Back in the day before Mr. Nick, I posted a lot about various guys that were in my life at the time. I thought that kind of posting would die down.

Cute Butt Boy text messaged me Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. I was really surprised: 1) to hear from him and 2) by his persistence. WTF? And why? Is he really that horny? How could he have forgotten my "never going to see each again" spiel? I am going to have to call him at some point to tell him I am with someone now. I really don't need the temptation -- even though I have the worst kink my back from sleeping. CBB has given the best massages I've ever gotten in my life. Hands down. I had a lot of fun with him, and then I got rid of him. And then I got over him. I definitely don't want the temptation.

At one point this weekend, I was upset with Mr. Nick, and I thought back to how I used to deal with such issues. In the past, I often sought other guys. It was my way of getting revenge, I guess. I don't want to be like that anymore. I started asking myself if I could cheat on someone (again).

I think I really let PMS get the best of me this weekend. I usually don't feel any different, but on occasion, I get a little sensitive. This weekend I was more than a little.

Friday night, before Mr. Nick and I went out to his friends' place to carve pumpkins, he told me he met up with his ex earlier in the day to exchange the last of their stuff. We'd never talked much about past relationships. I didn't have the impression he was freshly out of a relationship. My heart sank a little when he said they broke up 2 months ago. Apparently it wasn't the greatest of relationships, but they were still together for 4 years. He says he's moved on and that I will just have to trust him. I asked for a few more details, but I am still not clear on what happened with them or what the nature of their relationship. I'm not sure it really matters.

I guess I trust him. I don't have a reason to not trust him. But I am nervous about being the first girl he's dated since that breakup. I know with my own relationships, I've always moved on quickly and not taken much baggage. But I feel that most people aren't like me in that regard.

But...Mr. Nick and I have booked some of our hotels for our trip to California. I had a fun time at his friends' gathering, too. My gut tells me I'm not a rebound, but I still can't help but be scared. I tend to be scared a lot anyway. I just try to hide it.

And the IKEA Guy MSNed me today. At least he remembers I have a boyfriend. But he still likes his fantasy version of me. We've never had a face to face conversation yet he told me he had thought about starting a new life with me.

It feels weird to call Mr. Nick "my boyfriend."  

I went to T's baby shower on the weekend, and I was telling someone I was going away with my boyfriend. I think I am still scared of babies. It was my first time attending a baby shower. It was kind of boring. We sat around watching T open gifts. Most of the stuff was lame and good for clutter. I still think I gave her the best gift :-p At least my stuff was original. I got her organisers for her diaper bag, some peepee teepees (apparently those will come in handy. Her son keeps peeing every time he gets changed. These peepee teepees are used for covering the willy when you change him.), and this reversible leather bib with a magnetic closure. She got a lot of piggy banks and books. She already had a buttload of clothes and blankets months ago. I guess it helped that I knew what she already had.