This wasn't a week of clean eating. I was hoping to not really gain, but oh well. I will be back to better habits starting as soon as I can. Maybe today? Tomorrow is Poo's birthday dinner. And my legs are darn tired.

I emailed my old trainer yesterday though, so hopefully she can set me up with a kickass plan next week.

I think I need to catch up on sleep. I know I am not getting enough when it takes my alarm clock half an hour to wake me up. Sometimes it's a blessing I can sleep through anything.

My dad is retiring in the next week or two. I worry that his depression will get worse. It's already pretty bad. He is on a cocktail of 5 different drugs. I don't think he has the energy to try other methods. But he's already complained about being bored and not having any motivation to do anything. When he's not working, he's going to have even more time to do nothing but think dark thoughts.

He's told his work that he doesn't want a retirement party or gifts or anything. He's done a really good job of alienating himself from his co-workers. He's never gone to the Christmas parties, and it's doubtful he socialises with his co-workers. I think I would have gone crazy working at a company for 30+ years and decided that everyone was a waste of my time. 

I think I have sort of done the same thing where I work...Since I try to keep my work very separate from my private life, I haven't really gotten very close with anyone from work. I could just imagine my going away lunch having nobody attend!