Hopefully tonight I can get a good night's rest. I saw my usual tarot card reader today. Sometimes her readings bring me comfort, and sometimes I wonder what planet she's from. Today's reading was ... nice. Maybe in the future, I should make longer appointments with her. She kept talking even though our half hour was up. Anyway, here is a rundown of what she said:
I'm burnt out (I've been saying that for quite some time. And no, she doesn't read my blog. :wink:) My body is overstressed and overtired, and my digestion is wonky. Somehow the nutrients I need are not getting to me. I should seek a professional to fine tune my health. From all the activity I've done in the past, I should be really energized and have a healthy glow, but it's not apparent. It's okay to let me feel disorganised for a while until I get my energy back.
Get back to dance class, and hold off on the photography. Dancing makes me happy, and I don't have the creative energy for photography right now. Shower and exercise daily in the morning, even if it's for 10-15 minutes. Exercise makes me happy, and by doing it in the morning will bring a sparkle to my day.
Career-wise, I should finish what I'm doing. Won't be staying there for more than 3 years. Company is doing well, and will pay to keep me. However, if I don't feel challenged, I will move on. A new job opportunity in 2-3 years will appear out of the blue. Move into management (she always tells me this...says I will like it and be good at it.) I should create what I want and ask for what I want.
Even though I put out a lot of energy, there is no guy currently in my life. I'm not "hungry" or shopping for anyone right now. A child would make me happy. If I can get a support system, including my parents as grandparents, then I will have children. I've never had good sex or chemistry with mates and not sure why. My friends stimulate my curiosity so I don't need to settle when it comes to a mate. Chemistry is my top criteria. I won't be sex-crazed due to lack of sex. I have good sexual energy that has been repressed. If I don't want sex, I won't want to find a mate. If the sex is good, I will consider the guy as a long-term mate. Someone who makes me happy won't leave me because I'm good to those who make me happy. I'm also good to those who make me unhappy because I'm kind.
My parents are proud of me but don't know how to express it. They will support me if I have children. They will support me with my career. I just need to give them face.
The last guy I dated felt victimised [this reader has always been so bang on about guys I've been dating and my dating style of the moment. Kind of eerie.], but he had issues and his hurt was his own perception. He made himself feel the way he did, and it was not my fault. Most people like me and think I am good. His behaviour gave him more power and me less power. I put in a lot of energy into the relationship while he didn't. The relationship hurt my pride.