It's the second time I did the Friday Find-Me on THURSDAY. Why doesn't anyone tell me these things??

I couldn't sleep last night and was wide awake. I don't know if it was because I didn't get any exercise or because I ate some pumpkin loaf at like 8 pm. I talked to Cute Butt Boy (again!?!) last night. Well, he called shortly after he returned from his trip. And we played phone tag for a bit, but I talked to him 2 nights ago. He asked me if I wanted to go to his birthday thing.

And you know, I hadn't planned on doing anything for his birthday. He's an FB. I don't want emotional attachments. I don't want to see his show crew. I can't even call him an FF because he's an F! He's a B! *L*

I can never understand when guys say they want someone like a girlfriend but not exactly. They say they want one girl to hang out with regularly and get it on, but don't want long-term commitment. Or rather, they don't want to put in the effort required of a permanent relationship. How does that work? It doesn't make any sense to me. 

I am probably going to see him Saturday night. I will have to update Big Legs that 0we'll have to get together Sunday for lunch instead. Big Legs invited me over to his place (well, his parents' place while they are out of town. He lives a lot further away.), and he was going to make me dinner.

I guess I am just trying to avoid putting myself in a situation where there's the possibility of long hours of making out...with him. I enjoy his company a lot, and he's cute and all that, but I dunno. I don't have that longing for him.

I don't have a longing for anyone! I think I will have to reschedule my date with Security Guy next week, too. The homework is piling up, and I need to get it done.

I was thinking this morning about The Mogul and how he said that if you have difficulty being with your significant other for long periods of time and frequently, then you haven't met the right person. I don't know if I agree with that. I was also thinking how my life is consumed a lot by my schedule of working out in the morning and working a full day, leaving me with just enough time to eat and sleep. How do I fit another person in there? Am I setting myself for a life of solitude?? When I've had boyfriends, I've tended to only want to see them on weekends and one day a week. But then again, when I see them, I expect their full attention.

That was just a lot of babble. I weighed myself this morning. 149.75. No change from last week, but I feel leaner. I looked at my log from 2 or 3 years ago...8 lbs less and 1 inch less all around. I guess the gain didn't happen quickly. I'm workin' on it :) And besides, I'm glad to be back into regularly working out 6 days a week.