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| Now where was I? |
| 05.31.05 (9:19 am) [edit] |
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I am exhausted once again. :) Combined with not sleeping well and probably some good ol' PMS makes for a tired Rosie. Last night while I was in the middle of updating here, the J Man called me...when I asked him how he was, he said he could be better. Turns out he was at the hospital in the emergency :shock: There had been an onion chopping incident. Anyway, I hightailed outta there to see him. While I was driving, I couldn't see clearly...I attributed it to my tired eyes, but I think my glasses were really dirty. The wait wasn't so bad, and it took me a while to be able to see his bloody injury. It wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. I got there around 10 pm and left around 12:30 am, I think?? Afterwards, we went to Two Parrots to eat. I thought I had blogged about my last time there, but actually went into no details...early Dec 2003. Paula and I didn't get home 'til 6 in the morning that time. It was a good night. I went to Tara's mom's for dinner last night. I had some good steak, and I don't even usually like eating steak that much. She gave me some banana loaf. And Tara leaves today *sigh* We have to get on booking our trip. This is going to sound lame, but oh well. I am not as excited about going anymore because I am going to be sad leaving the J Man, even for 2 weeks. How sad am I?? And I know it's only 2 weeks. And I know I am going to enjoy being on a trip!! So yes, I am ridiculous. Paula leaves for Europe tomorrow. Her plans of moving there for a year or more has been whittled down to traveling for 2 months :lol: I told her about my night last night, including the part where I had a laugh attack because some lady let out a little fart. I was embarrassed that I could not stop laughing hysterically. I kind of put my head down and covered my face to I could at least laugh quietly. I felt so juvenile, but I think it was the surprise element that gave me the giggles. I thought she would have been too drunk to notice at her bbq, but she thought the J Man and I looked cute together. I have only 2 left of my antibiotics. Oh please let me be fine by tomorrow. I think those urinary tract numbers are making my abs feel weak. I *hate* taking meds. |
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| Numb? Forget it |
| 05.30.05 (2:17 pm) [edit] |
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Was I wrong to expect instant relief?? It's almost enough time for me to take another one of those pills. It still hurts to pee!! All I have to show for those pills is orange pee. Ugh! I hate this!!!! I'd better be all better in 3 days. I'm losing my appetite over this! Edit: I've also been warned that by taking one of these meds that my clothes may become stained...Am I going to start leaking or something??! Hopefully I won't need to take these urinary tract numbers after today. BLEH!!!!! I feel so icky!!! |
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| Nerves |
| 05.30.05 (9:08 am) [edit] |
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Adding more sections into a Word document that already has millions of sections with headers and footers is quite nerve-wracking. I don't want any page numbering or formatting to break! *cries* I think of all documentation tasks, formatting is my least favourite. And people seem to think documentation specialists/tech writers are all well-versed in making documents pretty. :roll: |
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| wah |
| 05.29.05 (10:53 pm) [edit] |
| I can't believe how much pain I'm in right now. It's way too late to seek medical treatment. Ugh. I wish there was something to do about the pain!! I guess I am definitely seeing my doctor tomorrow. |
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| Red Twizzlers |
| 05.29.05 (4:08 pm) [edit] |
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Yesterday, I was whipping people with them. They were the super long ones. I had absolutely NO idea how much it hurt to be whipped by licorice. I will not do it again!! |
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| Man, am I exhausted |
| 05.29.05 (4:05 pm) [edit] |
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I was driving home from downtown and then it hit me how tired I was and how ready I was for a nap. Right now, I am just vegging before I meet up with my mom for dinner. And I am having some cranberry juice. I wonder if I have a bladder infection. I feel fine until I am about to finish peeing. Then it hurts!! I have also lost a slipper. I have only my left one. Either I threw the right one in the wash, or I threw it in the laundry hamper. I'm sure it will turn up eventually. My legs are also really itchy right now. I have about 10 mosquito bites on my legs :x I had no idea how viscious they were when we were at Paula's birthday BBQ. I'm glad the J Man and some of my friends met. Tara is also in town until Tuesday, so we met up for some crepes. Strawberries and whipped cream = soooo delicious. Not sure what my friends think of the J Man yet. I'm sure they think positively of him so far. He was asked how we met, but I guess we weren't really sure how to answer. "On the Internet" would suffice, I guess. :) And then we talked about "what we were." It'd be just easier calling him my bf, but I don't know how ready we are for that label (yes, I love labels!). So for now, it'll be "this is the J Man. He is my lover." BWAHAHAA I'd feel really strange about saying that. He's definitely more than a friend, and I am quite crazy about him. My feelings of uneasiness went away. I guess I just feel better when I am with him. I did express my feelings to him. I enjoy his company a lot. It's hard for me to part ways. |
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| Super bladder |
| 05.28.05 (7:14 am) [edit] |
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Too bad the bladder is not a muscle that I can strengthen. Since yesterday I feel like my bladder's been perpetually full. But I think it's my fault. A couple of weeks ago, I signed up for a MINI test drive, and unfortunately I booked it at a time that's really close to my boot camp workout appointment. Hopefully I can change that appointment because I can't change my test drive time. MINI is having some test drive event out where they have Indy. I'd really like to give this a whirl! I was really moody yesterday, and I'm not really sure why. It's a little early for PMS, but you know, the time is near :lol: I think some of it was attributed to me and the J Man. I think things are still good. We like each other, and the chemistry is there, but there is this but. I don't know if it's from the talks we've had or what, but something isn't sitting right with me. It's like there's this unsettled feeling. Maybe there haven't been resolutions? Maybe I am reacting to the way he's reacting. I have no idea. Or maybe I am just freaking out as usual. I am still reminding myself to relax and not to head for the hills. My head tells me things are right; my gut can't put its finger on it. Or maybe I am just going crazy when I don't see him, and then I start thinking too much. Yesterday I felt his words to me were thorny, but it's hard to tell for sure through IM. He made some dig when I told him I was going to go grocery shopping. "Going to call your mom?" Ever since we had that first talk, I've been totally watching everything I say. I know he said he didn't want me to change, but I am constantly worried about saying something to offend him. Maybe I am harbouring resentment about that because I'm doing my best to be more sensitive, and here he is freely taking pokes. Can he take what he dishes? Am I really going to have to more...I dunno...worldy? Am I going to have to "give in" first more often? I've always been so stubborn. *sigh* Then I felt kind of weird again yesterday when I was about get off work. I had asked the J Man about his new year's resolutions, and he was "they're secret." I'm not sure if I was mad or hurt to hear that. On one hand, I'd like if he was able to tell me anything, but on the other hand, I expect him to keep some things to himself. But to have him explicity say they're secret just didn't sit well with me. It was like he was rubbing it in my face. He disagreed with me when I said it would have been better to just say he didn't have any. He gave me a couple of unimpressed smiley looks and "hmm"s, and when I asked him "what", he said "nothing." I asked him again, and then let it go. I'm the kind of person who thinks someone will tell me what they want when they are ready, so I don't push. Sometimes I feel he tries to react, out of spite, how I have, and I really don't like it. The last night I stayed over at his place, I almost left around 3 in the morning. Usually he's really affectionate, but that night he was really cold [in reaction to my unresponsiveness]. His coldness was really bothering me, but in usual Rosie fashion, I didn't say anything right away [what is with guys who want me to speak up right away?? :P] I know at one point, the "what's wrong" question was asked of me, and I said, "nothing." My nothings can mean "nothing" or "nothing that I want to share right now." But we did talk. Sometimes I get the feeling that after we have a talk, we don't really completely let go of what brought on the talk in the first place. Well, this was a long babbling post. I still haven't collected my thoughts together in a way that I can talk to the J Man about it. I just hope I am not all tense when I see him today. I want that old feeling of being myself around him again instead of feeling like a basketcase :lol: |
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| Mr. Penis Photo is still classy |
| 05.27.05 (12:53 pm) [edit] |
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Darn, the chat window is closed so I can't block him anymore. Is he on crack? I can't believe this guy bragged to me that he could get laid whenever he wanted. Anyway, he chatted me up today and asked me if I was interested in fooling around with him since he was going to be in my area around 6 pm. I said, "no, thanks." He told me I was welcome. :roll: |
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| Yay or nay |
| 05.27.05 (11:45 am) [edit] |
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Paul Newman's Balsamic Vinaigrette - nay Kraft's Balsamic Vinaigreet - yay ~H2O+ Dual Action Eye Make-up Remover - nay ~H2O+ Water-Activated Eye Make-Up Remover - yay Lancome's Lash Booster - nay I got some VISA stuff straightened out today. For the last couple of years, I've just kept looking at my bill and the payment due date. It's usually the day before payday. How annoying that was to me. Anyway, I called them up today and asked if they could move my date, and yeah! Next period will be better! Talk about procrastination. Erin and I got some good shopping time in yesterday for Paula's birthday. We both got her the same card. Paula's given me that card two years in a row. I don't hang out with Erin as much as I'd like. I've known her since she moved here in junior high. We used to sing in biology class. I gave her an update on the J Man during dinner, of course. We were starved. I am still weeks behind on my TV shows. I don't feel like I've been spending much time at home. I mean I hang out in the kitchen and my bathroom and my bed, but I guess I haven't been doing much there. Tonight, I hope. After work, I'll get some grocery shopping done and then go for a run. Tonight I plan to just veg on the couch and get ready for tomorrow. I have shopping and dance practice to do -- not to mention fitting in some weight training time. |
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| Why am I so scared? |
| 05.26.05 (11:50 am) [edit] |
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I'm scared to open up (thank goodness for blogging...from the way I type, people think I'm really bubbley and outgoing and all that, but in person, I'm so quiet and quite shy.). I'm scared of getting close to someone. I build up walls. So unhealthy and it's not even something I want to do. It's like some natural reflex. So anyway, today I was *really* late for work. It was really difficult getting out of bed considering we went to sleep around 4:30. I should have given myself at least 45 minutes to drive to work instead of half an hour. I ended up showing up late to my meeting, which was an important one. :? I can't let some things keep sliding. This includes getting into work at a decent time and eating habits!! I think my fear with the J Man is still around, and I have no idea what I am even scared of. Maybe I am just too insecure and probably just afraid of rejection. But I have to remind myself I can't force anything to happen:!: I hate being so Rosie. i.e., me, sometimes. Normally I'd go into some written diarrhea about the J Man, but I don't feel comfortable doing it right now since people from his hometown have been dropping by my blog lately. Maybe I am just being paranoid, but when I mentioned to him that there were a surge of people visiting from I agree to a certain point. Obviously I keep writing here knowing full well that I'm very Google-able. But still...I'd like to write as if no one has a huge vested interest in me to the point where they'd look me up on the Internet. |
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| Obsessed |
| 05.25.05 (3:26 pm) [edit] |
| My latest is just looking at who's visiting my blog. There's been this surge from people out east. |
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| He's leaving today |
| 05.25.05 (9:21 am) [edit] |
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It was nice to see M again. I feel kind of bad that I didn't show him a rip roaring time :? He gave me some advice based on his observations of the J Man. The way he talks makes me laugh. Every other word that comes out of his mouth is usually some sort of swear word. Normally I don't like potty mouths at all, but I guess he's always so blunt when he talks. Actually, last night every time the waiter came by, he'd also catch Mark saying something mildly offensive: faggot, bitch, fuck, shit, etc. I couldn't stop laughing because I'd see the waiter standing there and then M would spew. M didn't really care though. I just hoped not too many other patrons heard him talking. Anyway, his advice was that if I wanted smoother sailing with the J Man that I will have to be more sensitive :roll: because he is sensitive. But if I end up second guessing myself all the time, then I am to tell him to be a man or find someone else. M was like "you need a dumb guy." :lol: M knows what I am like...knows I am not all that mushy, etc. He wished me luck with the J Man. "He's a nice guy...he cares about you...you just need to be more sensitive." (Quite frankly, I'm not sure how to be that way!) |
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| Head for the hills! |
| 05.24.05 (10:59 am) [edit] |
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That's what I tend to do when I hit a bump in the road to relationship paradise. There was a minor bump last night. For reasons I cannot explain, sometimes I can get really hyper and goofy. I find it happens more often when I've had too little sleep. If I can be like that around someone, it's truly a blessing, in my HO. That's when I am comfortable enough to just let loose and be myself. However, being that way around the J Man ... is a little different. He's not sure how to deal with it. I think most people just kind of laugh and my mood passes. Last night he got kind of sarcastic and took some passive digs at me. I called him on it. But his behaviour just made my mood plummet. Now it goes back to me worrying about how to act. I know I can only be myself, and I really don't want to worry about "should I have said or done that?" "is it okay for me to do this?" If I can't be myself, I will get resentful, and then I do hurtful things. He said to give him some time to learn how to read me. One great challenge I find is being open. I've had so many people call me guarded, closed, or cold, and I don't know how to improve on that. I guess I don't really like showing a softer side to me. I hide a lot by joking and being sarcastic. |
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| Before I go to bed |
| 05.22.05 (11:16 pm) [edit] |
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1. The P Man called me again on Saturday for no apparent reason and to just shoot the sh*t. 2. The C Man has been rather curious about Mark, and I need to tell him I am seeing someone. "Do you have a romantic interest in him? Where is he sleeping?" 3. It was nice to see Mark again. I'm glad I didn't feel awkward, but sometimes it's hard to think of stuff to say. I am amazed at how he's finally settled down :) When we first met, we were both on very same wavelenghts. Very anti-commitment and wondering if the point to life was making babies. Now he's engaged and looking forward to having a family :) 4. My dad got all pissed off me for food issues. He had bought some food for me Friday and wanted to drop it off. I was already sleeping so I said I'd pick it up the next day. But seriously, it's been very difficult trying to make arrangements with him to pick up food considering he has no voice mail. So this morning, he left a message for me: "Just let me know if you still want the food." FFS. Then I went by, he had the vegetables, frozen meat, 2 mangoes (I already have a rotting one in my fridge), a bag of grapes, and some lychee. I know he means well, but I often do not enjoy the food he gives me, and it goes bad before I can get to it. 5. I picked up 2 romaines and 3 bell peppers, and some wild rice from my mom today. I still have broth from Friday night. 6. So you see. Receiving all this food is very fortunate, but I feel stifled when I can't even make my own food choices when I am living by myself. I feel like I have to eat it all before it goes bad, and by the middle of week, I am out of food, but I have no time to go food shopping. 7. I have a free rental from Red Hot Video because the last DVD was all screwed up. Who knows when I will go there again? But they did have some frilly, lacey panties that I was looking for for my dance routine. Unfortunately, they were cheap and scratchy and not even worth a try. 8. Having some time away from the J Man was nice, but I still thought about him a lot. I missed waking up beside him. Not that I knew all the details or even the nature of his friendship with his visitor this weekend, I was still a little envious...that that they have a history. And also, "why didn't we hang out more?" But that's just the girl in me coming out. I'm going to see him plenty tomorrow, which is why I must clean my place. It will be his first time seeing it!!!!!! Okay, good night. |
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| The weekend so far |
| 05.22.05 (10:59 pm) [edit] |
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I'm going to get some rest really soon. Friday, I ended up leaving work early...I left to see the J Man :oops: I guess we were both kind of bad. I saw him for a little bit, and then came home, ate some ramen, showered, and went right to bed. It was 9:30!!! The next morning I felt somewhat refreshed, and I went for a nice long run :) I met up with Paula for some breakfast, and then we went to Erin's. Paula's birthday is coming up really soon! Later that evening I met up with Mark. We went downtown, had some dinner, and sat in a lounge for a while. Then we got drenched going back to the car. On the way home, we picked up a movie, which ended up being defective. He crashed on my couch, and then I drove him back to his hotel in the morning. We met up with the J Man and his friend for some lunch at my a restaurant my friend Aaron helped open. It's Asian food for white people. It appears to be authentic, but really it's not. :lol: It was an okay dining experience. I would go back there!! Then I came home and did some laundry. Mark and I just went for dinner and came back. We were both bagged. There's been a lot of driving for me the last few days...I am getting tired of the same route -- going from home to Downtown Vancouver a couple of times a day! BWAHAHAHA But it's been good. I'll talk more about the more personal stuff later. I'm too tired to think about that stuff now. Tomorrow we're going to see Star Wars though. I hadn't planned on seeing it so soon!! |
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| So tired... |
| 05.20.05 (12:45 pm) [edit] |
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I wish I was still in bed...I made it into work shortly after noon today. I was striving for 9ish... That's all I really have to say. I could say more, but I'm so out of it that I can't think straight! This weekend will probably be interesting. Mark is in town. Hmm...The J Man... |
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| Up poo creek |
| 05.19.05 (9:17 am) [edit] |
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I need to get a dance routine together for two songs ASAP! Now I really wish I had waited before taking the Getting Ready for the Stage workshop at dance because now they actually get to practise in a club!! Anyhow, they're going to have a friends and family kind of thing where anyone who's taken the workshop can perform on stage (with clothes on!!) June 9. CRAPPY! So...I have quite some work to do ahead of me. Yesterday I had lunch with the P Man. Thank goodness it wasn't awkward. I wasn't sure what to expect. He'd lost weight. I was kind of surprised he paid. He was a little flirty. But I guess Chris was right... The P Man joked around for me to be "sick" the rest of the afternoon so he and I could hang out. I declined and said I had to get back to work. Later on he jumped on MSN while at the G Man's place asking to meet at my place :x I ultimately declined but not without asking about his girlfriend (or ex or whoever he claimed to be seeing the last time we talked), telling him I was experiencing heavy flow right now, and that my herpes were flaring up. He apologised about harrassing me. If it hadn't been for J Man, maybe I would have considered the P Man. But oh well! |
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| Driving along |
| 05.18.05 (10:24 am) [edit] |
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While I was driving to work this morning, I was thinking about goth stuff which led to whips. Then I started thinking about where I'd practise using one if I got one. The balcony? I can't really use it in my home...or can I? I'd like a whip. Last night I saw [u]The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy[/u]. I wish I had stayed awake for all of it. Man, was I tired. I am still tired, and now I think I am coming down with something. *sigh* After the movie, Chris came over, and we chit chatted about the usual. It was interesting to hear about his experiences of living in Japan. (see? nothing bad.) I did some more thinking about people who search for me and my blog. I still want my privacy (as much as I can get from the Internet.) because I came here to find a place where I could just let it all out. I never really expected for people to seek it or me. The things I blog about, I'd tell people anyway. However, there's a time and place for everything and everyone. I'm glad there are a couple of people out there who have respected my wishes. |
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| Me, a writer? |
| 05.17.05 (4:29 pm) [edit] |
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I don't call myself one. I do not like to re-read stuff I have written. This applies to blog entries, too. I guess writing is a carthisis in some media. I spew, and then I forget. Anyway, I've been looking at my stats. Every time I see a direct hit of a Mac user using OS X, I get uncomfortable. If 209.139.234.130 is who I think you are, I've already politely asked you to not read here. Please respect my wishes. |
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| I'm nice...really... |
| 05.17.05 (11:03 am) [edit] |
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I saw [u]Sin City[/u] last night. How gory! I thought the movie was well done (even though I'd never read the comics), but I'm not sure I really liked it. I liked the feel to it, though. The more movies I see with Rosario Dawson, the more I dislike her acting. I saw that with the J Man. That was our third date in a week. I joke that it's really our 4th because our 2nd was so long. So anyway, this morning on MSN, he was being really short with me, so I asked him what was up. Turns out he felt like he has to be on guard all the time because of my verbal jabs, and he doesn't like it. I thought he was okay with it because he does the same thing. Turns out he doesn't like being that way either. I was really hurt to hear all this stuff because it wasn't my intention to have that effect. When I am comfortable around someone, I joke around a lot, and I can be quite sarcastic. I guess I can throw some zingers, but they're not meant to hurt people. Then I was like "does he still want to see me?" He told me that if I wanted a guy to volley verbal jabs with, then he wasn't the guy for me. Anyhow, we talked it over, and things are still okay. Phew. I forget that we've known each other for only a week. He is still learning how to "read me." Apparently, I am difficult for that. It takes me a while to let my guard down with people. I'll try to remember to tone it down..as long as he doesn't do anything to egg me on :wink: He doesn't want me to change if that's the way I am. After my last real ex, I did vow to be nicer. Sometimes I don't really realise what softies men are. I always threw zingers at him, and I had chalked it up to him being too sensitive. Well, maybe he was :wink: but that is no real excuse for me to not be aware of his feelings. I voted this morning. I did not realise my riding had a Marijuana Party candidate. How sad is that? I went Green, and I voted Yes for the SVT. I was a little unsure SVT. Both the pros and cons are so valid. When I went to vote, I ran into a guy who used to work here. I did not remember much about him, but he remembered my name and that I was taking classes :shock: I was like "what was his name again?" :oops: |
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| Editing |
| 05.16.05 (1:29 pm) [edit] |
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I'm editing a document right now. I just thought this sentence was funny: The customer will complete a Quality Assurance Defect (QAD) report containing a detailed explanation of the issue, including step-by-step instructions on how to reproduce. BWAHAHHAA |
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| Recovering |
| 05.16.05 (11:58 am) [edit] |
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Well, this weekend was a busy one...not much time to recuperate from last week. I will not be able to swing 3 am bedtimes again this week, that's for sure! *yawn* Friday night was our casino night with work people. Work paid for an evening of food, and we played some trivia games. I was one of the selected to submit 2 lies and a truth. That was entertaining. Mine were: 1. My goal in life is to have a mullet. 2. I love scary movies. 3. I have a stripper pole in my apartment. I thought I'd have some time to watch some TV or what not Friday night, but that did not really happen. I ended up talking to the J man for a couple of hours. Then I made myself go to bed so I could get up at 6:30 in the morning for dragonboating. Dragonboating was a lot of fun. I'd like to join a team at some point, but I don't think I have enough time for it right now. Afterwards, we went out to eat. I really didn't want to do that since I wanted to save some money and get home as soon as possible, but I had to go since I got a ride with Maria. Anyhow, I ended up popping into a clothing store and picking up a blue silk camisole. After lunch, I rushed to get going to my hair appointment. I got an inch lopped off and my layers cleaned up. I went home and started to eat. I was going to nap before my night out, but I decided last minute that I'd go to the mall instead to find something to match my new top. When I finished all that, I had to get ready to head out to see the J Man. I met up with him, and we had dinner. Then we went and caught some improv (I was impressed that he had picked up the tickets beforehand). Afterwards, he went back to his place, and I had some of his banana bread. He seems to really like it, but I am still partial to my best friend's mom's banana loaf. So I left his place some time the next afternoon. I was extremely tired all day yesterday. I also attended a make up dance class. I have to work on re-learning the bottom hand position for some of my holds because I keep hurting myself. I hope it's a muscle thing and that my arm is getting used to it. I went to my mom's for dinner, but I could barely eat from being so tired. She wasn't too impressed with me going over there and sleeping for an hour and high tailing it out of there before her dinner was really finished. I felt bad about that, but i couldn't handle it any more. After I got home, I did some dishes and laundry, got ready for bed and called the J Man. I am seeing him again tonight. We're going to see Sin City at a new movie theatre that recently opened up. I thought I could get away from seeing it, but oh well. I just have to remember to stop thinking so much...He doesn't seem too into keeping up with the news. Hopefully that will change. I don't know why it matters to me for people to know what's going on around here and the rest of the world. It should be fine enough that I do, right? But he a really considerate guy, and I really like that. This morning he messaged me telling me that he's having a (female) friend visit him this coming weekend. I had told him I can get kind of girly, so he wanted to tell me and that they are just friends and not friends with benefits. Then I told him about Mark visiting. He asked me when all four us could get together. :shock: I thought I wasn't going to see him all weekend or something. He also said he and I could talk about it some more when we see each other tonight. I quite like this boy. (And I trust that he's respected my wishes about reading this blog.) |
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| longer absence |
| 05.12.05 (12:52 am) [edit] |
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My daily updates has gone to the wayside, and I've not had much time to catch up on my regular blogs. Not enough sleep at night and too out of it during the day. Finding out that someone I've recently met Googled me and found this blog prompted me to log in. I still don't like when people Google me and then read this blog. But on the other hand, I don't have anything to hide. Readers just have to be aware they might not like what they read. And maybe some things are just best left alone!! Anyway, last night I went out on this coffee date. It was kind of last minute. I thought I was going to have an early night last night since I'd gotten such little sleep the previous 2 nights. Not to mention, he also asked in a half-assed way. I hope he doesn't come back here...anyway...:lol: We met up at a coffee place and it was just closing so we walked to another. We sat there for 2 hours, and then we took a walk and sat on a bench for a bit. Our (first) date lasted over 4 hours...definitely one of the best first dates I've had. The conversation was really comfortable, and the time flew by. My first impression of his mannerisms were "gay" but that went away pretty quickly. I liked how he was so friendly with everyone. I thought he was really considerate. He kept asking me if I was okay when we were walking across a bridge because he knows I don't like heights. I could have talked with him all night. I don't know what it was about him. I just felt really comfortable being around him. I'd like to see him again asap. One thing I dislike about Internet dating, which I also vowed to never do again, is that when I am interested in someone, I hate knowing that they're still "shopping around." I'd feel dumb asking what their status is, and I wouldn't feel comfortable saying what I want. So I dunno. I don't like speaking up when I think it's too early to say stuff. |
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| Really classy |
| 05.08.05 (8:38 pm) [edit] |
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Like I've said before...I sure know how to attract them. So this guy asked me out for coffee, and I said no, thanks. And he didn't take it very well. He started off with a "fuck off, chink." Then offered "fuck chinese pussuy [sic]." And finished with "u can't handle my big brown cock." Man, was he annoying. He is probably bored, so feel free to email him at snoopgang@hotmail.com [url=http://img.photobucket.com/al...]This is what he looks like.[/url] Or you can call him. 1.778.837.9180. |
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| What I am starting to despise |
| 05.07.05 (3:17 pm) [edit] |
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"How's the love life?" "Got a hot date tonight?" Some people ask me this every single time they start up a conversation with me. Geez. If something was going on, I'd tell you! In the meantime, just MYOB. My answers are always: "Non-existent." "No hot date." And then I get the "oh, you should be out on a date" or something like that. FFS! |
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| Yeah, let's get a piece |
| 05.07.05 (1:52 pm) [edit] |
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Sometimes I think I'm an asshat magnet. [url=assalicious.tblog.com]Assalicious[/url] has the right idea :lol: So last night I'm a club with some friends. This guy chats me up for a bit, and then I go on my way. I see him again later so I chat with him some more. He compliments me on my body (which was flattering since I'm feeling a little puffy right now). We dance a bit, and talk about where we live. He tells me I have a hot body and should go back with him. Then he proceeds to convince me to go back to his place with him. Even though I know to not put myself in certain situations, I still kind of think about it. I didn't say no, but obviously I was in need of convincing. He kept telling me he had to drive his friend home or give him cab money. He didn't seem very keen on going to my place. The *best* part was that he offered to give me gas money. Anyway, he didn't put much effort into wooing me. We didn't dance long, and further run-ins with him yielded a "when are you leaving? Just tell me when you're going. You can drive me and my buddy to my car, and then you can follow me." I have to admit I was curious about him, but the way he came on to me was a real turn-off. I got my friend to get my sweater from the coatcheck to avoid the possibility of running into him again. I chit chatted with the C Man today. I've not received his text messages, turns out. You know what I hate? Not knowing what the C Man and I are. I need titles! I can't just go with the flow. Maybe he thinks the same thing. We play the same games. I told him about the guy at the bar, but waited before admitting I didn't do anything with him. He tells me he's going to try that guy's gas money line tonight. I was all set to ask him if things with me and him were only sexual, but then he to go. I'd rather just get things out in the open. |
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| I'm not really meant for games |
| 05.06.05 (1:31 pm) [edit] |
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(or am I) After that post below about the P Man... So we just finished MSNing. He apologised for not calling last night (I had just figured he wouldn't because he didn't mention about getting together later that night). He was claiming that he was doing the right thing because he is seeing someone. I reminded him that he said he wasn't seeing anyone recently when I asked him if he would be cheating on anyone if hooked up. Then he said he wasn't seeing anyone. When I asked him if there was someone he was interested in, he said yes...and then that he didn't know. And that he was trying to be considerate and trying to treat girls better. And then he said he needed some time alone before getting serious with someone. Will this guy's tune ever change? Thank goodness I am over it. I was really hurt by this particular dating experience. All the trust I had in him and all his dishonesty was a doozy. I was (and still am) very commitment phobic. I won't really give all of myself in a relationship until I feel safe, and this particuilar guy called himself my boyfriend. When there are titles like that, I have different expectation vs. when I'm just dating. Anyway, I did tell him I wasn't really comfortable with the idea of sleeping with him again, but I would have done it for other reasons. Then I stirred up some trouble. I brought up his best friend, but time ran out before I could finish what I started. I probably left him confused, but I know he won't think much of what I said. I did tell him I wanted to tell him something even though there was no point to it. Seriously, there really is no point in telling him his best friend was trying to hook up with me, is there? But should he know that his best friend *would* do such a thing (since they've made a pact)? The smartest thing the P Man ever said to me was that you can tell a lot by someone from their friends. I told him G Man was even worse at playing games than he was, and to my surprise, he agreed. What I am most glad about: that I was relieved to not see him last night and that my heart didn't drop when he told me he was seeing someone. |
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| Bagged |
| 05.06.05 (11:14 am) [edit] |
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I've tried waking up 15 minutes earlier than my usual time this week. Too bad my alarm clock isn't effective enough! I've set it for 6:45, but I seem to wake up naturally at 7:30. This is no way to set my internal clock! :lol: I am way sore today. I attended some cardio striptease class, but it wasn't much of a workout, and there was no stripping. (which works just fine for me). I could barely keep my eyes open. After I got home from the class, I made some dinner and called my best friend. After that I pored over my cookbooks to see what I could make for Mother's Day dinner so I can buy what I need soonest. And my P Man theory holds true! If plans are made in advance with him, they don't happen! He did call me yesterday while I was driving home from work, but perhaps I was sounding a *little* frosty. He did not mention getting together at all. I hope he doesn't call again if it's just to chit chat. I have no interest in chit chatting with him. But I can't see him anymore (not that I really wanted to). I made a pact with a friend that we'd not see specific exes, and the P Man is mine. |
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| Up for a challenge |
| 05.05.05 (12:51 pm) [edit] |
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With a "you should enter" from one of my dance instructors, I thought "okay." There's an amateur pole dancing competition coming up next month, and now I'm officially entered. I toyed with the idea when I first heard about it and kind of forgot about it. So now...my preparation will have to be just like what I did in my Getting Ready for the Stage workshop, but...more. First, I'm going to find a slower song with a good beat that's about 5 minutes long. Even though it's a pole dance competition, it's about the whole routine, which includes floor work. I think I will concentrate on holds and a couple of spins I am better at and do a nice floor routine. I don't know if not doing upside stuff will be bad. I'd like to learn the helicopter in time. Anyway, I just want to have the joy of this experience. I am not expecting to get into the finals. The twenty contestants will do a routine in front of judges privately, and the final five will compete in front of a bigger audience. Second, I will have to find a costume. I don't want anything too costume-like...just something a little dressier than exercise shorts and t-shirt that will go with my platform shoes. I thought about wearing a hat, but since there is no stripping involved, I will just let me hair freeeeee. I am kind of excited and nervous! |
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| Manager Rosie? |
| 05.04.05 (4:11 pm) [edit] |
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I had my one on one meeting with the consultant today. This week we've had two guys in the office having meetings all day. They're here to help us streamline our documentation process. We had one group meeting yesterday and will have another tomorrow. The meeting I had with him today was mainly to tell him the process I follow before I actually get to write anything. He asked me if I felt the Documentation team needed a Documentation manager. My first instinct was to say yes because my boss (who got let go) took care of so many details which allowed me to do my job, which is to write. [Today I sat in a meeting which essentially told me that nobody would be checking over Documentation to ensure accuracy or that the online help works. I mean we've always had that experience, but this time, it was going to be formalised in a document.] Then I thought "do we really need a manager right now?" My coworker and I sort of have a handle on things right now, and I am not sure having just any manger would help -- especially at my company. Then the consultant asked me if management was something I would consider. I had always thought that I did not want to manage people. Maybe I am just afraid of the thought of dealing with other departments. I don't have hands on documentation management experience, but I have learned about it in courses, and I have seen it done by others. So I am feeling rather young for management. I wonder if my experience is enough to make me management material. Right now, I am thinking no. Also, I've done a very good job of remaining invisible around here. At meetings I don't speak. But the meetings I usually attend have almost nothing to do with me. I sit in so I know what's going on for particular projects. The throught process going into developing a new piece of functionality is not important to me. What gets developed is. So this bug that he's put in my ear has just made me think. It doesn't necessarily mean anything will come of it. He will be proposing something to our CTO in terms of Documentation for the company. I am dying to talk to my coworker about this (not the management part, but what direction we want to take the Docs group in. How many people do we want? What would each be responsible for?) Right now is our chance to have some input, which I think is exciting. |
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| Lime and black pepper |
| 05.04.05 (1:25 pm) [edit] |
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I still miss the original Miss Vickie's Barbecue chips. I thought I would give lime and black pepper a whirl. They are okay at first lick. Then the lime flavour really kicks in! I'm not a huge fan of lime. And the black pepper leaves a spicey feel on my tongue. That is not so bad. These are definitely better than their salt and malt vinegar chips. They have a salsa flavour, too, but I'm not about to buy a huge honkin' bag so I can try one. Hopefully our vending machine will eventually carry it! |
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| "Why don't you call me tomorrow" |
| 05.04.05 (1:09 pm) [edit] |
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Ummm...no. The P Man wants to hook up with me, and wants me to call him? I don't think so. Now I am just playing games with MSN on him. I'm just saying everything but what's on my mind: -Screw off, mofo! -Aren't you banging anyone else right now? -Are you that desperate that you're coming back to me to get laid? Now that the convo is over, I did say a couple of those things in a nicer way. I was my usual Rosie self. Thank goodness for IMing to hide some sarcasm. Will I see him tomorrow? I don't know. He was all like "is it going to be these just walk in and get it on type deals?" I had no answer for him. I suggested a threesome, but he still doesn't like that idea. |
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| Makeup |
| 05.04.05 (8:41 am) [edit] |
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It's so much fun!! Sephora now has a gift registry. Stila has new eye colour products! And they've changed their lip things in a tube!! I guess this means another trip to the counter eventually. It's a little embarrassing that the make up girls recognise me :oops: |
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| Nervous |
| 05.03.05 (1:51 pm) [edit] |
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I have a friend coming into town in a couple of weeks. I haven't seen him in 2 years, and haven't talked as much to him as I used to. He's here for work, but will have some free time to get together. He kind of likes to party. Where am I going to take him?? Am I going to feel uncomfortable?? When I found out his coworker was bringing his wife, I asked him if he was going to bring his fiancee. He hadn't planned on it, but if I wanted him to, he would. :lol: I guess we both want our alone time. Right now I just feel bloated. I swear my shoes feel tight today. And my boobs! They're so sore!! I called up the C Man last night to wish him a good trip since he left this morning for out east. I guess he is blowing hot and cold, or maybe I am trying to read into too much. He suggested I email him while he was gone, and when I asked him why he didn't just write to me while he away, he said he'd be too busy. He said if I wrote to him, then he could just reply. :? My hair is horribley split ended. I look like one of those befores in those before and after pics again. Only another week 'til I get my hair trimmed. This time I am sure I will get more than 3/4 of a cm cut off!! Tonight I'm having dinner with my mom, an aunt, and uncle. I bet my aunt will try to invite herself over to my place since she's never seen it. I would be okay with it tonight since my place is relatively tidy. I just don't really want her seeing my pole or the dying aloe plant she gave me. I know she means well, but she is one of the most overbearing people I know. |
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| A link |
| 05.02.05 (12:10 pm) [edit] |
| [url=http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/am...]Thirteen year old in Florida not allowed to have an abortion[/url]. |
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| Pot pourri |
| 05.02.05 (10:42 am) [edit] |
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Not a big fan of it. I was on the phone for almost 3 hours with someone in NY last night. It was a good conversation. He's a good kid. I can almost forget he's a kid because of his maturity and worldliness. It's almost kind of scary how insightful he is!! My vacation time has been approved!! I am glad. That's one less thing to worry about. I'd say more but I can't. Or shouldn't. I was reading an article on people getting fired for blogging about their work place. I guess it's a fair thing if you give away stuff about the company. One person got fired for blogging about being bored at work. I think that is a little over the top. But maybe not so if the company name was mentioned. I don't know. My work hasn't set up any policies yet. The P Man MSNed me again today and asked me about hooking up. What's his problem? A player like him should not be trying to get back into an ex's pants. He is catching me in a PMSy mood, which means his chances are on the slim side. I just want to sleep and rest a lot this week. |
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| Stop it |
| 05.01.05 (3:38 pm) [edit] |
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I can't stop spending money. I must not leave my home. That is the only solution! Sometimes I even go crazy buying produce. Today I read in the paper that there's a judge in Florida who disallowed a 13 year old girl from getting an abortion because state authorities think she is "too immature to understand the consequences of terminating her 13-week pregnancy." :shock: I think she is probably too immature to deal with being a 13- year old mother. Geez! She is a foster child. Who is going to help her?? Who is going to support her?? |
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