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| ++This is it!!! |
| 08.31.05 (11:35 pm) [edit] |
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I'm finally excited!! T and I are both excited!! We talked a few times tonight. Maybe I will take a nap later after all. After I finish doing what I need to do online, I'll watch a movie and try to finish off that Harry Potter. I have one suitcase that is not completely full. I'm going to try to stuff a backpack in there in case I have more stuff when I return. It always seems to be difficult to put the same amount of stuff back into the suitcase. So that's about it. If I come across an Internet cafe, I'll post an update now and then, but who knows!! My friends "advised" me to find some nice English boys and to remember the dental dams. :lol: Work will be interesting when I get back. I felt totally organised by the time I left. I wrote a to do list for when I get back, and I fired off emails to help me tie up loose ends. The official kickoff off for the Knowledge Base project was today, and I had absolutely NO idea that I'd be playing such a HUGE role. I am pretty much leading the project (with a lot of help, of course). I wonder if I will be left without a job if this project fails. I don't want this project to fail. I won't!! Getting away will be great!! I hope to return home refreshed with a new found energy. :P |
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| ++Phew |
| 08.31.05 (7:06 am) [edit] |
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I found the money! It was tucked away in my wallet. I often make a special effort to put things away that I don't want to lose. Then I forget where I put them! Oops. But I am relieved. And if I had had time today to bring in my car, I could have had my new horn put in. This will be the second time the horn's been replaced. Yesterday was the most I'd ever spent on gas for my car. $49!!! At least I won't be driving it for 2 weeks, so that makes me feel just a bit better. And I won't have to drive very far for the next little while. However, city driving is the worst for my car. A tank gets me about 325 km usually, but my tank has gotten me almost 500 km before. What a difference highways make! But today is a day of meetings and trying to accomplish much in the office before I take off. |
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| ++ Holy cannoli! |
| 08.31.05 (6:33 am) [edit] |
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I hope I've just absent-mindedly put somewhere the money T's mom gave me to pass along because it isn't in my wallet anymore :? With the way I organise my wallet, I just can't see how it could it just fall out. :? Hopefully it will turn up underneath my piles of stuff. I'm going to pack and clean all night. No sleep for me!! I was repeatedly woken up starting at 6 or so this morning. Every 5 minutes, my phone would ring, and it was like a fax machine or something :x Then I ended up sleeping in :x What a way to start the day. It feels like Friday though :D |
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| ++Upcoming trip and BB6 |
| 08.30.05 (8:35 pm) [edit] |
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Why *did* people vote for Janelle to get that phone call? I was a little surprised. But even more shocking is that some of the houseguests think we live with them or something. BWAHAHAA Why are they swearing at America and cutting it down? Are viewers really supposed to be keeping track that Ivette hasn't won a thing? I just roll my eyes. And April thinks she should have gotten the phone call because she's a newlywed. How many times has she mentioned that she is a newlywed? Actually, I was hoping Howie would get the call, but it doesn't matter. I chatted with T on the phone tonight. I worry that there will be strife on our trip. Ever since she's moved, we've grown apart. And lately, I have been too busy to make more time for her, and our schedules clash. Sometimes I feel like she doesn't know me anymore. Anyhow, even though this is our trip, I feel like she's been treating it like her trip, like already saying that we can't do such and such if we do such and such. She's warned me that she probably can't handle being out all day and go out late into the night. So we'll see. I hope we reconnect on this trip. |
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| ++Countdown meme |
| 08.30.05 (7:04 am) [edit] |
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Oooh la la...borrowed from [url=http://jennjr.tblog.com]jennjr's blog[/url] [b]Ten movies you’d watch over and over:[/b] Let me get back to that. I rarely re-watch movies!! [b]Nine people you enjoy the company of:[/b] Paula, Kira, Tara, Erin, Aaron, Bruno, Chris, John, and me [b]Eight things you’re wearing:[/b] Makeup, glasses, bra, undies, pants, shirt, earrings, and socks [b]Seven things on your mind:[/b] Sleep, getting some £, my car's horn, finishing [u]Meaning of Everything[/u], photos from class, classes I should be signing up for, my trip [b]Six objects you touch every day:[/b] Myself (not like that!), toothbrush, mug, cell phone, comb, keys [b]Five things you do everyday:[/b] Blog (well, just about), shower, sleep, drink water, sweat [b]Four bands or musical artists that you couldn’t live without:[/b] Weezer, The Beatles, The Beach Boys... I don't know. I like listening to music, but I'm not passionate about any particuliar artist. [b]Three of your favorite songs of the moment:[/b] Get Stoned... Um, not sure what else. I've been avoiding listening to anything. [b]Two people who have influenced your life the most:[/b] My parents, I guess. [b]One person who has been nice to you today:[/b] Everyone's been nice to me today, so far. It's still early :) |
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| ++My beloved |
| 08.30.05 (6:36 am) [edit] |
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I got my car back yesterday. I can't remember the last time it was so clean, especially on the inside. There is absolutely NO dust. :D It was weird driving it again. I kept reaching behind the steering wheel to change gears since that's where the thingee was in the van. I felt so low to the ground, too. I need to call the body shop back though. My car's horn sounds really wimpy right now -- like an import's!! I want my old horn back!! I hope my car will last me at least another 5 years. It's still in pretty good condition, and I am just so attached to the darned thing. Maybe the only way I'd get rid of my car is if it I got one of the new Mustangs. At least I wouldn't feel so bad. And man, I feel so bad for those who have lost their roots due to devestation to their homes. I can't even imagine. I was reading some updates on people who lost their homes to fire a while ago. Some people only escaped with the clothes off their backs. I don't even know why I started crying about it!! And then the latest floods...I just cannot imagine. :( |
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| ++Last one |
| 08.29.05 (10:21 am) [edit] |
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This had better be my last post about Movieguy because after today, there really will be nothing left to be said. I like straightforward, and I got what I needed. Deep down inside, I knew reconciliation was out of the question, but I was hopeful, anyway. (Even though I know better. I know we were not a perfect match. I know there are things that will just never mesh. And I could sense that reconciliation was not really an option to him.) This morning, he MSNed me, said it was good to see me last night. I told him it was good and bad, and that it was bad in the way that I wish we were still together. (However, seeing him last night was a lot easier than last week.) I told him I needed him to tell me that we'd never get back together. He gave me an explanation but did not say the exact words that I needed to hear. He was more like, "the good times were great and made me forget the bad times. We tried to work through the bad times, but you need ___. And I need ____. If things don't change, I can't see us getting back together." That to me, still gave me hope. He then had to leave so while he was gone, I told him that for me, I couldn't take the mixed messages (When I saw him last night, he was being very affectionate and talked about missing me in his arms, etc. And he wanted me to call him again.). It had to be all or nothing, which is why I needed him to tell me there was no second chance. So, he gave me a "okay, bye." And then he told me was removing me from his MSN list. And then he blocked me, too, not giving me a chance to respond. I have to admit, sometimes I like to get in the last word :wink: My heart felt really heavy after it happened. It stung, and it hurt. But it was exactly what I needed. I asked for it, and I got my closure. I hope he feels crappy about his coldness. |
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| ++rhinorrhea |
| 08.29.05 (7:18 am) [edit] |
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BWAHAHHAA That's today's word. I love it! It's just another way of saying "runny nose." And logorrhea is an excessive flow of words :lol: What would be the term for tears? irorrhea?? I had some rhinorrhea last night. This morning, I am beat. That's what I get for going to bed at 3 am, but I guess that couldn't be helped. Yesterday, I guess I had been thinking about Movieguy way too much (like all afternoon and into the evening). I even got a little weepy while driving past his building :? After the movie, I called him. I actually called him. I guess I just wanted to call and see how he was doing. I wasn't sure if it was such a good idea because I wasn't sure how I was going to react by talking to him. Then he asked me if I wanted to meet up with for coffee or something then. Once again, I wasn't sure if it was such a good idea, but I agreed to it anyway. We ended up chatting for ... I dunno...maybe 20 minutes, and I met up with him at his buildling. I was hungry, and we were going to eat. He offered to cook me something, but I declined. We went to Denny's, of all places and had some Moons Over My Hammy -- man, were those good! Then he asked me if I wanted to go for a walk, and even though I said yes, our short walk ended at his building. He thought I was cold. We stood outside for a bit, and then we went up to his place. And we stood some more at his kitchen counter and talked. He also asked me why I called him because he thought I would never talk to him again. I didn't think I would. I'm pretty good at not contacting exes. And truthfully, I told him that I just wanted to see how he was doing. I probably would not have called him if he wasn't all like "you can call me any time...write...email...*any* time" the last time we spoke. Seeing him was okay. It was when he was holding me that was not so good. Why did he have to be so affectionate? What was him telling me that he missed me supposed to do? I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hopeful for reconciliation at this point. But I'm sure it's forr the best that we things as they are and for me to just forget about him. Ugh. I am usually full of good ideas, but some times I come up with bad ones. WTH was I thinking?? I knew seeing him would be a bad idea. UGH. UGH!!!! It was past 1:30, so he walked me back to the van, and I drove him back to his building. Parting ways was a little awkward. He seemed hopepful that I would talk to him again. *sigh* Why??? UGH. |
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| ++Dangnabbit |
| 08.28.05 (2:45 pm) [edit] |
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My photography class assignment is done, but in the process, I realised I had deleted photos I had not transferred from my CF card to my HD. Grr! I also uploaded a bunch of pics to my new Flickr account, but I might remove and re-upload. I left my pics in their original format. High-rez and UNcompressed. :rolleyes: Tonight I'm off to see a movie. It's going to be weird driving downtown. |
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| ++Some reflection |
| 08.28.05 (2:17 pm) [edit] |
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Enough time has passed that my time with the J Man almost seems surreal. I still think about him and our time together, and I wonder how he is doing. All week, I made sure to not drop by his blog even though I knew he had come by here, as well as his friend. I didn't really like that fact, but their visits were just painful reminders. It is a lot easier now. Maybe I will stop reflecting so much if I can just purge my thoughts to text since I could not really say much of this stuff while he and I were dating. So here goes some verbal diarrhea... When I talked of my challenges to my friends, they just knew I cared for him a lot (I can honestly say that I even loved him) because the challenges were great, and that I put in a lot of effort. I think the greatest challenge was dealing with his insecurities. I have to admit I don't have a lot of patience or knowledge on how to help people who think really low-ly of themselves. How do you convince someone to like himself? The J Man was great in the way that he had a good head on his shoulders, and he was just an all-round nice guy. But he didn't seem like someone who liked himself. Every photo he saw of himself was "horrible." He even named himself "yucky" in one of his pics. He thought he was too flabby. He didn't like that his hair is thinning or that he had other body hair. He didn't want me touching his cheeks because he didn't like them. He despised having his photos taken. I think I'm quite average in agreeing on levels of attractiveness, and I just didn't think he is as unattractive as he thinks he is. And he could never tell me why he disliked himself physically. He set himself up for failure and he was such a pessimist. "Did I grab the wrong towel? Yeah, I knew I would." He constantly thought he was doing something wrong. Maybe he tried to do things which he thought would please me most, I don't know. But I think you should try to please yourself first. I noticed in group interactions if someone found what he said to be funny, he'd say the thing again but in different ways. Maybe that was the Leo in him :lol: Leos love attention, but hey, so do I :wink: My greatest challenge was to not hurt his feelings, and they seemed easily hurt :shock:. I had to be aware of what I said (not that difficult), my body language (sort of difficult), and my tone of voice (difficult). If there was no constant physical contact, he'd think something was wrong. Not holding hands in public? Forget it. I couldn't change the radio station in the car if it was a song he explicitly said he liked, or he would think I changed it on purpose to take away his joy. Just little things like that. And he'd get really mad if he'd take photos of me with his camera and I'd be uncooperative. I just didn't see why I couldn't be the same way he was. I don't really know what he said about me to his friends, but from comments at his blog, I'm sure the picture wasn't very pleasant (there was some naming calling and advice to dump me) :lol: And I didn't get the impression he wanted them to think I was a pleasant person. There was an entry he made about our shopping trip. It badmouthed me quite a bit, and I had typed a response to which he never made public nor responded to. "Why would I? It's my blog about my thoughts." For me, I am interested in getting out some truth. Actually, he did not focus a lot on the positive in a public forum. I, of course, have no idea what he told them in private. I can just imagine them reinforcing that he was a good person by cutting me down "oh poor J Man; you are too good for that superbitch." The friends who'd seen us together were really surprised to hear it when I told them he and I broke up. "You two seemed so happy/into each other!" The other friends who didn't see us together and heard my venting were like, "I could see it coming." So, there will always be three sides to our story: his, mine and reality. I hope he finds happiness within himself. |
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| ++Way too hungry |
| 08.28.05 (6:41 am) [edit] |
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I was all set to go to the gym this morning before my "big" day ahead of me, but I decided I would do homework and maybe attempt some cleaning. And I am too hungry to be working out. I barely ate yesterday, and I wasn't all that hungry. I"m eating some corn on the cob right now, and I really hate how the bits get stuck between my teeth. I should get some more dental floss out of my storage. That's where my suitcase is, too. Yesterday was kind of a long day, and I missed Big Brother :x. I taped the wrong time or something! :x I ended up going to the PNE. I got everything I needed, i.e., barbequed chicken and mini doughnuts. But I also came home with a Sweepa. It's this rubber broom which can be used to wet or dry. I am hoping it will help me with my kitchen floor woes, so I don't have to get down on my hands and kneeds with a scrub brush. I also got this cool candle stuff. They are these little bead type things. Actually, they remind me of the little rocks in fish tanks. You just empty them into a fire-resistant container and throw in the wick. I got a big box for myself and a small box that would be great as a gift. I might keep it all to myself. But buying that has given me some motivation to clear off my clutter and get my place looking like a home. When I told Tom and Eva that my place still looked I just moved in, Tom was like...it's supposed to be a babe magnet. How are you going to invite people over for drinks? :lol: Hmm, I just remembered he had alcohol issues many years ago. Speaking of alcohol, Dude called me a couple more times again yesterday. The first time, he left a message and said he was in my 'hood and was wondering if I wanted to meet up for a drink. :roll: He's asked me to go out to the bars with him before. What gets my goat is that I didn't drink when I dated him; what makes him think I'll drink now?! Just because he likes being drunk all the time...At least I won't have to put up with his calling while I'm gone. Maybe by the time I've returned, he'll have gotten the hint. But oh wait...we stopped dating over 6 months ago. Maybe he just needs a smack upside the head. He was a liar, and a cheater. Maybe I should be a little meaner to him, but I hate confrontation. A couple of coworkers and I talked about my new pending position at work. Everyone will hate me as I try to do my job. :wink: :lol: In my whole time at the company, I've just tried to blend in, keep my head down, and do my work. But this new position will require me to interact with people and do get everyone to follow standards and procedures, and actually do it all properly. Ah, good ol' diplomacy. And I will have to dress in a way where people will take me seriously. Power suit, glasses, and hair in a bun? I made a list of things to pack on my trip last night. I won't have that much...just the necessities. But it was difficult to think of enough clothes for 15 days. :) I am thankful that people have been so complimentary to me lately; they make me feel a bit better about myself and helping me move on. :lol: I finally got my plane ticket from T's mom yesterday. She was like, "you look really good! What did you do to your hair? It's so shiny!" All I could think was, "I just washed it." Having that plane ticket in my hand makes things feel more real! I dug out my passport, too. I hate my passport photo. My eyes are half closed!! From this point forward, I'm calling the C Man "Big Chunky Guy," since that's what my family called him in Chinese ("dai gau lo") . It's not the most flattering name, but in Chinese it's not as mean as it's translated to be. Maybe I will use something else later. While we were at the MarketPlace at the PNE [The PNE is just this annual family-oriented fair with shows, performances, food, etc.], we stopped at this booth selling memory foam stuff. After we left, BCG was like, "that guy was totally hitting on you!" I asked him what he meant, but he just said I missed it. All I noticed was a guy telling me about the quality of his products and his experiences with working with Costco and his massage chairs. *shrugs* I'm not sure what to do about BCG. I don't know if he wants something from me. I don't want anything from him except friendship. His sexual innuendo makes me uncomfortable since I'm not interested. He tried to kiss me good bye last night, too. He does make me laugh though, and he makes me say dirty things out loud. Usually I just think them. *shrug* |
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| ++Yay, a schhhhhedule |
| 08.27.05 (5:36 am) [edit] |
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Which is the Canadian pronunciation? Sked-you-ul or shed-you-ul? I dunno. But I say sked-you-ul :) I was totally beat last night, and went to bed nice and early -- only I was woken by the phone about 15 minutes after I fell asleep. He who must not be named used to do that to me all the time. I didn't bother picking up, but I had to go pee. I always worry that I can't fall back asleep if I wake up in the middle of the night. This morning I woke up way before my alarm clock went off. I was kind of happy about that. I'll be off to the gym in a bit. Last night I had Japanese with Tom and Eva; the food was okay. It was great to see them. I hadn't seen them since their wedding a year and a half ago, and I didn't call them when I was in Hong Kong last time :oops: Tom sees to have gotten accustomed to Hong Kong life quite well. He's now translating web pages, and he doesn't even need to know Chinese to do it :lol: I guess Tom is my oldest friend from the Internet. I met him at a newsgroup (alt.sex.fetish.oriental) back when there was actual discussion and stuff. :lol: I was probably 17 or 18; I had just started university. He was the one who coined the term "rosielogic" for my thought processes :lol: He's the kind of friend I can not talk to for a long time and then just pick up again. There have been a couple of times in our ~10 years of friendship where he just kind of disappeared. And there were a couple of times where he thought that he and I could be a couple. I never considered that. In fact, one time, he decided to come visit and I didn't see him at all because I was so uncomfortable with him trying so hard to convince me. But that was a long time ago. He went through more girlfriends and now he's married. He met Eva online at some forums, I think. They did the long-distance thing right from the beginning (she: Hong Kong; he: USA) and met up 3 times before marrying. [And holy geez, the USA sure makes things extremely difficult for tourists to get visas. In order to get a visa, you have to prove that you are not going to make any attempts to stay and live there.So she's never been to the States. They had visits here and England.] I love their story because I think it's just amazing that even though their distance was a challenge, they've still made it work. Unfortunately, our current schedules only allowed us to meet up last night. They're meeting up with other family, and then I will be out of town :( It was really good to see them again. We did some catching up. I told Tom about my job situation, and he was like, "weren't you talking about quitting like a year and a half ago?" I don't remember. But he gave me such a knowing look when I told him we had a consultant in. Tom was a techie consultant at some point. And finally, towards the end of dinner, he asked me about boys. I think he had been itching to ask a lot earlier. I gave him a very brief update, and that was it. He expects drama in that department from me. |
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| ++Time for some hair ripping |
| 08.26.05 (5:43 am) [edit] |
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I felt really good yesterday because Dude (previously known as P Man) finally messaged me through MSN and I was finally able to block him. [I haven't figured out how to block someone that's not on your list :?] He started to apologise and explain why he did not make our lunch ALMOST TWO WEEKS AGO. Too late. It felt good to cut him off and communicaton off that way. While I was out for dinner last night, I missed 3 of his calls. And then while I was sleeping last night, I missed 2 of his calls. WTF is his problem? I was hoping that by ignoring him, he'd take the hint. I never return his calls, and I am always missing them (not on purpose, but I just always seem to miss his calls :twisted:) I hope he leaves me alone because I don't want to deal with him. However, if I have to tell him to leave me alone for good (again), I will do it. I got in to work early today since I was too tired to get to the gym; I"m still tired. I think the few hours of sleep are finally catching up to me. Hopefully I can get to the gym after work. I might be getting my car today, too :D And my friends from Hong Kong are here in town. Hopefully I can see them tonight, but that would also mean reshuffling some plans I previously made for tonight and tomorrow. I still haven't accepted the fact that last minute plans always come into my life :lol: Today, the other Docs guy and I are meeting with the CTO. We were supposed to have a meeting right after our last round of layoffs back in the spring, but it never happened. I am kind of nervous because I don't know what he wants to discuss. I don't know if we're going to discuss the future or the past! I've never really talked with our CTO much, but he knows my name. Oh yeah...P and I got to talking last night about what your friends see as opposed to what your SO sees. Who would know you better? She seems to think your SO would know you best because he/she sees all sides of you while your friends only see what you want to show them. I'll have to ponder that one. |
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| ++I miss the pole |
| 08.25.05 (11:58 am) [edit] |
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I haven't pole danced in a few months. I'd really like to get back into it. But I must wait. And it's too warm to practise at home. A warm pole makes a slippery pole. I'm positive I've lost a lot of strength in the meantime *pout* I'd really like to just turn up some music and put a nice routine together!! |
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| ++What did I post about yesterday? |
| 08.25.05 (7:24 am) [edit] |
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I can't remember. I'm kind of tired today. It was difficult getting out of bed to drag myself to the gym, but I did it :) I guess I will get back into weight training when I come home. In the meantime, it'll be just cardio. Last night, we saw [u]40 Year Old Virgin[/u]. I usually love stupid comedies of that genre, but I was quite disappointed by this movie. Maybe I was expecting too much since it got such great reviews. Maybe this wasn't meant to be a stupid comedy where the jokes tried to be somewhat witty. I just found the jokes too over-the-top. However, there were some funny scenes. The ending was hilarious :lol: I also had a dream about doing my makeup. I put on some powder and it left dark streaks on my face. I can't say that there should be any special meaning that dream, eh? Time to do some work. Too much social activity going on today for me to slack off!! Woo! |
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| ++I'm just flabbergasted |
| 08.24.05 (10:10 am) [edit] |
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That post about people coming and going...continues along. So today, the Handyman MSNed me. He had removed me from his list and removed MSN the last [chunk of] time we talked. He's talking to me like usual, just normal conversation. And then he goes back that mode. He said to me that he wants to see me again before he gets married. He wouldn't tell me the date, but he said he's counting the days. I'm sure it's either this or next weekend. WTH?? This is the same guy who did not want to talk to me anymore because every time he saw me, he wanted to jump my bones. I want to believe that men can be faithful. I really do. I would be utterly crushed if my SO was pulling that kind of crap, i.e., looking for a fling, on me at any point. I hate when guys use their wedding date as some sort of magical deadline. And then freakin' G Man; I'll just refer to him as The Roommate from now on. *He* MSNs me today; I think he just re-added me to his list. He was chatting me up like I'd have no animosity towards him, and then he asked me if I remembered the last time I saw him. I said, "yeah, you kicked me out and then I didn't hear from you again. How could I forget?" :roll: He seems to have forgotten the kicking out part. And maybe the disappearing act, too. He denied kicking me out, but did not comment on disappearing. Then he told me to call him and that he wanted to talk about "this" some more, whatever "this" is. I wasn't sure it was about our last encounter or that he brought up hanging out. Um, I will not be calling him. At work, we're doing a little fundraiser for cancer. I was asked if I would eat something that would seem gross to other people and that I would also find a bit of discomfort eating. I couldn't think of anything. I suggested simple carbs. One HR lately is going to eat one piece of sushi. :roll: |
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| ++Big Brother 6 |
| 08.24.05 (9:12 am) [edit] |
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I am not looking forward to missing 7 hours of Big Brother while I'm gone!! I can't wait to see who gets evicted Thursday. I'd really like to see Howie stay. I don't have much to comment on last night's episode except that it kills me that Janelle was so close to winning the veto competition. And that Ivette is getting annoying, but I still like her hair. It's also been fun listening to House Calls. :) Makes the work afternoon go by nicely sometimes. |
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| ++Worries |
| 08.24.05 (6:59 am) [edit] |
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I've got a lot on my mind, and not just because of the recent breakup. I'm still weepy. I still see reminders everywhere. I was even tempted to throw out a loaf of bread. :lol: At least I've learned that it's best to stick with my usual breakup antics. It's like our last meeting is burned into my brain, mostly the way he felt. :( I hope it's not too tough for him. Knowing that he's such a thinker, and his support system is far away probably gives way for a bigger challenge. And he came by this blog last night, which made me go by his. Ugh. And not too long ago, sex was painful for me. I wasn't sure it if was a physical thing or a psycho-somatic thing. But for the past couple of days, I've been getting these sharp pains or just regular pains where I had my Bartholin gland drained. I can't tell if I am a little swollen or not. If the pain persists, I will have to go my doctor. But I'm going to be out of the country next week. :roll: And I get my period next week, so if I need to see my doctor, it has to be this week. And I hope I get my car back before I leave. What am I supposed to if it's ready while I'm gone? I will call them today or tomorrow. And I am so out of shape! My back is also *killing* me. I did some biking at the gym, and man, was it hard. Time to get more religious with my stretching, too. |
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| I know it's passed |
| 08.23.05 (2:58 pm) [edit] |
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I know the mercury retrograde has passed, but I just find it weird that people from my past have popped up a the past couple of days/weeks. And most people who pass through my life do it quickly. And when they disappear, it's done quietly. There's never been one constant person in my life that's been through a lot with me. Every person you meet is supposed to have a purpose, right? For me, maybe I get one person per "action item." :lol: Uh, I'm not sure where that was coming from. Anyway, yesterday, "The Handyman" wrote to me. I just figured I'd never hear from him again since he cut off his ties to me because he did not want to risk anything with his fiancee. He felt this attraction to me, but knew his fiancee was the one. And for the record, I did not feel the same attraction towards him. A while back, G Man wrote to me. The last email was something like, "expect to hear a lot from me today," and then I didn't hear from him again! Both just make brief appearances, which just remind me of their existence. If they're not going to be more permanent in my life, I just don't have any desire to have them in my life at all. And then today, "Work boy" messaged me. I probably hadn't talked to him since December. I thought he was either going to ask for dirt on my company or hit on me because he was single or something. Past record indicated such things! These people just breeze in, make conversation, and then I am left wondering if they'll talk to me again. These are people I have no interest in keeping in touch with, but I can't really tell them that. So then I am left wondering if I will hear from them again. |
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| What to wear |
| 08.23.05 (1:13 pm) [edit] |
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I can't seem find any clothes between dressy and casual. I guess I don't know how to dress for business casual or something. Today I have on this lacey green skirt with a satin-y green top. I have a cream cardigan on with brown horse hair pumps. I've probably worn this outfit in the spring shortly after I bought it from Hong Kong. But I've gotten a lot of comments today. People seem to really notice when I "dress up." *OMG I JUST FOUND MY RING!!!! I have no idea why I was just leaning over, but my ring is beside my monitor, a little far back!!!! I am thrilled!! I didn't realise it was missing until a week ago. It's probably been sitting here for a couple of months!!* One guy was like "you're in heels today!" He also likes my stilettos -- the ones I have not worn in ages. Another guy was like "you're all dressed up again! Are you trying to set a precendence?" And a couple of ladies have been "you look nice today." That is kind of nice. :) And I just pledged someone $5 for charity. *sigh* I have about 50 cents in my wallet. Payday is not 'til the end of the month. And I just transferred over some money from my line of credit to cover me for my bills for this month. I can't really afford even $5 today. And to top it off, I've lined up my social calendar for every night until I leave for England. Of course I purposely did that. Well, I have left next Tuesday open for my mom, in case she wants to see me before I leave! And if the C Man changes his mind about Saturday night, I will be free. I do need to get my plane ticket from T's mom, though. And she wants to meet for coffee at the end of the week. At this point, I can't fit her in unless it's Saturday morning. |
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| Tired |
| 08.23.05 (4:39 am) [edit] |
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I have this habit of setting my alarm clock to pm instead of am. I was wondering why there was such a deafening silence when I woke up this morning. I am glad I woke up nice and early, too. I was exhausted last night. Class was interesting. We got to pose people in a studio setting. I have to use 3 of my shots for my next assignment. I also got my first set of assignments back, too. 46/48, baby! The details of my dead flowers were blown out, and I had not even noticed. I also went by the J Man's to get the last of my stuff. When I asked him about getting my stuff in the afternoon, yesterday, he was not keen on the idea at all. He said it was too soon for him and would rather wait a few days. I, on the other hand, didn't see the point of waiting because I just wanted to get it over and done with, and then we could all move on. I was pretty much fine all day yesterday, but the tears started as soon as I saw him. I know there is just something that doesn't make us a fit, but I really liked him, and my feelings went deeper than the surface. We stood outside for an hour just kind of us holding each other (and me holding that casserole dish). He kept saying he should go, and I'd say nothing. I thought it was going to be a very quick exchange of stuff, but we'd just kind of not move. During that time, I wish we were still together-together. It felt right. But when we were together-together, I made him "miserable" (ouch!), and I just couldn't be myself. Things were great when we didn't have to talk to each other :wink: A couple of times, he was like, "so we're never going to see each other again?" And I'd say "yes." I don't see the point of trying to have a friendship. We didn't start off as friends, and the chemistry/physical attraction would get in the way. He said I was welcome to contact him at any time. It almost sounds tempting, but no. Maybe some catharsis happened while I was with him (my goodness were there a lot of tears :cry: ), but while I was driving home, I felt insanely calm. I felt fine and knew we made the correct choice. I even felt good. But this morning, waking up to a slightly dark, empty room felt lonely. I also realised I was sleeping in the side of the bed that he's always on when he stayed over. Waking up beside him all snuggled up was one of the best feelings ever. I guess this post was kind of sappy. :oops: Now I am sad again. But I should go get ready for work. And today, I'm going to pick up my paper instead of after work. Someone had stolen my paper yesterday but was kind enough to leave the wrapper behind!! :x Yesterday, the Documentation pair, my manager, a project manager, and the consultant met up to discuss possible job positions. It didn't go exactly like I thought it would. My manager asked questions I had not thought of, and he brought up points I had not considered. :oops: I might be moving into a Knowledge Management Specialist position. Up until about a couple of months ago, I didn't even know what knowledge management was. I'm not really sure I'm a good fit for the job, but I am dying to move up in my company. It would also mean moving away from tech writing, which I don't really want to do. I created the job description for the KM specialist and another one for my current job. We would likely find a replacement for my position, but I think it'd be better to find two of me, just for the workload. |
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| *barf* |
| 08.22.05 (9:11 am) [edit] |
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Ugh, it's so difficult to eat. I just don't have an appetite right now even though I feel hungry. Last night I thought about taking a sick day today, but since I got up so early and felt so awake, I figured I would come in. This morning, I went on a laundry rampage. I also dropped off my car for repairs, and I guess I will be driving the van for the rest of the week. Only several more hours 'til I'm out of here. I still have to prepare for photography class. Tonight, we'll be "shooting models." :lol: I wonder if we will get our first assignments back tonight. I'll be nervous to read the comments. I'm going to try and call Tara, too. Right now, I'd rather be curled up and reading some Harry Potter, though. :lol: I'd rather be doing just about anything instead of getting ready for my next meeting. The consultant is driving me batty. |
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| It's so early. |
| 08.22.05 (4:35 am) [edit] |
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I couldn't fall asleep 'til at least 3, and I woke up at 6. That was weird. I'm not sleepy. I am probably too tired to feel anything else. *sigh* I don't feel like eating, either. |
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| Might as well post |
| 08.21.05 (10:30 pm) [edit] |
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It's too late to call anyone, and here is as good a place to let it all out. I'm hungry. And kind of wired. My eyeballs hurt, and my face is going to be all dry in the morning, but oh well. Oh great...the tears are going to start again. Ever want to just tell someone to fuck the hell off and get the hell out of your life? I haven't felt this shitty about a breakup in a really long time. I just got home from the J Man's place, and we broke up tonight. I hate how hindsight is 20/20. Wasn't I just posting about his lack of concern? I should give myself more credit sometimes. He was getting less and less into me, and I just ignored it. I could see in how he treated me and how he talked about me to his mom. All along I knew he was unsure of things, but I liked him so much that I kind of brushed off that unsettled feeling. I hadn't really felt anything for anyone in a really long time, and I guess this time I even let myself feel a little -- which is why I am finding this so painful. I am feeling hurt and angry. One thing that I've relearned about a guy's interest level is whether they'll pay for stuff. *sigh* I'll try not to be too long-winded...we were at his place tonight and got talking. Maybe all along he was waiting for me to say something to get this final ball rolling because I finally said, "maybe things just aren't going to work out, J Man." He brought up something else which was just a point of one of our usual issues, and I was just tired of it all. He said he liked being with me but his ego couldn't handle it. I always felt like I had to be careful of everything I said and how I said things because I'd always hurt his feelings. And I felt he was listening to his friends too much. One of the stupidest things to me was that his friends were reading this blog. And then they'd talk to him about it, but they'd never comment here or anything like that. In fact, this is what the J Man had to say about tonight at his blog: [Rosie] and I had a talk tonight, it was a calm talk, no screaming, no yelling. After the talk, she got up, took all her stuff and left. I know all of you think that this is way overdue, and I guess you were all right." Reading that was painful because it was like there was some self-fulfilling prophecy he lived up to, or that he was listening to his friends too much. (But then again, real friends tend to be on to something, so it's probably just the anger talking.) My friends had been encouraging for the most part aside from "he sure is sensitive." They did share their doubts with me. I did ignore a lot of the more negative things others said because I was enjoying my time with the J Man. And the J Man and I didn't really have a discussion tonight, since he called it "a talk." I was too frustrated to say everything/anything that was on my mind. I guess the breakup is for the best when one person out of the two has a really bleak outlook on the relationship. I felt his pessimistic attitude wore down my optimism. His uncertainty made me uncertain. *sigh* I don't know what else to say. I was too upset to say much when I left his place. The last thing I heard him say was, "so this is it?" I think I said in my head, "yeah, fucker...what did you think? Should we blow off some fireworks? You want me to stay and convince you that staying together is a great idea like the time I was supposed to not let you get on the bus after we had an argument?" ^^^ I had already said I was angry... :wink: But yeah, I do wish things with the J Man had a different outcome, but some things were just not in my power. We had great chemistry, and being physically together felt really good. Like all exes, I have no desire to have him in my life in any way now. I hope this means his friends will stop reading my blog. And this also means I can write freely again :) Oh crap, I just realised I left my vitamins behind. |
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| Minivan go vroom vroom |
| 08.19.05 (2:50 pm) [edit] |
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People from work have been asking where my car is :lol: They see me in the minivan, and they're like "huh" BWAHAHAA I think it suits me. I drive it like I drive my Mustang. I am still stuffed from lunch. Tomorrow night, my friends are planning on going to a lounge. I want to hang with them. I'm still not comfortable making plans for me and the J Man without asking him. I can't be sure whether I can assume one of our weekend nights are spent together. Of course he is welcome to go to the lounge with me, too. He was also invited to a party. He brought it up, but that didn't give me an indication of whether he was going or if he wanted me to go with him... I feel the need to let my friends whether I'm going or not, but before I do that, I need answers to these questions: 1. Do I have plans with the J Man? 2. Does he want to go to his party or join me with my friends? 3. Would he want to stick with our original plan, which was to go to the movies? In order to answer these questions, that'd require me asking him. I know there are bad times to ask him stuff. When he's got workworkwork on his mind, especially when he is at work, I know then is not the best time. Still, I tried to take a stab at it, and my efforts were fruitless. I put it off as long as possible, but tonight I have other plans, leaving with me a slimmer chance of talking to him. But how do I get the answers I need when he is not capable of thinking about more than one thing at a time? It's frustrating for me, especially when I am trying to plan. The same thing came up when I was trying to get stuff done for Whistler. I didn't want to make all the decisions without his input, but he wasn't giving any input...which left a lot of last minute scrambling, a misuse of time, and a stressed-out Rosie. If he doesn't mind being dictated what his plans are for a weekend, I'll gladly tell him :lol: Is it a man-woman brain thing...or a me thing? Why is it so difficult to be on a different plane of thought for some people? Maybe it is a me thing. I remember trying to plan stuff with P when we were on holiday, and her laissez-faire attitude was getting to me, then. :oops: I want to talk to him about what's the best way to be supportive when it's all about work for him because my frustrations are increasing. Then I start wondering if he's losing interest or if he's just distracted. His work life is having an effect on all aspects of our relationship currently, and I can't say they are good. We won't be seeing much of each other next month since I'll be out of town and then he'll be out of time. For me, it means I'd like to maximize our time together, but he doesn't seem all that concerned. In the past, when I've felt my needs have been neglected (and me), I end up engaging in destructive behaviour. I don't want to do that because by then, it's too late. |
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| Sexual frustration makes me cry |
| 08.19.05 (12:20 pm) [edit] |
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I told a lie yesterday, and man, did I feel bad about it. I still kind of do. So whenever I drive to the J Man's place, I call him when I'm exactly 10 minutes away to let him know I'm 10 minutes away. Five minutes didn't seem to be enough notice for him to come downstairs to let me into the garage, and I figure 10 minutes enough time for him to finish or put aside whatever he's doing at the moment. (Sometimes I'm 7 minutes away, and I tell him that, too.) However, no matter how much notice I give him, I'm always waiting -- every single time. No exaggeration. It's to the point where I wonder if there's even a point to giving him the courtesy of notice. If he's not going to manage his time or keep track of time, I might as well make my wait my fault. Anyway, yesterday...we were off to see a play and I was going to be at his place around 6. Earlier in the day, we had established that he'd be home by then since he was going to leave work at 5. So about at about 5:55, I did my usual 10 minute away call. He said he was still at work, and I told him I was at his place already. I felt bad about lying and the panic I caused him. He was like "okay, I'm going to run home now." But on the same token, if he was going to be late, all he had to do was let me know in advance. In fact, I wish he would tell me whenever he is running late. Punctuality is a weak point for me, but it's even weaker for him! I feel like I am waiting for him on a regular basis. So...when I'm really close to his place, he calls and asks me where I am. I was like, "I'm about 2 minutes away." I could tell he wasn't pleased. :oops: *hangs head in shame* I've been meaning to broach the subject of punctuality with him so we can do something about it. I am just as guilty. Getting to work at a decent time for me has been eating at me. Whenever I stay at his place during the week, I never get to work at a time I want (11 am is not acceptable, is it...). But I really dislike calling ahead to tell him when I'm going to be there and then still have to wait. Complaining about it hasn't helped, so I thought I would do something more drastic. I don't really think it's the best idea to fib though. Tonight is dinner and movie night! I am guessing J Man will be working late and perhaps working this weekend? Work work work. It is sucky that work is consuming him right now, but there are worse things. Oh!! Team Canada hockey jerseys are going to be tighter fitting. I can't wait to see them modeled :D |
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| Still an ass |
| 08.19.05 (7:04 am) [edit] |
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Often in life, I let certain people walk all over me. I'm very patient in this area. Then as soon as the straw breaks the camel's back, I do a complete turnaround. It surprises people because by that point I take absolutely no crap, and there is no room for forgiveness. It will seem like I even hate the person. Maybe forgiving is a good thing to do, but it's not going to do me much :lol: In the amount of time I let things slide, there's plenty of time to know what an ass one is being. So now, I am finally going to wipe my hands clean. I feel good. Oh, we saw Shakespeare's [u]As You Like it[/u] last night. It was enjoyable!! I wish my hearing was better, though. :lol: Oh and men in tights...mmm...There was a wrestling match where the participants were shirtless. The fake 'n' baking left one of them pretty red on his front and back, but down the sides was pretty white. I also wondered if having hairless chests were required for the role. |
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| Man, he remembers the diamonds. And he is an ass. |
| 08.18.05 (7:08 am) [edit] |
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This morning I was all pysched to wear my ring. But it wasn't where I normally keep it. I have no idea where it is. I hope I find it because it's the only ring I would wear. I am usually good with not losing things :? *sigh* My place is pretty much fixed up except for the breaker thing. That might have to wait 'til the end of next month. Last night, I had some company over, and we had dinner. I think I am carbed out. We had salad, garlic bread, and pesto whole wheat fusilli. Why did I think it was so weird that they didn't think there was anything unbalanced about that meal? I am paying for it today. It's also strange for me to be so lethargic and tired right now. It's probably related to my diet and not sleeping all that well lately. I did get about 8 hours last night. Oooh, maybe it's also related to my lack of exercise. This lack is really starting to show. I should stop making excuses and just get active again. Now I'm using my trip as an excuse :roll: I must STOP THE INSANITY! Whatever happened to Susan Powers anyway... Big Brother is still getting exciting. I loved Jennifer's excuses about breaking her deals. "Of course we break deals...there's not written rule about not being able to lie!" There are lots of other unwritten rules too, but a lot of people have more integrity than she does. |
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| No lunches today |
| 08.17.05 (8:52 am) [edit] |
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I left my whole lunch ... crate... at the J Man's. Oops. I realised it was sitting in his fridge when I was just about to exit the elevator. It would have been too late to go back and try to catch up to him. And of all the days...he didn't have his cell phone with him :lol: Ah well. I still need to eat again. I'm just not eating enough so I feel lethargic and not so good in the tummy. Then as soon as I ate a meal, I feel like I'm going to hurl! And great. Now there's not enough time to run home and eat before my meeting. :x It was great to see the J Man last night. It was a really good night :) We watched [u]A Home at the End of the World[/u]. I'm either going to have to read the book or ask my cousin how much the movie deviated from it. It was ... different....kind of a sweet movie. It left me wondering but satisfied. I enjoyed the acting in the movie, especially Colin Farrel's. Man, he has skinny legs. T and I discussed our trip yesterday, too. We're both kind of broke. She suggested not going to Paris. I would really like to go. I'm thinking more along the lines that we might as well go since we're so close. I'll have to look up someo trip info soon. |
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| You know |
| 08.16.05 (11:21 am) [edit] |
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I'm glad he shares his experiences with work with me; I really do. I am interested, but when it's becoming like 75% of what he talks about, I can only take so much. I can't relate to lines of code or how a problem was solved. All I can say is "great." It's annoying that conversations I start are pretty much disregarded for his work. Or it becomes, "hi! mememememe workworkworkwork memememe." And then silence. Or "mememememe workworkwork mememememe." "Great!" "Yah!" And then silence. I don't think I should have to repeat myself to get some sort of response. |
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| Moley moley moley |
| 08.16.05 (6:54 am) [edit] |
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I think this lack of eating has finally caught up to me. I can hardly move. I could barely get out of bed. And I'm not in a very sunny mood :lol: I barely talked to the J Man yesterday and then being on the field trip for class just totally reminded me of our first couple of dates. Then when we were on the phone, it was a lot of me listening to him put together furniture. My class and I worked on taking group photo shots. It was fun :lol: So the ____ guy came by this morning to check out my suite's deficiencies. So nothing of mine will get replaced, but some repairs will be made. And I still got to squeeze in my request to get some electrical stuff fixed. Yay! Another meeting request. This consultant seems to like having meetings at noon. What is up with that? Good thing I am not eating lunch around that time, but it is my favourite time to run errands. I'm due for a trip to Costco just to buy some razor blades. I think it takes me 1 - 2 weeks to use up one. I drove the minivan to work today. What a pain not having my own car. I miss it!! I have to wait 'til Monday to bring the car in and I'm not sure about the courtesy car situation. I guess I don't really need it since I have access to the van, but it's not the most petite thing. But at least I can see better out of it. And this morning, this guy checked me out, but he stared so long that I was starting to wonder WTF. He was exiting the doors to my building as I was entering. We smiled and said good morning. He had this huge grin on his face, and I could see his reflection when I walking into the building, and I could see that he had turned around and was still staring. Oh! And I am all caught up on Big Brother!! I watched 2 episodes this morning before work. It's weird having Kaysar back because he's all strategy strategy strategy. It was strategy as soon as he got back in the game. Now it's safe for me to go to the Web site. |
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| They've left |
| 08.15.05 (10:25 am) [edit] |
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Now I am sad :( At least I will have some plans coming up to keep me as busy as usual. :razz: Now there is this work pressure. How weird it is to have so much "freedom" thrown in your lap all of a sudden. Now I'm expected to also show leadership qualities. That is not the hard part; the hard part is dealing with people who've only seen you as a minion. I'm supposed to be innovative. And I have to accomplish much by the end of the month. I was complimented on my business look today; this guy is definitely pushing me in one direction. I don't know if it's because he thinks I can do it or if it's because he thinks that's what I want. And man, I make really good hard-boiled eggs. |
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| Wood eye? |
| 08.15.05 (7:20 am) [edit] |
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I once enjoyed a joke about a woman with a peg leg. So here's a meme I got off [url=http://jennjr.tblog.com]jennjr[/url]'s blog... WOULD YOU EVER? Eat a bug? Not intentionally Hang glide? umm...Not sure. Kill someone? Not willingly. Kiss someone of the same sex? Yes. A full-on makeout session? Maybe. Depends. Parachute from a plane? Maybe. Walk on hot coals? I don't think so. Go out with someone for their looks? Only for their looks? No. The person has to have some brains. Nobody has to be hot to date me :razz: For their reputation? No. Be a vegetarian? No. I need meat! Wear plaid with stripes? I would if it was a costume. Sing karaoke? No. Get drunk? No. Shoplift? Not again. Run a red light? If it was really late at night with no traffic and the light wasn't turning green, yes. Dye your hair blue? Yes. Be on Survivor? No. Wear makeup in public? Yes. NOT wear makeup in public? Yes. Make someone cry? Not intentionally. Date someone more than ten years older than you? Not at this point in time. I went out with a guy like 20 years older than I. He wasn't really ready to be dating again! Stay up all through the night? If it was worth it, yes. I guess I am not all that exciting! :lol: Some of the stuff I've already done. |
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| I am positive |
| 08.14.05 (9:17 pm) [edit] |
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that this past weekend was the laziest weekend I've had this year!!!! No gym action, but I only ate a couple of times. My eating is all out of whack again. I have to get my body used to eating again. I'm kind of hungry right now, but if I eat, I'll feel like I'm going to hurl! Last night was my grandma's birthday dinner. I think she liked only the cardigan. The shirt I picked out to go underneath was too clingy. I thought we would find the fit similar, but apparently not! And then she decided the scarf looked too much like a tie, but she will keep it; it goes fairly nicely with the cardigan. It was a typical 10 course type banquet style dinner. The J Man joined us, too. He's one of the rare few who've come out to these dinners. First, it takes me a while before introducing guys to family. And to have them at a family dinner is a big deal to me. I can't really describe what it's like for having one white person at a Chinese dinner, but generally the experience is the same across the board. The Chinese people always always always judge chopstick using ability and open-mindedness to the cuisine. He's passed on both items. I remember having this kind of discussion with a friend once. He's Chinese and his girlfriend's white. We used to talk about our relationships frequently, and what our parents thought, etc. Our parents were a lot alike. As for the rest of the experience, the white person -- until he or she gets the culture more -- will tend to feel uncomfortable and kind of feel like a lump sitting there not understanding what the conversations are about. I've seen one uncle with the "huh" expression on his face many times. I usually try to translate the conversations that might be interesting or somewhat entertaining, but usually, they're not. :lol: But then again, it's not like nobody is unable to speak English. Everyone except for the generation before my parents' are able to converse in English. The whitie is never completely ignored. I feel like I coerced the J Man into getting a gift for my grandmother though. :? I pretty much told him that if he wanted to come with me to the dinner, he would have to give something. 1. He would have been coming to another family meal, and if he didn't have something as a birthday gift, he would have looked like a moocher. 2. Even though he's not Chinese, he would have looked disrespectful. But what I was really try to say was that he had a choice whether he even wanted to come to my family dinner. However, there was only one stipulation if he did come. If family dinners are that stressful for him, I wouldn't want him to succumb to such torture. I had asked my mom and my aunt what would have been a good gift the night before, and they were like "why?" And I was like, "something from the J Man." And they were all like "ooooh. He really knows how to make an impression!" And I was like, "no...it's my idea." And then I was like, "if he doesn't want to pay for anything and he does come to dinner, I'd buy something and say it's from him." Then my mom was like ":x. Well, in that case, don't bother!" I taught one boyfriend to say "happy birthday" in Cantonese, and one cousin said I should've done it this time, too. :roll: The thought crossed my mind, but there wasn't enough time anyhow. We went to another birthday party, too. So much birthday cake on Saturday night. The J Man says he cares that I've slept with other people, but he'd not be bothered if I told him about the details. I am on the complete opposite on that front. But I've been like that with all boyfriends. It's pretty much inevitable that I am not dating virgins, and the past can't be changed. However, I don't want to relive the past, either! I also have no interest in using boyfriend's sex toys that have been used on other women's genitalia. I don't care even if he says they're clean. That's just icky to me. I wouldn't want to use sex toys on exes on any one current, either!! And ugh, I have no idea why sex has been so painful for me lately. I don't remember if this has happened before either. :? Sometimes I wonder if my body is also projecting from my mental thoughts, too. :? Hopefully this pain will not persist. |
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| Shou'd've been covered |
| 08.12.05 (12:41 pm) [edit] |
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I think to save a buck or two, I declined collision coverage. I think I will add some of that back to my car insurance asap. Now I will be going through some hoops in order to get a courtesy car. And if my car had been write off, I'd have gotten nothing back. :oops: I am back from the mountains now. I probably could've rolled home. Ugh. I look puffy. |
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| Day 2 |
| 08.11.05 (7:16 pm) [edit] |
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I am utterly exhausted, and I still have to play Monopoly. My cousin's been bugging us to play ever since we got here. She also complains about nobody playing with her. Our grandmother taught her some solitaire type card games, but she wasn't really into that. When I was her age, her brothers and I played those games a lot. She's practically an only child with her brothers being so much older than her and living on their own. Another cousin and I saw [u]Sky High[/u] this afternoon, and it was such a cute movie. It was quite the all-star cast. I am absolutely stuffed right now, though. Tomorrow I can eat the rest of the food I brought with me. I think I will be bringing some of it home, but the only reason why I brought this stuff with me because it probably would've gone bad by the time I got back. A third cousin and I went ATVing today, and that was really dusty. It seemed worse than the last time I went, but at least this time, my mask stayed on. My eyebrows were grey by the time we were done. I tried beating the dust out of my clothes, but it wasn't that great. I did throw my purse and sandals in the washer and then dryer. I'm coming back tomorrow. More eating is in store!! |
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| Jizz, aw oui |
| 08.10.05 (8:12 pm) [edit] |
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Jizzler: Day 1 It feels super late right now, but I guess I've been exhausted all day. I tried sleeping in the car on the way, but my mom kept waking me up :? All we've done today is eat. But then again, that's all we do when relatives visit. We arrived, ate some lunch, walked around a little, and then had some dinner. I tried to take some photos for my class; hopefully something good will turn out. I hope to have some crepes tomorrow. What makes a lodge different from other accomodations? We're staying in this townhouse type place. We brought DVDs, but there is no DVD player here. Oh well. Actually, my cousins and I had a thrilling game of Scrabble. One time I was all set to play Strip Scrabble (not with family, sickos!), but that never panned out. For every word you make that uses four letters or less, you remove an item of clothing. Hmm. I guess that is all for now. I'm using my uncle's laptop, and laptops are not that fun. Dialup isn't fun either. But I will take it! I only came online to send an email. :D I think I've had too much sugar and caffeine today, too. I'm exhausted but kind of wired! HEEEHEHEHEHEHEHEEEE D'oh. Not only did I forget my mixer to make my protein shakes, but I also forgot my protein powder. I also forgot my vitamins. Where's my head at?! |
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| Off to the mountains again! |
| 08.10.05 (6:34 am) [edit] |
| Oooh la la. I think it will be chilly this time. |
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| I really should stop |
| 08.09.05 (3:09 pm) [edit] |
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It's like trying not to look at a train wreck. Anyway, I'm referring to reading the J Man's blog. I wonder if I make him sound as awful here as he does me. :oops: He wrote about the car accident. He was short and to the point about the details, for the most part. He made me sound hysterical; at least that's the image I conjure up with "visibly upset." Maybe he's not seen me visibly upset, but I've been in car accidents that have made me cry from shock. I think car accidents make me mad more than anything now. I know the back pain, neck pain, and headaches will come. I know I will have to deal with the insurance company. And for me, after an accident, I just want to get the paperwork over and done with, so I can get on with life. I am just tired of being relatively young and having people smash me to bits. And then he noted my attitude about cops. In my experiences where I've had to deal with them, they've never been pleasent, so yeah...understandable to me. The first police officer I spoke to after the car accident asked me for details about what happened and took my ID and insurance papers. I thought he would come back to talk to me or return my things. Then he left because the second police officer talked to me, and gave me back my stuff. Then I mentioned I had information about a witness. Instead of using the information right away, he gave me a hard time about not giving the first cop the information right away. And that it'd take them more time to track down this guy and talk to him. I felt that I had been extremely patient given that all I wanted to do was talk to the other driver to get her information. And these cops were in my way! And then I had to listen to them tell me that I was slowing down their job? They spent most of the time talking to her. I was sitting with the J Man waiting....waiting....waiting... But several years ago when I had my stalker-ish ex-boyfriend and I had to get the cops involved, they were not very helpful. I kept going back and forth between the cop on my case and the lawyer because both kept saying it was the other's responsibility to deal with it. The first meeting with this cop, I gave him letters written by my friends who were being harrassed by my ex, chat logs, photos, a tape with phone messages. And he concluded that my ex was just some guy who couldn't let go. Well, yeah...this ex couldn't...so he tried to make my life hell. He wouldn't leave my friends alone, sent my mother stuff to her work, wouldn't leave me alone, would pretend to be me on the Internet so strangers would call me. How creepy is it to have someone say to you, "I saw you in your window last night, and I wanted to go to the door to apologise." This was a guy I wanted nothing to do with, ever again. The cop called my ex for me to tell him to lay off because he wasn't allowed to visit him in person given that my ex was not in his jurisdiction. So he figured all would be calm after that phone call, and I was to let him know if anything else happened. But my ex continued with his harrassment. The lawyer sent him off a theatening letter, and that was that on the lawyer front. I think I contacted the cop again when I had had enough of the snail mail. And when I did contact him, it was "didn't I tell you to let me know if he did anything else?" :roll: Actually, there is one cop that I do like because he's a good guy :) But generally speaking, my experiences with cops have not been all that great. I could understand if I was breaking the law and all. And ugh, the Roommate (aka G Man) sent me an email. He was nice and friendly as if he had forgotten what a major turdbucket he was to me. I don't know what it is with that circle of people. Ignoring people just doesn't always get them to leave you alone. I had nicknamed someone Mr. 9" at some point, and now I don't remember who he was. |
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| Woo! Resolution! |
| 08.09.05 (11:00 am) [edit] |
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So my car insurance claim is now closed. I guess I don't even have to go in and sign anything. The other driver was deemed 100% at fault. I'm just relieved everything was resolved quickly. And I am thanking my lucky stars for that bus driver who was my reported witness. I feel like I should call and thank him or something. Now I just have to get on getting my car repaired. I wonder what happens when they find more stuff that needs fixing and that wasn't on the repair sheet, if my case is closed. |
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| Oct.5 can't come soon enough |
| 08.09.05 (6:36 am) [edit] |
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NHL hockey starts up again!! I guess I didn't really miss it while it was gone. But I'm generally like that anyway -- out of sight is out of mind. But I'm just *thrilled* that Richard Park will be playing for the Canucks. One of my favourite things about watching hockey is the fights. :oops: Mmm....*happy dance* |
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| I'm still telling you |
| 08.09.05 (6:10 am) [edit] |
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It's the mercury retrograde. Nobody is letting me sleep in!! I hate being woken up by something other than an alarm clock; at least this way, I get to choose what time to wake up at if my body's not going to do it. I was having a dream about buying bread...fresh loaves of bread. I even asked for some raisin squirrely bits loaf or something, and then the phone woke me up. *sigh* And then I couldn't get back to sleep. I hope to not be too tired today. I guess I will walk to the gym today; I'm still not comfortable driving my car. Sometimes I wonder if the front hass succumbing even more to gravity. Going down any kind of decline sounds really ugly. I'm away for the next few days again. I need to pick up some stuff and do some packing!! I hope I can do some more photography homework while I'm gone. I think the most difficult part is finding subjects for my portrait shots. I might as well do it now while I have lots of family members around!! I need three portrait shots: candid, posed, and unconventional. As for the unconventional, I guess I have been taking those kind of self-portraits for quite some time :lol: Other things I need to photograph should feature things like framing, rule of 3rds, texture, colour, lines, and maybe something else. I also need to photograph 1 object from 5 different angles. That will be really cool. Four more weeks and I'm out of the country! I guess that is plenty of time to check out somewhere to stay. I hope. I just have to make sure to buy another CF card before I go. Man, a 2GB card...should I? Or should I not? :lol: |
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| I'm the chosen one |
| 08.08.05 (8:02 pm) [edit] |
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I don't know why people turn to me when they want birthday gift advice for other people. It kind of gets on my nerves. If I can think up something (and especially if I don't even know the person), why can't they?! Every Christmas, my mom asks me what to get her brother, sister-in-law, and kids. Then she asks me to go and help her buy something. She's the kind of person who will give anything without much thought to whether it'd suit the person. For Christmas last year, she got me a little clock in the shape of a piano. Pianos mean nothing to me, and I don't need more little clocks!! Anyway, that clock is still in the box, and it's fallen off my window ledge. Every year for my grandma's birthday, cousins tend to ask me what to get her. She's a woman who has everything she needs and isn't into a lot of things. For the past couple of years, I guess we've started chipping in for things together, but I'm the one who thinks up the actual gift. So this year, I was kind of at a loss. My other cousins wanted to get her an outfit. I was a little iffy on that because I don't see my grandmother often enough to get a good look for her size. And she's a clothes horse. Nonetheless, I went with the majority. Then I ended up picking out the whole thing. :roll: I guess I get a little miffed that I do all the work and everyone else gets the credit. Yeah, yeah -- I know the important thing is that the gift is liked by the recipient. One cousin was only waiting for something to be bought, and then he'd chip in towards the cost. "What?! That was $300?!" So yeah...:lol: I tend to not ask people what they want unless I'm at a complete loss at the time, but even when I get their list, I kind of build on that. I'd rather just come up with my own stuff. And I also hate when people tell me that they want what I've already had in mind for them. It'll just look like I was really uncreative with their gift. |
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| I'm telling you |
| 08.08.05 (7:44 am) [edit] |
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It's the mercury retrograde. At least by next week, I won't be hitting all these roadblocks to getting stuff done. I brought my car in to the insurance people to get checked out. I think the guy missed some stuff. Everything on his list had to do with the hood, fender, and headlight. What about the leaky stuff? Anyway, I can't really do much since no one has been claimed liable yet. I am all set to get my car fixed, but all I can do is take my paperwork somewhere so they can started on ordering parts. :roll: I hope that other woman has made her claim. Someone is holding up the process!! So now I am driving my car, and I don't even feel good about driving it. I really don't want to do more damage to it than it's already succumbed to. I hate hearing the scraping. I'm trying to avoid turning the steering wheel really right. I also fear the car breaking down somewhere because it's out of fluids!! And then for the past couple of days, I've been scrambling to get my letters together because the one year warranty for my apartment is expiring this weekend. I hope I haven't left out anything on my list. I put everything that I could think of there; if they say it's not up to them to fix certain things, then oh well -- even though a lot of my deficiencies were overlooked before I moved in. How was I supposed to notice there was a chunk of the top of the fridge missing? Or there was a "5" written in thick black marker on the side of the tank? Anyway, I wasn't sure how many copies of the letters I was to make because I could not easily find the information in all the paper I've received over the year. And I could not find the addresses. The addresses were my main concern, so I sent an email off to the property manager. All I got was a snippy "your minutes tell you you need to send your letter to A, B, and C." And he did not give me the addresses. Luckily, I found my warranty, which had the important addresses (Screw the frickin' meeting minutes. Even the ones they post in our little bulletin window suck. There was a reminder for us to send our letters, but that was it. No other information.) And luckily, I also found the property manager's business card because he is supposed to get a copy of it, too. My lower back is really sore today; I wonder if it's just the Advil wearing off now. I despise that dull throbbing pain. :x The P Man contacted me twice this weekend. Why do I give him the time of day? He knows I'm seeing someone, and he should remember what I big jerk he was. I seem to have forgotten the jerky part, but then again, I've forgotten just about everything else about him, too -- except that you know he's lying every time his lips are moving. |
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| I've lost count |
| 08.06.05 (10:10 am) [edit] |
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The only times I've been at fault for car accidents have been minor. When I just got my license, I backed my car into a parked pickup. Another time, I backed into a BMW (gently) while I was adjusting my parking job. However, other car accidents have been me being rear-ended or people making me hit them. Let me see if I can remember them all. My poor car. It's 10 years old, and it's been through quite a bit. Actually, so has my body. 1. I was going through a green light and someone decided to turn right directly in front of me. He was also turning into the centre lane as opposed to the curb lane. :roll: 2. I was stopped in bumper to bumper traffic and saw a car behind me coming really quickly. She didn't stop in time, hit me, and I ended up rolling into the person in front of me. 3. I was rear ended at a red light. The guy gently tapped me, but my back is already shot. 4. I was a passenger in my mom's car, and we stopped for an ambulance that was coming up. The guy behind us ended up rear ending us. 5. And then last night. Ugh. I'll post more about that later; it's time to head out for lunch. But I really hate dealing with the auto insurance company here. They love to make a buck. As per the situation, I was not at fault. However, we were both in an intersection where the light was going from yellow to red. Thank goodness for witnesses who stick around to pass along information. And even more thankfully, NOBODY was hurt. The most frustrating part of all is me telling my side of the story to the police, the insurance claims person, a doctor, and my mom, and then have them all say "you were wrong because you were in the intersection about to turn left." Well, okay...I will make this quick. I was in an intersection at a green light waiting for a safe time to turn left. I got honked at and noticed the light was already yellow. It looked clear and that everyone coming towards the intersection was going to be able to stop in time. So I slowly accelerated. Then I saw this car right in front of me. I said, "oh, shit," thinking I was going to t-bone her. I ended up hitting her rear bumper (or some area after the wheel but before the end of the car). I think I was almost at a full stop, and with better timing, I could have missed her. I'm thinking "oh my God...I hope everyone's okay." I finished my turn and pulled off to the side. I didn't want to block traffic, and luckily someone was just leaving a parking spot, and I crunched my way in (the steering sounds very ugly now). And it was a bus that was behind me. I was wondering where the hell the driver went. Anyway, he came back and asked me if I was okay and gave me some details. In the meantime, I'm trying to get over to the other driver. After I hit her, I turned around, and saw her fly off over a median. I thought she was going to stop there, so I turned back. Then I had realised she had not stopped and went across 3.5 lanes (1 turning lane, 2 regular lanes, and half a lane that was turning into a right turn lane) of oncoming traffic and onto a wide sidewalk. So how lucky was it that no other cars got hit or pedestrians?? This is a very busy street and intersection. I still can't believe it. Then we dealt with paremedics, police, etc. *sigh* Now it's time to deal with insurance people, body shops, and other therapists. Normally this kind of accident would be no biggie...a little stiffness and that's about it. But due to my past, every little thing affects my body. Grr! My neck stiffened right away. Later on, the back pain set in. Then the headache. I have mobility now, but I just feel tender. Boo. |
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| I knew it was going to happen |
| 08.05.05 (1:49 pm) [edit] |
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When I first started working here, there was no dress code. Then all of a sudden, we were to be all business casual. Nobody's really enforced it. Some people wear jeans every day. Lots of guys wear their shorts and runners. For this summer, we're allowed the privilege to be in casual wear every day and not just Fridays. Quite frankly, casual Friday and business casual makes little difference to me. Jeans is the only difference. A couple of weeks ago, we had a Social Committee meeting, and our VP of sales turned to one of the girls and casually remarked, "you're in shorts. We have a business casual dress code here." The girl was obviously embarrassed; I would be too, if I was reprimanded in front of a bunch of people. That incident was burned in my head. First, I was thinking "whoa...daily casual wear has been OKed by HR for the summer." Second, I thought her shorts were an acceptable length for the office. So today, the Social Committee got together for lunch. When I got dressed this morning, I knew the VP of sales was going to be there, and I wondered if what I was wearing was going to be appropriate to her. I had on black shorts (the second longest pair I own :P and baggy and ones I wouldn't really wear in public outside of work) and one of my usual T-shirts -- definitely casual but not outrageously so, IMHO. So, for a moment, it was just her and me in the room, and I could sense some tension. She looked at me, and asked," can I give you some advice?" I was like, "sure." Then she told me shorts were too short. And then she called it beachwear. Then she told me to take whatever she said for what it's worth. People walk around here in flip flops. An example in our handbook about how to dress is to not look like you're going to the beach. I don't associate "short" shorts with beachwear, but in my mind, flip flops count. I understand we have a dress code here, and I know it applies to me. However, I do think it's a silly idea for someone who doesn't have to deal with outside customers to have to dress up. [Are they just being fair by having everyone dress equally formal? I don't think it would be unacceptable for departments to have their own dress codes.] And if you're going to be picky about people wearing certain items...then you ought to be picky about everything. Why be half-assed? I guess I just do not know what an appropriate length for shorts is. Anything longer and they're not very flattering. But then I guess I can get away with wearing short skirts?? That is ridiculous. It's not like I'm a distraction to anyone; in fact, maybe I'd be an incentive for people to come into work. BWAHAHA That was sarcasm. I hide out in my cube all day long. |
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| If loving you is wrong, I don't wanna be right. |
| 08.05.05 (6:30 am) [edit] |
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BWAHAHAA I got all caught up on Big Brother 6 last night; unfortunately, I didn't actually tape Tuesday's episode. Whenever I watch the show and then the recaps, it makes me think I didn't miss much. The show mostly focuses on everyone's strategies these days. I went to the site today, too. I love reading Revenge of the Houseguests. And I had no idea House Calls was on every day. I have a lot of archives to catch up on. Oh, and it's plainly obvious who friends of the HoH are when you go looking at their photos. Unless they're not uploading all photos, in some weeks, you see maybe one of certain people while half of the others are of the same person. The whole Eric the martyr thing -- I just don't get it. I can't wait for next week. I think I'd like to see Kaysar back the most. Yesterday I broke out my rollerskates and gave them a whirl in my uncle's house. I figured I would use them indoors first on some nice marble floors. I'm afraid to stop. I keep thinking I'm going to fall headfirst from the inertia if I use my brakes. But I've always had a dislike for using brakes on anything. I hate when I have to brake going uphill in a car. I hate braking when I am in the midst of turning on an advance green. I hate braking for speed bumps or (small) potholes. I'm all prepared for some Harry Potter. I've decided I'm going to read the first five books again before starting the sixth since I have access to the fifth. I'll just speed read. Can I accomplish all this in a week? I plan on it :) Oh, and I'm going away earlier than expected with the family next week. So much for things like sleeping in, cleaning my home, getting in some workouts, getting an oil change for my car, or all that stuff I loved doing when I wasn't so stressed out! Actually, I was more stressed out at this time last year, I think. I was in the middle of moving, a work deadline, and helping T with her wedding stuff. I was getting ready for the stagette, and panicing that I hadn't made up my speech yet. I was also barely eating at this time. The last 12 months have flown by. I think a true friend not only supports you in times of turmoil but also regales in the good times. Thanks, people. Good show. Wankers. |
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| I put the GRR in swinger! |
| 08.04.05 (10:52 am) [edit] |
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Yeah, baby! Yeah! While the J Man was speaking shopping on the weekend, there was a demo DVD playing, and it showed the second Austin Powers movie trailer. I just couldn't but laugh every single time it came on. We were at the store for a long time, and I saw that trailer many times. I think the J Man thought I was bored, but I wasn't at all. Toys interest me. I have been more bored standing around listening to him chat to other people. Not that I find people disintesting -- not at all. I can listen to people for hours talking about themselves. But there is just something about standing around listening to 2 people talk when there is just 3 of you, and you can't contribute to the conversation, or there is no room for you. Howere, gathering information about speakers is useful to me, so I can stand to listen. And I'm not sure why I remembered this recently, but he's said that I look the same no matter what I'm feeling. Next month he'll be away for a bit shortly after I return from my trip. I thought that was a bummer, but I didn't say anything. I guess I kind of thought there wasn't much of a point because nothing would change if I said anything. But then again, at least he'd know. I'm gone for about 2 and a half weeks, and then he has people visiting him right when I return, and then he's leaving the country. Not much of a J Man month for me in September. That will be interesting. I just had some really crumbly meatloaf. Should I have packed it in more? And the insides of my mouth are still raw. |
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| A decline |
| 08.04.05 (9:56 am) [edit] |
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I just sent a reply to an invitation to a bbq. He has one every year at a park, and it's quite fun. Last year I went and got a shock when The Handyman showed up. Best to avoid him. This Friday I'm going to another gathering ["gathering" sounds kind of Dungeons and Dragons-ish, but it's just a bunch of people hanging out and chilling. "Chilling" is a word I do not use in my regular vocabulary.] I wonder if it will be awkward if Stef is there. I ought to be using nicknames more often. Yesterday, when MILFlover chatted me up, I asked him why he told the P Man I was seeing someone. He said the P Man asked. I thought that was strange. There is hairiness at work right now since we're trying to get some major tasks accomplished before I am away from the office next week. Man, am I sleepy. It wasn't until after I got into the office that our 8:30 meeting was going to have to be pushed to 9:30. Tonight, the plan is to do some laundry, and catch up on Big Brother. I'll see what the family is doing for dinner, too. Tonight will be an early one!! YEAH! |
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| Still tired |
| 08.04.05 (5:38 am) [edit] |
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How can I possibly feel so alert when I first wake up and then quickly drop down to "iwannagobacktobed"? I still need to catch up on all the sleep I missed last week, I guess. And I got into work on time for my meeting today, unlike yesterday. But now the meeting's been resschhhhheduled. My friend L and I had lots of laughs in school during lectures. Words like "ssssschhhhhhedule" and "tiddle" just made us laugh. And our instructors' email addresses. We just started addressing them by their email usernames...like "banderso" (RIP), "ktang," and "blink." I used to eat carrots loudly in class, too. One thing we always talked about was "breath." We'd smell it all the time. We were both really sensitive to aromas of others. I saw some old lecture notes a while back, and we had written some notes back and forth with each other. Lots about "breath." Last night, the J Man and I went to catch the fireworks. Another enjoyable show. I liked the fireworks display, but I'm not so sure how well it went with the music. I wish I could've heard the music better. We were standing behind this Asian couple. The dude had a funky body aroma. It reminded me of the days when I used to go to my aunt and uncle's house when they and my parents played mahjong. Every time I returned home, the aroma of their house would be stuck all over me, and I hated it. I just didn't like their natural family smell. So this dude in front of us -- not only did he have a funky aroma, but he had bad breath, too. Or maybe it wasn't him, but there was an aroma of rotting fish, and I smelled it definitely after he talked, which he did a lot. On occasion, I'd catch whiffs of it. I'm just not big on odor pollution. There are certain types of women I see, and whenever they walk by, or if I walk past them, I naturally hold my breath. It's a complete natural reflex now. I hold my breath because I'm expecting them to have marinaded in perfume. It's probably a bad thing to do, but it's like some Pavlovian effect. See woman with coiffed hair (usually with some sort of dye job and adorned with an assortment of hair products), heavy make up, wearing really trendy clothes; hold breath. |
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| BO and farts |
| 08.03.05 (11:07 am) [edit] |
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Last night, my mom, aunt, uncle, and I went to see Rain. It was a great show. I was exhausted though. I didn't want to drive, and it probably wasn't the safest things to do. But nonetheless, I have an aunt who doesn't drive, an uncle who's not fond of driving, and my mom who's normal reaction is "what?! I can't drive downtown! I don't know how!!" So at the risk of everyone's lives, I got us to the show :) At stoplights, I rested my eyes. I thought for sure I would have fallen asleep during the show; I think I almost did during an acoustic part. So anyhow, the show...it's these 5 guys who make up Rain. They try to be the Beatles. The 5th guy is a keyboard guy hidden away. The other guys play their own instruments. They also had an orchestra hidden away somewhere. Their set was done in chronological order of the Beatles' tunes. They'd show news clips and other things to show passage of time. It was interesting to see The Flinstones sell Winston cigarettes. I think I actually got chills up my spine from being at the show. It made me totally miss being a kid and hearing Beatles tunes all over the house on any given day. The show inspired me to listen to music again. I saw a Beatles CD set at Costco once. I think it was all their CDs. I was really tempted to get it, but alas, I did not. And now I am regretting it. I think at the time, I figured I would just copy my dad's CDs. These guys are here 4 nights; it wouldn't surprise me if every show was sold out. I think they'd do well in Vegas. The most amusing part was the audience. Everyone was so tame. I avoid mosh pits these days, but I grew really accustomed to being front and centre in concerts. I'm not sure why I put myself through all that since my nose was always stuck in someone's armpit or back. But last night, the band would get everyone to stand up and dance and clap or whatever, and as soon as the song ended, everyone sat back down. And there was no wild screaming. I wondered what would happen if someone rushed the stage. So BO and farts. I walked into a cloud of fart at some point. When P and I were in Vegas, we smelled a lot of farts. And BO...someone around me had it, but I only smelled whenever we had to stand up. I think it could have been the guy beside me. It doesn't really matter. He was really enjoying the show. I enjoyed it a lot, too. I would see them again. Next time I will be more alert, and my mind won't be wandering. |
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| So tired |
| 08.02.05 (8:18 am) [edit] |
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When I'm tired, sometimes I get the giggles. Sometimes, I can't hear very well. A manager came by and started talking to me, and it took so much concentration for me to just pay attention. It's one of those days where I'm making a lot of disconnected thoughts in my head. I should be going away for a few days with my relatives next week. At this time next month, I'll be out of the country. I'd better get going on doing some trip planning. I guess money is going to be extremely tight for me when I get back. I can't go to bed early tonight either. I also want to get started on reading the new Harry Potter. Tonight, I'm off to see Rain, the fake Beatles. Apparently they put on a great show. I associate The Beatles with my childhood. I grew up listening to pretty much only their new stuff. Nobody sang me lullabyes, but my dad played their records over and over again. He didn't like their later stuff, so I am not all that familiar with it. He would sing along to their songs, and as a young child, I'd ask him why he never became a [rock] singer. |
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| The return of Rosie |
| 08.01.05 (8:48 pm) [edit] |
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The weekend was nice. It was nice to get away, and it was a learning experience. I wish we had had more time to plan ahead. It felt short. By the time we got there it was almost Saturday evening, and then we left Monday morning. Man, I hate being itchy *scratches*. Friday was the J Man's birthday and then the two of us left for the mountains (Jizzler, as I |