for dinner. It was enjoyable. Then we talked about more dinners next week. I have relatives coming into town the day after my birthday, so we'll be going out to eat that day, but she seemed to also want to take me out to eat on my birthday. I'm not sure why I was so resistant. Do I just want to be a recluse right now? It's not what I need. Or am I holding out for something "better"? That would be selfish. On my birthday last year, I hung out with James. Then I went out for dinner, and then I went over to Paula's. So this Saturday, we're hanging out at Paula's for a bit, and then going to dinner and then a pub. I realised last night that I hate going to pubs. I don't drink, so it will be much sitting around. Hopefully there will be some good music to dance to, and hopefully I won't be sick. I started feeling bad for suggesting the P Man not come out on Saturday, and I also changed my mind about not wanting him there. So I asked him if he'd like to come out Saturday night. I was expecting him to say yes, but instead he gave me a "let me think about it." I have kind of given the impression that my friends don't like him (that's not completely true. They just don't think he's the one for me.), and he wants to avoid Kira. It all makes sense, I know, but my first reaction was to fly off the handle. It was like "you wouldn't come out for my birthday because you want to avoid my friends?" Anyway, it's up to him what he wants to do. I told him it'd be nice to have him there, but I understand his thinking. He said we could go out on our own, too. Tara's in town soon. I hope they can meet. |
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| Office gossip |
| 12.14.04 (12:23 pm) [edit] |
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I am looking forward to the next Social Committee meeting even though it will be a lot of present wrapping. However, I can at least talk about Saturday night's party. Like who went with whom. (I knew Ice Queen would be going with He who thinks he's all that, but a certain someone didn't believe me. ) Like who's engaged. (The last I spoke about relationships to this girl, she wasn't in one and said that her ideal guy HAD to be crazier than she. So when I spoke to her Saturay night, she told me she was engaged. Met a guy online, got engaged after 3 months are living together. They met in January.) One of our VPs was dancing up a storm with his wife...and it wasn't just any dancing...it was like rave dancing. I thought that was quite cool. Turns out he used to frequent my favourite dance club. That's really the gossip there is. I had lots of people asking me who Patrick was. Oh and today I went out for lunch with Chris. I had angel hair pasta with a marinara sauce. I feel pretty gross and bloated right now. I was noticing his hair is getting thin and his sideburns are getting a little salt and peppery. |
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| Shopping |
| 12.14.04 (11:54 am) [edit] |
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Since I have decided to not help out with the office Kids' Christmas party, I volunteered to go shopping for their gifts. I figured there'd be more people interested in buying this kind of stuff...like people who have a clue about kids?! I've been given a list of the kids and the age ranges. From that I choose stuff at a store. I am so out of tune with kids it's not even funny. I didn't grow up being around a lot of kids, I didn't babysit, I don't know any kids. How am I supposed to know what would make a good gift?? I'd choose them all books, but apparently that is not fun enough. |
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| Slacking |
| 12.14.04 (9:26 am) [edit] |
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I've been slacking off from the gym for the last few weeks now, and my body is starting to ache. I'd better get at it. My back is sore, and I am getting soft!! I was looking at some of the photos from the Christmas party, and my arms look huge!! Last year I was looking pretty toned, but I also weighed more. As much as I don't really want to blog about this, I will...just so I can keep track of what's going on my life when I look back. Or rather, if I look back. I don't often like reading old journal or blog entries. Sometimes I bore myself. But there is an advantage to talking about everything. Speaking of everything, when I was in high school, what I discussed most in my journal was stuff about hating my dad and how he pissed me off and boys. I guess times haven't changed that much. So, for the record... I haven't dumped the P Man. I'm almost embarrassed to say this. I was very firm about dumping him, but he is still in the picture. Last night I told him I wanted another talk :roll: And I asked for the story in his words. So it was the same old thing. They met at a Hallowe'en party, and they went on two dates after he and I broke up. He said it wasn't right of him to take her number when we were together and he apologised for that and the possibility of making out with her [he doesn't remember doing it, but it was possible as he was drunk]. This is really it. No, really!! Why am I even giving him another chance? Because he asked, and has been good. If he had not asked for another chance, I wouldn't even be talking to him. I've not completely let him back in, mentally because I am waiting for him to prove himself. One slip-up and that is it. The trust thing is one big hump to get over. The next humps past that is his (im)maturity. One thing at a time. And what's tough is that my gut goes against what everyone else is telling me. I hope I'm not fooling myself. |
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| The old days |
| 12.13.04 (12:32 pm) [edit] |
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While I was driving back to the office, I was behind this delivery truck. It has a Vitasoy logo on it, and it brought me back to the late 70s/early 80s. We used to have a station wagon...with the wood paneling. It was a Parisienne. There were no seats in the back. I usually sat in the back. Hmm...I wonder how old I was because I remember sitting up. Back in the day, seat belts didn't really seem like such a huge deal?? I also remember standing in the row of seats from time to time and leaning up against my parents' seats in the front while the car was moving. Anyway, back to Vitasoy...it's a brand of soy milk that's been around forever. My parents often bought a little drink box of it for me whenever we went to Chinatown. I'd drink it, and feel sick throughout the car ride home. I had a fear of drinking that stuff for a while, especially the malt flavour. I am pretty sure there was carpeting in that station wagon. |
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| The higher beings |
| 12.13.04 (11:35 am) [edit] |
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There seems to be some higher force stopping me from go-karting, dammit. For my company's 20th anniversary party, I organised go-karting. And then I couldn't even make it to the party. :x And since then, I've been saying to my friends that I want to go-karting...the the point where they tell me to stop talking about...because none of them want to do it!! So it's my birthday coming up...I figured this would be my chance to do it. And of course it's been no secret that that's what I want to do. So Paula's who been organising tells me today that the place is booked and is rather pricey. So it looks like go-karting is out of the question for what I want to do for my birthday. There really isn't anything else I want to do. But what is pissing me off is that here's Paula making an attempt to organise something (which I am still appreciative of), but she's telling me she has no time to organise anything right now and it's too costly to have a night out. I'm just thinking, if it's such a difficult thing to organise and for everyone to have a good and inexpensive time to just forget about it all!! And it's supposed to be a joint birthday thing with Carrie's boyfriend, so I don't really want to suggest doing something he'd not enjoy. :x :x :x :x :x |
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| Lip smacking |
| 12.13.04 (8:33 am) [edit] |
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I got a whole tonne of sleep last night, and I still feel exhausted. Sunday was a day of recovery from the night before. I had only one real meal yesterday, and then I had some popcorn and a Kool-Aid slushee at the movies. The P Man and I watched [u]Ocean's 12[/u]. There were some laugh out loud moments, but because I dozed off a few times during the movie, I didn't have much of a clue as to what was going on. Dang!! I think my biggest accomplishment yesterday was doing laundry. I was too tired to even buy groceries. I'll do that today. And try to go to the gym. And get my mom's birthday present. And swing by my mom's to pick up some food. It's my mom's birthday tomorrow. I hope I inherited her great skin. *yawn* |
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| The staff party |
| 12.12.04 (12:56 pm) [edit] |
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It was actually a lot more fun than I expected. The P Man showed up. And maybe it was because I was expecting to not have a good time just because he was around, but I had fun with him, too. But then again, I tried my best to not think about what pissed me off about him. I still haven't dumped him yet. My friends are kicking my ass about it. But on the other hand, they will support whatever I choose to do. I'd kick my friends' asses if they were being like me, too. The whole thing goes back to the Kira thing. She says he and I were together when they went out. He says he and I were done. But according to the dates of the dates, we weren't done. And when they met, they made out. He says he didn't make out with her. I know the past can't be changed, and I can accept whatever happened...happened. BUT...the fact (okay, theory) that it happened at all not is not okay. And it doesn't sit well with me. He accepts responsibility for meeting her and going out with her. But he does not accept responsibility for dating her and me at the same time. And he does not accept responsibility for making out with her. I can either give him the benefit of the doubt AGAIN and give him ONE more chance and move on. Or I kick him to the curb so I don't have to even think about this. I am tired. Oh...that reminds me...I had a dream last night that a coworker told me I farted so loudly in my sleep that she could hear it through her bathroom while she was in her hotel room. :shock: |
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| Feel ill |
| 12.10.04 (2:57 pm) [edit] |
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I feel nauseated. Maybe it's because of the upcoming weekend. Tonight I'm off for some Greek food with Jamie. She's a cool lady. I met her in my dance class. She has so much self-confidence. She wants to go to a bar after dinner. I guess that is okay. My only fear is running into Patrick. He called me at work this afternoon, as usual. He asked me if I was in a happier mood today. We talked a bit about the party tomorrow. I asked him to get there around 6:30, and I reminded him of where it was. He asked me for directions. Basically, I spoke to him as if I wouldn't be talking to him 'til tomorrow. I told him to not be late, and to not forget to show up. He said he'd show up. As for my aforementioned fear of running into Patrick at a bar tonight, it's quite possible even though he said he was going to stay at home. I also asked him if he was going to have company. He laughed and said no, unless I was going to drop by. Then he said to give him a call if I had an early night. People have suggested I just break the date with him for the party. If the double-date wasn't happening Sunday, I probably would. Oh yes...I pissed off my father last night because I told him I couldn't drive him to the airport tomorrow morning. My reason was that I wanted to sleep in, but that wasn't acceptable. It's going to be a long day for me tomorrow...gotta go fix a scanner problem, go get my hair done and hurry my buns to help set up the party. Speaking of which, I'm curious as to why he wouldn't just go downtown with me in the same car. Technically, he'd be arriving one hour later than I. Well, the upside is that we both have our cars so nobody gets stranded if he gets dumped before Sunday. When I told my mom about my dad, she asked me why I didn't just drive him to the airport and then just go back home and sleep. I would, if there was time. (So typical of her to suggest I give in to him.) Of course it was okay for him to say okay to driving me to the bus depot and then bailing on me last minute. And it was okay for him to say he'd pay for my cab fare and then not cough it up. Cost to the bus depot by taxi = $35. Cost to the airport by taxi = $15 max. Ugh, I can't wait 'til my spirits lift. Why do I feel so crappy right now? I keep thinking things will be better after this weekend. I sure hope I am right. |
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| Rosie blabs |
| 12.10.04 (8:01 am) [edit] |
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Based on [url=http://dariana.tblog.com]Dariana's blog[/url]: THREE NAMES YOU GO BY: - my first name - my Chinese name - n/a THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD: - Spirit of the North - PuppyChow76 - RosieTulips THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: - my honesty - my muscles - my open-mindedness THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: - too nice sometimes - I am often late - too guarded THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE: - Chinese - Canadian - n/a THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: - heights - water - being betrayed THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: - glasses/contacts - moisturizer - water THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW: - headphones - shirt - skate shoes THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS - Weezer - The Beatles - Squirrel Nut Zippers THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS - Pachelbel Canon in D - n/a - n/a THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS - cook - take a hiatus from dating :lol: - take a class in makeup artistry or massage THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given) - longevity - honesty - shared experiences TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE: (In any order, let people guess the lie) - I am almost legally blind - I'm allergic to penicillin - I have three nipples THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU: - strong thighs - broad shoulders - big hands THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO: - be comfortably dishonest - cook like my mom - sit around and play video games THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: - working out - dancing - watching movies THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW: - dump Patrick - wake up - be in another country, exploring THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: - More tech writing - Get into homeopathy - Massage THREE PLACES YOU HAVE BEEN ON VACATION: - Hawaii - Hong Kong - Sydney ANY THREE KID'S NAMES: - whose!? THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: - go on a hot air balloon ride - fall in love - ride a motorcycle THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY: -you -you -you (Anyone can take this quiz, and if you do, please let me know :)) |
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| How can lying be easy? |
| 12.09.04 (9:57 pm) [edit] |
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I don't get it. I feel so uncomfortable lying to someone's face (or even over the phone). I feel just as uncomfortable being dishonest (hey, I didn't even take the extra $10 from the cashier who gave it to me when she miscalculated...) Obviously I talked to Patrick tonight :roll: I think he lied about his whereabouts last night, but I don't even care anymore. I kept asking him over and over again...The first time I talked to him he was at Bar #1 with coworkers. The second I talked to him, he was with friends. The third time I asked him, he was bar #2 with clients. Geez, make up your mind! Today, I'd been thinking about dumping him before the weekend...and before the work Christmas party. I'd probably have a better time without him. But it might suck to have my hotel room all to myself. I asked my friend Chris if he'd be my date if I dumped Patrick before Saturday. He would've, but he's going to be in Toronto. Then I asked my friend Aaron if he'd come to me if I dumped my date that night. He said he'd come find me if I needed him. For once, I am leaning on friends for support. My gal pals will be out for a nice dinner. I told them they could come party with me afterwards :lol: I tried really hard to pretend nothing was up when talking to him tonight. He asked me why I was so down earlier. I blamed it on the weather. He also asked me what I wanted for Christmas tonight. And told me was looking forward to the Christmas party. However, he intends on meeting me there. I can't wait to see if he actually shows up! (And on time.) He thinks I will never speak to him again if he doesn't show up. He is so right. But soon, I won't be speaking to him again anyway. I told him about my family dinner tonight, or at least the part where my aunt asked me if I was seeing anybody. I had told her no. He asked me why I didn't tell her the truth. Out of confusion, I asked him "what would be the truth?" He said, "that you have a boyfriend." I laughed in my head. I never actually said he was this round. In fact, all I said was that I wanted to date him without the titles until I made up my mind. And I have made up my mind. |
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| My horoscope for this week |
| 12.09.04 (11:21 am) [edit] |
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Sagittarius - (Nov. 22-Dec. 21) Your energy, charisma and high spirits attract people, but you're not quite ready to respond, nor to launch any important projects. [b]Patience equals self-confidence - you'll only charge forward if you're unsure. You could be drawn to a "secret" affair (in love, politics or business) - perhaps an old flame. This situation will, in future, place an onerous burden on you, and a guilty conscience. Remain clean, upright. [/b]Tackle career and prestige situations Sunday. You're popular, optimistic Monday/Tuesday - a wish could come true! Lie low, rest mid-week. Your energy soars Friday/Saturday! The bolded part is quite applicable to me right now. Man I love that [url=http://www.astraflreflections...]Tim Stephens[/url]!! |
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| pensive |
| 12.09.04 (11:10 am) [edit] |
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I haven't done any real work this week. And I just re-read James' email for like the 3rd time today. When I read his emails, I just mentally respond. He was saying his company gave out bonuses and raises, but he got absolutely nothing. In fact, an email went out to all employees stating that the average bonus was $7400 and 7% raise. Why would they even share this kind of information?! One year, I got a bonus, and I was told to keep it hush-hush. Same with my raises. Sometimes I want to write back to him. Today I want to write back to him, but I won't. And my friend Mark...I feel horrible for him. He's still a young guy (early 20s) in university, and his mom was recently diagnosed with cancer. Right now, the situation is not looking good at all. *sigh* The doctors may soon give up. Last night was my last dance class of the year. Thank goodness. I hurt my back earlier this week, and last night did not help. I also had a muscle cramp in the middle of a spin, so my calf is a little sore today. And I may have gotten rug burn on my knee.:roll: I am looking forward to seeing my relatives. They'll be here in a couple of weeks. And I talked to my mom briefly yesterday. When I go to Hong Kong, I'll likely stay at my cousin's and share his bed with another cousin while he sleeps in his living room. I can't wait to go on this trip! I should be meeting up with my friend Eugene while I'm there. He's been living in Australia since spring, and will be also visiting the Phillipines before stopping off in Hong Kong. It'll be good to see him again. Geez, what do I get for a cousin who's turning 30 in Feb?????? |
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| Birthday stuff |
| 12.09.04 (8:09 am) [edit] |
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My birthday is coming up in a couple of weeks. My friends and I will be out next week celebrating mine and Steve's birthdays. Go-karting is definitely on the list. Carrie's been asking what else I want to do. I'd also like to eat, go dancing, smoke some weed (it's been a very long time). I don't drink, and I'd like to relax a little. People have also been asking me what I want for my birthday or Christmas (yes, I do get shafted for having such a LATE birthday :wink:). Things I want include (but are not limited to) AA batteries, pasta dishes, whipped cream dispenser, an iPod mini, a sound system, diamond studs, diamond pendant, more clothes, spa treatments, (specific) skin care products, (specific) cosmetics, a new car, interior decorations. That's really all about it. I'd like more of the stuff I already need/use. Otherwise, they're big ticket items that I'd never dream of asking anyone for! |
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| I am human |
| 12.09.04 (7:20 am) [edit] |
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I was pretty bummed yesterday. I still am. I did some reflection about the guys in my life over the past year, and I think I am a little drained from them. There have been lots of exits. In chronological order... James: I realised things weren't going to go anywhere (after 9 months) so I told him I didn't want to see him anymore. Then we didn't talk for about a month, and he re-appeared and then disappeared and then re-appeared, and then I cut him off completely. He still sends me emails every couple of weeks. Maybe he will eventually wear me down and I'll actually write him back. Chris: We dated a couple of years ago and things fizzled out, but he was always trying to maintain contact. Often when I'd see him again, he'd try to make a move. Anyway, when I finally decided that maybe it was okay to be friends with him, he pissed me off in a major way, so I told him I never wanted to speak to him again. It all began when he half committed to going to a concert with me. He said he wouldn't go with me if his Internet love interest was in town, but he'd be still going to the concert. Wayne: One week was "love ya" and the next week was "You can date whomever you want. [I've met someone else, so] You can see whomever you want." Literally. He who must not be named: "My wife and I have issues. We can't be friends anymore." P Man: Well, we're on round 4 of dating off and on...in the last 5 - 6 months. Nuff said. This review went through my head, and then I went back to thinking about Patrick and how he was dishonest with me...and how could he do that to me...which left me bummed out this morning. Lucky me :roll:...he phoned me this morning (earlier than his usual) while I was driving into work (earlier than *my* usual as well). I'm not so good at hiding some things. So he asked me a few times what was wrong, and he mentioned I sounded down. Actually, he phoned me last night, too...while he was out at a pub. Earlier in the day, he said he'd call me that night. And when he called, he said he just wanted to say hi, asked me how dance class was, and told me he missed me. I told him we'd see each other in a few days. When I didn't say that I missed him, too, he asked me about that. I was thinking no, but I giggled and said, "maybe a little." I cursed a little after we hung up. Then I decided to text message him to call me when he got home so "we could say good night." 1 am rolls around and then he calls...He said he was going to leave the pub around half an hour when I last spoke to him...leaving him getting home 2+ hours after his estimated time. |
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| And he got another text message |
| 12.08.04 (3:00 pm) [edit] |
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So I've been emailing with Kira and we've just been talking about Patrick. She sent him a text message saying "Thanks for the lovely reply. Quit messing with Rosie." And he replied. Told her they didn't go out on their dates when he and I were together and that he thought she was a nice girl but to stop text messaging him about this BS. I thought that was a rather nice reply from him...So he is welcome to receiving other kinds of text messages from her? |
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| Well, he got the text message |
| 12.08.04 (1:06 pm) [edit] |
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Surprisingly, he told me about it. I played dumb. He called me while I was on my cell phone, and then I called him back while I was driving back to the office. Conversation was as usual until... P: Hey, I got a text message from your friend. Me: Oh? Who? P: Kira. Me: Oh...What did she say? P: Something like don't date your girlfriend's friends or something like that. Me: Oh. P: Tell her to never text message me again. Me: Are you going to text message her back? P: Why? Me: I don't know. So by the time I got back to the office, I had an email waiting for me from Paula. She told me that the P Man had tried calling Kira, and when she didn't pick up, he text messaged her back saying that he didn't. |
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| Having knowledge |
| 12.08.04 (11:19 am) [edit] |
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Kind of sucks sometimes. Kira sent the P Man a text message. It said: "Good luck with your next girlfriend. Here's a tip: don't date her friends at the same time." I had given her the okay to tell him off. She had wanted to do it before. So now I am trying to go on as if that didn't happen. I won't let on that I knew about it. I was going to unblock him from MSN today, but I won't. I had thought about calling him this afternoon, but I won't. It would just seem too weird. But I am dying to know what he's going to do after he gets that message. Will he respond? Will he act any differently around me? Will he tell me?? Will he dump me thinking I put her up to it? Ugh, I am not feeling too good about the weekend coming up. But still I will need to dump him (well, we're not officially together, but I should let him know I don't want to pursue things). Question is...what do I say to him? 1. Sorry, I only want sex from you. 2. You're an asshole, and there is no way I can trust you, ever. 3. Just stop calling and tell him I'm busy all the time (which would piss him off and probably have him say mean things to me). 4. I'd rather be just friends. :?: |
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| Started off wanting revenge |
| 12.07.04 (11:18 pm) [edit] |
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Edit: Wow, this turned out to be a really long entry! This requires titles! [b]The background[/b] Well, seems like my circle of friends know about the P man having dated a friend of the circle (Kira) while he and I were on a break. So there's all this gossip going on.:x The news is is that he went out with her while he and I were together. I gave him the chance to fess up on the weekend, and he did not take up that opportunity. [b]Early in the night[/b] So...[oh hey! I went to Madama Butterfly tonight and it was sooo beautiful and soooo tragic.] all night I was mad. I thought about how I could get some revenge because I'd been nice enough already...had broken up with him in a nice respectful manner and when he asked to give things another crack, I said okay - based on his word that he was sorry and that he knew that he brought everything upon himself. Some of my dumb revenge plans included having him think I had a disease or was pregnant, that I'd met someone else, that I'd been dating other people, having Kira ask him out, etc. I ended up deciding it wasn't worth my time to think of some lavish plan (but hey, if anyone has any out there, I'd LOVE to hear it) to hurt him, and that I'd wait 'til after this weekend to decide what to do. No point to causing more harm. Sometimes I think maybe Patrick was karma kicking me in the bum. I honestly feel I am due for some payback. There was a time when I dated many guys at once, and I never let on that I was dating others. [b]Later in the night[/b] So, on my way home, the P Man called. Now, when I'm mad, I can't hide it very well. I get sarcastic. He picked up on it, I guess. He accused me of having an attitude, and told me to not bother calling him if I was going to be a bitch. I was thinking, "what? I didn't do anything!" Actually, all I did was that I told him to forget about Friday night since I had plans with someone else. In reality, I don't, but I didn't really want to see him since I have to see him Saturday and Sunday. I will make plans tomorrow. He was trying to get more details and I was just kind of evasive. "Oh, I have plans with friends, but I don't know what I'm doing yet." So after he hung up on me after his outburst, I called him back asking what was up with that. He told me to call him when I got home. [b]The phone call[/b] Half expecting him to have his phone turned off, I called him when I got home. His voice mail picked up right away, so I left a message saying, "hi Patrick. It's He called me back, and we talked. I vehemently<-- a word I have been using often lately* denied any attitude and played dumb a little. "What do you mean?" He didn't like the way I talked to him -- said it seemed like I had better thin |