I went through a lot of my old email today, deleting stuff I'd never read again. It also gave me a chance to take a trip down memory lane. It was nice to read words from supportive friends.

A couple of years around this time, the P Man was in my life. Took about 2 years to completely get rid of the player.

A year ago around this time, it was Dr. T. Things were intense until I found out he was keeping his options open. [The light just went off why I was going through one of my longest dry spells ever. I was waiting for him. The J Man and I had broken up, and I gave myself a few months to recover. And then Dr. T had to come back here.] Shortly after him, things started up with Cute Butt Boy. I didn't even like him that much when we first met...How I forget such things.

I briefly text messaged with Cute Butt today. He had a Star Trek marathon recently! He said he didn't think I was nerdy enough to get an invitation. That is okay. I've never seen a Star Trek movie in my life.

I tend to forget a lot of things when I don't feel the need to remember them anymore. It can get interesting when I read back on things I've written. I guess I have been blogging here a while, too.

I still don't tell people about my blog. Or at least I don't give out the address. 

Working at home today wasn't that great. I waited around online for my boss so we could discuss stuff, and he wasn't around! I think I sat at my desk all day out of guilt when I could have been sitting in front of the TV with the laptop. I only sat at my desk for MSN. I chit chatted with a coworker.

"a" thinks he's already Googled me and found this blog. He also said, "married men love you." I guess there is some truth to that. I also checked out some of Mr. Nick's pics from California. I am a little miffed I haven't seen all of them yet, but he's seen all mine!! I can't believe I am admitting this either, but I was happy to see that his ex wasn't one of his contact anymore.

Last night I started exclaiming to him, "let's make babies now!" I guess I just wanted to see what reaction I'd get. Definitely a lame thing to do, but I was in that kind of a mood -- the doing-dumb-stuff mood. He definitely wants kids. I would probably be happy with or without them. I think he took me half-seriously since he asked me why I'd want to make babies with a guy I'd known for a few months. And then he questioned the timing.

I'd probably react the same way, but I was thinking "couldn't he have just gone along with it?" and "does it even feel like we've known each other just a few months?" Hmmph.

Mantra: mustnotdetachmustnotdetac h.