Maybe I haven't been getting enough protein but this round of PMS has left my body very tired! It's also been a very hectic week. Monday night was Mr. Nick's sister's birthday dinner. Tuesday I had dinner with P, and last night I had dinner with my mom.

I didn't really want to have dinner with my mom, but I only made plans with her out of a feeling of duty and guilt. Right now, I'm just really angry with her, and I would rather not see her at all. In fact, seeing her really upsets me. Every time I see her, I am reminded of how unsupportive she has been and is. By the time I got to her place last night (I actually wouldn't have gone home at all yesterday if I didn't need to see her.), I was dead tired and in a horrible mood. I didn't want to be there and it showed. I told her it was out of my way for me to go her place for dinner.

Her response was, "well, why didn't you just say so, if it was inconvenient for you to come over!?" Then I reminded her that if I said that, she would have gotten pissed off and said, "I prepared all this food here! What am I going to do with it all?" I don't know what she was thinking, but she seemed to be assuming that I was staying out at Mr. Nick's because I was being some lovestruck woman. "Since you stay out there so much, why don't you just live together?!?!?"

I really didn't have the energy to explain myself nor was I in the mood to be defending myself. Anyway, I hardly said a word to her or looked at her during dinner. I was too angry. I know she was pissed off that I didn't take any leftovers, but she didn't say anything. I also barely ate because I was so tired. I would really like to stay home for a night and live a regular life. I went grocery shopping on Saturday, and half the food is probably rotting away in my fridge because I haven't been able to come home for dinner.

Anyway, my Canadian-notarized documents have returned, and I can finally take them to the Chinese embassy. Their hours are 9 am - noon Monday through Friday, and people tend to line up around 7 am...Really convenient for a work woman such as myself! Because my mom is scared to leave her city, she will not go help me out with getting my documents authenticated at the embassy (won't even take the bus). She told me to tell my aunt to do it. I would have, but the embassy only accepts certain forms of payment and my aunt would not be able to pay for me. So all I can think is... thanks a lot mom. Thanks for helping me out. All she keeps asking me about is who is going to take care of the rest of the details when the death certificate arrives in Hong Kong, and have I asked Auntie #3 for help yet? It will take about a week for the embassy to authenticate these documents. Then they need to be couriered to Hong Kong and then delivered to Beijing, China. After they process them, THEN the death certificate will be sent back to Hong Kong. For me to be thinking about who's going to mail the certificate back is just too far down the road.

Maybe she thinks her life will be easier when my dad's death certificate comes. I don't know. I don't know if it's her fear or her anger and bitterness over my dad. My friend thinks my mom probably feels she deserves more than nothing from my dad's death is upset that my dad's girlfriend might be getting his car and gets to temporarily live in his condo when she comes back. [My mom wanted me to sell my dad's car to his girlfriend at market value. I just want to sell it to her for the remainder of the loan. Why would I want to make a profit off her??] 

Anyway, I really got off track there. Basically, I rushed back out to Mr. Nick's after dinner with my mom for nothing. It's a lot faster and more convenient for me to get to the embassy from Mr. Nick's place. I got there at 7 am this morning and there was a sign on the door saying the embassy was closed today.

@#$!

And now I will have to go back again tomorrow morning. I will also have to trek home and trek back out to Mr. Nick's tonight.