Chocolate cravings have been INTENSE the last couple of days! I wonder if it means I need more action. Or maybe I am just hungry.

"You're welcome to come." Mr. Nick said those words to me, and I immediately felt...anger. It dawned on me that those words mean to me, "you weren't really invited and weren't part of the plan, but since you want  to go, then you can come."

I flip flop between thinking my anger was valid and that I was making a mountain out of a molehill.

I've told Mr. Nick a few times that I'd like to go camping. He thought of a weekend to organise a trip, and he picked a weekend he assumed I'd be busy. When he first thought of the idea, he guiltily told me that he was probably going to organise a camping trip the weekend of Bridezilla's 3rd stagette.

Since he didn't really bring it up again until recently, I wasn't sure if it was still happening. But turns out, he's been working on it. And from how he described it, I wasn't part of the plan.

So after expressing my feelings about not being included on this trip, he told me that I was welcome to come. It just felt like, "gee thanks...Thanks for letting me tag along."

And that thing got me on a tirade of how he doesn't usually suggest plans ahead of time, but I am always considering what his schedule might be when I plan my time. I know a lot of guys are not planners are into so-called spontaneity, but I am tired of always being the one of suggesting things to do. I hear about events, etc. that are coming to town, and then I end up asking if he wants to participate and then I end up paying.

Just once in a while, I would really like to not have to take charge of anything. I have so much going on that I have to plan ahead of time. The more time I have, the better.  

Some background info: At work, I've been attending training for franchise owners as an observer. Today we covered time management.

We have 168 hours in a week: 56 hours is spent sleeping and 56 hours is spent working. I broke down how I spend the last 56 hours.

There are 8 hours in a day. I spend 2 commuting, 1 eating, 1 cooking and cleaning, 1 grooming, 1 working out. That leaves me 2 hours a day to do things like socialising, me time, and appointments. A while back, I had appointments every day for 2 - 3 weeks. (Okay, weekends, I get an extra 2 hours?)

So how can I avoid planning and still live efficiently and somewhat stress-free? There is little free time! And my time is precious to me. I told Mr. Nick if I never took him into consideration when I planned my week, I'd never see him. And then another reason dawned on me as to why it is easy for me to be single. I just have to worry about myself!!

Oh, and while I was walking to the spa the other day, I passed by a building, and a memory was instantly triggered. I probably hadn't been there since the particular event. Anyway, one night, the J Man and I were...doing stuff near a restaurant. I was probably hidden from view. Anyway, a guy working at the nearby restaurant yelled, "hey, you can't do that here." I don't know if the J Man looked like he was jerking off or doing drugs. But then the guy saw me, too, and said, "oh..uh...well, you have to leave." BWAHAHA