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| Survey time! |
| 10.30.05 (8:08 pm) [edit] |
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1. First name? Not "Rosie" 2. Were you named after anyone? No 3. Do you wish on stars? I can never find any! 4. When did you last cry? Tonight. 5. Do you like your handwriting? Yes. 6. What is your favorite lunch meat? Ham or turkey, I guess. 7. What is your birth date? December 21 8. What is your most embarrassing CD? Mariah Carey's Music Box 9. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Yes. 10. Do you have a journal? Yes. 11. Do you use sarcasm a lot? I don't think it's a lot :) 12. What are your nicknames? Chowchow, on occasion 13. Would you bungee jump? No 14. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Yes. 15. Do you think you are strong? Sometimes. Who wants to fight me? 16. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? Green tea, vanilla, chocolate chip cookie dough, and CHerry Garcia 17. Shoe size? 6.5 18. Red or pink? Both!! 19. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? I'm no t as fit as I'd like to be. 20. Who do you miss most? Nobody. 21. Do you want everyone you send this to, to send it back to you? I haven't sent this to anyone! 22. What color pants and shoes are you wearing? No shoes but I do have Peanuts on my PJ bottoms. 23. What are you listening to right now? My computer's fan. 24. Last thing you ate? A homemade bran muffin 25. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Black 26. What is the weather like right now? Very rainy 27. Last person you talked to on the phone? My mom 28. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Their face 29. Do you like the person who sent this to you? Well, I borrowed this from [url=jenn-jr.blogspot.com] Jenn Jr's blog[/url], and I think she's great! 30. Apparently, there is no 30. 31. Favorite sport? Billards or ice hockey 32. Hair color? Black 33. Eye color? Brown. 34. Do you wear contacts? Yes 35. Favorite food? Breakfast food, seafood, dessert...It wouldn't be fair to pick a favourite! 36. Last movie you watched? Sister of the Traveling Pants. It made me cry! 37. Favorite day of the year? A day off 38. Scary movies or happy endings? Happy Endings. 39. Summer or winter? Summer 40. Hugs or kisses? Both! 41. What is your favorite dessert? It wouldn't be fair to just pick one! 42. Who is most likely to respond to this e-mail? This isn't an email. 43. Who is least likely to respond to this e-mail? This isn't an email. 44. Living arrangements: My condo 45. What books are you reading? The 4th Harry Potter, and some history book on BC 46. Yeah, there's no 46, either. What. Ever. 47. What did you watch last night? Got dressed up and went to some friends' place for some Hallowe'en action. 48. Favorite smells? Home cooking, a freshly washed man, nature. 49. Favorite sounds? Rain on glass 50. Rolling Stones or Beatles? The Beatles. 51. What's the farthest you've been from home? Sydney, Australia (or would it be Melbourne...I'm not sure) 52. Do you have a special talent? Not really. |
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| So much to do on a Sunday night! |
| 10.30.05 (12:30 pm) [edit] |
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I'm thankful for that extra hour of sleep last night. The day is more than half over, and I have a long list of things to do, including: -do the dishes -bake muffins -catch up on 2 hours of missed TV -watch Grey's Anatomy -watch Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants -sew some stuff I may have to wait on those missed 2 hours so I can watch the movie. At least my place isn't too messy. I won't feel to embarrased when I have company over tomorrow night. Oh yeah, last night I also burned my hair! I was trying to see if I could set my camera on timer on the counter, so I could get a group shot of us. Then I heard this crackling...then I smelled it. :lol: Luckily, I wasn't in flames. It was a little candle I had dipped my hair into. My costume didn't catch fire, either. It's 100% polyester, but there is a tag that says "Keep away from flames." :shock: |
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| Need a sponge bath? |
| 10.29.05 (11:41 pm) [edit] |
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I went without the nun outfit tonight, and went with the nurse. The costume was pretty skimpy. I loved it! I wish I could have gone *out* somewhere with it on, but at least my friends go to see it. And I had white shoes; I completely forget. I thought I looked pretty cute, anyway :P It was a short white polyester dress with a little cap, too. I wore some white stockings. If we had gone out, I would have carried around a sponge with me. I couldn't really bend over in that outfit. The nun outfit would have barely covered my boobs. Needless to say, that costume will be saved for more private occasions! Oh yeah, while I was in the shower today, our fire alarm went off. I had just put shampoon in my hair. Instead of rushing out, taking the whole fire alarm thing seriously, I finished taking my shower, and then got dressed and went outside. All the time, I was thinking it was just a false alarm (as usual), but in the back of mind, I was like "what if?" The alarms were sooo loud, and kept continuing on for at least an hour. They were still going off when I left for the evening. My ears were hurting even though I had earplugs in. The earplugs were all squished anyway and didn't really do much. I did eventually go wait outside, and the firetrucks were already leaving. |
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| One thing I'm good at |
| 10.28.05 (11:49 pm) [edit] |
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Talking myself out of liking people. I am such a freak! We haven't even had one date yet. I'm dying to know more about him. I need to stop expecting so much and remember that I have been happy with no significant other in my life right now. Besides, I might end up asking myself what I was thinking afterwards. So...back to regular life until Tuesday. :) It's a quarter to 3 am. I am tired, and I am going to go to bed. It was a fun night tonight. |
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| Periods go at the end of sentences. |
| 10.28.05 (7:47 am) [edit] |
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Isn't that one of the first things you learn about writing???? It took me one hour to edit 5 pages today. I've probably spent about 12 hours on 60 pages for a different docoument. I have about 120 more pages to go. And that one has been relatively easy! And you know, people writing things can be so lazy. I don't know if they just don't care about spelling and grammar, etc., or if they know someone will be around to correct their mistakes. Is turning on Spell Check so BAD??? Luckily, I'm a great human spell checker :P I am still kind of excited about next week, but since out of sight is out of mind...I think my excitement has died down a little. Nickname-less is trying to avoid talking to me so we don't run out of things to say that evening! :roll: I think that is silly. Our conversations have been great so far, and what if next week is the only time we ever get together? Then all this time would have been wasted! He has no car. I seem to meet a lot of those kind of guys. Guys with no car, and really class-less guys. But it's always one or the other. I haven't met any class-less, car-less guys. Having a car isn't everything. But unless the person lives like a 10 minute walk away from me... *sigh* I am just really tired of being the chauffeuse all the time. I think I am also ready to date non-techies. I think I've dated maybe 1 or 2 of those in the last 7 years... no joke. But generally, I find techies more interesting to talk to, and have brains. I guess I can relate to them, but a lot of them are just really lacking social skills. When people type "<3" I just think of farts.> I type these often: (_)_)<3 > |
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| Hugging |
| 10.27.05 (7:32 am) [edit] |
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I grew up in a family where not a lot of affection was shown. I do remember getting good night kisses from my mom (3 each night, in fact -- one on each cheek and a peck on the lips), but other than that, there was never much hugging. I still find it awkward to hug people sometimes. I don't often initiate. It felt kind of awkward when aaron and I parted ways last night. But now I have a (very long) apron for my costume. I'm going to have to stitch it up. While we were walking around in a department store, we were looking at knives. I noticed a boxed set and started reading the contents. I did a double take when I read down to 5" boner. BWAHAHA AHAHA I couldn't stop laughing. Juvenile, I know. But who ever calls boning knives boners?! And this was printed on the box, so I quickly snapped a photo. But back to hugging. When I was at Thanksgiving dinner, someone was talking about a new work policy, which was hugging co-workers was not allowed. Of course, I'm thinking "why in the world would you be hugging your co-workers anyway? They're co-workers!" Meanwhile, everyone else thought the new rule was absurd. "If someone I've known a long time, and it's his birthday, of *course* I'm going to give him a hug!" "If someone needs comforting, I won't be able to help myself but hug them." So yeah, that's my hugging bit. And the P Man has *finally* removed me from his MSN list!!! :D I bet this is also an end to his phone calls, too!! HURRAH!!!! |
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| No more ++s |
| 10.26.05 (1:28 pm) [edit] |
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Do I really still need those ++s in front of my post titles? I'll just stop using them now that the spam blogs have decreased for now. I don't feel comfortable in my clothes today. I'll have to run home after work to change before meeting up with aaron. He has an apron for me!! Hurrah! Too bad he didn't have tights, either. I tried my old pair, and I think they are too small. I'm going to be yanking at them all day, I think. I hate pantyhose style anything, though. I'd rather use stockings or stayups. |
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| ++I am really excited for next week |
| 10.25.05 (7:45 pm) [edit] |
| The question is...what the heck am I going to WEAR????? |
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| ++tBlog is licking |
| 10.25.05 (6:35 am) [edit] |
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I know they're trying to prevent these spam posts by using a post key...but every time I type mine it, says I need the correct code. And that's it. There is no Retry button. The code is shown again. The only option I see is to click the Back button, and when I do, my post is lost! Until I figure out a way to successfully make a post here, it's Blogger for me! |
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| ++Fog |
| 10.24.05 (6:56 am) [edit] |
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There's a fog in my head. I feel a cold or something cold-like coming on. I can't wait to go home and sleep. I had no time to clean this weekend again. I was out day and night Saturday. And then I was out all day and night last night, too. I don't have the mental capacity to write any more at this point in time, so I will do some work. |
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| ++What I hate about bars |
| 10.22.05 (11:14 pm) [edit] |
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The only thing it takes for a bar for me to have a good time is have good, dance-able music. Tonight's DJ was bad. Horrible. Ugh. But anyway, these things really get me going at bars: -bad BO -dancers who don't understand there are others around and who were there first -really active dancers [I got kicked hard!!] -farters I think I hurt my neck from dancing tonight. Actually, I wasn't dancing at the time. I was head banging...I should have known better. And there was this dude who was by himself. He seemed alright, and he was dancing. I wanted to strike up a conversation with him. Instead, we just gave each other eye, and when I left, I gave him a big smile and said bye. It was a pretty fun night. But now I am sleepy! I was just really hungry, so I decided to eat some Cheerios and come online. |
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| ++Totally heavy |
| 10.21.05 (9:59 pm) [edit] |
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I watched the movie [u]Thirteen[/u]. I can't explain how I feel about it. It was just really depressing. The movie is about these two thirteen-year-old girls on a path of self-destruction. If I ever have kids, I hope they're not a handful. How can you guarantee they'll turn out well-adjusted?? Then I thought about when I was thirteen. I didn't get out much. My best friend was Sandra, and we had so much in common. I had just started high school. I dunno. I pretty much stayed out of trouble, did my homework, and spent my weekends going over to my aunt and uncle's place where I hung out with my cousin, William, when my parents played mahjong. I think at the time, we must have played a lot of Nintendo games. I think my cousin Ben was practising dance moves in his room a lot. The movie was so depressing that the only funny thing I could think of to check out before heading off to bed was this video...I think everyone should check it out before it's too late! I had a great laugh :lol: [url]http://video.google.com/video...[/url] Is there a way to save flash movies?! I have to say, the Backstreet Boys are one of my guilty pleasures. They might not be musicians, but I think they are great entertainers. |
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| ++On the up |
| 10.21.05 (6:27 am) [edit] |
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It's either my increased exercise or the Omega 3-6-9 oil I'm consuming. I definitely have more energy now :) I went to bed later than I had wanted, got woken up by the phone at 1:30 in the morning, and still got out of bed when my alarm clock went off!! Okay, enough is enough the whole P Man thing. What can I do to guarantee him to stop calling me? Obviously ignoring his calls and not returning them for months isn't doing a thing. I've now stopped talking to his friends. If you don't pay them any attention, they're supposed to leave you alone, right? What the hell is his problem? |
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| ++Was that bad? |
| 10.20.05 (9:18 pm) [edit] |
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I was chatting with an old co-worker...When we worked for the same company, we made an attempt to date, if you can even call it that. He just wanted to get into my pants, and he was only exciting to me because of his title. I wasn't attracted to him enough to even want to sleep with him. Anyway, he asked me tonight, "what was the attraction between us?" I told him I didn't know, and then he asked me if there was an attraction on my part. I lied and said yes. Telling him the truth would have had a whole slew of questions arise. And I think I made tall J Man mad tonight. I guess he is a little touchy since he is getting sick. And I am still on my PMS rampage :D |
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| ++I smell garlic |
| 10.20.05 (7:18 am) [edit] |
| tBlog was down when I was trying to make a previous post, so I posted at my other blog at Blogger. It's not difficult to find. |
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| ++Back to plan A |
| 10.19.05 (7:06 am) [edit] |
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I'm letting myself slip again! Late nights and late mornings. I'm cutting back on my 'net time at home. Every time I think "just half an hour...and then I can do this, this, and this," and it becomes hours! And it seems I have a new visitor to this blog...If you're from Sutton, show yourself to me!! Ah, back to the slippage. My right arm is getting kind of pooey. My insurance adjustor called me this morning to see how things were going. Such phone calls make me suspicious, like she thinks I'll be ready to settle my case, so she can close it. I'll call her back in a bit to see if she's gotten the report from the occupational therapist. I have another physio appointment today, but I'm only having one this week and one next week. How useless is that??!! Last night while I was taking off my glasses, I think they hit my nose a funny way because one of the nose nubbies is crooked now. :roll: I'll have to get that adjusted. And my appetite is finally back to normal, and my body has adjusted to the Udo's 3-6-9 Blend Oil again. I feel nauseated! That stuff is a great appetite suppressant. Oh yeah -- I saw Wallace and Gromit last night. It was a really cute movie. I hope I hadn't missed too much of it when I dozed off!! |
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| ++yeeowza |
| 10.18.05 (8:13 am) [edit] |
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I'd never say "yowza" in person. There are often things I type but would never say. The Vancouver Asian Film Fest is next week, and I can't wait!! Hopefully I can see some of the movies while I volunteer. Methinks I'll be spending a lot of time at the theatre that weekend. The format's changed a little. This morning when I should have been hustling my buns to get to work, I decided to try on some of my costumes instead. I doubt I could wear any of them to work for Hallow'en. :( They're all dresses but they pretty much end at my crotch, so they're a little too short. However, there's a pink getup that could pass for an old-style waitress uniform. Maybe I will see if I can use it. Or if I can find some suitable clothes to be a nun, I'll be a nun. But I love those costumes. They're all a great first, and I should wear them now before my body changes shape. How can anyone find the upright bikes at the gym comfortable? Damn they hurt! The only bonus is that it's more of a quad workout. I don't want more ham workouts, which I get on the recumbant bikes. Of course those are a lot more comfortable and are closer to the TVs! |
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| ++Family |
| 10.17.05 (2:09 pm) [edit] |
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When I was at my mom's for dinner, my grandma from Hong Kong called, so I spoke to her for a bit. I also spoke with my aunt. We talked a little about our next get together this summer. I am soooo excited! I think we are going to actually go somewhere this time. We talk about going on a cruise every year, and maybe next summer, things will come into fruition! Somewhere in Europe or around Hawaii would be GREAT. I haven't gone cruising for quite some time. I wonder if things have changed much. I did get a lot of attention from crew members. My first real kiss was with a cabin steward. What I'd like most would be to make it a family reunion with my mom's brothers and all our families!! I think that'd be so much fun. We also called my great uncle last night. He is not doing well at all. I don't think he has much time left. He is still mentally alert and all that but he is very weak. When he spoke with me, he was like "Rosie, I'm not well these days." :cry: And he asked me if I was going to visit this year. :( For the longest time, I thought he ran a watch factory. When I was a kid, he always gave me watches. It wasn't 'til I was much older than I found out he ran a gentleman's club or a bar or something like that. I just know he ran a place where guys went for some female company. TheMolester asked me about getting together this week. I lied and said I had other plans. I feel horrible! Until I know he's asking me out on [another] date, I can't tell him I'm not interested in him. |
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| ++No late fees? |
| 10.16.05 (10:48 pm) [edit] |
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Riiiight. I knew of Blockbuster not charging late fees, but I wasn't sure what their practices were since I don't rent from there, but I saw a commercial today. Their late fees are now called "restocking fees." How lame is that. If you don't return your rental within 7 days after the due date, they charge your credit card for the price of the movie. But if you return it within 30 days after that, they will charge you only $1.75. So...they still have late fees, but you get a bit more time to return your movie. Okay, so I went on a date this morning. At least I thought it was supposed to be a date. Maybe it wasn't. Anyway, this date came about this way. I was going to meet up with TheMolester at some point so he could teach me how to cook meat. He was going to do it at my place, and I wasn't comfortable with that, nor was I going to be comfortable being at his place. So the plan was to meet up this weekend to ensure we're both not freaks. The only day good for the both of us was today, which is Sunday. Since I was only available in the morning, he chose to meet up with me at 8:30 am. I woke up even earlier than I would for work :shock: I was supposed to call him at 8:15 so he'd tell me what he was wearing. I ended up calling him at 8:30, and he didn't pick up, so I left a message. He didn't call me back, but he showed up several minutes late. For a moment, I thought he wasn't going to show up. He looked really tired...turns out he went to bed at 4:30...ah well. We ate our breakfast and the conversation was okay. He was not as tall as I thought he was going to be, and although I like my men meaty...he was a little more meaty than my prefernce. Was it a beer belly? Or just a plain big belly? I should just trust my gut more. I didn't feel any chemistry before our date, and the date didn't increase the chemistry. And would I sound too superficial to say it bothered me that he didn't pay for our date and that he doesn't have a car? I had to drive to his neighbourhood to have breakfast with him, which he was late for. I'm seriously tired of dating guys where I have to drive to them all the time or I have to drive the both of us everywhere. The thing with people living in Vancouver is that a lot don't feel the need to have a car because everything they need is easily accessible. But on the other hand, there is A LOT outside of Vancouver. And I guess where TheMolester lost points was where he made some comment about how I talk, which I felt really embarrassed about. I didn't say anything about his underbite, though. He was like, "did you get some dental work done? You don't really move your mouth when you talk." FFS, he kept asking me questions while I was eating. After the bill was settled, he walked me back to my car, and that was that. |
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| ++I'm okay now |
| 10.15.05 (12:40 pm) [edit] |
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But my emotions were just running a little high. I really hate having to "deal with" my father, and I feel really guilty about it. I'm always the one expected to take the first step and to continue the relationship, and it's really hard when I don't like being around him. A couple of weeks ago, I kept trying to contact him, and he'd never answer his phone, and he didn't reply to email either. So finally he calls back, and lets me know he was out of town. "I didn't see the point of letting you know since you never call anyway." :roll: So last week, he called, and asked if I had a key to my mom's place. Actually, it's not my mom's place. She is living in my uncle's home right now...kind of a housesitting thing. But the house is right next door to where we used to live, so we had pretty much free rein to each other's homes. He wanted to borrow the key to get into my uncle's garage to get some stuff he had left there. He said he wanted his lumber back. I lied and said I didn't have a key because I wanted to consult with my mom on this first. I knew she wouldn't want him going in there on his way to grab whatever. [I really hate how I know exactly what both my parents' reactions are to such things.] So I told her of his request, and she said to just tell him that the lumber would be left outside and he could just grab it. I figured I would tell him that or that I would go with him to get the stuff. That was my plan. So today, he called and left a message. When he doesn't leave a message, I know it's a hello kind of call. Those calls don't come anymore. I called him back, and he said that my life insurance policy was due, and it would cost about $800. He wanted me to go pick up the bill. He's been paying for this for me for quite some time. I went over there, and I was like "you don't sound well" to at least fake some sort of conversation. And he gave me his usual sarcastic "well, I'm not ready to die yet." And usually I say nothing or give a sarcastic, "well, that's good." I could tell on his phone that his mental stability is not very high right now. I gave him the candy that I bought for him from England. "Heh, I don't even eat gummy bears." And they weren't even gummy bears. They were the "new" Jelly Fruits. Whatever, I only bought something for him because he'd complain that I didn't, and I knew he'd have something negative to say. He got right down to business. And showed me the bill for the policy. It's due before the end of this month. I told him I didn't have the money for it, and I asked if there wasn't a way to pay monthly? Then he got mad, and he said, "you've been working for HOW long, and you don't even have a couple of hundred bucks?" And I said, "no, that's not a couple of hundred bucks; it's almost a thousand, and I don't have that kind of money right now." So he was furious and said he'd pay. Then he asked about the key. I told him I didn't have one, and that mom could leave the lumber outside. He said he didn't want just lumber and that he wanted to see what else was there. And I was like, "well, I can go with you to get your stuff." And then he was like, "what, doesn't your mom want me there?" I said nothing because I didn't want to actually say the truth. "Why did you have to say anything about the lumber?" implying, all I had to do was get him a key [to my uncle's house]. I seriously hate how my parents just want to me lie to both of them. And I hate how they want me to do the speaking for the both of them. When my mom wanted the divorce papers, she wanted me to ask my dad for a copy. And now the key and lumber thing...:roll: I came home and was kind of mad about that visit because my dad was mad at me for not getting him a key to my mom's house. You know, if she doesn't want him there going through the garage, I'm not going to help him out. I offered him an alternative, and he was mad that he didn't get his way. I was all set to call my mom to vent about this because she had told me what to tell him. Just then, my dad called. He keeps calling me a particular phone number. I thought maybe he had used someone else's name to register another land line, but when I looked up the number, it was for a home that wasn't his address. Sometimes I want to call it, and ask for my dad. I didn't think he'd have gone to someone's place so quickly. After all, my dad lives down the block from me. So right away, he was like, "I just wanted you to know that I'm disappointed it in you. I ask you to transport something, you don't. I ask you to get something for me, you don't." And that just set me right off...One thing I really hate about talking to my dad is that, he doesn't listen. He interrupts, and that is actually the only thing. He interrupts, and doesn't let you get in a word edge-wise. I cut him off...I don't even remember what I said anymore. I know I told him he only calls to tell me what I've done wrong or how I've wronged him and how he's never around. When I brought up how unreachable he was, he was like "well, YOU said you were going to call after you got back from England." And I did, and then he went out of town. And then started his usual listing of all bad things I've done. The one I actually heard at this point was how I was going to give him a computer but he "had" to go buy his own. I lost it again. I had already BOUGHT him a computer, which is useless to me and it's still sitting in my room. I told him when I could get it to him because I wanted to upgrade some parts, but he wanted to show what a bad daughter I was, so he went and bought his own. That kind of reminds me of the time when he said he would help me move a cabinet up to my apartment for me. I went over to my old house, and I patiently waited for him to do "just one more thing." And then I didn't want to wait anymore, so I just moved the fricking thing on my own. I remember, but am I holding it against him? I don't know. I just know that I have a great mistrust of my dad, and his word is no good to me. He's probably why I am so reliable when it comes to other people. If I give my word, you have it. I just remember many times where he's said he'd help with one or another, and he'd never do it. And my mom wonders why I am so uncomfortable with asking for help from him or anyone? So after a bit more yelling from me...and maybe my dad realising that I wasn't going to see things his way, he said something about getting old and to forget it. And then he hung up. Maybe he'll be mad enough to not pay for that policy, but he wouldn't even listen to me when I asked if there was a monthly payment option. He said there wasn't, and just kept nattering on how it's possible for me to not have any money. And well, that's just another thing. I let myself get into debt, and I admit that I haven't been good at long-term planning. I am going to try harder to pay down my short-term debt as quickly as possible. I didn't think springing that bill on me was that fair. It's due in 2 weeks. Telling me ahead of time would have been useful because then at least I'd be able to plan in some way. And my mom keeps wanting me to get money from my dad because he said when he sold his last town house, he'd give me some money from the sale. Then he said he'd do it after the divorce. Both things have happened, and he's not said anything again about giving me money. And now he's complaining about paying for this bill. I do want the policy. What he was going to give me would have more than covered the policy. Ugh. I was so upset after that phone call with my dad, and when I called my mom, all she could hear was crying :oops: I told her what happened, and she got mad. She is still bitter when she hears about my dad's other women. So she was getting all mad again when I told her dad was keeping score of the time I didn't take that suitcase for his woman. This is a woman my mom feels broke up their marriage...so...yeah. So she was like, "just ignore him." I know she is torn, too. She wants me to have a relationship with my father. She knows how difficult he makes things for me. So I don't know. Do I really have to try to have a relationship with a man who is bad for my emotional health but who's provided with me my necessities, including my education...which was all in the past? I do feel like I have to repay him, but I just can't see myself having any kind of father-daughter relationship with him, either. |
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| ++I'm waiting for marriage |
| 10.14.05 (1:12 pm) [edit] |
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That's what I told TheMolester, anyway. We're supposed to be going out for a breakfast date Sunday morning. I'm not even looking forward to it since the conversation is not that great already. And I only told him that because I just wanted to nip the kind of conversation he wanted in the bud. What is it with guys who just want to get all racey in conversation right away? Frankly, I hate it. There is a time and place for everything, and they're often not very creative. The same frickin' topics come up every time. And the ultimate demise of these people is that they're out of my life because all they have on the brain is sex, sex, sex. I have to like you or at least feel comfortable around you before I'm going to get all personal, thankyouverymuch. I guess what I said was also a test. I don't know if he believed me or not anyway. |
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| ++Lube World and wildos |
| 10.14.05 (7:38 am) [edit] |
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I wish I could remember what the slogan was. But I saw an ad on the back of a bus this morning for Lube World. Because of the window, the first word that jumped out at me was "wildo." I am exhausted again today. I think I am going to try for the next two weeks, starting Monday to force myself to just stay home, get a good night's rest and get in my exercise. I feel lethargic and fat these days. And I will meal plan, too! Last night I rushed home and made my quick dinner: steak, broccoli stir fry and leftover (instant) mashed potatoes. The steak was overdone, but thankfully the meat made it bearable. My stirfry was just a touch too salty, but it still reminded me of my mom's :D We went to the home show last night. I wasn't expecting to buy much -- not that I wanted to. But I ended up with a purse and a bamix mixer. Right now, I'm sooo excited about the mixer. I can't wait to use it, so I can make sauces and spreads, at least. It cost a pretty penny, but I think I would save money on food in the long run, and I'd be eating more natural stuff. I mean I can get 2 cups of whipped "cream" from 1/4 c o skimmed milk!! Mmm, it was heavenly!! There weren't that many people at the booth (closing time at the end of the first day on a Thursday night), so we got lots of samples: whipped cream, ice cream, peanut/cashew butter, tomato soup, mayo, pesto dressing. While we were watching the demo, there were a couple of random people coming up and raving about the mixer. Who knows if they were planted there or not. But there was this really loud man beside me yelling how great those mixers were. I asked him how long he'd had his, and I think he said for years, and then he said something about not having an arm. I guess he didn't have one...I didn't look for a lack of a hand hanging out his sleeve, but he gave me the impression that even a one-armed man could use one of those mixers. I finally got a reply back from the pageant girl that I ran to at the networking thing a couple of weeks back. Turns out a couple of days after she saw me, she found out there is some pageant reunion coming up in April. It's so weird how you run into people. I think the universe works in mysterious ways. Okay, time to do some work. |
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| ++Meme |
| 10.13.05 (12:20 pm) [edit] |
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Borrowed! [b]1. Name someone with the same birthday as you.[/b] Phil Donahue [b]2. Where was your first kiss?[/b] I think it was in my crush's bedroom. I was 7 I think. [b]3. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?[/b] No, not seriously. [b]4. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?[/b] Yes. [b]5. Have you ever sung in front of a large number of people?[/b] No. I don't like singing in front of people. [b]6. What’s the first thing you notice about the preferred sex?[/b] Depends which way they're going! Could be a face or a crotch. [b]7. What really turns you on?[/b] I'm not telling! [b]8. What do you order at Starbucks?[/b] Steamed non-fat milk with some sort of syrup. [b]9. What is your biggest mistake?[/b] I can't think of one right now. [b]10. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?[/b] Yeah, sometimes I can't resist dessert after a good meal. [b]11. Say something totally random about yourself.[/b] My toenails could use a trimming right now. [b]12. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?[/b] Yes, but I had no idea who they were talking about. [b]13. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?[/b] Not really. [b]14. Did you have braces?[/b] No. [b]15. Are you comfortable with your height?[/b] Yes, even if it makes me need a ladder for changing lightbulbs on the ceiling. [b]16. What is the most romantic thing someone of the opposite sex has done for you?[/b] I can't remember. [b]17. When do you know it’s love?[/b] When I feel it. [b]18. Do you speak any other languages?[/b] Yes, Cantonese. [b]19. Have you ever been to a tanning salon?[/b] Yes, but I've never tanned in one. I never would! [b]20. What magazines do you read?[/b] Most often, it's Marie Claire. [b]21. Have you ever ridden in a limo?[/b] Yes. [b]22. Has anyone you were really close to passed away?[/b] Not lately. [b]23. Do you watch MTV?[/b] No, I'm not going to pay for that. [b]24. What’s something that really annoys you?[/b] People who come up behind me and purposely scare the bejeezus out of me. [b]25. What’s something you really like?[/b] Thawed blueberries with vanilla yogurt. [b]26. What celebrity do you admire?[/b] None that I can think of right now. [b]27. Can you dance?[/b] Yes. [b]28. What's the latest you have ever stayed up?[/b] I'm sure I've done an all-nighter or two during my school days. [b]29. Ever lied to your parents as an adult?[/b] Yes. [b]30. Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?[/b] No. [b]31. Do you actually read these when other people fill them out?[/b] Of course. They're interesting! |
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| ++Continuation |
| 10.13.05 (7:30 am) [edit] |
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1. C Man hasn't talked to me since I skipped out on his birthday thing. 2. My neck is still stiff, but I switched from using those sucky memory foam pillows back to my buckwheat pillow. Maybe it gave me nightmares because I woke up from a bad dream this morning. I thought I only woke up from those hot and steamy dreams. I haven't had any of those in a looong time. Instead, I dreamt that my stalker ex was back and trying to find me. I think that particular dream had a few exes in there. 3. I wonder if the tall J Man gets jealous when I talk about other guys. I still feel that pang when he talks about his woman, but when he told me things were blah with her, I wasn't happy either. But I just wonder why he stays in a relationship that isn't everything he wants. I thought he would've learned from his past. 4. The occupational therapist came to check out my workstation a couple of days ago, and all she recommended was a different chair and a different keyboard. I had not realised I don't use any of the support features of my chair like I'm supposed to. So now I actually sit back in the chair, but I can't reach the armrests since they're to far apart. I should be using them, though. 5. No gym for me today and unlikely tomorrow. Hopefully I can fit it in Saturday. I am even thinking of skipping out going out Saturday night because I feel so exhausted again. I wonder if I am recovering from that caffeine drop in my body right now. I think I will have to get up early on Sunday because I'm meeting someone for breakfast. Or at least I think I am. If he doesn't like the way I look, then it's not going to happen. 6. *yawn* I could barely keep my eyes open while driving to work. Tomorrow could be another early morning if The Handyman drops by. He hinted at it yesterday. |
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| ++mmhmm |
| 10.13.05 (6:16 am) [edit] |
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Yesterday was another one of those days where it was just rush rush rush. I left work late, so I ultimately did not get a chance to make the dinner I had planned on: steak, mashed potatoes, and some greens. Instead, I had a tiny bit of leftovers and sunnyside up eggs. Then I was late meeting my friend. And the Canucks lost big time. And since I was driving, I couldn't watch Bertuzzi fight. I love watching hockey fights! But I still got to see my friend, which is what counted. We saw Waiting... I have no opinion of that movie on whether I liked it or not. I've never worked in a food establishment, so I couldn't relate. There was juvenile humour, and the "serious" plotline wasn't really the focus. However, there were lots of faces I recognised in the movie. The character, Mitch, was played by the little brother on Freaks and Geeks. I still need to finish off watching those DVDs. I was wondering the other day, do eating disorders exist in non-industrialised countries? There is other stuff I'd like to post about, but I need to get some work done. I've also been chatting up a storm lately!! |
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| ++Getting one in |
| 10.11.05 (9:35 pm) [edit] |
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I just thought I'd do a quick post since tBlog's actually up!! I had made this vow to not deal with guys from the Internet again, dating-wise. Umm... So anyway, I've been procrastinating. I think I will give up on the rest of my trip update. But I should send out some pics!! I need some help with my new IKEA things. I have a fear of putting holes in my walls. But I have a new mirror, some hooks, and some shelves...Who can help me?? I'm torn between asking for help and doing it myself. I'd rather do it myself, but I'm afraid! Afraid for my walls!! What if I don't like where the holes are?! |
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| ++More spending |
| 10.11.05 (1:51 pm) [edit] |
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I love coupons. I love using them, specifically. I had one for IKEA, so off I went. I bought a buttload of stuff. I haven't particularly enjoyed my IKEA experiences. I think it's all the putting together of stuff that comes after. I bought myself a cabinet, but it's become a shelf. I thought I bought the doors to go with it, but then I didn't find any holes to attach the doors. Anyhow, I didn't feel like taking it apart, so it's staying. It's also freed up a lot of space and clutter for me. I had some really great tea on Saturday afternoon, and I hope I have recovered from it. Both Saturday and Sunday nights meant 5 am bedtimes for me. I was just that awake! I didn't get to the gym, unfortunately. There was all this stuff I wanted to throw in my blog, but I've forgotten much of it. One thing I do remember is that I really love Hanky Panky thongs. They're nice and low-risen (is that a word?). And they don't leave elastic band marks on my body, the gusset is nice and wide, and they're all lace! And they come in like 39,482,093 colours. tBlog's been a real boob lately. I do have an account at blogger that's ugly and that hasn't been used for a loooong time. I might as well use it or something? |
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| ++A $500 day |
| 10.08.05 (8:36 pm) [edit] |
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I bought more lingerie. I thought I'd get one bra, but no. I got a couple bras and a few thongs. I've been desperately needing ones that fit (ooh, my size has changed. I'm like the biggest *ever* right now), so I did it. I got another pile of undies that are probably too small for me now as well. I think there were about 20 pairs. And I rummaged through my closets and filled up 4 kitchen bags of things I can get rid of. Yesssss! It was a good today, but I feel horribly guilty for spending money. |
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| ++I'm in the money |
| 10.07.05 (9:26 am) [edit] |
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Ooooh yeah. I found $6.50 yesterday when I was looking for my car keys. I have no idea how that money got under the front passenger seat, but that area was kind of icky and sticky. I have no idea whose money it is either. And I finally got my new keyboard to use at home. I vow to not eat around there, at least for now. What is a girl to do with old clunky computer parts? I have this super heavy case with useless parts, and it's just wasting precious space. I dont want to throw any of it away until I know for sure I can't recycle the stuff. And oooh, I am flexible. I finally got through all of the second season of Sex and the City, but the last 3 episodes conked out on me :x I will be sure to notify the rental place. Maybe they will give me a free rental :) In one of the episodes, one of Carrie's boyfriends "blasted off" too quickly. I hate when that happens. Once in a while is acceptable, but when it's every single frickin' time, it's a real downer. I put up with someone (or was that a couple of of people) like that for quite some time. It was frustrating. I offered suggestions to help for their "alone time", but I think they were too disappointed in themselves to really take action and just kind of ignored it. |
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| ++Rainy day blahs |
| 10.06.05 (7:42 am) [edit] |
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I made steak last night. It was tough and tasteless. If I only I wasn't too lazy to get up to get the salt. I lost my car keys this morning. Well, they're not really lost. They're somewhere in my car. I lost them after I sat down in the driver's seat. I didn't want to spend the time looking for my keys so I went back to my apartment to grab the spare set. It's too difficult crawling around my car in a tight skirt. And I couldn't open the passenger side door to give me more space. Why?? Because my car door is huge, and I am parked next to a wall. I wouldn't have been able to open the door and have enough space to get into the passenger side. If I had a mini van, at least I could minipulate my parking job so that the door can open in the gap. But alas, I'll have to look later. I also hate how my eyelashes scrape against my lenses when I wear glasses. And the insurance adjustor got back to me. She still wants me to recover my extra costs through my work's medical, first. And if my medical asks for money back, *then* my insurance will cover it. I think that is the lamest thing ever. Why should my work medical pay for my costs from a car accident that wasn't even my fault?! I also have a $500 limit for phsyio treatments from my medical. At least it's close to the end of year now. At least I am having a good hair day today. It's soft! And silky! :D |
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| ++Stats and sexism |
| 10.05.05 (11:23 am) [edit] |
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Last night I was reading the paper and checking out the (phsyical) stats of the Vancouver Canucks. And I was drooling...They're pretty much all tall and beefy -- delicious! But then I realised how I was treating them like pieces of meat and remembered how I rolled my eyes whenever they showed pageant contestants' measurements and stats. I guess they're not all that different. Hockey players and pageant contestants...their physiques are of some significance, only I don't think it should matter for pageant contestants. Anyhow, it's the Canucks' season opener tonight, and I am excited! The tall J Man (finally) asked me to get together for the game, but I took a rain cheque. :? I feel kind of bad that I'd been half-assedly throwing myself at him. I just shake my head at myself. Ah, the thrill of a challenge. But anyway, I have too much going on tonight, and there will be other hockey games. The Handyman stopped by yesterday morning, too. |
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| ++The 23rd Post |
| 10.04.05 (9:40 am) [edit] |
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1. Go into your archive. 2. Find your 23rd post. 3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to). 4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions. 5. Tag five other people to do the same. A post from December 2003: "I'd better make a list of all the things I need to do because I feel like time is running out." I'm not tagging anyone specific. If you are reading this, just do it. :) That was almost two years ago. Things haven't changed much. However, I have made changes to my life so I can enjoy more me time. Yay! I was thinking the other day that after just about every breakup, I most commonly feel RELIEVED. There is always a sense of relief I can have my life back. |
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| ++This is a subject line |
| 10.04.05 (6:33 am) [edit] |
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I'm sure I had a better one before tBlog crapped out on me. I am still thinking of moving. But why am I so hung up on this place? Oh yeah...it's been a while :P I have all my entries saved to a Word file. Every month, I print out the month's entries, so I also have a hard copy. Yesterday was a good day. I ended up hanging out with P, and when she saw me, she was like, "why do you have such a mischievous look on your face?" I can't hide anything from her, can I...It had to do with the Handyman anyhow. We watched some Sex and the City. Why is that I can relate so much to the show? It's kind of eerie...the curiosity of why I haven't been introduced to the parents, the insecurity of whether we're a couple, threesomes, the Rabbit, the support of friends during a breakup, dirty talk, boyfriends with small penises. Man! We also watched some Best of Jimmy Fallon. I laughed so hard that I thought my sides were going to split. It's about the 10 year anniversary of nipple piercing. I was going to do something to celebrate, but I can't think of anything, and I am too poor to be buying new jewellery. I'm sure it was some time in October. Maybe I wrote about it in my diary. I wonder if I was 18 today if I'd have still gone for the piercing. I had no idea what was involved. I saw a postcard with an advertisement, and I thought a pierced nipple looked really cool. I made my appointment, went there, got IDed, and proceeded. The expression on the clerk was priceless. "You're Rosie? You have to be 18 to get pierced." Then she checked my ID, and was having mathematical problems. We went into the room, and she did some aromatherapy. Then she used various things to "prepare" my nipple. I am glad I couldn't see what was going on after that. She put the clamp on my nipple and shoved a long needle through. That was kind of painful. But it was more painful when she put the jewellery through. And that was that. I've never taken out the ring, ever!! Actually, if I got my nipple(s) pierced now, I'd be better at taking care of it. I'm sure it would take me less than 2 years to fully heal. And I am sore today. Yesterday's workout was great! I didn't realise how many muscles I use when I am getting out of the car. I didn't even wake up stiff. My nose is sensitive today, too. The lotion I used is irritating me. |
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| ++I got eaten |
| 10.03.05 (7:39 am) [edit] |
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Well, not me. It was my best post EVER, and tBlog ate it. If these problems keep up, I will leave. Actually, I was being sarcastic about that eaten entry. It was just a weekend update. I'll summarise. Saturday: Went to my phsio appointment. I hope the therapist becomes more hands-on. Spent most of the day with aaron. We had dim sum, then he showed me how to make lasagne. Afterwards, we went for dinner, and then watched [u]The Aristrocrats [/u]. I slept through most of it. I couldn't help myself. The movie was okay; it got kind of tiresome towards the end. It's a documentary about a joke. The movie repeats the joke over and over again from different comedians. I dropped by Erin and Randy's, too. I think next time they will hire movers. The U-Haul they rented was no longer available, and all they could get was a van, which meant making several trips. Starting at 7 am and finishing at midnight isn't very fun! Yesterday was spent running around, getting groceries and meeting up with Kira for dinner. I also met her new boyfriend. Are younger men really all the rage right now? :wink: I guess her boyfriend is about 9 years her junior, but he doesn't look or act young at all. I also rearranged my kitchen to make room for some new containers. I desperately need to put up shelves by my dining table. I'd put my liqour there for sure. I need more counter space. My home desperately needs vaccuuming. The floors need cleaning. Who knows when I will get to it...maybe by Tuesday since my mom is coming by for dinner. I had a horrible headache last night, and I still feel it. Tylenol hasn't helped. Sometimes I get these wicked headaches on the weekend. I wonder if it's from dehydration or what. Next weekend, I'm going to T's in-laws' for Thanksgiving dinner, and I need to bring a gift. What is a good whitie gift to give??! Maybe I will bring a bottle of wine, but since I don't drink, it feels kind of ironic to do it. And I think the J Man came by. I don't know for sure, but I'd give it a 50% chance. At least my stomach didn't drop when I looked at my stats. I've been in a jolly mood lately, and I'm just in a happy place right now. |
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| ++Yesterday was great |
| 10.01.05 (6:44 am) [edit] |
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Except for the part where I hurt my thumb from yanking out the nubby to put some air into my exercise ball. I guess the nail came away from the flesh, but my nail is intact. The thumb just kind of hurts. After work, we helped some friends move yesterday. I think the next time they move again, they'll hire movers. Poor kids were so tired after 17 hours of moving. I said I'd help out last week. Oh Wednesday, C Man invited me to his birthday thing for last night. He tends to give little notice. I told him I was helping someone move (if it was just hanging out, then I'd have gone to his birthday thing), so I told him if I was done early enough, I'd go. And he asked if we could get together before Friday, leaving only Thursday. Again, short notice. Again, I already had that optometrist appointment and dinner with my mom. I said maybe we could get together after all that. However, I couldn't see, so I called to tell him that, and to cancel on Thursday night. I also reminded him about Friday night. Man, he got bitchy about it. To be polite, I text messaged to tell him I wouldn't be making it out to his thing. It was like 11:30, and we were just wrapping up for the night. I just wanted to go home and watch some Sex and the City, knowing that I'd have to get up early (i.e., can't sleep in) in order to go physio. So he was like "no prob. We can get together some other time. Maybe" :roll: Ah well, no huge loss to me. TIme to go to phsyio. Today, I'm spending the day with my friend aaron. I have no nickname for him. He works crazy hours with a schedule that's so different to mine since he's in the restaurant biz, so I was really touched when he asked to get together the first weekend he had off. *sniff* |
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