Just about everyone I know loves snow. "I can go play in it. It's fun," they say. True enough. But I hate it. I hate having to drive in it. I would probably feel differently if it wasn't for my Mustang. It'd be nice if I just had a different car only for the winter.

Earlier this fall, I decided to pick up new all-seasons so I wouldn't have to use my snow tires this year. I was *loving* those tires. But I don't think they're good enough for what I have to deal with right now. We got quite some snowfall (okay, for where I am :-p), and the main roads are great. However, none of the side roads are clear! If I knew I was going to use my snow tires, I wouldn't have picked up my all-seasons yet. I have a Brazilian appointment to go to later this afternoon!

Not only does my car not do so well anyway (yay for rear wheel drive!), but the ground effects provide me with even less clearance in the snow. I remember getting stuck in my old driveway, and there was probably 2 and a half inches of snow. *eyes roll*

I managed to get permission from my boss to work from home. I did what I had to do last night. I kind of liked sitting in front of my TV with my laptop. But since I wasn't working at a real desk, I am really achy today -- my back, my shoulders, arms, wrists, and fingers. I'd like to go to the gym today, if I can fit it in. I seriously hope the new office will be somewhere more convenient to get to since my company seems to want everyone physically in the office. I wonder how much time I will give this new job. All I do is complain about it.

This weekend, Mr. Nick went up to the mountains for some skiing. Skiing is one of his passions, and I think that is great. I was a little panicked about him being gone all season skiing. I sort of told him about this, but it didn't really come out the way I was feeling. 

I had a dream last week that I was on some date with a guy that wasn't Mr. Nick. I remember feeling sad because I had been abandoned and I was out with this guy out of spite. I told my cousin about this dream, and she assumed it was because I wasn't feeling sure about Mr. Nick. But I know what my dream was about. It was playing out of my fears!

In the past when a guy wasn't around enough for me, I'd subconsciously detach myself, and then seek other guys for attention. Then I'd dump whoever I was seeing. This is not a one-time thing. It's a pattern! I do not want to repeat it. That is why I've been alarmed about the possibility of Mr. Nick being away a lot. (There is a reason why I did so well being in my long-distance relationship and why the breakup was so easy, even though we were together 3.5 years.)

But I am happy that Mr. Nick has a passion, and I would want to support that. If I look at the grand scheme of things, a season is not that much out of a year.  

I had already told him the past I'd never make him choose between skiing and me. That would be ridiculous. I did say that if I didn't like the situation, I'd leave. That came out a lot more harsh than I meant it to be. Oh well.