That's my goal for today. I need to snap out of this!

I was still bummed about the whole family get together thing with Mr. Nick yesterday. But it actually went away when I saw him in person. The issue just didn't matter, but only for a moment. (He also had flowers for me -- very sweet gesture but they didn't seem to have the same effect on me as usual :-/) Then I got lame, cold, and distant.

I honestly don't want to be upset, and I'm not sure how I let myself get like this. But I also feel lame for holding a grudge. It's not healthy or useful! I apologised for declining his Thursday family dinner out of spite. I'm not expecting to be re-invited due to my lameness. It'd have been nice if he had said, "that's okay. You can still come, " but I didn't hear that. Hmm. Upsetting.

I should stop thinking about this. I'll just get re-upset.