I dropped in for my make up dance class last night, and it was sooo good (even though it was a more advanced class). The class was tiny, and the instructor was so much better than the ones that I'd be having. But then again, she started doing the classes when I did. As much as how the studio is run sucks, it's worth the money when I feel like I've gotten something out of the class.

I don't feel like I've gained much strength in the classes, so I am going to have to work on it on my own. This also means I'd better get back into my weight training! My back, abs, shoulders, and biceps are tired today. I should have a nice big bruise on my arm too.

I am going to need a new blanket. And I still want boots.

I also made a wish list for myself. Anything that isn't a necessity or things I would normally buy and that isn't on the list is not going to get bought. Not that I am an impulse shopper anyway, but I keep my materialistic goals in mind. If I am buying useless things, I will never get the things I really want.

And I got a letter on the weekend about the money I am going to have to pay on some leaky condos I've never lived in. It's pretty much the amount I thought it'd be. My dad had said he'd help me out with the payment, but now I don't think he wants to help at all.

Every single time he's said he was going to give me money, he never has. And from what I hear from my mom, he says he has given me tens of thousands of dollars. Maybe that had been his intention, but I've not seen a penny of it. And I have never reminded him of the money he said he was going to give me.

He said he was going to help me out with my mortgage after my parents divorced, but my parents have been divorced a couple of years now. When he was about to retire, he said he'd give me money for a down payment for a car. When I said I'd rather use the money towards my mortgage, he retracted his offer. And when I first told him about how much money I was going to have to pay for the leaks, he said he'd cash in some of his retirement savings. But last night he called my mom to suggest that she help me out with this and told her that he didn't have money to give me.

My mom is always pissed about his lack of money because all she sees is him spending money on women. And she is more pissed because she feels he should be spending this money on his only daughter. At least she finally sees that he is not a reliable person.

I've known that for a long time. I don't think my dad's ever kept his word willingly. I could start listing examples, but I won't.

If my dad doesn't want to give me money, I don't really care. It's not his responsibility for my bills. But for pete's sake, just tell me if he isn't going to do it so I can get the ball rolling on other assistance!! There is a program that I would have to apply for. I forget what it's called, but if I am eligible, I'd be getting an interest-free loan. And when it comes time to renew my mortgage, the loan amount would be rolled into my mortgage.

Without my dad's help, it will be like I've not made any mortgage payments at all, and my mortgage would be going up.

Ah, the joys of being a homeowner.