I think Cute Butt Boy is going to be getting the official boot, but maybe we can still fit it another session which includes the use of pot. I think that would be fun!

Even if this is me kicking someone to the curb before I let myself experience anything, then so be it. I am looking for something long-term, and he knows it. When he suggested we date, I guess I thought it'd be something more than casual. It's like nothing has changed.

I guess I could tell him I feel like he's not making time for me, but I hate saying stuff like that. I just think that if a guy is really interested in spending time with me, it will happen. But I hardly even hear from him.

I'm just going to tell him I don't think the dating thing is working out for me. I'll remind him that I want something long-term and more serious, and that he can't provide that for me right now. I know...we're supposed to use "I"s instead of "you"s in these kind of situations. But that's how I feel. And that is the truth of the matter.  

And if we were truly dating, I'd be bored to tears! Well, I am bored. Come to think of it, I wasn't that comfortable with him on our first date. We just never talk that much when we're together. I can't think of anything to talk about. We don't go out and do much because I always think he doesn't want to spend a lot of money (unless it's alcohol).

I will miss his massages and his tongue, most!! 

Good bye, Cute Butt! I was going to wait 'til I left for Hawaii before saying anything. But once I decide these kind of things, I hate waiting. I don't like wasting anyone's time by postponing the inevitable. I don't think I need to give him another month to step up to the plate!