While I was grabbing my suitcase off the carousel, I pulled something in my back. I've been in pain since. All I've done for it is use a heating pad. I haven't done any exercise although I should do some light stretching, I think. I'm even going to skip another dance class tonight :(

Anyway, my medical covers a limited amount of massage therapy. I want to make good use of that. Now would be a great time! However, my back is peeling and looks kind of gross, so I don't want a massage therapist to look at it. UGH!

I had a dream I was making out with a friend of mine. In real life, we'll never make out with each other eve again.

Mr. National Geographic Shoes checked me out today. It made me a little uncomfortable. 

UnPorsche MSNed me today. I had forgotten his nickname and had to look it up. I wonder why he MSNed me. 

On my way to Hawaii, we flew with Harmony. The service was fantastic! They kept the beverages coming, and we even had a meal. The flight was under 6 hours. I would definitely fly with them again!

On the way home, we flew with Westjet. I couldn't believe how roomy the pleather seats were! I could stretch my legs out. And each seat had a TV. The service was a little lacking though. They came around twice with beverages, and food was available for purchase. I liked their casual attitude with the jokes and stuff. They were okay, but I enjoyed Harmony more.

We cruised with Norwegian Cruise Lines (NCL) on the Pride of Hawaii. I was already expecting the worst after having read the reviews for the ship for our particular trip. Maybe because the ship was fairly new and the staff was really new made a difference. The service was kind of sucky. The dining room service was the worst. It was slow and inefficient. And a lot of the waiters didn't seem to know anything about wine, especially how to pour it. I guess cruising with Royal Carribbean and Princess spoiled me. I've cruised with Carnival as well, but I don't remember much about them. We never even met our cabin steward.

Their Broadway style shows were boring. One of the singers was constantly flat. And the dancers could never dance in sync. They had a guest entertainer, Scott Alexander, and he was awesome -- except for his final final joke. He recited "Chinese proverbs" that I'd read many times off the Interet (you know, like "Man who fart in church sit in own pew" or "Squirrel who crawls up woman's leg finds no nuts", etc.). Scott Alexander is this illusionist and magician. His card tricks were amazing. He was a great performer.

There was lots to do on the ship, and there was never a lineup for anything. However, NCL advertised having a volleyball and tennis courts, but neither were present. The pools were nice. The hot tubs were okay. There were just enough places to tan!

We had cabins with balconies, so I guess those cabins were a bit bigger. I don't have any complaints about the cabin. In fact, I loved ths shower! It was great because I could adjust the height of the shower head *down* to my height. I hate getting sprayed in the face! And the hairdryer was actually strong enough! And it came with a nozzle, too!!

The food was okay. They had "speciality restaurants" on the ship where you paid extra to eat there. The French restaurant was great. And so was the steakhouse. The Chinese restaurant I would not recommend. They had shabu shabu, too, which was not a bad experience. Shabu shabu is hot pot where you cook your food in boiling broth. If you've never had a hot pot experience, the servers will throw the food in the pot for you. One big faux-pas they committed was coming out with a tray of food and rice where the chopsticks were stabbed into the rice.

When I did their survey, I said I would not recommend them to friends and relatives and that I would not cruise with them again. But if you've never been on a cruise, NCL's Pride of Hawaii would not be that bad.

I can't wait to get my snorkeling photos developed. When I'm done, I'm thinking about getting a PhotoBook from Future Shop online. For a fee, they'll print your photos and present it like a coffee table book. I think the cost comes out to be fairly even if I had all my digital photos printed. What I like about the book is that I can add captions and I don't have to print them out myself!

I'm really good at least 2 things. (Other things I probably shouldn't mention.)

1. Packing suitcases.
2. Rolling napkins in a fashion where they look like penises.

UGH! I'm peeling  like a mofo. This is bad. Why did I think I didn't need sunscreen while snorkeling?? The dead skin is brown!! And now my new raw pink skin is showing. Talk about uneven tanning. My arms are the darkest of all.

I ate a lot on the cruise. I hope that helped spring my metabolism back into action. So far, it's still quite slow. BWAHAHA But now that I'm back, I'm going to start eating a bit more. I think my body was going into starvation mode.

And now that I am back, I am also going to curb that spending. I didn't buy that much on my trip. I did manage to get some jeans and makeup though. Yay!

I took tonnes of photos though -- more than a CD's worth. I'll be getting a whackload of them printed off. I still wonder why most people take sucky photos!! I mostly got scenery shots and food shots. I took several candid familiy shots, too.

The best part about the trip was just hanging out with family. Hawaii isn't one of those places where I think "I definitely want to go again!!!" However, feeling the tropical breeze and getting in sun was really nice, too. Aside from lounging and eating, I also tried horseback riding and snorkeling.

I learned that I'm really not a water person. I don't like being in it!! I would do snorkeling again though. I wanted to try kayaking but our excursion was cancelled due to rain! No matter where I go, it rains! And my horse was sooooo slow. I couldn't make him go any faster unless I tapped his butt with a stick. I didn't want to tap his butt, so I just let him go at his own pace.

One of my cousins was the constant topic of conversation. I felt kind of bad that almost everyone disliked her. I don't know if she can help being a bitch. And it was easy for people to talk about her because she can barely understand Chinese. Anyway, she wasn't very pleasant, and she was almost embarrassing to be around. She'd often make comments about people very loudly. She hadn't participated on any of our previous family trips because her mother didn't want my uncle and cousins to have anything to do with the family. I could go on about her, but I'll save that for another day should the mood ever strike.

She suggested having a reunion for the cousins. Hopefully, that is just all talk. I'm not sure any else would want to participate.

Maybe the mood is striking now...??

Are middle children generally attention whores?!? She seemed to want a lot of it. Or maybe she was uncomfortable with silence. She felt this constant need to verbalise all her thoughts all the time. But she was never really interested in what anyone else had to say. I don't know how many times she'd ask me a question and before I even finished answering her, she'd be talking about something else.

Tact wasn't also her strong point. I don't know how many times she told other people they were annoying. And so many things were "EEEEWA! GROOSSSS" Sometimes I just wanted to tell her to just grow up and suck it up.

I think one of my favourite things she said (to her sister) was, "we're cute and skinny, and we're with a big group of people. They're not going to not let us into the dining room because we're in flip flops!" On the ship, it was stated that no flip flops, tank tops, t-shirts, and shorts were allowed at dinner time. My cousin brought only flip flips on this trip...

And being around Americans makes me bring out my southern accent. I don't know how I picked up that accent, but I do a meeean drawl. 

Time to get caught up at work. 

I got fat and dark while on vacation, but that's okay :)

Returning from 10 days of not even touching a keyboard feels really weird. Time to trim those nails, too!

Time to eat. I'll post an update later :) 

Here's a post for you before I leave! I'll be back in a couple of weeks!

People are weird. People have issues. No wonder they stumble across my blog when Googling for stuff.  What is on people's minds?

plastic sauna suit
For that extra heat...

older women kissing style
Is it gummier with no teeth?

how to get over a crush
No contact at all helps. Doing things to keep your mind off your crush helps, too.

skimpy beefy cheeks
Skimpy beefy sounds like an oxymoron to me.

tries to make me jealous
Lame! Is it working?

he still wants to talk to me
Bastard! What's his problem?

concert blowing his nose
Did he hork for his encore?

padded training bras
The point isn't to train yourself to look busty! Or is it? I never wore a training bra.

stalker ex bf ottawa
There must be stalker ex bfs all across Canada.

started wearing one bra
Congratulations! I only wear one bra at a time.

boyfriend takes a girlfriend out for a curry he needs to take a dump
Well, when you gotta go, you gotta go. 

Only 2 more episodes of Nip/Tuck left. I am exhausted! It's going to be a tight squeeze to finish all my packing and clean up and watch Nip/Tuck (I've already sacrificed my So You Think You Can Dance finale and I'll probably sacrifice Big Brother tonight). I think I am seeing Cute Butt Boy tonight. The most important thing to remember is to call a cab for tomorrow morning! I want them to pick me up at 5:15! Aloha!

Posting by email didn't work, so I guess I probably won't be doing any posting while I'm away!

Anyway, I love good customer service. If I get bad customer service, I tend to not want to go back somewhere. I haven't shopped at this one shoe store for 10 years because the manager was so rude to me. She's probably not there anymore, but I still refuse to shop at the store.

Those "Contact us" links at Web sites are LAME.

Benefit cosmetics -- I sent them a question about their products and I never got a response.
Skindinavia -- Not only was their PayPal system not working, but nobody responded to me when I told them. And nobody responded to my questions.

Lucky Brand Jeans was awesome in getting back to me. I hear they're opening up a store here, but no concrete proof yet! I can't wait to try on their stuff when I'm in Hawaii.

I love Stila products, but the people selling their stuff here are lame. Not only do I know more about their products, but the sales clerkes are just hungry for commission without caring what the customer wants or needs. I've only had good experiences with the manager here and the first Stila person whoever did my makeup (thanks, Martha at the Bloomingdales in NY!).

And Lululemon used to have great clothes. The technology in their clothes is still great, but their stuff is no longer manufactured here. They get all their stuff put together in China. So now they're paying less for labour, and their profits are huge. Their prices haven't changed, and the quality of their clothes has declined. 

I am still willing to pay for Stila and Lululemon stuff despite my dislike for the way they do business. I feel guilty.

With all that said, I am spending too much money anyway. After my trip, I'm not using my credit card for a while (except for gas). 

I saw T a couple of days ago (it's going to be a boy!). One of their family friends gave her a big bag of baby stuff. In there was a package of diapers, but there was no English on the packaging.

I looked at it, and said, "it's Vietnamese."

Then her cousin looks at it. "It's either Vietnamese or Chinese."

I clenched and said, "it's *not* Chinese." 

And she said, "well, it's not English. It must be American."

... uh. Yeah. 

This post will be boring to any normal person...BWAHAHA It's just me getting stuff off my chest.

Do you ever not say something because you know the consequences will be huge?

I have bit my tongue for so many years in regards to my dad. Sometimes I just want to unleash and be done with him. He left town again without telling me, and I had sent him an email a while back. When he wrote back, I told him I had not appreciated him leaving town without telling me.

You know, my dad is EMO. I hate emo. Everyone in the world is against him and doesn't appreciate the man he is. He might as well die. (And I say the last two sentences from his point of view.)

So back to the emailing with my dad. He said he didn't bother telling me (despite that I have asked him numerous times that he let me know if he's going out of town.) because I wouldn't care anyway. And he is right. He can come and go as he pleases, but if there was an emergency of any sort, that is good information to have. And then he snidely remarked that he didn't want to call because I told him that whenever he called me it was to tell me what I'd done wrong. I told him that once and he will never let me forget it. But what I said was true. When he's in one of his depressive states and does all this thinking, he calls me to either ask questions about my mom, or tell me how I've let him down.

I wrote him back. I resisted telling him to be a man and stop blaming everyone for his unhappiness and to let go of the past. I told him he made it difficult for people to care about him yet he wants people to show that they care. Unfortunately, to him...having everyone do what he wants them to do is showing they care.

I doubt he's forgiven me for not taking his mistress' luggage for her on my flight. 

The only reason why I am still even talking to this man is because of this sense of duty. He has been pretty unsupportive of me aside from providing me the necessities. I have no faith in him. I don't even put him down as an emergency contact person. He can't be relied on.

There are lots of childhood memories that I still remember but would never think to throw in his face. I don't want to be like him. I don't want to list everything to him that he's ever done to hurt me. But I've never really told anyone. At least he never beat me. And growing up was not that bad even though I'm probably making it sound like I was abused.

The relationship I have (had?) with my father has definitely influenced that way I am, more so than with my mom, and I'm closer to her. People who don't keep their word irritate the hell out of me. People who don't take responsibility for their own actions irritate me.

One time, I was out shopping with my parents. I can't remember how old I was, but my mom went to the bakery and my dad crossed the street to go to the supermarket. Neither of them told me who I was going with, so I ran after my dad across the street. Now I realise I was almost hit by a car. (Maybe I hadn't learned to look both ways before crossing the street?) The driver yelled at my dad to tell him to watch me, and my dad yelled back, "hit her! I don't care!"

My dad didn't teach me to ride a 2-wheeler. My uncle taught me when I was in Hong Kong. But when we came back home,  my dad didn't continue, but he took off the training wheels a year later. It's too bad my dad doesn't realise children don't have the mental or emotional capacity of an adult. Him telling me I was useless was supposed to motivate me to be angry enough to learn how to ride a bike because he failed at it. There was no push off from dad. I used the fence in our backyard for support on one side and lots of push offs with my own feet. I remember how the prickley fence felt and how I hoped I wouldn't get splinters, and I was crying, too. It was horrible, but my parents remember it being as something funny.

Another time in high school, the day before an English test, I talked to my mom about something that should have remained private between us, but she told my dad (my mom lived for my dad. I didn't have any support from her either. She always sided with him.). I think I was having issues with him, and he freaked out. I don't remember about what exactly but he ended up sobbing and losing his mind. And then I had to pretend that I was an ungrateful daughter and to reassure him. I do remember me reminding him that he told me he didn't want me when I was born. 

And school...all I did was get yelled at if I got Cs (or lower). Good grades were a must. (Thankfully, I excelled in high school without too much effort.) He never went to any parent-teacher conferences or any band concerts...nothing. But there was one time in the third grade where there was some event. I remember him complimenting one of my friend's work that was hung on the walls. "Dad, is my writing good?" "Not really." "Dad, how was my piano playing?" "It could use some work." I'm not sure if ever looked at my work, but he demanded I have good grades.

There was a time when he'd "help" me with my Social Studies in elementary school. I'd read the textbook, and then go sit on a stool while he sat in his La-Z boy in the Games Room. He wouldn't have read the textbook, but he'd ask me questions from it. He'd yell a lot if I didn't know the answers.

What I hated was when my two (male) cousins were living with us when they were going to high school. He took an interest in them. "Rosie, you should read Ed's essay. It's really good." Nice.  

My dad likes to use fear to get his way. His motto always was, "more crying, more beats."

What I feel the worst about is that I feel sorry for my dad.  

What a long rambling post. I am much happier when I don't have to deal with him. I just push everything down and try to forget. He's a ticking time bomb, and I think when he passes, I will feel much relief. I have given up on having any kind of real relationship with him. Maybe I gave up a long time ago.  

The time has come where I must tell The Eater buh-bye. I haven't shown any interest at all to him anymore, and he sort of cooled it a bit too. But today in his reply to an email I sent him (before the weekend, mind you!), he asked me if I met someone else and what I was looking for. He said he'd be happy to be friends if I didn't want to pursue anything

He's made it easy to tell him that although he's a good guy, the chemistry isn't there for me. However, I don't want to make friends. I think as long as I'm out of sight, I will also be out of mind.  

I also talked to the IKEA guy for the first time ever last night...after 2 months of small talk emails. His spoken English is definitely better than his written. He has no phone. He has no car. I would consider meeting up with him for a coffee, but he's suggested cooking dinner for me or going away to the mountains! Is it the European way?? Are North Americans too uptight to accept such invitations? I'm just thinking of my own personal safety.

I really have no patience for just any man right now, I think. I'm tired of guys with no career, no education, no car, no money, no humbleness, no life. I used to look past that kind of stuff because it's what's inside that counts, right?? I want the good stuff on the inside and outside!

I had my followup with the podiatrist. I hope my medical benefits covers it because my appointments with this doofus was not really worth it. At least he diagnosed me with tendonitis. As for what to really do about it, he told me strengthen my muscles. How? He did not say!

I think the ride side of my body is getting more out of whack. I know our halves aren't supposed to be completely symmetrical, but I look so uneven! I always knew my right foot (or leg?!) turns outwards naturally, but I'm not sure if it's something that requires correction. I like the shape of the left side of my body much more than my right. BWAHAHA

I reserved 2 tickets for the Bodyworlds show coming up at Science World. I think it's going to be fascinatingly gross! It's humans bodies that have been plastinated. I'll be looking at human bodies!!

I guess I shouldn't leave a trail if I go Googling for someone right?? Oops. Damn. And also, somtimes, it's just better to not know!!  

On Friday night, I went this Japanese restaurant called Tsukiji in Richmond (yes, this for the benefit of the people who are Googling for a review on this restaurant). The service was despicable! And the food wasn't that great. We left no tip at all, and the friend that I went with works in the food industry. Usually he tips more since he's in the biz.

Anyway, all the waiting we had to do for our food was horrible. (I wonder if our service would have been better if we spoke Chinese? A lot of the Japanese restaurants here are run by Chinese people.) I ordered a salad and sushi. He ordered all hot food. My salad came first, so I waited for his food to come before eating. That was not so bad. But then everything he ordered came. I finished my salad. He finished eating all his food. I was still waiting for my sushi.

The sushi came, and there was no wasabi. None. I had to ask TWICE for something that should have come with my food. He figured he would order a bowl of steamed rice and some pickles to bide the time. I'm a really slow eater.

So I finished eating, and his rice hadn't come. He even asked how long it takes to get a bowl of plain rice. Instead of offering to check on our food, the waitress said it was the pickles that were taking so long. After about 35 minutes of waiting, he got his rice and pickles.

Total dinner time = 2 hours. Never going back there again!

And on a more fun note, I don't want to lend anything to anyone again! I lent a movie to Mr. National Geographic Shoes, and he's done with the movie. However, he refuses to return it. He says I have to give him something in return. And when I got my video camera out the other night, I noticed the power converter was missing. When I called the last person who used it, she said it was never there. Bullshit. I have a feeling the power converter that is in her socket IS MINE. She and her boyfriend borrowed my camera twice in the last year, and I haven't used it at all for over a year.

With Chinese astrology, people's luck come and go in waves 10-year cycles. Everyone's cycles start at a different time. For me, it started when I was 4. One of my mom's friends is really into Chinese astrology and she said she'd analyse me. She's just really curious as to when (or if) romance is destined for me, I think ;-) Anyway, she said I'd definitely be in a relationship some time between the ages of 34-44. I started thinking about what shitty luck I've been having for the last 4.5 years. My last real boyfriend and I broke up almost 4 and a half years ago. The cycle thing is all very coincidental.

I saved again from spending money today. I've been looking for hair accessories to use when put my hair up for the formal night on the ship. I didn't really want to spend almost $40 on a plastic clip. When I whipped out my credit card, the clerk said, "sorry, we accept only cash." I said I'd come back. But I don't plan to. PHEW!

I can't resist a sale, but today I did. I was passing by one of my favourite optical stores. If my eye sight wasn't so damned bad, I'd probably have a *lot* more pairs of glasses (mmm...accessorizing!). Glasses are like jeans. If you find a pair that makes you look hot, get them. So the store was having a sale on their Chanel sunglasses; they were 50% off!!!!! FIFTY!!!!! I tried on this really nice pair, and I was tempted...sooooo tempted. But I had the guy put them away, and said  I'd think about them. I figured if I see them again and they're still on sale, they're meant to be mine.

But in the 3 hours since I've left them, I've talked myself out of buying them -- EVER. So that is $270 saved. *sigh* but they sure were nice.

Instead, I picked up some fake Chanel studs at my hair salon of all places. They're the Chanel logo in all encrusted in "diamonds." BWAHAHAHA I'd seen them on other people (always cashiers for some reason) and really liked them. One day I'll have some real Chanel, but not today. Or any time soon.

I also got my hair cut today. I think I have reached my hair goal. I don't want my hair that much longer. It's past my waist in the back. All this hair makes for a heavy head and not very fun workouts at the gym. My hair dresser tried to sell me hair products today, which I thought was weird. She knows I don't really like using anything. And when I decided to buy some hair straightening stuff, they were out of stock. I told her I was going to look for it elsewhere, and her face just fell. I felt so bad!

I finished my first season of Nip/Tuck. I thought the season 1 finale was too... perfect. Let's see what Season 2 brings!!

My legs are stiff today. I tried HIIT yesterday at the gym to save time. I warmed up for 5 minutes and alternated between  sprinting for 20 seconds and jogging for 40 seconds 12 times. Then I cooled down. It was good!

I also told my coworker about possibly not going to Vegas. It was difficult. I just told her that money was an issue right now. But she still offered to pay for my airfar now and then have me pay her back in December. Nice, but that is not going to solve my money issues! I really should budget.

Dance class usually gives me a high. I had dance class tonight.

One of the girls recognised me from the dance competition last year. She said I was good! *L* yay! 

I just started watching the first season of this show. I can't get enough of it!

Unfortunately, all the sex in this show is making me a little mad because I want some, too!! Obviously I am not getting enough. I'm having trouble sleeping again!!! 

The mercury retrograde is over, yet exes are still floating around.

Last night I went out for dinner with Big C. I cannot and will not date him again. But I couldn't help but get this feeling that he would be open to rekindling something despite the fact that I told him we wouldn't date again and he agreed things would not work!!! He paid for a pricey dinner, and I wasn't too comfortable with that.  Earlier in the day, I had already told him our evening would end early, and thankfully, I could fall back on it because I think he would have gladly come up to my apartment if I had suggested it.

I don't understand why he doesn't remember or realise that dating again is completely out of the question!! When I asked him how much $$$ he wanted for the dinner, he said, "just give me a blowjob in the car." I think he was only half-joking. I told him I'd rather give him money. When he told me I was looking good, I wanted to tell him his boobs were looking smaller. I don't think he would have appreciated that because he was a little self-conscious about them before. He's been working on losing weight, and he's slowly getting there.

He's another one of the guys I've dated with big egos -- fragile but still big. I seem to date guys with big egos. Are there just a lot of them, or are those the only ones who aren't intimidated by me?!  

And this other ex...I saw him a while back, and emailed me yesterday, so I emailed him back. Then he replies suggesting he take me out for lunch. I said no before. I blocked him on MSN. I don't talk to him. Man, he loves a challenge. He cheated on me, and dated someone who is now a good friend. He denies he ever cheated, but he never contacts her...so what is the deal with that?

Anyway, I will write back to him say "no, thanks." I started typing out a reply to tell him to never contact me again. I am really tempted to give him a bigger piece of my mind. It would make me feel a lot better, but ultimately there is no point to that right?? I was even tempted to CC people in his company since he emailed me from his work email address. I don't think I can be that ruthless. But he was just an asshole to me! Mind you, he apologised the last time we had contact, but I don't think he was sincere about it. 

He always knew the right things to say to charm people, and I am *not* falling for that *again*. 

I tried some Crytal Lite strawberry-kiwi stuff this morning. I should have known better just from knowing that the stuff as aspartame. I'll just take my water plain, thanks.

PATOOEY! 

I've been avoiding the milk in my fridge in case I run out and can't make my protein shakes, but I finally bought some milk today.

It was a busy weekend. I'm glad I had some time to relax. I completely avoided seeing The Eater, but I didn't have much time for him, and I didn't make any. I was freaking out a little because it seemed like he was calling every day to see if I could get together. I always feel bad when I say I am busy because it sounds like an excuse, but it was the truth. I did, however, see Cute Butt Boy.

Ugh. I hate myself for seeing him. I really like being around him, but our relationship will never be deep. And it's not possible for me to be just friends with him. It was a lot easier with the Tall J Man, so I don't know why I can't do that with this one. Maybe I just need to have some concrete proof that he is not into me. He needs to piss me off in a really major way!!

Lately, it's come up in conversation that I can be intimidating. I don't want to be intimidating. I want to be approachable! But people think I can be intimidating because I come across as a strong and confident person. I can't help that :-/ CBB said I am very straightforward, and that I can get my point across without raising my voice. 

Ugh, and I have a tonne of email to get back to. I love reading email that people send me, but it's a pain in the butt to write back because it's so time-consuming!! However, I will do it. Now.   

My relatives and I went out for dim sum today and ran into a family friend, and the grandma was there. I thought I'd be polite and go say hello to the grandma. All I got were beats! She has never forgotten that I slapped her precious grandson in the face...25 years ago. She gave me a few swats on my arm. *eyes roll*

And one thing that has always bothered me is that my mom treats me like crap when there is anyone else around! She throws fits at me or embarrasses me. I don't get it. Should I just get over it? I can't wait to say something about it to her. And I know I am going to say it in a way that will get her very defensive.

I finally got the sleep I needed, but now I feel so tired! Maybe I can have another early night. There is a spider on my wall. I never thought I'd see any bugs in my place. How do they get up here??! I was looking forward to having to deal with bugs for a looong time.

I have so many things going on before my trip. I don't think I will get a manicure or a pedicure before I go. BOooo. Next week is three going away lunches at work. I'm also seeing Big C Tuesday night. I hope he doesn't try anything. We already talked before and agreed that we couldn't date again. But the other day, he was a little flirty, and I was feeling a little flirty.

The Eater is still annoying me, and since he is not calling me or texting me like he was, that is a good thing. Cute Butt Boy has been talking more to me lately. I don't know why I am still hopeful about him. I still feel disappointed when he doesn't ask me to get together. I'd rather be going to the movies right now.

I bought a red dress for like $30. I like it, but I think I'd better buy some breast petals for it. Or maybe I will return it. I can't tell if it's flattering on me or not. I showed one guy friend, and he seemed to like it. Maybe I will ask Big C for his opinion. It's not like a dress for women anyway. 

Still, the trend continues where "rosietulips" is the most popular of my search terms.

That reminds me, there used to be someone from Ottawa reading my blog regularly, but I've not seen the reader lately. I only hoped that it was not my ex' friends. Man, was that a messy situation. Speaking of that ex, a friend pointed out to me that he was emo. That is so true, but I thought emo was more popular among the high school crowd. But whatever!

Let's see  what people have been searching for -- allowing them to find my blog!

buckley's mixture
It's the best cough syrup out there. I highly recommend it!

girlfriend waist length hair cut upset
Don't be upset. Waist length hair gets a little annoying anyway.

peeing with your boy friend blog
Why are you peeing with my boy friends????

muscle cramp too much chocolate -menstrual -pms
Wow, anything can cause muscle cramps!!

nude nerd blog
Nude nerds would be blinding.

janelle nose
It's a little big for her face?

hardon photo
No, thanks. I've seen enough of those.

car stuck on * ice
Wait for * it to melt.

30 and still at home
Being 30 and at home is okay provided you're not being waited on hand and foot by your mommy.

when your stomach rumbles
It's either time to eat or go to the bathroom.

he got me off kiss
Wow, must have been some kiss!

chick with dick
That's not a chick.

why does someone breakup and not talk to you anymore
Because that's what a breakup is. You're not together anymore!!

dad's fat cock fell out of his shorts
Maybe it's time dad wore something to hold it all in.

Me?? Weird??? ;-) FitGirl tagged me!!

5 Weird things/ Habits about myself.

1. When I talk on the phone, I have to hold it up to my left ear.
2. I hate having wet hair.
3. When I look at people's license plates (the ones that aren't personalised, anyway), I try to form words out of the letters.
4. My memory is horrible when it comes to movie plots and things that happen.
5. My goal is to be on time because I hate being early, but then I end up being late.

Now I must tag 5 people: themarina, scubadiva, apyjo, finalyfree, and kayoko.

YEEEAH! 

What a great show! The sets were amazing! The costumes were very nice! The guy who played the Phantom was the best. It was really nice of The Eater to invite me.

As for The Eater...he is a really sweet guy and is very thoughtful...but I don't know if I want to date him again. I'm not even comfortable being in super close proximity to him. I drove him to his parking lot, and when I dropped him off, he just sat there looking at me as if he was expecting something. I gave him a hug.

We talked about his cockiness. He said he's just joking around, but he does it often enough that it doesn't seem like a joke. Anyway, now he wants examples so that he can stop it...if it bothers me.

However, I'm sure I will see him again. I think I want the experience of dating a Chinese guy. If something actually developed, my mom would be thrilled. And it's actually really nice to date someone who understands my culture. 

He says he's never dumped a girl, and always waits to be dumped. Time will tell if he's waiting for me to do it!

And I just wish his English was better. He was born here, after all! When he lost of me in the crowd, he called me evasive. When he pokes fun of me for seeming to have expensive tastes, he calls me materialistic. *eyes roll* 

Why am I still with a company that gives me so little? What is it going to take for me to get off my ass to update my freakin' resume?

My boss gave his notice today. Even though I've been with the company for 6 years now, I'll be getting my 5th manager in two weeks. My manager has shifted 5 times in a year and a half.

They got rid of everyone more senior than I back in Spring 2005. Well, they just about did. The Docs architect quit right away. Then I had ol' "I don't know anything about Documentation" guy as my manager for 9 months. I had no support then and a manager who didn't care about my career. Then finally, I got a guy who would have cared but he got pulled away to do project management, so the role I was supposed to transition to has fallen flat. And now I am getting another manager who would be fine if I was still doing product documentation. But I'm not.

I'm frustrated and not liking these changes. 

With the Eater, there are some things that are already bugging me. This is not a good sign! BWAHAHAHA

1. "I'm so shy, so..." He is not shy. And being shy is not an excuse for anything. He constantly repeats that he is shy.

2. Keeping up with him. He seems to have soooo much going on, and he wants somone who can keep up with him. And then he asks me if I can keep up with him!! Yes, Jackass...do you know what my life is like?? Okay, it wasn't necessary to call him a jackass. I would never do that to his face. But he is not that unique in the sense that he has a lot going on.

3. Image. He's so concerned about what a date should be. "I should ____, right? Since this is a date." It's sweet that he is putting in so much effort, but relax already! And he wants [couples] to be dressed appropriately, i.e., matched, in terms of levels of dressiness/casualness.

Point 3 was part of the reason why I guessed correctly that he is in sales.

Speaking of "ness," You, Me and Dupress used my idea!! Adding "ness" to someone's name is something I've done for a looong time. I add "ness" or "licious". So there you have it. 

1. Disc 1 of the Carmen Electra Aerobic Striptease workout was lame. Was the DVD made for men or women? She's describing how to do something, but the camera is on her friggin' face! Mind you, she is gorgeous, but that's not why I bought her DVDs. Disc 1 was definitely not much of a workout.

2. My co-worker needs to give me some space. At least she is not dropping by every day to chat for like half an hour. But every time, she's talking about "our" Vegas trip. I didn't really want to commit to it since I have better ways to spend my money right now, but I hate being a flake. And she also badmouths flakes! And when she comes to my cube, she is always looking at what I'm doing. If there is an MSN conversation open, she reads it! Hello??

And when she was talking about what she's like about making new friends, I was appalled because it's completely opposite of me. She described herself as ADD. She enjoys getting to know people, but when she feels she knows them, she tosses them aside! Friends aren't supposed to do that! 

She is also very ... pushy about her opinions. First, she tells me I'm too picky about guys I date. And then I tell her about The Eater. First she says, "sounds like things are going really well!" (Nice and supportive, yes! Thank you!) Then I tell her more about him, and she's like "he's not the guy for you. Keep dating him and meet someone else." *eyes roll*

I think she should be a swinger. It's obvious she loves her husband, but she is always jokingly complaining about being married. She likes the stability and having someone to go home to, but she misses meeting new people. And she is constantly talking about her next marriage how she will marry for money. 

3. My relatives are arriving from Hong Kong on Friday. I am excited! It's going to be another eating frenzy. I'm not excited about the numbers on the scale that will inevitabley change!

4. My dad has disappeared again. You know, I don't even care if he doesn't want to put forth the effort to have a relationship with me, but at least tell someone if you're going out of town. It just makes people's lives easier. One of my aunts has been trying to get a hold of him for months now, and she asked me if I was allowed to give her my dad's landline number. He's done his best to alienate himself from everyone in his family. That's fine. I am tired of dealing with the aftermath. So are his sisters.  What I am not willing to accept is all the loose ends I will have to tie when something happens to him.

I hate to sound so cold, but I really never bonded with my father even as a child. His mental imbalance has made things pretty much impossible now. He's either alienating himself or telling everyone how they've wronged him. And he is constantly focussed on his own death.

Right now, I'd like to know if he is out of town or dead so I can deal with whatever I need to.

5. My right shoulder is peeling like crazy. Gross. At least my tan is fading. I just don't want the lines.   

I told Poola I'm going to see Phantom of the Opera tomorrow night, and when she asked me with whom, I couldn't lie, so I told her! I just didn't want to tell her I was still doing the Internet dating thing. My dear friends think I am putting myself through unnecessary torture because I've had such bad experiences. BWAHAHAHA

I am looking forward to seeing Phantom though! I saw it  like 12 years ago when it was here last. What am I going to wear?? The Eater seems a little image-conscious. He is on the metrosexual side. I think he probably uses more creams on his face than I do.