The latest buzz (ahahaha...get it? buzz??) with Britney Spears is that she shaved her head. I was thinking it's time for me to do something as a cry for help. I think I am going to cut my nails -- like down to the pink. I usually leave some growth, about half a centimeter or until it gets annoying to type. I'm going to cut off all my nails!!

I finally got in some weight training today. It'd been about 2 weeks since I last did weights. The good thing about taking such a long break is that I find myself feeling strong. The bad thing is that I'm sure I've lost strength. I did a simple workout today to ease myself in.

1a. Single arm chest press on the ball and BOSU
  b. Single arm single legged row
  c. Lateral step-up

2. Abs: ball roll-away

3a. Single leg press
  b. Shoulder press on BOSU
  c.  Reverse fly on ball

4. Abs: crunches on ball

5a. Deadlifts
  b. Wide grip bicep curl
  c. Dips

6. Abs: Side thingees on ball

I hope working out will help me de-stress. I can't explain what's going on, but I feel like I need to unwind. I talked to my mom last night, and I asked her why she gave Mr. Nick such a generous red pocket. She said she didn't want to appear cheap (to my boyfriend). I told she didn't need to give that much. And then she pointed out he didn't eat anything at dinner.

I think all my rushing around on Saturdays to get everything done for the week so I can free up my Sundays for Mr. Nick is getting to me. And I think it gets to me more if the Sunday is not a great day. It's like "I busted my ass for this??" I feel a little bad for thinking that way, but I already know how important it is for me to have time for myself, and I just haven't gotten it lately.

My mom is free on Sundays again, and we used to spend our Sundays together. When she got busy, I spent my Sundays with Mr. Nick. (Besides, he is still gone Fridays and Saturdays for skiing.) So...if I do what I want with my time the way I want to spend it, there'd be no seeing Mr. Nick on the weekends.

Or maybe I am choked with the quality of our time together. On the weekends, he is either gone or just tired from skiing. I don't know why it bothers me so much when he is tired. I know he can't help it, but I end up feeling like he is not 100% there.