My boss told me yesterday that he's been impressed with what he's seen of my work ethic so far, and that he is really glad my colleague referred me. And although he is not guaranteeing anything, he is definitely going to try to keep me on permanently when my contract ends.

That is all great news! But now I trust him less!

I haven't done any work with substantial deliverables. All I've done is go through a document and make a lot of comments. And he is not a tech comm guy either.

We shall see! 

I am not a big fan of the name Wayne, but I love watching Wayne Brady do improv!

I never watched Whose Line is it Anyway, but when they came to town years ago, I went to the show. My ex was a big fan of the show. I had a great time!

Wayne Brady was in town this weekend, so Mr. Nick and I went to see him perform. He is SO talented! What a great show! Mr. Nick didn't thank me for taking him to the show. I was a little bothered by that...and that his thank yous come less often they used to even though I always say thanks if he takes me out somewhere. Is this something worth mentioning to him?

My documents also came back! Next step is to pick them up and get then authenticated at the Chinese embassy. At first my mom said she would help me out, and now she's told me to tell my aunt to do it. I don't know what my mom's issues are, but I really feel like she has been totally unsupportive of me in dealing with my dad's matters. Or maybe she is doing the typical Chinese thing and thinks that lending me money is all she needs to do. My cousin calls it the "cash hug."

I am really craving chocolate today and I forgot to replenish my stash. I might have to bite the bullet and go throw away some money on some cheapo chocolate...or I could take a walk to a chocolate store to pick some up...hmmm...

I'm wearing the most awesome shoes today...all because they match my shirt perfectly. But they are not so awesome when it comes to walking in them.

Edit: The only person who's noticed my shoes matching my shoes so far is the gay guy in the office! SNAP! 

Looking at food and recipe blogs are starting to perk me up a little again. I just haven't felt like doing much more than just getting through day-to-day activities.

Last night, Mr. Nick and I broke up for a few hours. We've both been really stressed out lately, and he did something (which I am sure I will forget one day when I think back to yesterday) that just pissed me off. It was like the straw that broke the camel's back, so I dumped him -- via text messaging. I told him we were done and that I was going to pick up my things last night.

Of course he got mad that I dumped him over text message and it seemed like for no good reason. He told me not to go to his place and that he'd bring my stuff to my mom's work, and I could leave his stuff there. I told him I was going over there, and as if I'd want to get my mom involved!! When I got there, my stuff was all packed and waiting for me.

Then we talked, and we are still together.

I am fairly wrapped up in myself right now, grieving over my father and trying to take care of his estate. There is little support from my family because nobody is around, and I absolutely cannot count on my mother. In fact, she just makes things more difficult for me because she has little support for my decisions. It's hard for me to be motivated sometimes, especially to make effort to be around people. Being around people is probably something good for me right now, but I often just shut everyone out.

Mr. Nick has been great as he can be, but he is going through a tough time, too. His Crohn's has gotten so bad that he is pain all the time. Unfortunately for those who want to be there for him, he's made it difficult. He makes his situation out to be better than it is, like a hundred times over. He finally admitted that he is just barely hanging on. He's on an incredible amount of drugs that don't seem to be effective right now, and his next and only option is surgery. Of course that scares him. The last time he had this surgery, he said it was a really dark time for him, and he nearly died because of it.

So, for him...being a "regular" boyfriend right now is really hard, and I've been treating him as if he was totally fine. I hope I got across to him in our talk that I need him to tell me what he needs from me to support him. I was getting really mad at him for not being active or helping me plan things to do together. I thought he was just being forgetful or didn't want care. In a sense he doesn't care because getting through today is hard enough -- never mind having to think about what social outing we're going to participate in a month or even a week from now.

So I'm not really sure what I'm supposed to do...hang out with him at home (rest is what he really needs...just being at home all the time to not do much), leave him alone, do more things for him (dishes, food shopping...these kind of things just seem so daunting for him), make plans for us, or what? Should I be asking less and just taking charge? I don't want to take over his life. I just want to help. :-/ 

YEAH, BABY!

No boot camp next month! 

I forgot to stretch some body parts after my work out yesterday and I am really stiff today!!

I keep thinking it's Friday, too...just because it's Jeans Day. Every year, for charity, people can pay $5 for a button or $20 for a lapel pin so they can wear jeans at work. The money goes to the BC Children's Hospital.

But at my company, every day could be jeans day! (Not because we're uber generous, but there is no dress code here, and it's more casual on the business-casual side.)

Oh! Another thing I like about working here...it's mostly men which means the women's bathroom is not very busy!!!! I've only gone to the bathroom a few times where there was one other person in there and there are FOUR stalls!! No more peeing alone in the washroom and then having one person come in and use the stall right next to me. (Well, that has happened once. And this woman often exercises in the bathroom. The first time I saw her do it, she was running on the spot. Apparently she also does tai chi in there, too. And no, the bathroom is not that spacious.) 

Most of the people on my team are in Australia, and every week we have a teleconference. It seems like videoconferencing is the new norm now. I have a webcam at home which is where I'd be doing my conferencing if it was late in the day. But today, it was in the office. My office mate and I sat near my PC for the call. She didn't want to go on camera.

It was hard to concentrate since the phone was on another desk. I just kept checking myself out on cam and instead of listening to what my manager was saying, I was just watching all the other people on camera. 

It took a lot for me to resist doing goofy things, too. I've webcammed plenty of times before, but it's always been with boyfriends. I often forget if the camera is rolling. 

Dear flex hours,

I have missed you a lot. Now that you are back in my life, I can have normal workouts in the morning again. My life is not so rushed, and I can get a good seat on the bus in the mornings. It's okay that I end up getting home half an hour later than I used to. 

I only wish I would stop falling asleep on the bus on the way home!

Love you!

RosieTulips
xoxo

(copied from bipolarexpress)

What time is it   
12:58

 
What's your full name   
ACC

What are you most afraid of   
Depression
 
What is the most recent movie that you have seen on bootleg
I've never seen any on bootleg!

 
Place of birth   
Richmond, BC

 
Favorite food   
Don't have one

 
What's your natural hair color   
Black

 
Ever been to Freak Nick   
Probably not. What is it?

 
Ever been skinny dipping   
I don't think so

Love someone so much they made you cry
Yes

Been in a car accident    ;
Several

Croutons or bacon bits   
Both

Favorite day of the week   
Friday or Monday

Favorite restaurant  &nb sp;
None

Favorite Flower   
Dahlias, as of late

Favorite sport to watch   
Weight lifting. I don't watch sports very often.

 
Favorite drink   
Water

 
Favorite ice cream   
Vanilla

 
Warner Brothers/Disney &nbs p; 
Neither

Ever been on a ship   
Yes

What color is your bedroom carpet   
Beige

How many times did you fail your driver's test   
Zero times

 
Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail   
A mailing list about the Vancouver 2010 Winter Olympics

What do you do when you are bored   
Go crazy

What is Bedtime   
anytime between 10:30 pm and 1 am??

Who will respond to this the quickest    ;
Who knows?? It's not a race!


Who will least likely respond   
The ones who never read this

Who is the person that you are most curious to see their responses
Whoever does this meme, too.

Favorite TV shows   
The Office, Big Brother, ANTM

Last person you went to dinner with   
Mr. Nick

Park or Zoo   
Park
 
What are your favorite colors   
None

How many tattoos do you have   
One

How many pets do you have   
None. I am not a pet person

Which came first, the chicken or the egg   


What do you want to do before you die?   
A lot?
 
Have you ever been to Hawaii   
Yes, 3 times.

Have you been to countries outside the U.S.   
Yes.
 
How many people are you sending this to?   
I'm not sending this!

Time this survey ended
1:05 pm

Today is Earth Day. I'm not celebrating it. You should be living every day like it's Earth Day anyway!

When I was in Vegas, I went a little crazy with buying mascara. I've been searching for the perfect mascara for me -- thickens but isn't clumpy and doesn't smudge.

I used to shu uemura's fiber extension and lancome's hypnose. I still really like hypnose, but fiber extension seems to be being phased out.

I got a free Sephora lash plumper mascara -- LOVED IT! Bought another tube. I get thick natural looking lashes. (My lashes are long and poker straight. I don't usually wear mascara if I am wearing glasses, and all my sunglasses are smudged from my eyelashes. It's annoying!)

Of the other mascaras I bought, I am using Lancome's Fatale Brillant...the diamant one. It's cool seeing sparkles on your eyelashes, but that stuff is THICK. It uses a lash comb rather than a standard brush. I am also using shu uemura's precise volume waterproof in purple. It sucks. I don't see more volume when I use it, but there is really good lash separation. And I definitely don't see much purple. I bought some Givenchy Captive'Eyes Mascara in purple black. I think I tried it because I remember using some mascara where I could really see the purple. in that case, I'd better use up the rest before it goes bad. I give that one a thumbs up.

I always use the Shiseido mascara base, too. Don't ask me if it makes things better because I don't know. But I look like seeing that my eye lashes are still curled after I put on the base. I use the Shiseido and shu uemura eyelash curlers. I'm not sure which I like better. I have the shu mini eyelash curler which I haven't used it. I can't remember the makeup tip I got for using it. Booo.

One product I really regret buying is the Frederik Fekkai Protect Rx package from Bath and Body Works! It leaves a greasy film on my hair (and in my bathtub...holy slippery!) and my head itches. I'd throw it away if I i wasn't so cheap.

The roof of my mouth is all scratched up from having a clubhouse sandwich for lunch. It was an impromptu lunch with The Godmother. What fun!

Unfortunately, that was a lot of bread for me today. This morning I had a piece of toast. As usual, it was PB&J on toast. And as usual, I was hurrying to catch my bus, but this time, I had a lot of things with me. I ate my toast, rode the bus, and got into the office.

Then I went to the washroom and saw jam all over my face!! Nice.

Okay, so the jam thing wasn't a horrible injury -- just a bit of emotional scarring. 

Started the new job. Need to learn more about mining!! BWAHAHAA Been overwhelmed with info overload so far and getting a little nervous -- like when I am going to wrap my head around everything?

No news on the death certificate front. Seeing my mom this weekend really bummed me out. Seeing her reminded me of my dad and then I got sad. She also didn't like the idea of me selling my dad's car to his girlfriend for the price of what's left on the loan because I could get twice as much if I was to sell the car. And then talks about the next family vacation came up. I let her know that I didn't enjoy the vacations anymore because everyone ignores me and that she treats me like crap during those trips. 

I feel like I'm PMSing right now even though I know it's not. I guess I'm hitting one of those lows during my grieving process. Mr. Nick seems to inadvertently be upsetting me no matter what he does. I've lost my zest for cooking and baking at the moment, too. *sigh* I don't know what would make me feel better now.

I guess I will focus on work for now. I haven't had time to slack off there, yet ;-) 

I want to take golf lessons!!

I don't have any girl friends who are majorly into golf, though... 

The mechanic is 20 minutes late. I hope he is worth it.

Well, I've had him before (no, perverts -- not that way!) and he was fine. He was early, fixed things at a reasonable rate and was on his way.

Trying to book him has been annoying. He was supposed to be doing my car a couple of days ago, but he didn't actually confirm. But then he sent me an email his oil pan gasket blew on the way to meet me and asked to reschedule. Then I gave him a list of dates and times that would work for me, and replied back saying "doesn't matter when as long as you give me the address." Ugh! So we made arrangements for today at 3:30 and his last email to me was "see you then". He called this morning but didn't leave a message. Why not call if you're running late? Or in the other day's case, call if you can't make it?

I can only wait for another 40 minutes. I have some tax-free shopping to do today!!

Ooooh, and the spa was wonderful! I don't think I'd go for such a long stretch of time again. I was there for 4 and a half hours, and I am starving even though I took a sushi break. My face feels nourished; I got a shoulder massage, and I can't stop looking at my nails!!!! 

I saw the  lawyer again yesterday. He said he may be able to use the death certificate issued by the police department for moving things along regarding my dad's estate. If so, that would be a great relief! I'd still get the death certificate issued by China, of course. But time would not be of the essence.

I have totally overdone it with the workouts this week. I always do this to myself. I decided to give myself a break today; otherwise it would be weights day (and I am supposed to sign up for some Cardio Core Boot camp soon!). I could barely move this morning. I don't understand why my ass is so sore! I was on the elliptical for an hour yesterday, but that's what I did on Monday, too! But I also went for a walk yesterday, and I was able to walk at my usual (quick) pace since I was walking solo.

A couple of nights ago, I went to a seminar on the G-spot and female ejaculation at a sex shop called Art of Loving. It was interesting learning more about the G-spot. I used to read a lot of books about sex, and they were not as detailed about it back then. There is a lot more information out there these days. My only question is...can women ejaculate without having an orgasm as a result of stimulating the G-spot?? The woman who led the seminar just talked about some female anatomy, how to find the G-spot, discussed some useful toys and showed us a couple of video clips. By attending the seminar, I was able to get a 10% discount off things in the store. I am kicking myself for not taking advantage of it because their prices are actually reasonable! I thought I'd be able to find lower prices on the 'net. They carry a lot of quality products.

I did some price comparison and my other favourite sex shop Womnyn's Ware has really high prices for mainstream products. I would only stick with their exclusive products. They used to have a frequent buyer card where you get a stamp for purchases over $50 (really easy at that store!) Another popular chain of stores called Love Nest carries a lot of products, but if you can find the same thing elsewhere, you'll save yourself some money! 

In a little while, I'll be off to my spa treatment! I'm getting a facial *snicker*, a manicure, and a pedicure! The facial and manicure are a package deal; I normally wouldn't get a manicure. I scratch and type a lot so my manicures aren't likely going to last very long. And I went for the pedicure that offers a light massage. I figure I could use it. Maybe I should have shaved my legs, but they don't get stubbly.

It's another busy day today...after I spend about 4 hours at the spa, the (mobile) mechanic is coming by to put in my new radiator. And then I must rush off to the store because it's no-tax day, and that starts at 5 pm. I want to be in the lineup at 5!!

So the stuff that I was waiting to be couriered from Hong Kong arrived. They are the same friggin documents I took to Guangzhou to get endorsed at the Canadian embassy!! I have to take these documents to the Chinese embassy here to get them authenticated. Fine...both countries have to authenticate the friggin documents. FINE!

But before I even take them to the Chinese embassy ...Actually, the Chinese embassy doesn't deal with authentication. I have to go back to the visa office for this kind of stuff. This means lining up at 7:00 am so I can get a number at 9:00 am, and then either wait or be told when to come back.

But before I even go there, I have to do the following:

1. Get my documents notarized by a lawyer or notary public.

2. Get my documents legalized by the Department of Foreign Affairs Canada or local provincial authorities. [I called Ottawa. I would have to mail my documents, wait for them to receive them, wait another 10 days for processing, and then wait for them to mail them back. Then I called the provincial branch as listed on the Chinese embassy's Web site, but that branch doesn't deal with that stuff directly. The nice lady gave me another phone number, but I got someone's voice mail.]

3. Get my documents authenticated by the Chinese Embassy or Consulates-General.

Each document will cost me $30. I have 3 of them. And if I want them to rush, I can either pay an extra $35 or $50 for each one. *sigh*

It's not looking like I will get all this done by the end of the week. 

Ugh!

Firefox crashed while I was typing my blog entry!

I don't even want to summarize what I lost!!

Time to do some cooking!! 

Did you ever realise that meme is just screams me-me...mememememememe?

1. If your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say?
Are you sure?

2. Do you trust all of your friends?
No.

3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
I'm not sure

4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Yes.

5. Can you make a dollar in change right now?
No

6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?
E

7. Are you afraid of falling in love?
Yes

9. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
Yes

10. Whats your most favorite scar?
None!!!!

11. When was the last time you flew in a plane?
March 30, 2007

12. What did the last text message you sent say?
I don't remember, and I don't feel like checking.

13. What features do you find most attractive in the preferred sex?
Manners.

14. Fill in the blank. I love:
My bed

15. What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future?
Getting to the gym

16. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended time who would you call?
A nurse! (Hopefully I'd be in a hospital.)

17. How many kids do you want to have?
Do I want kids?

18. Would you make a good parent?
I don't know

19. Where was your default picture taken?
It's a cartoon!

20. Whats your middle name?
Chui-San

21. Honestly, whats on your mind right now?
Getting to the gym

22. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
I'd not have taken the job I just quit

23. Who was or will be the maid of honor/ best man in your wedding?
I don't know. I don't even want to think about it.

24. What are you wearing right now?
Jeans and a white shirt

25. Righty or Lefty?
Righty

26. Best place to eat?
At home

27. Favorite jeans?
My Joe jeans

28. Favorite animal?
None

29. Favorite juice?
Simply Orange. Or fresh watermelon juice. Or fresh pear juice. I want a juicer again!!

30. Have you had the chicken pox?
Yes

31. Have you had a sore throat?
Yes

32. Ever had a bar fight?
No

33. Who knows you the best?
My friends, P or T -- probably P

34. Shoe size?
6.5

35. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
I wear both

36. Have you ever gotten in a fight with your pett?
I don't have any petts

37. Been to Mexico?
Yes

38. Did you buy something today?
Yes, some popcorn at the movies!

39. Did you get sick today?
No

40. Do you miss someone today?
Yes

41. Did you get in a fight with someone today?
No

42. When is the last time you had a massage?
A couple of months ago

44. Last person to see you cry?
Mr. Nick

45. Who made you cry?
Mr. Nick (or myself)

46. What was the last TV show you watched?
Big Brother from a few weeks ago...I am really behind! NObody tell me what's been going on!

47. What are your plans for the weekend?
Hanging out with some friends, visiting my dad's spot at a temple my cousin bought, and maybe watching some NASCAR with Mr. Nick

48. Who do you think will repost this?
Someone who likes memes?

49. Who was the last person you hung out with?
P

50. If your significant other asked you to marry them TODAY what would you say?
If he asked me today to get married in the future, I would say yes. But if he asked me to get married today, I would have to say no.

I just wrote a post about being attacked by my stay ups and not having a maternal instinct, but tBlog ate my post.

I have welts on my legs from wearing stay-ups. I will no longer wear pantyhose. And stockings take too long to put on. I just won't wear stay ups for longer than 12 hours at a time.

I met up with T and her newborn and her toddler at the mall today. It was good to see her, but I have no idea how to be a better friend to a parent!

For a moment, I thought my dad's death certificate was ready, but alas...

So the paperwork made it to Beijing and has come back. Apparently someone was trying to get a hold of me because these documents (document?) will be couriered to me. I thought the certificate was ready!! Unfortunately, it's just more stuff I have to to the Chinese embassy in Vancouver to get certified. Then I have to courier it back.

And then I think I wait another month for it to come back?! Whatever I am getting endorsed/certified is going back to Beijing. I hope it doesn't take a month. My dad's bills are piling up.

His estate keeps getting bills, but there is no estate yet. Until I get that death certificate, there will be no estate. Hopefully I will get it by May.

The Chinese embassy here is open from 9 am to 1 pm, Mondays through Fridays. I hope I can get that all sorted out next week. I can't be taking care of this stuff when I'm starting a new job!!

My mom was a little frustrated with the agent who is handling this stuff. The communication barrier has been a small obstacle. Thank goodness I can understand some Chinese. My dad's gf wanted me to call the agent to discuss the latest matters, but I didn't want to talk to him. Everyone just assumes I am completely fluent!! I felt these matters were too important to pretend I knew exactly what he was talking about, so I told my mom to phone him. We had to give him the address for couriering the stuff. He asked my mom it was possible to give him a Chinese address!! Obviously his English is worse than my Chinese.

He didn't want to write it down when they were on the phone, so my mom said she would fax him the address...but he had no fax machine? He asked her to call him back in 15 minutes so he could get her a fax number. I am going to be so relieved when this saga is OVER! 

What I presumed would happen - happened!

Yesterday was my last day of work. My (now old) company makes it seem so natural to have people stop going back to the office as soon as they've given their letter. Now I have until the 14th to take care of my dad's estate during regular business hours.

I hope I have not taken on too much already. Here's my schedule for the next couple of weeks:

April 3: lawyer
April 4: doctor
April 5: brunch, movie, birthday gathering
April 7: massage therapy
April 8: seminar
April 9: spa day

I also plan on cleaning my place and spending at least a day with my best friend while she is on mat leave. She needs a hand!

I think I said almost everything I wanted to in my exit interview. I made my (now old) boss look like a douche bag, and I let them know that I was going to a company doing the same thing who was going to pay me more. I also let them know that I would not recommend them as an employer.

There's a friend that I have who has been wanting to see me. That is fine. But he is really pissing me off by not understanding and acknowledging that I am trying to deal with my dad's death and estate. He's always sent me text messages about people he sees and things he's doing, but right now, they just really bug me. He just goes on about his own issues frequently, and to me, they just seem really trivial right now. 

My tax refund came already!

I only submitted my taxes last Monday.

I'm definitely not complaining even if the government was using my money tax-free.

Edit: Oops, I meant interest-free!!