I'm at work again!

But I got a lot done yesterday, so I am leaving very soon. I got in later than I thought since I left Cute Butt Boy's later than I thought. I would have almost taken a long drive for a lunch date with Big Legs, but I changed my mind.

He called me yesterday to have a talk. I thought it was a little strange that he called at all since we he's totally not a phone guy. That's part of the reason why I haven't felt a connection with him. We go on our dates, and have a great time, but in between dates, there is absolutely no communication. No phone calls and no chatty emails. Anyway, he said he had been thinking about the distance. It's like 2-ish hour drive, each way.

And he was wondering that if we were to pursue things then what about the distance? And my work schedule? I assured him that my work schedule was not usually like this, but as for the distance...I have no problem with long-distance relationships, provided they don't turn into some indefinite thing. I can do long-distance but not forever.

And then he told he was also dating other people, which was fine with me. As we've only gone out a couple of times, and we never had "the talk," we're both free to date whomever we want. However, the couple of caveats is that he's having someone fly in to see him for about 5 days. And then when he goes to Peru in a couple of weeks, he is going to meet a woman there as well.

We had hung up and I reflected on what he told me. Even though it's fine that he's dating others, I think when people travel far distances to meet others, it's a big thing. So I am thinking things could be a bit more serious with the others. So I called him back and told him what I thought, and I said that maybe we could get together after his guest and his travels and go from there.

I was probably a little relieved. Now I don't have to deal with not wanting to get intimate with him. Oh, and he had admitted that he had planned on making a move Saturday night, had I gone over. (Like *that* wasn't obvious.) You know what is I don't like about his kissing? There is no passion.

I'm supposed to have a date with Security Boy on Tuesday, but I am going to have to postpone that. NOt only do I have homework, but I made a date with The Speaker. I don't really want to get with Security Boy. He looks like a kid.

And ugh, it's Cute Butt Boy's birthday tomorrow. I don't really want to get him anything. *L* I'd get him something cheap and corny, but tomorrow means that the stores close at 6. Even though I enjoy the time we spend together, sometimes I ask myself what the hell am I doing. We're FBs. Am I really getting any satisfaction out of it? I don't want to go to his birthday thing.

I have a strong sense of loyalty to my friends, and I don't use the term "friend' very loosely. That's why he's not a friend of mine, and this dissonance is causing me some inner termoil. He does stuff with his friends. We just go to each other's places. I should start the weaning.