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Here's my top 7 songs to listen to these days...

1. My Love - Justin Timberlake
2. Summer Love - JT
3. Hate Me - Blue October
4. Ridin' - Chamillionaire
5. Miss Murder - AFI
6. Lips of an Angel - Hinder
7. Call me When You're Sober - Evananescence

If you listen to music, gimme your list!! 

Where has the week gone??

Tomorrow I'm only working half the day (and even half of that is all meetings). I'm going shopping!!! And I think there will be some steak in the near future too!

Work has just keep me busy...busy from blog updates *L*

And outside of work, it's been workouts and TV and Mr. Nick.

He is coming between my TV time, which is okay. TV is the last thing I am worried about even though I have lots of TV to catch up on. But this morning, I was baking at 6 am. It was either when I woke up or after work. After work is not enough time!

I still get a little scared.

Last night I was all hyper and laughing like a hyena. I couldn't stop. Mr. Nick made a comment about it, and I asked him if it scared him. I thought back to the J Man...who really should now be renamed to The Woman. She, I mean he freaked out for some reason when I was hyper and bouncy. He said he didn't know what he was supposed to do. I had told him to wait for it to pass.

I know Mr. Nick is nothing like The Woman, but I don't ever want a repeat of The Woman. When I dated The Woman, his friends read my blog, and they would dissect me and cut me down. However, they'd never talk to me or communicate. It didn't matter that they lived across the country because he was very close with them. There was no loyalty to me or support at all. 

I can't say that I don't raise little red flags when I see (new) locals searching for and reading my blog. But I can say Mr. Nick has been nothing but open and honest.
 

*swoon* 

I just ate two Krispy Kreme doughnuts. I can feel the sugar coursing through my veins. I don't like it!

I am still in need of more sleep :-) But I am slowly catching up. I think a couple more nights alone will do it. 

It's been difficult on my body getting back into my workouts. I hate it!! I hate taking a long break. My ass so so sore. And with this kickstart, my body is getting too efficient, sweatwise. It's another reason why I hate having wet hair. It seems to warm me up.

This morning, sweat was just streaming down my face -- making it *extremely* difficult to apply makeup. And there is nothing out there to efficiently absorb sweat!!! Maybe I should start wearing sweatbands. All I did was shower and eat breakfast. Those activities are not sweaty worthy, I tell you.

I have another local reader, but I don't know you are. Would you like to introduce yourself? 

I checked out the Bodyworlds 3 exhibit at my local Science World on the weekend. Unfortunately, photography was not allowed! The exhibit was really neat. Those dead bodies looked fake!!! I wanted to touch them, but I am sure touching was not allowed. It was really neat to see muscles and organs. It really brought back memories of biology.

The eyes were unreal. They stuck on boobs and nipples for the women, I am sure. But a lot of the specimens were male. So many sackless men with separated testes. The cross sections were really neat. I enjoyed looking at the blood vessels and the guy holding up his skin best.

It took an hour to go through the whole exhibit. I wish I had bought the audio package too. The price was okay -- there aren't that many opportunities to see plastinated bodies!  I think I would see this exhibit again but it wouldn't be as exciting as the first time. After all, the bodies looked kind of the same; it's just that they were in different poses.

The astrologist I saw last year said I would have a greater chance at meeting men if I went to humanitarian or political events or joined such groups. On Friday I volunteered with the United Way's Day of Caring. We built a short retaining wall for a group home and did some yard work. I guess one of the guys living there took a liking to me. I was a little creeped out because he just kept staring at me and kept giving me the eyebrow wiggle. I was flattered anyway. It was a little embarrassing that my coworkers noticed this young man.

Again, I did not get enough sleep this weekend. I am still on a deficit. I have a feeling tonight there will not be any late night phone calls or sleepovers. BWAHAHA Mr. Nick and I have seen each other every day since last Monday.

I am really surprised at myself about this. I hope I am not overdoing this time together thing. I like being around him, but we're still getting to know each other. I met some of his friends on the weekend. Once again, I hope I didn't seem like a snob. But we were at a hockey game, and making conversation was just not that easy.

It's been a busy time!

Tomorrow I'm participating in the United Way's Day of Caring. Hurrah for yard work. Let's hope the weather is nice. Anyway, by participating, it means there is no time to blog!

So what have been people been searching for on the Internet (besides me...) so they stumble across my blog?? Let's see...

sweaty boobs
Keep a towel handy.

driving in * heels
The skinnier the heel, the harder it is to * drive.

don't call him back dating
I don't know if I like that kind of dating.
   
express lanesgroceryshoppingrules etiquette
Simple. Usetheexpresslaneifyouhav efewerthan12items.

favourite astrology site
www.astralreflections.com

how freaky are capricorns
I don't know. We can be a stubborn bunch. But we're also smart!!

how to have hips
Butt cheek implants.

dad is creepy
Hey, I bet you don't even know my dad!

flaccid men
Those are no fun.

clitoris vaccuuming
Ouch!

can't process alcohol
How Asian!

he didn't reply to email email again
Maybe he needs some space space.

nose hair, clip, how to tell him
Wait until Christmas and give him a nose hair trimmer.

is he interested coworker
If you are wondering, the answer is yes.

he was vegetarian in love with me
It was never meant to be, you carnivore.

love his size penis
Praise it! YEEAH!

make my boyfriend ejaculate
Who do you think I am? I don't even know your boyfriend!

Nicknameless brought me a bouquet of flowers yesterday. *melts* That was so sweet of him *sniff*

I can't remember the last time I got flowers. Actually, I do remember. They were from Poola when I moved into my place. *L*

He is definitely a gem of a guy.

Yesterday, a couple of credit cards got declined. Ugh!

I'd been spending small amounts of money at gas stations because I didn't want to get too much gas. I am one of those loyal customers. If I can't get gas from my usual gas station, I get enough gas elsewhere to tide me over.

So I guess my CC company was a little suspicious of this activity and suspended my card! I guess I am glad for that little inconvenience. At least I had cash on me.

And then my other credit card had expired, and I didn't realise it. I should really cancel it, but it's a backup card.   

On the news yesterday, I saw a clip of TMX Elmo. OMG, he is the cutest thing ever.

TMX Elmo is Tickle Me Extreme Elmo. When he laughs, he doubles over, rolls over, kicks his legs in the air. All while laughing hysterically!! He's hilarious! He kind of reminds me of me when I find something really funny. BWAHAHAA

Not sure when he's going to be available for public consumption, but he may be a big hit for Christmas!

I am still exhausted. Technically, Nicknameless and I had two dates yesterday *L* We met up for lunch and then later on the evening. During lunch, he ran into one of his friends. I got to meet her; I was feeling kind of shy, so I hope I didn't come across like a big snob :-/ She was in a hurry, so I didn't want to make too much conversation.

*brap*

So what is a girl supposed to do when a guy farts in her presence during a private moment? I wanted to laugh my ass off, but I tried to keep it in and act like it was no big deal. Well, it wasn't a big deal. Farts don't gross me out, but they make me laugh. I just didn't want him to feel any more embarrassed than he might be.

Except for Nicknameless. We have been spending more time together. We had our second date last night :)

It was fun.

My cousin is worried things are going too quickly for me. I am a little surprised, but I feel okay for the most part. I know all this time together will not be sustainable and eventually I will need to have some  order to my life again :) I am just going with the flow for now.

Oh, and the new guy at work...he's lucky he has a lot of knowledge about the things he's writing about because in all other aspects, he is sucking. He's not grasping the technical part as quickly as he should. And then yesterday was a deadline. Instead of riding it out until the end of the day, he got someone else to do the final compile (which in itself would be okay, but he is still not up to snuff on doing it).

He said he was getting cranky because he'd come into work every day since Labour Day.

I guess he has not worked for a software development company before. 

I guess technically speaking, nobody is obligated to do put in overtime. But ugh.  

Or not?

I told myself I'd be back to getting an adequate amount of sleep starting this week. I got 4 hours last night.  I think I need to get my appetite back in order. I am too hungry to eat, but I am constantly hungry! Ugh.

The weekend was good. I did get an opportunity to catch up on sleep. The drive there could have been better. I was way too tired! It was about a 4 hour drive. And I even ate some Wendy's and drank diet Coke. When I go to visit my best friend, I like to eat something really greasy to start my journey so I don't feel hungry mid-trip. I don't go pee either. I just don't want to stop! The Coke was necessary to perk me up.

We didn't do much while I was there. She is looking mighty pregnant! She's one of those who's not looking pregnant from behind. Four more weeks to go. What an exciting time. We saw The Black Dahlia, and that was not a very good movie, despite the lovely cast. I even dozed off. She didn't wake me up because she figured I wasn't missing much. D'oh.

Instead of buying groceries when I got home (I was too hungry, and there was nothing to eat at home), I ended up calling Nicknameless. I am going to see him tonight! I declined seeing him last night. With all this talking we do on the phone and online, we might as well be seeing each other. But it's usually late. I don't see us sustaining 3-4 hour long conversations forever though. BWAHAHA

I really dig him.  Right now, other guys are just not on my radar.

What I fear most is finding out I'm being played. I've had such horrible man-luck the last couple of years.

There have been some locals reading my blog. I hope they're not people I need to worry about. 

And I'd like to know why The Eater is still paying attention to me. He invited me to one of his friend's birthday things to which I did not reply to. And then the day after, he text messaged to tell me about it. I wish I cared, but I don't.

The guy I went out with a couple of weekends ago -- he didn't have a nickname, but I'll just call him The Forum Guy. He wants to get together again, but right now, I just want to focus on Nicknameless. I don't think it will be very difficult saying no. He's a cool guy, it won't be such a big deal to him since it's not like he's crazy about me *L*

I saw a tarot card reader before I left for the weekend, and now I wish I hadn't. She was bang on about my work stuff, which she usually hasn't been. I've been going to this woman for about 7 years. She said some things about my love life which I am not sure I was ready to hear. Even though I take a lot of the things she says with a grain of salt, the things she says stays in the back of my head.

Sorry, no Friday Find-me today!

It's just about midnight and I am leaving the office, and I'm heading off for a weekend of relaxation! 

I'm so glad my boss saw me in the office tonight.

Have a good weekend! 

I'm going on a short road trip tomorrow. I should be alert for that...

I got almost 5 hours of sleep last night!! That's a almost as much sleep as I've got in the previous 2 nights combined. I woke up around 5:30 having to pee really badly. I wish I could have slept through it, but I rushed so I could maximise my sleep.

I hate waking up in the morning knowing that my alarm clock will be going off really soon.

So last night...Nicknameless and I met up for dinner. I had a really good time! Our conversation just flowed. We were at the restaurant for almost 3 hours, and then we left to go to a coffee shop for a few more hours. I can't wait to see him again!

I had another 3.5 hour long phone conversation last night! Too bad it started around midnight!!

We're meeting up for dinner tonight. Neither of us usually do dinners for first dates, but we've been talking so much already that we can bypass coffee.

I am excited and a little nervous! 

The VCR I've been using is on its last legs. It eats tapes and now the flappy flap thing flaps. It's freaky. The VCR turns on and turns off.

So, I must replace it. Should I:

1. Get a new VCR since it'll be cheap?

OR

2. Get a DVD recorder?

A PVR is out of my budget right now, so the above two are my only choices. 

So I've only had four hours of sleep. I've been so hungry which has cut into the comforts of sleeping.

However, I was on the phone until 3:15 in the morning. We started off on MSN, and that was like a 3 hour-ish convo. And then on the phone for 2 and half more!

Oh, and I had to go to THREE video stores to find Disc 5 of Nip/Tuck Season 3. How desperate was I?? Very!! I even rented the last disc so I wouldn't have to hunt for it when the time came. I just hope I return all the DVDs to the right stores.

And today, both Season 2 of Grey's Anatomy and The Office (American version) are out. I *must* get them! MUUUUST!

1. Do you have a college degree?
No, not a college one. Universities and colleges differ from one another here. I have a Bachelor of Arts in Sociology, and a diploma in Computer Systems Technology.

2. What was the amount of your last electric bill?
I think it was about $45 for two months.

3. Do you have term life insurance?
No.

4. How many hours per week do you have to work?
I'm supposed to put in 37.5. I'm not sure I put in that many hours of work. Often I stay late out of guilt for not having done any work!

5. Have you ever attended a Toastmasters event?
No.

6. Favorite place to attend Happy Hour?
I don't attend Happy Hour.

7. How many miles is your commute to work each day round trip?
I think it's 16 km.

8. What time do you get up every morning?
Anywhere from 6:30 to 9. I would rather not sleep in!

9. What is your definition of sleeping in late?
Past 10.

10. Have you found any gray hairs?
Yes. I have found 2. One of them was discovered on my 27th birthday. What a good present! Hopefully, I got my mom's hair genes. She didn't start going grey 'til she was around 50!

11. Do you check your cholesterol on a yearly basis?
Yes.

12. How large was your first cellular phone?
I got to use a brick phone! It was a Motorola. I love Motorola phones, but I haven't had one since the flip.

13. Does your employer provide good health insurance?
Yes although I wish we got more for Vision Care expenses.

14. Did you use the internet to write a research paper back in high school.
BWAHAHA No. I didn't get on the Internet until I got into university. And Yahoo was just getting popular. I had to rely on library books and microfilm/fiche!!

15. Why is there no question fifteen?
There is no spoon?

16. Have you attended a high school reunion?
Yes, my 10 year. It's nice to know that the popular people hadn't quite grown up yet. Ten years wasn't long enough.

17. How many jobs have you held in your professional career?
One.

18. Have you ever been fired or laid off from a job?
Yes. I was fired after a month at a movie theatre. I wish that manager had fired me for no reason instead of giving me a bs "you're not ambitious enough." I'm not sure he even knew my name before he fired me, but my dislike for him was very apparent. He was this greasy guy hitting on the high school girls. Charming. And speaking of ambition, he is still working there after 10 years.

On the other hand, I've survived 5 rounds of layoffs at my current company.

19. What is your favorite alcoholic drink?
I don't drink alcohol anymore. I used to like tequila a lot.

20. What is the most expensive bottle of wine that you have in your residence?
I don't have any wine in my residence. I think the last bottle I had was just under $20. It was red and French, and I used it in cooking.

21. Have you been divorced?
Nope. Never been married or engaged either.

22. How old were you when you stopped getting IDed for alcohol/tobacco etc.?
I'm not sure I've ever been IDed!

23. Favorite casino?
I don't have one. There are some nice ones in Vegas that I don't mind dropping by! But I don't go there to gamble. It seems kind of boring.

24. Are you happier now than you were in high school?
I guess so. High school wasn't the best time of my life (and people who think high school were their golden years tend to disappoint me). High school wasn't traumatising either.

25. Did you ever have Hypercolor shirts?
No. I didn't want one either. They would have made horrible PE strip. The armpits would always be a different colour, I bet!

26. Do you remember when Michael Jackson was black and attracted to older people?
When was this? ;-)

27. What music was in your cd / casette player when you were 16?
1992...I was into top 40 and getting into more rock. I had some Boyz II Men. I even won tickets to their concert. Man, was my best friend pissed off that I took my cousin instead of her.

28. Favorite fancy/upscale restaurant?
I don't have one! I like them all! Not that I've been to that many.

29. How long has it been since you attended a kegger?
I've never.

30. How many major wars have you lived through?
None, I've never lived in a war torn country.

31. Where were you when you found out about 9-11?
I was in bed.

32. When’s the last time you were at a 7-11 and bought something?
Sometime this past summer. Sometimes I just want some of those Fuzzy Peach slices!

The Nip/Tuck fast tracking is back on! The guy at the video gave me a free rental for no reason! How sweet was that?? I was obviously confused, and I wish I knew what I did to gain the good fortune!

Okay, the person who found my blog came clean, and I was extremely appreciative. I was hoping it wasn't him because I've been interested in him. I don't know if he will drop by the blog again. 

I also blog here knowing how easy it is to find me. I am aware of the consequences.

Someone spent 4 and a half hours at my blog. Maybe there was a dinner break in there. I hope the entity was a spider, but I am thinking it wasn't, based on the IP and that someone searched for me at MySpace (ew MySpace).

I hope it wasn't someone whose opinion I care about! I don't remember what I've been writing about.

I had my lunch date today. He's a fun guy, but I've never felt any attraction towards him, and I don't think I ever will. And he's going to be out of town this week, which means I will be able to get some work done.

I went into work today, and I was so surprised to see my coworker there. I got a bit done, but it cut into my Nip/Tuck time.

This is the most boring blog entry of the weekend, so I'm going to stop. Oh!

I wore those stick on breast petals again tonight, but I removed them shortly after. I was trying to figure out the best state your nipples should be in before applying those breast petals. I think I have figured it out, but when you wear clingy clothes, everything shows -- especially wrinkley breast petals. I ended up going without. 

I have been on the hunt for the perfect mascara for me for the last while. I have typical Asian poker straight eyelashes, but mine are fairly long. I look for mascaras that make my lashes look thicker. I don't need more length, especially when I feel my lashes scrape against my glasses or sunglasses.

I recently tried L'Oreal's Volume Shocking mascara. On one side, you get the mascara base, and the other side, you get the mascara. I thought this one might be good because I like Lancome's stuff, and I thought the lash base would have been like Lancome's. Maybe it is, I don't know. But the mascara wand is a comb.

This mascara has provided me with very little volume. I look like I have 15 individual thick lashes. I don't think I will be buying this one again. And no more comb wands!

I used Lancome's Hypnose with the Volume Shocking base, and it was better. I love that mascara but it's rather pricey. Right now you can get the mascara and a separate base for $32, and if you spend $33 at Lancome, you get a gift. Hopefully, there will be something decent like that around Christmastime. I don't need more mascara right now!

My cousin highly recommended Shu Uemura's mascara, but I am not sure I can buy that stuff in a store here. I guess there is always Sephora.com. Or not. That item is Canada restricted. Fabulous.

I also liked Rimmel's Volume Flash mascara for something inexpensive.

The pole dancing has been going well! For some reason, I am now at least able to attempt spins on my opposite arm. I don't look very graceful, but I can make the attempts now!

And a couple of rants:

1. The Eater. First off, I told him I didn't see us being more than friends. I guess it was my fault for not saying, "I don't ever want to see you again. You gross me out, so get out of my life!" I wish he had gotten the picture and just disappeared. But he asked me out for this week to which I declined.Today I got a mass email for some birthday event he's putting together.

A. I *hate* having my email address visible on mailing lists.
B. I have no interest in hanging out with him or his friends.

2. Justice Man. This guy on some dating site has been messaging me. The more we messaged, the less he interested me. The guy didn't know how to have an e-conversation through messaging.  Some people just don't have that skill, but I think if you have enough in common with someone, content-rich messages should be easy and come naturally. He asked about taking things to the phone.  Here is sort of a run down on how it's gone. Each line is a message, and it's not an IM conversation.

Me: I don't even know your name
Him: It's Justice Man
Me: We hardly have anything to say here; I don't see what we'd have to talk about on the phone.
Him: My friends would be surprised to hear that. I talk a lot.
Him: Let's choose 3 things to talk about.
Him: Are you done with me already?

Now he's just gotten pushy (and looking desperate) which has turned me off even more! I wrote back asking him if he had any patience, and he replied. I haven't read it yet because I am bored of him. He does not interest me, and he's also too old (38). Guys who message me and leave it up to me to keep the conversation with no help are a turn off.

Hello, who's in Germany?

Anyway, I have had the worst luck with watching the So You Think You Can Dance finale. I know; the show ended WEEKS ago. In fact, I think they final 10 are going to be in Seattle next week. I just watched most of the finale tonight. It's just not the same when you've not watched any of it in weeks.

But first, I found out accidentally who won when I was surfing some fitness forums. Then my cousin told me. Then when I came home, I broke the tape. The tape got stuck in the VCR, and when I yanked out the tape, it broke! I tried to "fix" the tape by cutting the ripped up parts and taping it back up. It rewound fine! However, I watched just about all of it, and I knew I was getting to the ruined part of the tape.

As soon as the announcer said (who by the way finally grew on me by the end of the show), "and the winner of So You Think You Can Dance is", that was the end of my tape.

*sigh* So what was Benji's reaction? I bet he cried!

I also found out who made it to the final 2 of Big Brother before watching the episode! It's too dangerous to surf anywhere at such crucial times! 

Once upon a time, a girl asked a guy,

"Will you marry me?"

The guy said,  "No"; and the girl lived happily ever after and went 
Shopping, dancing, drank lemon drop martinis, always had a clean house, never
had to cook, stayed skinny and farted whenever she wanted.

The End

This morning I was listening to the radio and mothers were calling in to complain that their elementary and high school children were getting too much homework. More than one hour of homework a day was too much!

Whiners!

Has the amount of homework really increased that much in the last 15 - 20 years? I don't remember having that much to do. I probably did spend about an hour or two a day, but I always did my homework right after school. And I'd do it while watching TV. I'd be usually done by dinner, and then I'd watch more TV after dinner. I think back in those days, I was watching maybe 7 hours of  TV a day??

I had *much* more homework during my post-secondary years. I am thinking the kids are being coddled or are not experiencing a good learning style.

The mothers' beefs were that kids' creativity were being stifled and all the homework they were going to have to do caused them to be less motivated to do anything else. I think families can't depend on the education to teach their kids everything. I'm not sure North American school systems allow kids to live up to their full potential.

I guess it depends whether we value creativity and free thinking or a more intellectual brain.

The kids in Asia are pushed a lot harder. They have a lot more book smarts, and they end up having to grow and mature much faster.

One of my cousins is 10 and lives in Hong Kong. She has pretty much 6 am - 11 pm days. She has school early in the morning which ends in the afternoon. Then she has extracurricular activities, and then homework. She hardly watches any TV during the school year, but she has the occasional playtime and she is a voracious reader. My aunt says it's tough to get her to do homework sometimes.

She has a heavy school schedule, but my aunt puts her activities outside of school like music and dance lessons. One thing about Asian schools is that there is not much emphasis on physical education. Popular Chinese sports seem to be ping pong and badminton?? (How do you build big, bulging muscles playing those sports??) But the rich people golf, too.

I think celebrity gossip is entertaining, but it's not a big part of my life.

But when I see those pictures of Suri Cruise, I have two thoughts:

1. She really looks like her mom.

2. She also looks like the kid from The Grudge. It's those dark eyes! 

1. The P Man

He wanted to know why I blocked him from my MSN, so I told him:

Because P Man...I have nothing to say to you.
We dated. You were a liar, a cheater, and a big jerk.
I don't want anything to do with you again.
Even though you say you've changed, I know that's a crock of shit, too.
You'll say anything to charm someone. Unfortunately, I believed you!

So take care and good bye!

He replied saying he thought I could forgive him. I guess I hadn't, but I don't understand why he couldn't move on. But it sounds like he will leave me alone for good now.

2. Cute Butt Boy

We had a conversation that has provided me with closure. I am really thankful for that. We were both on the same page. We were both attached, and we both knew that he wouldn't be able to provide the kind of commitment I want right now. So...moving right along...

3. IKEA guy

I think he is getting a little frustrated that we haven't met. But I am not into him enough to make the time for him. I also found out that not only does he have no phone or car, but he also doesn't have Internet access at home! 

4. Date on Saturday

He has no nickname yet. This will be a new experience. He's someone I don't know well at all, yet I've known of him for many years. I already think I am not going to find him physically attractive. I also know he doesn't want a long-term relationship right now. He was also never on my radar.

I guess that is about it. I talked on the phone with this one guy on the weekend who said he'd call me again to make a date. Bzzzt. Wrong move. I will take it as disinterest since he didn't make the date when he had the chance.

I'm a technical writer. I used to write product documentation (online help, more specifically) for two our of products. Then we hired two new writers to take over. I was doing that on my own for the longest time. I was really thankful and relieved that I could move away from doing that stuff. (It was repetitive and I wasn't learning much more after the second year.)

Not too long ago, I had my computer rebuilt, and did not install most of the tools that I used to use. I was loving a fresh, new start.

So now...we have this new writer. He is falling behind and he needs help. The other writer has her own work to do on top of this stuff. So they are asking me to help out.

I used to put in so much overtime prior to a release to get all my work done. These people are not willing to put in as many hours. That's fine because they're not obligated to. However, these two people replaced *me*. If I could do it all before, why can't the two of them tackle this? The work is even less! I had nobody to help me. 

Just because I have the knowledge and ability to help them, I really don't want extra work that cuts into my own deliverables. I'll gladly put in overtime for my deliverables because they're my responsibility, but to put in extra hours because other people don't want to? I don't know.

There is no incentive for me to do work that I used to do and where there are more resources now. If I help them once, I don't want them thinking they can draw on me for future releases. (I'll have forgotten a lot by then! I tend to forget things I don't feel I need to know.)

How do I decline this work when I said I would help? Should I say something to my manager? He's all about open communication, but it'd only be fair for me to say something to the other two writers first. I'm not tattling on them; I just want some ideas for the best use of the time that we do have.
 

This guy I dated, the P Man...he needs to forget me. BWAHAHAA

It was pointed out to me that I dated him *two* years ago. He was a player (I can't help liking charmers, I guess), and he pissed me off enough that I just got rid of him for good. However, every so often, he'd rear his pretty little head and start trying to talk to me again.

His charming ways worked on me one more time, and I realised he hadn't changed. So I every time he asked me out (again), I declined.

A few months ago, he saw me driving and he emailed me. He asked me out, and I said, "no, thanks."

Then today,  I get this email from him asking me if I blocked him off MSN. I told him yes.

Probably the best thing for me to do if I don't want someone contacting me again is to just ignore them, but I hate leaving people hanging. At least he should know that I want nothing to do with him.

Several years back, I was very involved with a couple of techie Web sites. They do reviews on techie toys. I used to edit their articles, post news, and be active in their discussion forums. There is a forum member that I apparently met once at a party, but we'd always joke around online. He recently asked me out for coffee. I said yes with the expectation it won't be more than that.

I say yes to dates with guys that really don't it for me because I think it would be good to meet people in general.

I finally got around to uploading some photos from my trip to my Photobucket account. I took almost 600 photos, but uploaded 15. They're just mostly scenery photos. But everything looked so much better in person!

Did I mention I got sick on my trip?? I couldn't taste for a few days, which was disappointing.

So we set sail from Honolulu, Hawaii on August 21, 2006 on NCL's Pride of Hawaii.

We hit 4 ports, and in each one, I did some sort of shore excursion as well as taking some walks near the piers:

1. Hilo - horseback riding. It was my first time horseback riding, and my horse, Thunder was extremely slow. These horses knew the trails so well that I didn't have to do anything. I couldn't hear the guide because my horse was so frickin' slow, and we were so far behind! I wore some new jeans on this ride. I hadn't brought anything suitable! My butt bones were a lot sore after, but I didn't get that bow-legged feeling like I was expecting!

2. Kahului (Maui) - luau. The luau was okay. We saw the usual hula and fire dancers. There was a big buffet, and of course they brought out a roasted pig to show everyone. The setting was beautiful. 

3. Kona - snorkeling at Molokini and Turtle Bay. Here I discovered I didn't like water. I was freaked out going in the deep water. I had a noodle and some floatie thing around my waist at Molokini. I didn't use it at Turtle Bay because I was floating too much. I would have preferred shallow water so I could see more marine life, but it was neat to see fishes and coral. Turtle Bay was cold!!! I also got badly sunburnt because I didn't think I'd need sunscreen. I will use sunscreen next time. The beaches there were beautiful.

4. Nawilili - kayaking. We were supposed to go kayaking and check out some waterfalls, but right before our excursion started, it rained heavily! They said we couldn't go because the mountain would have been slippery to walk on, and being in the water during heavy rain wasn't recommended either. The "shower " lasted about an hour. We also missed out on a helicopter ride, too!

The shopping during the cruise was pretty much nil. It was only touristy souvenirs that you could buy. I came home with some salad tongs and macadamia nuts.

Before the cruise, we spent 3 days in Waikiki. I spent several hours at the Ala Moana Shopping Centre to get in some power shopping. I picked up 2 pairs of jeans, 2 things of perfume/lotion, and lots of Stila makeup. Stila hasn't adjusted their prices here with the exchange rate, and I found that buying the in the States was cheaper. 

After we disembarked the cruise ship, we had one more tour, and we did the Circle tour, and we went all around Honolulu. We stopped at a few pretty spots for taking pictures. I liked going to the Dole Plantation the most but only for the pineapple. I ate so much pineapple on my trip, but I wasn't sick of it by the time I got home. I miss pineapple. 

Actually, I also miss the tropical weather and hanging out with my family! 

Oh, one thing that was nice was that the crew members weren't sleazy! Maybe it's because they were new to the business, but a lot of the crew on international cruise lines are doing their best to get laid. 

We never had anything substantial, but I guess I am hurting because nothing ever panned out.

I had a choice of settling for what we did have, or to cut the strings completely. I chose the latter.

I know time will help; eventually he will be just a memory. But it really sucks in the meantime. I feel like we broke up even though we weren't together. We spent the last 8+ months hanging out and having a good time.

Maybe I'm finally letting myself feel a little. I've always been so afraid to get attached to anyone. I don't know if I really like it, but at least it's real. I don't even think it'd be fair for me to be dating anyone right now. At least I'm not in the mood for it.

Big Legs is single again. Things with his Peruvian princess didn't pan out. He shouldn't have bothered giving me an update. After he gave me the news of being in love, he blocked and deleted me from his MSN.

And I recently found out that Dr. T and "the other woman" no longer speak. I wonder what happened there. I wonder how he is doing and what he is up to. (Actually, what I'd like to know most if he still thinks about me. Asshole ;-).) 

I went for a quick pedicure yesterday and decided to choose a red with a hint of fuschia polish. My goodness are my toes bright. It looks like cheap toe nail polish! It's a little too bright for me, but I guess bright is a me thing.

I wish I was still in Hawaii. It was so relaxing.

Maybe I need to be around people more often right now. I was really sad yesterday because it was my last time seeing Cute Butt Boy. I even cried *embarrassed* I'm not sure he believed me when I said I couldn't see him anymore. But when we parted ways yesterday, he said he'd call me later, and I told him not to.

He said he would leave it up to me to answer or not. So he did call me and text messaged me later, but I didn't respond. *sigh* He's one of the very few guys I've gotten involved with where I had nothing bad to say about his personality. It's too bad that we're in different places in our lives and want different things.

*sigh* 

I was sent another penis photo today, but this guy knew I didn't want to see it. He thought it'd be funny just for my reaction. Ugh.

But anyway, I use Statcounter, and it tells me what keywords people use when they're doing searches. Sometimes they don't pick up all the keywords. Here's a sprinkling of search terms people have used lately causing them to find my blog!

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I guess you don't play the guitar.

How does GasX work?
I don't know. I've never tried it, and I haven't read about it either.

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Stop checking up on him. The best way for him to stop being sad is if you stayed out of his life! Maybe you are the sad one!

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Software doesn't flirt.

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I wish some of my areas were naturally balding.

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Try using a container! Or a bottle!

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Black towels are the worst for that.

a photo of a dick up in a guy's ass
Cheney? I don't need to see that.

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He's not that into you.

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I guess if you look at the flakes, they can pass for pimpley dried up scabs.

I guess I am not the only one who's noticed my boobs' growth. My aunt even asked me about it! She asked me how I did it!! I told her I gained weight. Bodies are interesting. I think I was weighing this much about 6 years ago, but I was a bra size smaller. I think I looked smaller overall.

I emailed this guy across the country about his rates. He does personal training and nutrition stuff. The results of the people on his Web site are amazing! I am thinking about hiring him. He's only $175/month.

I was up until 3 this morning talking to Cute Butt Boy. I know I keep saying this, but I am going to see him for the last time today. As much as I enjoy his company, it's not good for me to keep seeing him!

Hmm. Sharpie markers are not good to smell when you are tired.