The mercury retrograde is over, yet exes are still floating around.

Last night I went out for dinner with Big C. I cannot and will not date him again. But I couldn't help but get this feeling that he would be open to rekindling something despite the fact that I told him we wouldn't date again and he agreed things would not work!!! He paid for a pricey dinner, and I wasn't too comfortable with that.  Earlier in the day, I had already told him our evening would end early, and thankfully, I could fall back on it because I think he would have gladly come up to my apartment if I had suggested it.

I don't understand why he doesn't remember or realise that dating again is completely out of the question!! When I asked him how much $$$ he wanted for the dinner, he said, "just give me a blowjob in the car." I think he was only half-joking. I told him I'd rather give him money. When he told me I was looking good, I wanted to tell him his boobs were looking smaller. I don't think he would have appreciated that because he was a little self-conscious about them before. He's been working on losing weight, and he's slowly getting there.

He's another one of the guys I've dated with big egos -- fragile but still big. I seem to date guys with big egos. Are there just a lot of them, or are those the only ones who aren't intimidated by me?!  

And this other ex...I saw him a while back, and emailed me yesterday, so I emailed him back. Then he replies suggesting he take me out for lunch. I said no before. I blocked him on MSN. I don't talk to him. Man, he loves a challenge. He cheated on me, and dated someone who is now a good friend. He denies he ever cheated, but he never contacts her...so what is the deal with that?

Anyway, I will write back to him say "no, thanks." I started typing out a reply to tell him to never contact me again. I am really tempted to give him a bigger piece of my mind. It would make me feel a lot better, but ultimately there is no point to that right?? I was even tempted to CC people in his company since he emailed me from his work email address. I don't think I can be that ruthless. But he was just an asshole to me! Mind you, he apologised the last time we had contact, but I don't think he was sincere about it. 

He always knew the right things to say to charm people, and I am *not* falling for that *again*.