I know I am not supposed to think too much, but I do it anyway.

Oh! Tonight, my mom and I went to see Rain again. The Beatles always make me feel really nostalgic, but tonight was just kind of boring. I guess seeing the same show twice just doesn't give me the same feelings. And my eyes have been so dry that it's hard to see. 

Anyway, during the show, Cute Butt Boy sent me a text message to ask if I was back from Vegas yet. We ended up talking on the phone for over an hour after I got home. Lately, I'd been telling him more about my dating experiences, and I've been telling him about my dating style. I told him I don't usually want to spend loads of time with one guy, etc. and that I wonder if I am cut out for relationships. He said he wondered the same thing about himself.

But tonight, I told him that I was tired of dating. (I've felt this way for a long time, but never really told him that.) And he said that he was, too. He said he didn't find making time for girls he would want to date to be appealing. He was supposed to go out with some girl recently, but when she called to see if they were still on, his first thought was an expletive.

And *then* he said to me, "since we're both tired of dating -- hypothetically, what if I asked you if we were to see each other?"

UGH!

That threw me for a loop. I didn't know what to say because the thought of us being a couple went out the door when he told me he did not want a serious relationship when we first met. Even though my head was swimming with questions, I told him that hypothetically, I'd say okay.

I don't know if I would, though. My gut tells me that he would only suggest anything of the sort is because of convenience and not because he is really into me. I know he likes my personality, and he find me attractive, but the feeling I got was that since we're in the same boat (sort of), maybe we should give things a try?!

He had said he was not looking for a girlfriend. He wonders if he is cut out for long-term relationships. But all of a sudden, he is thinking maybe he does want something serious. He didn't say with me, which is why I am a little confused. He said he was tired of meeting new girls, but he didn't say he didn't want to meet any more girls because of me.

Maybe if he outright said "I like you a lot" or something like that, I'd be less confused. But since he did not say anything like that, I will treat his hypothetical question as a hypothetical question.

I don't want or need more complexity right now! I am still dealing with UnPorsche. I think if things were to go to the next level with CBB, I would expect a lot more from him, and even though we get along GREAT, we're still at different places in our lives...so I don't know. CBB's hypothetical question did not make me excited nor did I feel dread. I wasn't reading much into it at the time, but my queries will just remain in the back of my head for now.