Mr. Nick and I were in his kitchen last night and he got distracted by something going on in the building across the way. The blinds were about 80% drawn.

There was a naked guy walking around in there and all you could see was his butt (white and nicely formed). And then he turned around! I would have tried to get a better look if Mr. Nick wasn't there. Eventually the guy put on some clothes and then lowered his blinds all the way. BWAHAHAHA

This morning I was feeling kind of down. I think I have been since Monday. And I think it's my community project or something that is making me sad. With this seminar I am participating in, there is a graduation ceremony. It was suggested we invite our loved ones. Well, everyone I asked (except for Mr. Nick), including my mom, said no. It was hard for me to ask in the first place, so I guess I should be proud of myself for even asking.

And then with our community project, we're raising money and food for the food bank, and we're doing a blood drive. I sent out an email to acquaintances and friends and family about this. I also put out something on Facebook. I got only only a handful of replies. It's fine if people don't want to donate or do anything, but even acknowledging what I was doing would be nice. But now that I think about it, do I really need people's acknowledgement? No, not really.

But getting support from people especially when I ask, would be nice. It just brings me back to this recurring thing in my life...the constant lack of support. My coach pointed out to me that it's hard for me to ask for support. I guess that is true. It is hard.

I've lived with my life having to be the only person I can count on so far, and I'm only starting to lean on others for support. I don't think I am even aware when I could or should be asking others for help.

Oh, and then this weekend...I got a really last minute invitation to a BBQ. The email arrived half an hour before it was scheduled to start. The host said someone told him my name was left off the original invite. At this point, why send an email? Why wouldn't someone just call me? Needless to say, I didn't read the email until much later that evening. It would not have made a difference to me if I wasn't invited at all.

But is this all related to what goes around comes around?