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| ++grumble |
| 11.30.05 (10:32 pm) [edit] |
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I'm in a pissy mood right now. I wonder if it's because I am exhausted and feel like I never have time for myself these days. And I've come to realise again that I really hate doing anything during the week after work. All I want to do is leave work, go to the gym, and come home. Even getting to the gym stresses me out. I know I like having these long workouts, and then I get all stressed out knowing how late I'll get home, thus how late I'll be getting to bed. So far this week...Tuesday night - seminar. Wednesday afternoon - physio. Wednesday night - rush home for a Canucks game and a phone call. Thursday morning - class. Thursday night - out for dinner. Friday morning - doctor's appointment. Friday night - out for dinner. How do people with kids manage their time?! It would just be really nice to have a routine. Next week, I hope. My dream weekday would be like this: work 8 - 4, gym from 4 - 5:30, and just lounge at home afterwards. At least physio is done with so I don't have to worry about leaving work in the middle of the day. I like running errands in the middle of the day, though. And get this...because I didn't have time to get tea lights, I had to let my cream go bad...thus disallowing me to have some chocolate fondue. :x |
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| ++I like this one |
| 11.30.05 (11:48 am) [edit] |
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Borrowed this from themarina. TEN FIRSTS First Thing You Ate Today: Toast with peanut butter with pineapple and mango jam First Best Friend: Kano First Screen Name: Spirit of the North (got that from a bumper sticker) First Pet: A rabbit, I think. First Piercing: Ears First Crush: Andy. I was 3. First CD: Rap Traxx 2, I think. First Car I Drove: 1990 Plymouth Voyager?? It was our minivan. First Stuffed Animal: I don't know. First Kiss: William. I had such a big crush on him. After I kissed him, he told me to never do it again. I was 8 or 9. NINE LASTS Last Alchoholic Beverage: Just wine in my cooking Last Car Ride: Coming back to the office from physio. Last Movie Seen: Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire Last Phone Call: Dr. T last night Last CD Played: Madonna's Confessions on a Dancefloor Last Bubble Bath: Some time this year Last Time You Cried: Some time last week when I was really missing someone. Last concert seen: Hot Hot Heat, I think. EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS Have you ever dated one of your best friends? No Have you ever been arrested? No Have you ever skinny dipped? No Have you evver been on TV? Yes Have you ever kissed someone, and then regretted it? No Have you ever had a sex dream about someone? Yes Have you ever cheated? Yes SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING 1. Black boots 2. Cream sweater 3. Cream Victoria's Secret bra 4. Black socks 5. Cream Victoria's Secret thong 6. Hair elastic 7. Contact lenses SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY 1. Saw my mom to pick up some food 2. Wrote emails 3. Participated in a focus group meeting at work 4. Went to physio 5. Got my windshield wiper blades replaced 6. Thought about Dr. T FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER 1. Sleep 2. Laze about when my home is clean 3. Dr. T 4. Dessert 5. Cuddling FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO 1. Dr. T 2. Poola 3. Tarzy 4. Complete strangers THREE CHOICES 1. Being active. 2. Blogging. 3. Buying frivolous luxuries. TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE 1. Spend time with Dr. T. 2. Fit into my favourite white pants. ONE THING YOU REGRET 1. Buying the Def Leppard Rock of Ages CD |
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| ++Yeeeah! |
| 11.30.05 (11:28 am) [edit] |
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I had my last physio session today! Next step is to deal with the insurance company :x I want them to pay for a new chair for me for work and 3 months of training sessions with my trainer. They wanted my work to pay for a new ergo chair and wanted me to sell my work the idea that they'd be making an investment. Hello, the chair is for *me* and not my work. If I go, the chair goes with me. And as for the training sessions, I want 2 a week. I want to be at the same fitness level as I was prior to the accident. No more of these piddley exercises with no weights. I want to be doing my pressdowns at the cable machine while kneeling on a ball. I think 3 months should get me closer to my goal. And this morning I sat in a focus group session at my work. It just makes me think I should be looking for new opportunities in my field. I am not getting the support I need to further my career in my field or even knowledge management. 33 more days! |
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| The 23rd Post |
| 11.29.05 (1:39 pm) [edit] |
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Hi, JennJr! Here are the rules: 1. Go into your archives. 2. Find your 23rd post. 3. Post the fifth sentence (or closest to it). 4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions. 5. Tag five other people to do the same thing The 5th sentence of my 23rd post said: [i]I'd better make a list of all the things I need to do because I feel like time is running out.[/i] And this post was dated Thursday, Dec. 11, 2003. Man, this blog is getting on in its years :lol: It appears I was stressed again. It was another guy issue...he was in town and was wanting to spend a lot of time with me, and I had a lot of other stuff going on!! I am not going to tag anyone...because EVERYONE should find do this meme!! We got our first snowfall today. I can't really say I was pleased, but at least it wasn't major. I am just looking forward to warmer weather. :) I am listening to Def Leppard right now. |
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| ++Be careful |
| 11.28.05 (12:12 pm) [edit] |
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I take immense pleasure in flushing the toilet when I'm in a public bathroom, and there is someone in another stall talking on the phone. I'm able to listen to my usual rock station at work again, so I am quite pleased about that. However, I can only get it if I am using IE. :roll: A good dose of rock does me well. With all the cover tunes that have been coming out lately, I still like rock versions. I am very much enjoying Disturbed's _Land of Confusion_. I checked out their album on the weekend though, and it seemed like every into was exactly the same -- not impressed. I feel guilty for having bought CDs on the weekend, too. I don't need new CDs! At least I have no other non-necessities to purchase right now. I do need to see my banker, though. It's time to lock in my mortgage. Ugh. I wish the interest rates would just drop or stay low!! It's kind of weird how my friends and I are growing up. We sit around talking about new homes. We've all just moved to our own places in the last year, or have just bought places. And then we tease each other about who's going to get married first. The coupled people go "nuh uh...yeah, right! Shut up!" It's all too cute. I should start doing a countdown. Oh, and I've been fondue less. My half and half expires today, so I guess I am going to throw that out...unless I can pick up some cheap tea lights tonight. 36 days to go. |
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| ++My mind |
| 11.28.05 (7:50 am) [edit] |
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I think I am starting to find it. This weekend, my body wouldn't let me sleep for some reason. But last night, I got some good, peaceful rest. I can tell by how easy it will be to make my bed again. :lol: Hopefully, my body will catch up soon. I missed the Canucks game last night :? I haven't even been checking the schedule. Wednesday night is the next game. We'd better redeem ourselves. I've calmed down from my freakout session, at least. I'm not flying off anywhere to visit anyone. It'd be nice to be able to do something completely whimsical, but common sense prevails. And I feel a lot less pressure now. Anyway, we've set a date for Jan. 2. I am sooo looking forward to it :) Dr. T's brother found my blog, but I don't think he actually visited. He was asking why I blog instead of writing everything into something like a Word document. It's a good question, really. I don't even have a good answer. Obviously, my primary audience is myself. But I think I just like the interaction amongst fellow bloggers. I'm kind of surprised I have regular readers. And I guess it is kind of weird I'll open up to people I'd probably never see face-to-face, but I'd never go advertising my blog, especially friends and family. I can't wait to sleep again tonight! |
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| ++No |
| 11.25.05 (10:05 pm) [edit] |
| I want to call him but I am not going to. |
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| ++On the lookout |
| 11.25.05 (12:49 pm) [edit] |
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It's still the mercury retrograde. How kooky do I sound when I keep repeating that?? Maybe I just notice people more during this time, but I don't really think so. Yesterday, I saw an ex. He was the first boyfriend I *ever* had. I haven't seen him in close to 10 years. I was 15. We went out for like a month. I got bored, called him up, and dumped him. We only got as far as holding hands :lol: (No kissie kissie!) So after I dumped him, he never forgave me! For the rest of high school, he'd not even acknowledge me. When we were in university, I'd see him around, and I still got the same treatment. Ah...good ol' Dave. I must thank him for getting me into computers though. And then when I saw C last night, she says to me, "I saw your ex while waiting for the bus." I was like, "which one?" She sees me second ex from time to time ("I'm sorry, Rosie, but he just looks like *such* a dork" I went out with him in Grade 11 for like a year. I ended up dumping him for a new guy after that fated band trip. BWAHAHHAA). So she saw the tall J Man...He is such a distant memory for me now. She kept her head down and hoped he did not see her. BWAHAHAHA All I could respond with was "good." Last night I had another long phone conversation with Dr. T. So now both our healths (is that a word)... Any, the both of us have neglected our bodies due to lack of sleep. I find it very ... funny...BWAHAHAHA I was all prepared to talk for an hour MAX, but we ended up talking for probably 5 hours?? *sigh* I'm definitely sleeping in tonight. I'm very much enjoying learning about him. He did tell me his first lie, though. Then he owned up to it. It kind of gave me an opportunity to expose something about me. He had said to me, "you're just so open and honest that I could never see you cheating on someone." I don't know if I would do it now, but I have cheated in the past. And I didn't feel comfortable having him think that I was perfect in that regard, so I told him that I had cheated in the past. I was kind of nervous to do it. "Once a cheater, always a cheater," right? :? Quite frankly, I can't remember the number of times. It hasn't happened *that* often, but I can't remember if I cheated on a particular ex. I've not had real boyfriends in the last 3 and a half years (the tall J Man only last 4 months, and things were quite volatile). Boyfriends #2 and #3 got cheated on, but maybe the D Man (#5), too? None of them ever knew, and I broke up with them very shortly afterwads. I learned that if I could cheat that I didn't care about them enough. I think cheating was also my quiet way of revenge too. When I am ready to move on, it's because my needs aren't being met. I tend to say something and wait impatiently for something to change. And if nothing changes...then I am moving on. I hope I've grown up a *little* I can't see myself doing it again to someone I really cared about though. I hope not, anyway. Speaking of people I care about...we talked again about me going to visit him. I don't know. Heart says yes. Head screams no. *sigh* I'd be flying for a day. And I'd not want to stay for more than 24 hours (even though he doesn't think 1 day is enough). And then I'd fly home. :? It's really difficult having to wait until January. Seriously difficult. *sigh* I have no idea what I should do. |
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| ++Loser cruiser |
| 11.24.05 (2:02 pm) [edit] |
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It was my second Plain Language Principles class today. Writing is sure hard...I find it a challenge. Anyway, I take the bus the days I have class during the day. Parking is just too pricey. It was chilly waiting for the bus. There was man with long stale smelling hair near me. Then the bus broke down. Then I had to switch buses. The seats on this bus were a little more cramped so if I wasn't squished next to the person beside, there was a bag or elbow at my head. And this girl had to ring the bell but instead of positioning herself closer to the rope, she reached over and casually let her bag hit me in the head. Thanks, girlie! And the person sitting beside me class had bad breath. I could smell it when we were doing exercises. I could barely concentrate on editing today since I was so tired. But last night, I was only on the phone for half an hour. I am slowly catching up on sleep! I hope I don't fall asleep when I see Pride and Prejudice tonight. I'm going to have to run home first before I go off to the mall to get a birthday present. There is a sale going on for ~H2O+ members today. Maybe I can find some Christmas gifts. Hmm, my print should be ready for pickup. I can't wait to see how the framing worked. This post has been really boring. Right now I'm tempted to delete it all, but I'll just leave it. Thanks for reading. |
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| ++job applications |
| 11.23.05 (2:21 pm) [edit] |
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Finally, I get to sift some through some job application :D There are some really crappy ones out there. I should remind myself that I will be training this new employee. I've done the mentoring thing before, but training is not my strength!! I'm hoping to find someone like me in the pile. Actually, just someone who can write and has some technical aptitude would be great. That's what we need. There are so many programmers applying for the job though, and sooo many people who keep boasting about their years of experience. However, we're looking for someone junior. And I find it really strange that people are applying for a writing position but not including a cover letter. And now that these people have sent their documents in Word format, I can check whether they used templates, etc. Woo! Dr. T is still continuing to amaze me. He is still very curious about this blog and hasn't come by. He said he could tell blogging was very important to me, and that he would definitely respect my wishes. His only request was that he not be mocked. It's probably just a matter of time before I give him the okay. I've given him links to discussion forums I post at, and I've *always* hidden my most of my online activities to significant others. I feel like I want to share everything about my life with him, and we've known each other almost *two* weeks. This is crazy. Oh yeah! I just wanted to thank you [all] for reading this and visiting my blog. I've hit a hits milestone, and I am amazed...mind you, I know most of my hits come from me and spiders :lol: |
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| ++Full swing |
| 11.22.05 (9:37 am) [edit] |
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Every time I read about a mercury retrograde, I tend to be on the lookout for people. People I've not talked to in a while poke in. And I could have sworn I saw the P Man this morning. When I was turning left off my street, someone waved at me, and it looked like him. Why would I complete stranger wave at me??? Thankfully, we went our separate ways quickly, and I've not gotten any phone calls. So I had another late night last night/this morning. I told myself we wouldn't talk for more than 2 hours so he could get a couple more hours before having to get ready for work. But we ended up talking for 4 hours until he had to get ready for work. We're definitely going to have to limit our call lengths. It's just so easy for us to communicate. I don't think I've ever felt so unsmothered by someone considering I am spending all my free (and even not so free) time either, talking, messaging, or emailing him. And still I am even posting about him...BWAHAHAHA He has been very respectful of my wishes of this blog even though he is really curious. I'm battling whether I should just give him the okay. He said he wouldn't go into the archives, as the past is the past. I was never comfortable with the J Man reading my blog and I felt pressured to let him. So ... I don't know if I am ready. Something to think about. And now this post has become diarrhea-like. When I am dead tired, I can't think straight. I can start thoughts but never finish them, so I'd better stop now :) |
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| ++almost |
| 11.21.05 (10:30 am) [edit] |
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I just about posted about a story that my friend is going to, but maybe this is just not the arena for it. But it's similar to something that happened to me with him in the past...only I said, "I can't sleep with you. You're married!" But now he has a lot of drama going on. All weekend, Dr. T and I talked *a lot* Maybe things were moving too fast, and I started thinking I wanted to meet up with him sooner than his due date. I'm glad my head got screwed back on. We've been talking for about 10 days total and have gotten so close. But I am also the type who thinks everything happens for a reason. There must be a reason why we did not have the opportunity to meet sooner, so I will just accept this fate. I guess I was also freaking out a little...kind of like, the sooner we meet, the sooner we'll know if there is chemistry, and the less time we have to wait in case we get hurt. It was self-protection thing in my head. I am not feeling so scared right now :) And then we talked about blogging. He is a blogging virgin, but he knows that my blog exists. He's not sure he is comfortable being blogged about. I'm not sure what I think about that. If he doesn't want to be mentioned, I think I can respect his wishes. however, I do like to blog about my life, and if he is a part of it...well... He gave an example of, "what if we got into you a fight? You'd likely blog about it." Now I can't remember why that would be an issue. :oops: But he was like if he was dumped for picking his nose, he didn't want to be known as the Nose Picker. That's when I told him about Mr. Penis Photo!! His brother is very protective of him, and is probably quite paranoid of me. Dr. T has gotten caught up over girls before and has gotten badly burned...I know I am not like those girls. I've never been so open and unguarded with my feelings with any guy before. <6 weeks to go...> |
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| ++I forgot |
| 11.20.05 (9:14 am) [edit] |
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I was going to say something about someone I met last night at the pub. One of M's friends was also there. M and J joked that he might like me. Anyway, when I saw him, he just reminded me of a stereotypical nerd...unkept hair, glasses, plaid shirt, and semi high-waisted jeans. BUT I think the second thing I noticed was his package! It was big!!! But anyway, appearances I aside, he was a very funny and bright guy. Geeks, gotta love 'em. And Dr. T admits to being one. He thought that was going to be a turn off for me. But most definitely not *SCHWING* I think I am going to find my old wish list in a man. I think he'd probably take care of a lot of those things...Well, I found it...I had posted this at some forums June 7, 2002: My ideal...Well it doesn't mean I wouldn't settle for any less, but hey, a girl can dream Here goes.. * has ambition and goals (CHECK) * minds his manners (CHECK) * is family-oriented (CHECK) * takes care of his health/hygiene (CHECK) * is not scrawny (CHECK) * can eat more than I in one sitting (not sure yet...:lol: ) * loves food (CHECK) * has knowledge about things I don't (CHECK) * shares my sense of humour (CHECK) * having blonde hair doesn't hurt (no, but that's okay :)) * shares some of my interests but has his own (CHECK) * is a techie that can play music (CHECK) * likes to travel (CHECK) * is educated (CHECK) * is down-to-earth (CHECK) * likes to live in luxury/has expensive tastes (not sure...but I think he is looking to live in comfort soon :)) * can clean up his own messes (CHECK) * keeps himself groomed (for the most part, I think) * is confident but humble (CHECK) * is single (CHECK) * follows the Golden Rule (probably) * is mentally stable (CHECK) * is generous (with me) [said tongue-in-cheek] (CHECK) * shows maturity (I'm not talking about physical characteristics, either) when required but can also be goofy (CHECK) * doesn't have unhealthy addictions (CHECK) * recycles (don't know yet :)) * is willing to dance (CHECK) * has integrity (CHECK) I could probably add more to the list. BWAHAHAHAA Maybe later. At first I thought I wanted someone with a personality like mine, but I don't know if I could handle that [also said tongue-in-cheek] So ...yeah. That is why I am so thrilled to have met him. I definitely do not use this checklist every time I meet a guy. It's something I don't even think about. I was going to update my list back in the summer but then I was dating the J Man and didn't want him to see such a list! |
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| ++Do you know how early it is? |
| 11.20.05 (7:16 am) [edit] |
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It's Sunday morning and not even 9 am, yet. I went to sleep at about 4:30 am. This is supposed to PMS week where I am tired and stuff! But then again I did have tea last night, and I think I roasted myself awake. I haven't turned on the heat in my apartment yet, but every time before I go to sleep, I turn it up for full blast while I brush my teeth. When I crawl into bed, I turn off the heat. I had not turned it all the way down last night! :shock: Last night I met up with a couple of friends at a pub for the girl's figure skating club. M is so active it's admirable. She runs, hikes, dragonboats, and figure skates. She is crazy with her constant guilt about eating though, but she sure loves her junk food. Afterwards I met up with other friends for some Harry Potter action. What a disappointment. There was no real character or plot development in the movie. Did they assume everyone would have read the book? But then the HP enthusiasts would know a lot of stuff was left out. Or maybe they did too good of a job leaving parts on the cutting room floor. Anyway, booooo. And I was disappointed with Cho Chang's acting, too. Booooo. However, all the "grownups" were great...Ralph Fiennes. Oooh la la. And the special effects were great, too. After I got home, I puttered around for a couple of hours. Half an hour into my sleep, Dr. T woke me up :D I was expecting his call. I hadn't realised we talked for an hour and a half until we hung up. :shock: He knows about this blog, but he respects me :D He is not going to read it until I say it's okay. And so far, everything I've said here about him...I think I have already told him. It's just easy for me to tell him things. He's quite curious what I say about him though. :twisted: After what happened with the tall J Man and my blog, I'm apprehensive about letting significant others read my blog. But then it's a lot different with Dr. T. Our communication is extremely open and there is no fear to be honest at all times. One thing I am going to have to remember is that his life is *greatly* influenced by his (twin) brother. I think it'd be like being in a couple with 3 people in some cases. I know I've only known Dr. T for just over a week, but I have already done my best to convince him to live closer to me :wink: However, there are one limitation that prevents him from doing that. I just have to remind myself blood is thicker than water, and that we've not known each other that long. Anyone with common sense (and he has a lot of it) would put most, if not almost, all of his faith into his brother :lol: I know I will be really disappointed if there is no chemistry when we meet. It's just so crazy how compatible we are already. We like so many of the same things, want to do so many of the same things in life, value the same things, and even use the same phrases. Who says "oooh la la??" I wish we could meet sooner. I am enjoying getting to know him, but I am already curious to find out the next step. He was here a few weeks ago, but he's gone back to Halifax to finalise his move. Six more weeks 'til he gets here. I'd probably feel like a dork if he read the previous 3 paragraphs right now. I wondoer if I could be friends with him there was no chemistry. :? |
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| ++Still tired |
| 11.18.05 (7:29 am) [edit] |
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I feel like I've been neglecting my blogging, which includes reading others'. I've been spending a lot of time communicating with Mirror-me. :lol: I don't know if I like that name for him. It'll be either that or T Man. BWAHAHHAA I met him just a week ago. Currently he's out of town finishing up his permanent move back here. So it's been a *lot* of e-mailing. They take up to like 2 hours to write, and the words just flow. We've MSNed while I"m at work. He's 4 hours ahead of me. And we've already spoken on the phone a couple of times. (A few hours in total!) I am not used to this. I also worry. He's definitely a great guy -- very sweet, nice, great sense of humour. But it's more than that; we share the same goals, have many of the same interests. And we're very comfortable with each other. Things I often don't talk about with new guys are my father issues, my stalker ex, and anything about exes, but i"ve shared a lot of this stuff with him already. It just feels really good to be able to be so open. But all this time I put into our communication means I am neglecting my health! I'm exhausted! My wrist is sore from being at the computer so much. And I am worried what it will be like when we finally meet. I hope we are still just as comfortable, and I really hope there will be chemistry. Unfortunately, we have to wait another month and a half. He is everything I've had on my mental wishlist for a guy. Well, maybe I'll eventually find out if he's circumcized or not. I know what I'd prefer in that department, too. And he is being realistic about everything, too. Anyhow, I am not interested in meeting more men right now. :) *sigh* I'm also a little relieved. Today he has a busy day ahead of him, and then he's heading out with friends in the evening :) Which means rest time for me :D (I even missed the Canucks game last night to talk to him :shock: But I was too tired to concentrate on it anyway. I couldn't even eat because I was so exhausted!) |
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| ++So tired |
| 11.16.05 (10:48 am) [edit] |
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For the past few nights I have been up really late at my computer. I think it's mostly been chatting, but there is this one particular person I've been writing to, and our emails are getting longer and longer. They're taking me over an hour to write. I think last night I spent two hours!! And I type like 80 wpm. Apparently my last email to him was 2600 words. Sometimes I joke in my head that he's the white, male version of me. It's almost kind of surreal. Maybe there will be more to say about him later. I should reply to an email of his or something :wink: |
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| ++Good morning? Not really |
| 11.15.05 (7:14 am) [edit] |
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I went to bed late, and I really should be getting ready for work. Blogging counts, right? I'd be doing this at work, anyway :-p I made an appointment with the electrician again. It appears that everyone in the building is going to get their breakers re-installed. This means I might see that cute electrician again?? And my mom called. I wasn't really expecting to hear from her today, and our conversation wasn't about much. *sigh* In fact, the conversation turned a little sour when we talked about my dad and how I did not contact him. I really don't like that the onus is on me to make the relationship work. When I was a kid, I used to dream about how I once moved out of the house, I'd never have to see him again, but I would mail him money. Maybe I just want things the easy way. Yes, I'd like to have a civil relationship with my dad, but not when my situation is like this. I told my mom he can't treat people the way he treated her, and that I don't want him treating me the same way. She said it was different for her. I can't stand how he mashes people's self-esteem, and then expects them go crawling back to him with peace offerings. I really can't be the bigger person here. I remembered when I was younger, my dad told me to make him some watermelon juice. For some reason, I hadn't, and got yelled at...the usual "you're good for nothing" speil. And feeling really guilty, I did eventually make the juice, and I even wrote a note, apologising. Was that event ever spoken of again? Of course not. My dad has difficulty saying thanks, too. So I have all this resentment towards my father which is preventing me from making an effort to do anything with him. I'm not ready to get over it yet. I don't hate him, though. Ugh, this post leaves me heart heavy. I try to avoid thinking about stuff like this. There are happier things going on my life. Tonight, I'm going to see Prime, and this weekend is Harry Potter. And you know, I don't like the roller coaster of attention I get from a couple of guys. It goes from a lot to nothing and then a little bit and then nothing. I have a hard time when people are just a bit in my life. I prefer them to be in or out, and then I need to know how much they'll be in, so I can gauge my efforts. I hope that doesn't sound too cold. Lately (like the past 2 days?!), my mind has been preoccupied with someone. He's not physically here, yet, though. |
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| ++butt or front? |
| 11.14.05 (8:17 am) [edit] |
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Which is more important when wearing a pair of jeans? Looking good in the front or back? I tend to buy jeans when I accidentally find a pair that fits well. However, my jeans are all a little tight for me now, so I want some new ones. Actually, current styles are just too clingy for my taste now. I must be getting old. :wink: Anyway, I found two pairs that I could actually pull up over my thighs, and I only want to keep one pair of jeans. Do I want to go for slightly more comfortable, or do I want a pair that gives me a luscious ass?? I was hoping for some good salespeople on the weekend. I told them that I was only looking for a pair of jeans. I think I must have tried on about 40 pairs. Only one salesgirl brought me recommendations. How in the world do Europeans go shopping?? Why do they even have salespeople in European stores? The salespeople stand around and chit chat. On the weekend, the ones I saw were too busy trying to keep the store tidy instead of helping customers. And why am I listening to Janet Jackson? I don't remember how this song got my on my work computer. Last night, I heard a few songs from the new Madonna album. I am really looking forward to hearing the whole thing, but I know I'll feel guilty if I buy it. She is timeless, I tell you. Oh yeah, I tried on a pair of jeans that made me look like I had male genitalia. And then I also unknowlingly tried on a pair of tapered jeans, the kind that you can tuck into your jeans. That particular experience brought me back to the 80s. Ugh. And the absolute worst part about trying on jeans is that they'r e always too long. I can never get a good look at how they fit!!! Trousers and jeans definitely need to come in 30" length *all* the time. And it's still ridiculous that I have to pay more money to get the legs chopped off for hemming. Okay, Express has pants in short lengths that fit me, but we don't have that store here. Sometimes Gap has good lengths, but their jeans and pants usually fit horrribley on me. Mavi makes jeans in 30" length, but they tend to fit small. :) |
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| ++Patooery |
| 11.13.05 (12:35 pm) [edit] |
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So...that soup my aunt gave me. I know it cost a lot to make. After all, it was shark's fin soup. And I burnt it, and had to throw most of it out. However, I don't think I would have burnt it if she was a better cook 8) She had told me to cook the soup some more because the shark's fin wasn't soft enough yet, and that the "broth" was extremely thick and concentrated. I put what she gave me in a pot, and simmered it for half an hour. By the time I checked on it, I pretty much had no soup left. There was about 1 cm of burnt stuff on the bottom -- a mixture of the chicken meat, broth, and shark's fin. I had started with 1/4 of the pot. I managed to scrape of the unburnt stuff, and ate it. It was sooooo salty (so her cooking hadn't changed much), the soup was gritty, and so thick. It was like eating melted jello. I feel really bad that I will have to throw out most of what she gave me, but it was another unpleasant dining experience. |
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| ++Nga |
| 11.11.05 (11:24 pm) [edit] |
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Tonight we saw Derailed. I wish I had not read the blurb in the newspaper about it. Otherwise, I am sure I would have enjoyed the movie more. I didn't really enjoy the movie. It was a very slow buildup. And then all of a sudden everything happened, and time wasn't spent post-climax of the movie. Lame. I guess I didn't end up having my quiet night in. I'll do that tomorrow, but no more popcorn. I was really hungry so I got a kid's tub of popcorn. What a rip. Then we went to the pub. I forget the original intent of my post. I picked up an ugly frame for my photo today. I think I will say yes to coffee with the French guy. And the sushi guy hasn't followed up on his half-assed invitation. I hate when people don't follow up. And the tall J man has been pissing me off, too. He chats me up and then just doesn't say anything. I am tired of that. Maybe it's the lack of attention he is paying, but why start up a conversation with someone if you're not going to continue or end it properly? I remember what I was going to say now. While at the pub, we saw P Man's friend. It looked like he was on a date. I hadn't seen him in over a year. Looked like he'd been working out. But he was wearing those Nike shoes with the shock absorbers or whatever. I"m not sure what they're called since I don't pay any attention to Nike products as I don't wear them. He is so insecure about his height. When I last saw him, he was wearing Frankenstein shoes, and even with runners, he wanted that little bit of extra height. Men. I am feeling violent right now. I should go to bed. Tomorrow I will have to tackle a big sinkful of dishes, and I am going to clean my makeup brushes, too. THey're filthy! |
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| ++Do I need a griddle |
| 11.11.05 (11:59 am) [edit] |
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Probably not. But I finally made pancakes today. First off, I don't even like eating pancakes. There is just too much dough, and they're even worse when they're thick. I guess that is why I am okay with European pancakes. Speaking of European pancakes, this French guy asked me out for coffee for Monday. I don't know if I want to meet up with him yet. I haven't responded to his email. However, he says he makes great crepes... So my pancakes...cooked in a regular frying pan turned out okay, but I could really taste the flour. I guess the batter was too dry, but I followed the recipe to a T!! Only the blueberries saved them. And some maple syrup. Now I feel gross. The recipe said serves 3 - 4; I don't know 3 - 4 what they mean. I had 3 tiny pancakes, and I am stuffed. My first couple of pancakes turned out a little crispy. I've spent most of my day sleeping. When I woke up, it was past noon. I was kind of happy I let myself sleep in. :D But now I must go run some errands (last day of the sale to get a frame! And I should get some sponges for doing dishes. I get a dozen at a dollar store. I guess that is how I make up for spending $200+ on cosmetics). I just need to be home when my mom calls. But I must get in some gym action too. I can't wait to have a real trainer again. I am hoping the insurance company will pay for 3 sessions a week. I know I need it. So I'm going to go out in public with no make up on. I'll do my shopping, go to the gym, come home, eat my aunt's gross food, and watch a movie while eating popcorn. I treasure the days when I can do just about anything I want without having to be somewhere at a certain time. |
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| ++So sleepy |
| 11.10.05 (11:51 pm) [edit] |
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But I came online anyway to see if anyone was around. Well, I wasn't just looking for anyone -- just a few of my boys ;) 8) I went to aaron's restaurant's thing tonight, and I brought poola with me. We went to Stila first and got our makeup done. Unfortunately, that bad makeup artist was there. She put so much foundation on poola's face that it was like a brand new face. And then she got eye shadow all over her cheeks, too, and the makeup "artist" tried to cover it up with more concealer, more blush, and powder, and more foundation. That girl only wants to sell, sell, sell. She put some cakey foundation on me. I'm not sure if I would buy it since i much prefer a liquid. However, Stila will only be carrying the illuminating foundation soon, and that stuff is too heavy for my face. It breaks out if I keep it on for too long. Anyway, I bought too much stuff again, but I did "need" it all: foundation (one that is being discontinued and I still didn't clean out their stock :P); a special edition pallette with 3 eye shadow colours (one of them is green and takes away my need to get some green eyeliner) and blush (which I needed); a powder brush; lip glaze (I am just about out of lip colour) and concealer. All I need is mascara. I am conflicted as I do not know what brands are good. I was using Lancome's Hypnose for a while, but it's too clumpy. Stila had a $13 one, which isni't too bad at all in terms of price, but I'll have to take a look at my lashes. I doubt I will buy it. But at tonight's schmooze fest, we got free food and drinks. And aaron even hung out with us, which was really nice. He is a special friend to me. Poola asked me if I had a crush on him. I guess I kind of do, but it's not one of the kinds where I'd even consider doing something about it. He's a dear friend. It was a fun night. I know I would not have had half as much fun had I brought the tall J man! |
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| ++More Auntie |
| 11.10.05 (7:53 am) [edit] |
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What is it with people? Now the focus is off my "poor" mother, the focus is on "poor" me. Why can't people mind their own business when they're not involved -- not even part of the equation?? Last night, while I was out, my aunt called to see what I thought of her food. Never mind that I told her I wouldn't have time to eat it quite so soon. I don't know if it was a segueway or what, but she asked me if I had talked to my dad. Of course I told her no. And then she informed me that he was leaving town Monday. Why does she feel this need to spread the news? Mind you, I am waiting to see if my dad will tell me himself. After every single trip of his, I've told him to tell me if he was going out of town, where, when he was coming back -- all the normal stuff you let people know in case of emergency. My aunt passes on all details about my dad's latest woman, too, and then she passes more judgement. "This time it seems better. Maybe they feel more free because this woman isn't married like the last one. I can't stand her voice!" And then she starts comparing this woman with the other one...personality, family. I mean who gives a shit? My dad can have whoever he wants in his life. Anyway, I got really short with her when she said to me, "*sigh* I don't know how to help you. You're stuck in the middle, and you live ALL alone! Call me if ever need anything. Call me if you're bored. If you need to talk, I can keep everything confidential." I have had it with her. She often gave "advice" to my mom before my parents got divorced. BTW, this is my dad's sister. Everyone else on my mom's family hates my dad, and they want nothing to do with his family either. So back to the end of conversation: 1. I don't understand what help it is that I need. 2. What am I stuck in the middle of? Surely it can't be my parents' relationship since they're officially *divorced.* 3. I don't understand what living alone has to do with anything. 4. Why is she feeling sorry for me? Oh right...I'm a single woman living by herself. Oh, and my parents divorced when I was 28, so now my whole view on relationships has been tarnished. Give me a break. My aunt and I were never close before. She had no idea what went on in my household the last 10+ years. Just because she finds out certain details in the last few years does not make her an expert. Her own family is so different from mine. Why can't she understand not everyone is the same and wants what she wants? I am not even going to try to make here see that she and I want different things. I wonder if I can talk my mom into cutting her off from our lives.. :wink: |
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| ++There is no 7 or 8! |
| 11.09.05 (10:14 am) [edit] |
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1: First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Hodges (I hated first grade) 2: Last word you said: later 3: Last song you sang: Great Balls of Fire 4: Last person you hugged: aaron 6: Last time you said 'I don't remember': now? Because I don't remember ::PRESENT:: 9: What color socks are you wearing: No socks 10. What's under you bed right now?: Linen, thigh high boots, and purses/handbags 11: What time did you wake up today: 7:30am ish 12: Current taste: No taste 13: Current hair: Greasy and in a ponytail 15: Current annoyance: It's cold in the office 16: Current longing: Penis 17: Current desktop background: Company logo 18: Current worry: That my hair is noticeably greasy 19: Current hate: Air conditioning 20: Current favorite article of clothing: None 21: Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: Muscles 22: Last CD that you listened to: Some No Doubt 24: Least favorite place: Any lineup 25: Time you wake up in the morning?: 7:30ish 27: Favorite color: None 28: Do you believe in an afterlife: Yes 30: Current favorite word/saying: Oooh la la 31: Favorite book: Banana Boys 32: Favorite season: They're all great 33: One person you wish you could talk to right now: Nobody ::FUTURE:: 35: Where do you want to go for college?: No more college for me 36: What is your career going to be like?: fulfilling, at the least. 37: How many kids do you want: Zero - two ::HAVE YOU EVER...:: 39: Said "I love you" and meant it: Yes. 40: Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird: No. 41: Been to New York: Yes. 42: Been to Florida: Yes. 43: Been to California: Yes. 44: Been to Hawaii: Yes. 45: Been to Mexico: Yes. 46: Been to China: Yes. 47: Been to Europe: Yes. 48: Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: No. 52: Do you have a crush on someone: No. 53: What book are you reading: The 4th Harry Potter 54: What is the worst feeling in the world: Constipation 55:What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning: What time is it? 56: How many rings before you answer: As many as it takes for me to reach the phone. 59: Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: No 64: Do you do drugs?: No 65: Do you drink: No 66: Do you shower: Yes 67: What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use? Sebastians Laminates or some GOldwell stuff or some Alterna Truffle stuff 68: What are you most scared of: Heights and water 69: What clothes do you sleep in? PJs, nighties, or nothing 70: Who is the last person that called you: My mom 71: Where do you want to get married: Dunno 72: If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: I'd be less guarded around people 73. Who do you hate: Nobody I know personally 74: Been In Love: Yes 75: Are you timely or always late: Usually late 76: Do you have a job: Yes 77: Do you like being around people?: Yes, but depends who. 78: Best feeling in the world?: Being stressless 79: Are you for world peace: Yes 80: Are you a health freak: No, I try to be healthy but I'm not a freak about it! 81: Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: Geeky. Maybe I should reconsider. 82. You want someone you can't have?: No, I try to be realistic! 83: Are you lonely right now: No. 84: Ever afraid you'll never get married: No. 85: Do you want to get married: Maybe 86: Do you want kids?: Not sure ::IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...:: 87: Cried: No. 88: Bought Something: Yes 89: Gotten Sick: No 90: Sang: Yep. 91: Said I Love You: No 92: Wanted To Tell Someone You Liked them: No 93: Met Someone: No 94: Moved On: Yes 95: Talked To Someone: Yes 96: Had A Serious Talk: No 97: Missed Someone: Yes 98: Hugged Someone: No 99: Yelled at Someone: No 100: Thought About Someone You Can't Be with: Yes |
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| 11.09.05 (7:07 am) [edit] |
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I had a dream about ghosts this morning. It was weird. I cooked some meal for everyone in my family, and then things started disappearing, like food and cutlery. Then I realised it was the ghost of my dad's (past) mistress, but in reality, she is still alive. I was kind of scared at first in my dream, but then I got angry. I watched a bit of Scooby-Doo yesterday morning. I didn't realise they were still making new episodes. The gang is a lot more sarcastic these days. I kine of like their new personalities, but they've turned Daphne into an even bigger bimbo. And my mom called this morning. It was good to talk with her. She will be able to attend Great Uncle's funeral. I couldn't think of anything to give him. I'm not completely sure, but I think with tradition, they leave out food for him the night his spirit returns. They say that after someone dies, his spirit returns to his home before leaving for good, so they leave things out for him. Some find this experience scary. My grandma told me she stayed with someone who was waiting for her husband's spirit to come home. The next morning, his pillow had an indent as if his head had rested on it. I remember shortly after my paternal grandmother died, I was sitting on the floor in my bedroom crying and sobbing almost uncontrollably. I was alone, and I felt like there was a hand on my shoulder. The feeling was strong enough that I reached out my hand to cover it, but there was nothing physically there, obviously. Anyway, I felt comforted after that. Well, on a lighter note, I might be going out for sushi with sushiguy this weekend. I'm not sure I ever gave him a nickname, but he's the guy I went out with last week where we had a great time. And then I figured he lost interest. I guess now he is just a sushi buddy. But I have been craving sushi. And I have been craving popcorn. I want to try the stovetop method next time. |
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| ++Only two hours of my life |
| 11.08.05 (6:56 pm) [edit] |
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I must convince myself of that. [b]Dinner[/b] I just had dinner with aunt and uncle #6. I dread it. Anyhow, I could not fend them off. At least it will be a while before I have to see them again. We tried this Chinese-style western restaurant. The service was soooo bad! It took forever to flag every down, the staff had bad attitudes, and they were condescending. My soup bowl had a huge chunk missing out of it. And the whole conversation about my uncle's steak was just horrible. In Chinese, when you're asked how well you want your steak done, they give something like a fraction?? I don't know, but it's a number. I always figured it was on a scale of 1 - 10. So my uncle wanted medium rare. He asked the waiter what that would translate to since every restaurant has a different scale. But the waiter was like, "just give a number. It's standard." "But then what would medium rare be?" "3 or 4." "Then is medium rare 3 or 4?" "It's standard." "But..." "Justpick3." And then with my meal, I could pick 2 things off a choice of 10 items, and then I could choose my side dish. I only wanted the chicken steak, so I asked for 2. There was no option for 1 item from the menu. And the waiter said "you can't do that. You have to pick TWO different items." The menu didn't say that. I thought it was the dumbest thing ever. At first, my aunt was ordering for me, but when we were told we couldn't have the two same meats on one plate, she started giving her order. And then while we were finishing off the rest of our order, I thought we were doing mine, I started calling out stuff. Then the water cut me off and told me one dish at a time. My soup was really sour, spicy, and salty. And then chicken steaks were greasy. And then the sauce was sooo salty. And my side dish of vegetables was steamed cabbage. EW!!! I didn't even get a whole serving size of veggies. Gross. I couldn't wait to get out of there. [b]The Visit[/b] And then my aunt and uncle were pretty much inviting themselves over. I just didn't really want them to see my pole, I guess. But I let them come over. After all, my mom reminded me, they had given me a housewarming gift. They liked my place though, but they wouldn't believe me when I said my pole was for dancing. Then my aunt sat down and started reading the newspaper. I think someone stole my newspaper AGAIN. FFS, it's like if I don't get my newspaper right in the morning, it gets stolen. Can't I trust anyone? I didn't come home after work either. I went grocery shopping and then to dinner. And no gym AGAIN. I don't know if I can go tomorrow either. We're having civic elections soon. Tomorrow night is an opportunity to hear all the candidates speak. My health vs. politics -- which do I choose? Why do I always have to choose between doing something and my health?? Anyway, back to the invasion. My uncle was just sitting around, which was fine. But then my aunt started talking to me again about my dad. I just find her so meddlesome, so I tend to keep my answers short in order to cut the conversation short. Aunt:Have you tried talking to your dad lately? I didn't dare ask him about him when he came by the other day. Me: No, I don't see the point. Aunt: But you're his daughter. You should. Me: (Not knowing how to express that I am tired of being the one who is always reaching out to someone I don't particularly like...) What's the point? Every time, I call, he asks me what I want, he tells me he's not dead yet, and I get curt, short answers. It's too difficult trying to have a conversation with him. Aunt: (silence) She doesn't understand how manipulative my dad is. It's something I've seen all my life. When he doesn't get he wants, he gets loud so people bow down. I am not going to repeat what my mom did. I am not going to do what I did as a kid. And I am tired of his superiority complex (it's probably why I give so much attitude to cocky people). So after that conversation, my aunt brought up her other favourite topic of conversation with me, which is my marital status. I've just never had this desire to be hitched. I mean, sure...when/if the right person comes along, I'll consider it. I do not think being married makes me a complete person. Aunt: So you're really not seeing anyone right now? Me: No. Aunt: Don't you think you should be settling down and starting a family? Me: No, why should I? I have a job, and I have a home. What do I need a man for? Aunt: Well, it's nice to have companionship. Your parents' relationship MUST have made you think this way. Of course I could not express what i was really trying to say to her in Cantonese. I don't have a burning desire to have kids right now. I'm just not in a hurry to be married. And it's not even being distrustful of men. Mind you, I have had so many married/taken men come on to me, and I have seen so many cheaters that maybe I should be a little fazed :twisted: I just think that everything will happen within due time. *shrugs* I quite like my life. I have so much going on, and I come and go as I please. Maybe I still have that fear of commitment. And ewwww, I tend to make sure to not talk about foods I like in front of my aunt because I DESPISE her cooking. I had to stay with her for a couple of weeks when I was in high school when my parents were on vacation. OMG, she kept forcing me to eat, and ugh, I hated it. Anyhow, my aunt gave me some soup and some chicken. And then she didn't believe me when I told her I wouldn't have time to eat it. Ugh. I'm hoping what she gave me isn't too salty or too greasy. That whole being-married-not-being-m arried conversation was pissing me off. Why do I need to defend myself? And what is it with family on my dad's side... Aunt: What do you do since you live by yourself? Good grief...can only hitched people entertain themselves? My dad thinks it's boring living by yourself. Is it not obvious I go out and do stuff? Hang out with my friends? I don't understand why they can't understand that I am serious when I say I have no time. Just this week, aside from working, I had/have this going on: Monday: Hockey game Tuesday: Dinner out Wed: All-candidates meeting Thursday: Stila appointment and reception Friday: FINALLY! THE GYM! Saturday: Shopping Sunday: Grocery shopping, laundry, weekly house work I can't blame my aunt for being old school, but it is frustrating: Aunt: Who do you hang out with? Me: Friends Aunt: Friends? From where? Me: *shrugs* from anywhere. Old friends. Aunt: Do you hang out with people from work? Maybe it was common in their day to make friends at work. I like to keep work separate. But my mom used to say, "don't date when you're going to school. You can meet someone when you're working [at work]." I think that is about it. Oh wait, there is imore... At one point, my aunt said to me, "Why don't you sit down?" What i wanted to reply with was, "because you're leaving soon." Instead, I said, "oh, we sat so long at the restaurant that I will just stand for now." And my uncle inquired about what kind of friends I had: Uncle: Do you have any Chinese friends? Me: Not really. And my aunt kept thinking of ways for me to interact with my dad: Aunt: Did your dad make that shelf for you? Me: No, as if he'd do anything for me now. Aunt: But he loves to do wood work! Me: No, that shelf is from Ikea. And as my aunt was leaving..."You can call me ANY time! I mean it! Just call me if you're bored." "Okay, Auntie. Bye!" |
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| ++New feather boa |
| 11.08.05 (7:43 am) [edit] |
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I need a new one. The old one was bright pink and had little finger holes at the ends. All I have left of it are a few feathers. Man, those vaccuum cleaners suck fast. I am going to make blueberry buttermilk pancakes on Friday. And at some point, I am going to try making some pumpkin soup. Thursday night's a juggling thing. I have to decline the wrap party for the film festival volunteers. D'oh. I was looking forward to getting a gift card for this great cake house. But instead I'm going to some event at Stila (YAY! New makeup!) and then I'm going to a reception at a restaurant my friend works at. Now with this reception thing, I had originally invited the tall J Man, but now I'm bringing a girlfriend with me (hey, she's the one who made us the appointment at Stila). I am going to feel horrible about retracting my invitation. It's soooo wrong. I don't know what I'm going to tell him. Hopefully I can make it up to him later. I was going to get one of my prints framed yesterday. Why is framing so pricey? I have decided that $300 is not the way to go. Instead, I'll get a ready-made frame for that huge ass print (wait, that's huge-ass and not big butt), and get this other thing framed instead. It's this drawing I bought when I went to Australia. I love getting work done by local artists when I go somewhere. Unfortunately, I did not find anything good when I was in London. Poo. |
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| ++Boogers |
| 11.07.05 (7:05 am) [edit] |
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Why are boogers salty? My worst booger experience was having to scrape an ex's off the shower wall. Ugh. I've never told this story to anyone. Who would really want to hear this? I heard him blowing his nose while he was in the shower. I was trying to ignore it. Then one day I was looking in the shower stall, and I saw this reddish-grey thing on the wall. It was his dried up booger. I did my best to scrape it off. So with this past weekend and no time to think, I had no time to mourn, either. My mom called me Friday evening to tell me know that Great Uncle #5 passed away (in Hong Kong). *sigh* I have relatives that I don't know the name of because everyone is just called by their birth order in that family. Anyway Great Uncle #5 lived a long life. He died of lung cancer at 92. It wasn't looking promising that he'd live til the Chinese New year. I am glad I spoke with him on the phone a couple of weekends ago. He was still very mentally alert; I'm sure his body just shut down eventually. He was still smoking 'til the end, but since he was too weak to hold his own cigarettes, someone else had to do it for him. :lol: When I was a kid, and I was getting all that "Smoking is bad for you" stuff in school, I was so anti-smoking. I drew pictures of people dying from smoking, in hopes that Great Uncle #5 would quit. He used to give me watches. I thought he owned a watch factory. He's given me gold, too. He used run a club that catered to men. There were lots of hostesses around to keep them company. He always stressed good health. "Rosie, the most important thing in life is good health. Make sure to exercise and get fresh air." He said the clean air over here was so great that he didn't even need his cane to walk. My cousins and I loved being around him when we were kids. He had this really big flat mole by his right ear, and we'd always make fun of it and stare, but he didn't mind. :lol: I think he got it shrunken at some point. He loved the Chinese economy. He was always nicely dressed. *sigh* I am going to miss him. |
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| ++something to get off my chest |
| 11.06.05 (12:40 pm) [edit] |
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It bothers me that he's not interested. *sigh* And I need to go marinate some chicken and eat some chocolate. Man, I am hungry! And I need to do a work out! I guess I will just do some minor strength training and get back into hard core cardio later in the week. I have to catch up on from hardly eating this weekend. |
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| ++No time for cohesive paragraphs |
| 11.06.05 (12:08 pm) [edit] |
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I hate getting calls from Chinese telemarketers. They start talking in Cantonese, and I pretend I don't understand. All week I was swamped with the United Way campaign at work. I do not wish do be the email queen for the committee group next year -- too time consuming. Friday we ended off with karaoke. People singing were all nominated. I want to know who nominated me :x One thing I am really uncomfortable doing is singing in front of people. I can talk, dance, play an instrument, and be fine with it. But singing...no. I only sing when I am by myself and along with the radio! Anyhow, people were encouraged to sing in groups, so I went up .. twice. Participants were allowed to make a donation to not sing, but the audience would boo. So with this campaign last week, I didn't have time to go run errands during my lunch time, and with other activities going on, I didn't have time to run errands after work. That was really stressing me out. I was really set on getting something framed, and I was rather upset since the sale expired before I had time. I did not have time all week to do one little thing. And then Friday night, I left straight from work to go volunteer for a film festival. Their disorganisation makes me not want to volunteer again. It's been my 3rd year volunteering this year, so it's not like I've not given them a fair shake, and I understand lots of thing just happen on the fly at these events. But for the second year in a row, I've shown up on time for my shift, and then to have wait around for the execs to take charge. I could have shown up an hour later, and things would have just gotten started. I left work EARLY for what?! Friday night I was so hungry, too. I was weak by the time I got home and was too tired to eat. Then Saturday I saw my mom off to the airport. Instead of doing all the things I wanted to do (like exercise), I was so exhausted that I slept until I had to get ready for volunteering again. For this particular shift, I didn't have to do anything. They had too many volunteers. So disorganised. I guess it doesn't help that they have new executives every year, and the volunteers are usually one-timers. I am so out of it right now. I woke up super late, like 11:15 am. I feel like I've done nothing but have lots to do, and the afternoon is whittling away. I hate that my gym closes at 6 on Sundays. I guess I will go in an hour, at the latest. Is there a trick to preventing brown sugar from hardening into a lump? I bought a big bag of it. I never need a lot of brown sugar. |
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| ++Vegas, baby, VEGAS? |
| 11.03.05 (10:45 am) [edit] |
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Umm...the tall J Man asked me if I wanted to go to Vegas in Janaury...I said I would. I am in debt! Woo! I'm already going in May for a conference. So...I said yes anyway. We'll see if it actually happens. Even if I don't go, he's going for a bachelor+bachelorette party. I love getting away!! I wonder what it would be like to travel with him...I don't think he's made up with his girlfriend yet, or if they are going to make up at all. |
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| ++I don't have much to say right now |
| 11.03.05 (7:47 am) [edit] |
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While I was making my bed last night, I did think "men! Bah!" My back is so sore again that it even hurts to stretch. Today I start my first of 2 sessions from another therapist at the physio place. My adjustor approved those and a follow up session with my physio woman. Ugh. I just want to go back to my normal workouts. I find using the recumbant bike so uncomfortable yesterday. I hope it was because I was hungry. I couldn't increase my resistance levels like before. And my body was just pooped at like 9 pm. I even went to bed before midnight!! So I was overanalysing again. I need to find something better to do. BWAHAHAHA How many names exist in the world? There is one name that seems to run current in my life. It's one that starts with a J. My favourite astrologist says that people with names beginning with a particular group of letters harmonise better with people in that group. But anyway, there seems to someone in my life with that name regularly. If it's not that name, then it's an ethnic variation of it. Is that strange? |
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| ++Chemistry |
| 11.02.05 (8:12 am) [edit] |
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I'm not talking about the subject you'd take in school... I'm talking about the je ne sais quoi that you feel with someone. I was trying to figure out if I felt any last night. Perhaps it's too much thinking, but I was so intently focusing on the conversation that there were only a few moments where I'd kind of stop and ask myself, "would I do him?" I couldn't really see myself with him naked. Maybe it was the suit and that he was all semi-formal looking. Then later on, I also asked myself, "is he too old for me?" :lol: He's just a few years older, but it seems like he's accomplished so much more than I have. But thinking back to other guys I've dated, totally hot chemistry is rare. But I've run out of time to mull about this more. Time to go to physio. My lower back is so tight right now that I want to barf! |
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| ++Last night |
| 11.02.05 (8:00 am) [edit] |
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The date went *really* well. The food was excellent, and the conversation was literally non-stop. There were no uncomfortable silences. And he was so cute! I wasn't really sure what he thought, but I think we both had a good time. We got kicked out from the restaurant, so we went for a coffee. Then we got kicked out of there, too, and then I dropped him off at his place. He mentioned the dinner and conversation were good, and I was like, "we should do it again, sometime," and he agreed. But after I said it, I felt like I was just saying it for the heck of it. I'm not sure if I felt chemistry. He was really cute and we talked about movies, books, our industries...a lot of topics but not too much about ourselves. I think I would be fine if I did not get together with him again. I was only a couple of minutes late :oops: Parking around there was not that easy, and it was pouring by the time we finished dinner. Oh, while we were at the coffee place, this dude kept staring at me. I did my best to ignore him since every time I looked his way, he'd look right at me. After he gave me the eyebrow wiggle, I made sure to not look at him again. :shock: |
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| ++Fire alarm observations |
| 11.01.05 (6:47 am) [edit] |
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I think I will put the ++s back in. I kind of like them. So this morning, I was having some weird-ass dream, and I heard beeping. I thought it was part of my dream, but then I realised it was the fire alarm AGAIN! I looked at the clock, and it was only 4:45 am...Ugh. I'm pretty tired right now. Anyway, I got up, grabbed a robe, and went downstairs and outside. I knew I was going to get cold, but I couldn't have been bothered to grab more clothes. Shortly after, a small group was gathered. I think there were more people on Saturday afternoon outside. You think there would have been more people at dark-thirty on a weekday! There wasn't much to do except check people out. There were 3 guys on their own. Most people were in sleep attire, but there were some people in sweatshirts, jeans, shoes, hats, etc. I started wondering if those people slept in the nude. Why else would they wear street clothes? But then I remembered that I am supposed to keep a pair of running shoes by the bed in case of emergency where I shouldn't be in bare feet. Thankfully, we could go back in after 20 minutes this time. Apparently, the alarms didn't stop for an hour and a half Saturday. I must go pick up some earplugs. There was a lot of morning breath in the elevator as we went back to our suites. And this morning, the electrician came by. He was very drool-worthy...Mmm...he was adorable!! And he kept talking to me about my breakers. I wish I had a clue what he was talking about. I think my libido is slowly coming back. That also reminds me, on Saturday night, one of the gang said to me, "oh! I didn't know you and the J Man broke up!" My first thought was "who?" I think that is a wonderful sign :D And it shows that I am still me!! I thought it was going to take me a while to get over the breakfup, but I got through it usual Rosie-style -- quickly!! |
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