We never had anything substantial, but I guess I am hurting because nothing ever panned out.

I had a choice of settling for what we did have, or to cut the strings completely. I chose the latter.

I know time will help; eventually he will be just a memory. But it really sucks in the meantime. I feel like we broke up even though we weren't together. We spent the last 8+ months hanging out and having a good time.

Maybe I'm finally letting myself feel a little. I've always been so afraid to get attached to anyone. I don't know if I really like it, but at least it's real. I don't even think it'd be fair for me to be dating anyone right now. At least I'm not in the mood for it.

Big Legs is single again. Things with his Peruvian princess didn't pan out. He shouldn't have bothered giving me an update. After he gave me the news of being in love, he blocked and deleted me from his MSN.

And I recently found out that Dr. T and "the other woman" no longer speak. I wonder what happened there. I wonder how he is doing and what he is up to. (Actually, what I'd like to know most if he still thinks about me. Asshole ;-).)