Mr. Nick gave me two snowshoeing fondue tour gift certificates for Christmas, so we went last night. It was a lot of fun :) I'm not sure I got the walking technique down, but I'd like to go again! I felt stinky afterwards -- well, not me, but all the gear. I put my new jacket to good use, too. I felt really guilty for buying it, but it was a good purchase.

Saturday night, we went to one of his friend's birthday things, and I met another one of Mr. Nick's friends. He said to me, "you seem like a nice girl." I thought he was going to to say, "but..." or tell me some embarrassing story about Mr. Nick, but he didn't say anything else. I'm really curious to what he mouthed though. I'm sure he made some comparison about me to Mr. Nick's ex. I instinctively looked away because he obviously didn't want me to hear, but I think he mouthed something that ended with "the last one." I guess I will never find out. It doesn't really matter, but I'm still curious. I hope it was something positive, anyway. When I asked Mr. Nick about it, he laughed and said it was nothing and told me that he knew his ex.

And the "l" word...It's been driving me batty because it just feels really natural to tell Mr. Nick that I love him. But I was holding back because I didn't want to be the first to say it (I can be very stubborn sometimes!). Anyway, we always have these conversations where the word "love" is used (well, him more so than me). So last night, were having some silly conversation. It all started with his penis. Sort of. BWAHAHAHA

He asked me if I'd still be with him if he couldn't get it up anymore (a horrible fear of mine, for sure!!). Instead of saying "yes," I said something that led to him saying, "you wouldn't love me anymore?" I told him I would still love him and that I love him now. And just to reiterate, I actually said, "I love you, honey." I've never been the first to say it, so it felt a little weird. Not to mention I haven't told a boyfriend I loved him in like 5 years. Meanwhile, I'm thinking...oh geez...how is he going to react? He started joking around about something else, but then he said, "I love you, too." I wasn't really sure what to say to that, so I told him that I loved it that he loved me, too. Lame. But it was all quite anti-climatic. And I am glad I told him.